mima! 🪽

5teen ^__^ 118Ib

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i am genuinely a fat idiot

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I will start posting bcs again soon,,,, when I lose a little because it’s embarrassing rn

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hi guys I’m reI4psing again

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Hi I miss you guys

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I have my first color guard competition today! :3

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So my diagnosis is likely to be changed from bipolar to borderline 🙁 this is fucking insane I’m 15

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smoking retriggred my psychosis , im so stupid i might be going to the hospital tongiht

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Little update

my best friend of 5 years and my only friend last year dropped me today. She said we’re just “different people” and she “needs space”, so stupid. I know there’s something deeper but I haven’t done a single bad thing to her, ever.

it’s fine though because now I have more leeway to smoke at school, she always hated that

I’ve been smoking a lot more and my classes are pretty boring

I got a bunch of fake piercings because I would get kicked out if I got real ones, so happy!!!

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aughhh all i had today was a sip of monster and a few hits of nicotine... im so done with sophmore year already

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today was my first day of sophomore year

I had an okay time, 7 classes is not for the weak lol I’m already very fatigued, I completely lost my hunger cues

I smoked during lunch break with some friends, I think my best friend doesn’t like me anymore so I’m distancing myself from her. Life goes on

no cute guys :(

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ex bf won’t leave me alone because my therapist filed a police report on him,,

he’s telling me I “asked for” what happened, bringing up my trauma and calling me schizo, bringing up my mental health and using it because he has no real backup

it’s upsetting because I do get paranoid that because of the fact that I used to have psychosis, sometimes I can’t differentiate reality from what’s in my head, but I know what he did, I felt it and I lived it. It was too vivid for me to be making it up, I even have pictures

I’m really upset, the whole situation is making me feel physically faint and nauseous, I’m missing color guard practice because of this

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i just want to be loved, i dont understand why i always end up used and manipulated. i have to stop being so naive.

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i miss having someone to talk to, he was really my only friend

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well now that i dont have a bf to keep me anchored expect schizo posting haha

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we broke up lol

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went to the arcade w my bf today

I’m so happy, for once my life isn’t revolving around food

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my therapist said that me and my bf are codependent and in a toxic relationshp 😭😭

i just love him so much, i dont think thats a problem

we're just perfect together