Mimi.

i just write what's in my head, k?

[mimi-just-living]

Confessions from my friends that make them human.

I need to make a confession.

I can't tell you who the people are, but it's bothering me so much.

I have a good friend here, who's in another college.

She introduced me to her friend. On the first impression, I liked him. We got to talking and I loved his idea of a relationship, loved the idea of love.

When we got drunk, he confessed to being hopelessly in love with my friend.

All my like and fantasies were dropped. I couldn't even imagine him without her.

My friend said she considers him a friend, a close one and nothing more. They had issues between them. Him with anger issues, and her with control issues. I stopped speaking to him, and got over my silly little crush.

Then after a while he started dating someone else. My friend said I won't mind if he dates you bro, I couldn't care less.

Now I had the go ahead to fantasize as much as I wanted. And I did. I never flirted, never gave any untoward moves, but I knew I liked him

Yesterday I got to know that they're together. My friend and him.

And I can't reconcile with myself. I feel really guilty.

I hope you don't tell anyone, I'll be fine I just need to get over it.

I feel like I'm breaking the girl code, being an awful person

[tomssexdoll]

i genuinely hate the people who you never talked to jokingly be rude to you..who are you?? like ok i can stand a acting rude as a joke-joke but only by my friends..cus what. some fag (im a fag i can say it.) just tried to be rude to me as a joke and i blocked her cus WHOO R U. 🫃

yeahh no some people are over the top, they think they can joke like that with everyone but not everyone is gonna have a good reaction

[mimi-just-living]

I feel so scared I'm gonna be alone in this place

Alone and without support. I sabotage myself every minute I go down this road. It's not fair for me to think this way, really, it's not. I try so hard to be someone good, inherently.

All these people think I'm some scheming little bitch and ITS NOT FAIR WHEN I GIVE MY ALL.

I realize I'm in my feels rn, and feeling very emotionally drained, but I fucking held myself together too long.

Because I care, and it hurts.

[mimi-just-living]

Feeling helpless about how others treat you is a situation that doesn't go away ever. I'm in the process of trying to not care about it or ignoring it. I feel helpless still at not knowing what I did wrong. For God's sakes tell me what I did wrong and I can make it right.

But they shut you out and lock the door with no room to get away. And a person I wanted to be friends with, wanted to exchange the small pieces of our heart that matched, drew themselves away. That is life, you can't help it.

So I square my shoulders and breathe deeply.

And try to let it go.

[mimi-just-living]

Saw someone do positive weekly aesthetics, so thought I'd do mine.

Presenting:

Realistic Nursing School Week Aesthetic

Monday: Warm, fresh coffee with whole milk, rushing through final touches of the assignment, refilling pens, good night's sleep. Optimistic, welcoming.

Tuesday: Music in the bus, 10 minute trip to college or 3 song trip to college? You choose. Finding the grind, working toward the weekend. Rush of new work.

Wednesday: Messy notes, surprise test thats not really a surprise, rushed coffee and assignment deadlines, new topics to learn and too little time. Late nights and sleepy eyes. Passive aggressiveness from roommates and stress of life getting to you.

Thursday: Sprinting towards good scores, missing the old times. Trying not to make old mistakes, revising this week's lesson. Scolding and punishment from teachers, warden not cooperating with us.

Friday: Relief of going home, lesser sleep still. Counting the seconds until clock strikes to the weekend hours. Long bus ride, no companions by my side. Alone I'm going through the evening, destination: HOME.

Saturday: sleep in. Relax. Complete assignments. Catch up with friends. Let go of responsibilities. Breathe.

Sunday: Piano lessons. Old passions. Completing assignments, making lists. Love the bittersweetness of going back to hostel, getting back on the grind.

Inspo taken from:

[mimi-just-living]

Sunlight and flowers💐✨️💛 PC: @_.ayantikaaa.__ 🤍 https://www.instagram.com/p/Co9--SBSVOT/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[mimi-just-living]

Purses make space for weapons for ladies: money, keys, phone, earphones, pads/tampons, lighter.

[mimi-just-living]

আমি চেয়ে চেয়ে দেখি সারাদিন 💖🎵🦋 PC: @aatre.yeebiswas https://www.instagram.com/p/CosUlYwS1sg/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[mimi-just-living]

Have you ever been stolen from? Its oddly violating. It's one of the most invasive ways to take from someone. It's material, baseless, yet oddly patronizing.

Stealing is violation in the least personal and most invasive way.

Change my mind.

[mimi-just-living]

Mor bina othe kon sure baje🎵🎼 https://www.instagram.com/p/Cn4WSXry83R/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[mimi-just-living]

When you turn 18, something changes. You're not a kid anymore, but that's all you remember being, so you don't know how to become an adult. They say, welcome to the adult table, but adults know what to do. Addicted to the feeling of power, but where are the responsibilities? Will I do right by them? Will I?

[mimi-just-living]

Losing my trust, losing my life. Forgetting to value my love, value my heart. A basket of bombs, a chain reaction. A stained plate, a stuffed toy. Thanksgiving dinner, broken knives. Brittle sticks, malfunctioning phone. A buzzing mosquito, red, sore skin. Blood-stained marble. Footsteps. Open door.

[lip-scrub]

hozier released a new song called Swan Upon Leda. This is a very important song that everyone must listen to and stream everywhere!!!! heres why he wrote the song

*each image has alt text* also my readmore function isnt working

[cruelfvkingsummer]

hozier is so fucking fine, sings like a fallen angel begging for a place back in heaven, and drinks his respect women or let the world burn juice. truly one of the only white man to be spared when women rule the earth.

[mimi-just-living]

I didn't realize the sheer amount of time I had until I woke up today morning.

It's refreshing to think now that what I was pining for for so long is finally with me.

[dailykanthony]

JONATHAN BAILEY Bridgerton | Season 3 Now in Production (Behind the Scenes) Bridgerton | Season 2 Ep. 8 “The Viscount Who Loved Me”

[mimi-just-living]

In five years

I don't know what I will be. Maybe I still will be dotting my i's and making myself put the apostrophes at the right places. Maybe I will be cooking for my partner at the kitchen or my partner will bring me food during my tedious business meeting. Maybe the job that I am doing now will become big and strong and I will earn so much that by 27, I won't have to work a day in my life ever again. Maybe I still will be working on my education, trying to complete assignments before the clock hits 11.59pm.

I don't know what it will be or how it will go. I might still be in medical school, or I might be completing my dissertation on sustainable business plans. Maybe I will drop out of college to pursue my long lost piano career or I will be very depressed with the life that I have then.

I do know that I will still enjoy music. I will enjoy sharing a single bed with my mother. I will think about investing my money into mutual funds and shares and I will try to find love. I will sit alone at restaurants and eat food, go for long walks with overpriced coffee. I Will finally try beef and go on dates with the love of my life.

I will try to live. I will love. I will not just exist, not just survive. I will remain embedded in the subtle moments that make life what they are. I will revel in the curiosity of the entire world that has been given to us. I will try to not just be. I will try to find meaning.

I want my life to be cohesive but unpredictable. I'm working towards that. Its been slow, but good days are going to come.

I hope to touch my loved ones with joy. I hope for them to have happiness and love and peace.

I want peace. With whatever happens.

Oh I also want to attend my friend's wedding.

[mimi-just-living]

Life is big

Life is big, and long. The exams you give when you pass out from high school seems like such a door that won't open without proper results on your efforts.

Well guess what

You can not score well in those, and the world wouldn't shake. Your world wouldn't shake. You can cry in your bed for hours on end, but when you wake up, you will know how your life will be.

Maybe you have plans. But most of all plans we make don't take its course exactly how it's planned. We are young, and our main goal is to be the person our ten-year-old selves would need.

Life is messed up. And it will throw curveballs. But no matter what you do, the universe will conspire to make your dreams come true.

And it isn't about the results you get, but the effort you put into it. I can see you're working hard. I can see you're stressed and terrified.

YOU WILL MAKE IT.

I know it. Just as I know that whatever happens in that exam hall, I will be fine. I will do what I can, and live with what I can't. It's not the end of the world. Not at all.

It's the beginning of another era of your life.