a friend was kinda talking about how living with disabilities gets so depressing sometimes and like
ive been mourning this entire day the person i could have been if i didnt have my heart attack
i can feel myself get dumber sometimes. I cant process things as good as i used to. I wanna read and i cant concentrate as much. I wanna sit down and make videos and i cant because fuuuck im so tired
right now im particularly thinking about my sister in law ignoring me and walking around me to avoid giving me some keys because i guess she didnt trust me with passing them over to my brother
i wish that heart attack killed me. I dont wanna lose my brain
i tried to apply to an event and i genuinely felt my brain struggle to read the fucking form. I spent so much time trying to fill out an invoice like i didnt work as an accountant prior to this












