evil book jockey

brain made of swiss cheese

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in other news, my father's alleged nephew emailed me this week letting me know he took a DNA test and can confirm that my father is his uncle. this is monumental and i only wish my father was still alive to finally get the validation he had been seeking his entire life. he never knew if his alleged father was his real father, since his father wanted nothing to do with him. i am so happy for him and i hope that he would have been happy too

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ha. he posted this on his public family page like a news announcement. this is so surreal

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in other news, my father's alleged nephew emailed me this week letting me know he took a DNA test and can confirm that my father is his uncle. this is monumental and i only wish my father was still alive to finally get the validation he had been seeking his entire life. he never knew if his alleged father was his real father, since his father wanted nothing to do with him. i am so happy for him and i hope that he would have been happy too

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idk if i'm valid for feeling this way but my coworkers seem to be obsessed with details i truly don't give a shit about. they've just sent me a whole doc with the pros and cons of checking people into our room....it is full of just. nonsense. notes like "i worry about patrons seeing our water bottles at the desk and getting upset that they can't have theirs out" like??? we're staff, we can do a lot of things patrons can't . next question. like why is this a fucking document

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I'm going to begin transitioning back to this blog! hello everyone! I am alive!

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didn’t get the job I interviewed 7 hours for lads 🤭😝🤙

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having a little quiet freak out moment at work right now because I think I finally found a record of my dad's father. there's even a photo and I refused to believe it but then I sent it to my sister and mom and they were immediately like "that's papa, that looks exactly like papa" feels surreal to stare at what is very likely the face of the man who abandoned your dad as a child. shock!

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just found out my father's half-sister played at Carnegie Hall and now I'm watching her Beethoven concert from 1999 on YouTube. This is insane

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having a little quiet freak out moment at work right now because I think I finally found a record of my dad's father. there's even a photo and I refused to believe it but then I sent it to my sister and mom and they were immediately like "that's papa, that looks exactly like papa" feels surreal to stare at what is very likely the face of the man who abandoned your dad as a child. shock!

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I’m in hour 5 of my 7 hour interview day at this academic library. I don’t think I’ve ever been this tired, both socially and mentally, in my life

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being home at my moms apartment means eating kotleti and khachapuri over the sink at 12 AM

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my grandma, the daughter of two American communist sympathizers who moved to Tashkent from Texas in 1933, as a young pioneer sometime in the early 1940’s. she’s the one in the middle holding the flag

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at my mom’s apartment today and looking through her old photo albums - here’s my grandpa (on my mom’s side) with Alla Pugacheva at a press conference (he was on Moscow radio and the media circuit) and a nice shot of him in Odessa, his original home

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my healer….

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my little beauty queen!

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had an interview for an academic librarian position last week and thought it went quite well and then today, less than two weeks later, the search committee told me that I'm a finalist for the position and that they'd like to invite me for a full-day on-site interview i heard that this is how most academic positions go but i am truly in shock...they want me there at 9 AM and I'm not sure when a "full day" ends for them. I'm going to be meeting with faculty and making a short presentation on a topic related to library technologies i am so anxious but also excited...the starting pay is already 10K more than I make now (and I'm currently making 10K more than I started out making back in 2021) and can go up to the triple digits so please keep me in your thoughts it is also hybrid with plenty of WFH opportunities. the best part is that the reference desk is completely virtual :') no more wondering if a patron is going to murder me or spit at me or lunge at me

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ouuuahahhh

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goofy

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kitties are getting spayed and neutered on monday and i'm so anxious :-(