Vivian𑁤

she/her/any prns ♡ 21yrs ♡ personal/jirai blog (I VENT HERE) ♡ nb lesbian

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🍼 My Intro𑁤

I'm Vivian! I'm a 21 year old lifestyle jirai~

she/her + neopronouns/any prns, lesbian

auDHD + BPD + CPTSD + more

I will also post some fashion content here, but this blog is mostly for vents/jiraiblogging :P

DNI: dd.lg/kink, terfs/transphobes, pro-contact harmful para, anti-neopronouns/xenogenders

Interests𑁤

UTDR, GLITCH shows, oshikatsu, vocaloid/vocal synths, Cookie Run, toy collecting, jfashion, kawaii mascots

TRIGGER WARNING𑁤

SH, suicide, CSA vents, abuse vents, religious trauma, ableism, etc.

my oshis !!!!!𑁤

Serial Designation N (Murder Drones) 🐶🖍

Rana (Vocaloid) 🌈🎧

Red Velvet Cookie (CRK/CROB) 🍰🪚

Cotton Cookie (CRK) 🐑❄️

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my ex was probably right. I really am crazy

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N doodleeeeeeees🐕

More practiceeeeee NUZIV

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this packaging is so cute ... ;;

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Jiraiblr has such a fucking problem to me of never actually interacting with male, enby, intersex, or any other jirai that isn't a woman to me.

Especially when I see posts about dark girly or makeup. Like include those that are mentally ill and cannot wear that due to their personal preferences or because it will cause dysphoria.

I love the dark girly fashion, I will never wear it because it's always seen as blouses and skirts. And someone who fits jirai shouldn't be called a fucking poser for not wearing a style of clothing they prefer less than something that will make them euphoric in their own skin.

People shouldn't have to feel like they have to remove what fashion or comfort they feel when this community focuses on lifestyle than fashion. To see it constantly told in some posts of jirais having to have dark girly outfits or makeup really pisses me off.

A lot of people can't afford the style or prefer something else. A lot of people might not want to constantly wear makeup in public. The comfort of the landmine's around you in their own body is also important. Jirais are mentally ill, majority of us are seconds away from ending our own lives or struggling with life, there are more important things than trying to call someone a poser for fashion they don't own. There are more important things than inserting yourself into someone else's life to make them feel less welcomed because they don't fit your rules for jirai.

The community is not a community because no one can go without constant discourse of what means someone can or can't be in said community. I hate how far this community has fallen. I'm a jirai and I don't even belong to what fucked up shitshow this has become lmao

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anyway gonna go to the mall with my friend tmrw & look for oshi goods :3 🐶🖍

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am I allowed to have ONE friend group that actually likes me & won't leave me?

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Cookie Run is cosmic horror if you think about it

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saw a comment on pinterest saying "I think some darkshippers are lying about their age/trauma to get away with stuff" & let me just say

shame on you.

I'm not even going to get into the ethics of darkshipping because I think that's irrelevant in this situation

when a child (or ANYONE for that matter) goes through sexual trauma, it is EXTREMELY common for them to romanticize their trauma & make it seem more "appealing" to themselves so it doesn't hurt as much.

if you think that means they're lying, then you don't actually care about survivors. you are part of the problem.

most of the reason why survivors don't speak up is BECAUSE people won't believe them. what right do you have to say you think they're lying?? you likely don't even KNOW them

if you think someone is "faking" their trauma, & SHARE ONLINE that they're "faking" because you don't like how they cope/are personally discomforted by it? fuck you.

do I think darkshipping should be posted online? no, I don't personally (both for the safety of the person posting & others who may see it)

but that is NO EXCUSE to claim someone is lying, ESPECIALLY when it's a very common coping mechanism among survivors

whether it's healthy or not is irrelevant here. people will have unhealthy coping mechanisms & that has NOTHING to do with the validity of their disorder or trauma. in fact, it's even MORE of a signal that the person NEEDS HELP.

please, THINK about what you say online. actually RESEARCH what SA does to the brain if you want to contribute to a conversation like this. please do better.

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"i would kill a pedophile to protect my child" ok but would you teach your child how to say no? even to adults? even to adults you like? would you teach your child the words "penis" and "vulva" and then use them? would you let them ask questions about their body? would you answer them honestly? would you learn how to cope with your feelings when you talk about human bodies, so they don't feel ashamed? would you set a positive example for how you talk about your body? would you tell your child they don't have to hug or kiss anyone? would you tell your family the same? would you stand by them when they refuse to hug someone? even someone you know has never done anything to hurt them? would you let your child avoid food they don't like? would you let you child avoid people they don't like? would you believe them? would you sit in the discomfort of not knowing all the answers and not take it out on them? would you love your child the same if someone did hurt them? would you make them feel valued just as they are? would you let them talk to doctors or nurses in private? would you let them express their feelings? would you show interest in their life? would you let your child say no to you? would you help your child feel safe coming to you when they make a mistake? would you apologize to your child? would you believe them? would you put aside your anger to focus on what would make your child feel safe and loved? would you put your ego aside for your child? would you take your child's concerns seriously? would you listen to your child? would you believe them?

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YOU'RE SICK YOU'RE SICK YOU'RE SICK YOU'RE SICK YOU'RE SICK YOU'RE SICK

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Still on my bullshit.

Ref below cut.

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JIRAI KEI LESBIAN -

lesbian who identifies as jirai kei , or is connected to the style , or wishes to be jirai kei , or just likes it ! etc .

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hmmm. after my reblogging spree for the day i think we need more weird freak gangle in the world. i should draw this actually. Actually, jirai kei gangle truth nuke

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sometimes I wanna just

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on second thought it's more than just sometimes

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sometimes I wanna just

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