hedonic

: the doctrine that pleasure or happiness is the sole or chief good in life

[minghao]

Work desk This morning. Side effects of the #radiotherapy came full blown rather late, I had the craziest migraine last night and had to be "pushed in". Lost 5kg to the constant vomiting and loss of appetite from last week. At least my swollen leg has subside. #watchmingbeatcancer #cancer #Immunotherapy (at Mount Elizabeth Hospital)

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Crew cut last night before today's treatment. #cancer markers are still increasing but seems to be slowing down. Complained to the oncologist about the pain at the abdomen and the swollen for don't know how long left leg. PET scans and ultrasound arranged 2 weeks from now. And I am not fit for flying 😩so I'll missed my work travels end of the month. Sigh... disappointed #watchmingbeatcancer #Immunotherapy (at Paragon Medical Centre @ Paragon)

[minghao]

I'm here so often that the Nurses know me by name. It's a nice gesture by them and I do appreciate it. Helps to make my day better ☺️ Having a bad day today as the stomach is not working. Reflux since morning and I didn't had much to eat. Crossing my fingers as usual for Low #cancer markers after the #radiotherapy #watchmingbeatcancer #Immunotherapy (at Mount Elizabeth Hospital)

[minghao]

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na... BATMAN! #radiotherapy #cancer #watchmingbeatcancer #chemotherapy #Immunotherapy

[minghao]

#ootd #sundate #icecream

[minghao]

My New Toy! Ordered on Tuesday and it was delivered yesterday. Very impressed with their shipping. #fedex #bitplay #snappro #snap7

[minghao]

First time trying to be a #ceramicist Wanted the final product to be a vase but it kept breaking, so end product is a Sake cup😒. Not bad la huh... Thank you @dap for the surprise! It's very therapeutic but I'm just too 粗鲁。 (at Mud Rock)

[minghao]

Everybody, I present to you the map of #Singapore! 🤣 #radiotherapy #watchmingbeatcancer #cancer

[minghao]

Woke up this morning and found this bald patch #badhaircut 😂 It's one of the side effects of the #radiotherapy to my head. Was expecting this but didn't expect to be like that 😆 #watchmingbeatcancer #cancer

[minghao]

Week 200 Day6: My Health #2 ...I almost broke down when I got the news that day. It's like 没完没了, when are all these going to stop. I was angry at everything and it's like back to square one again and again. Knn stop giving me false hopes la, stop making me feel that things is going to be fine but every time it just pushes me back down..fuck! 😖But okay la, I just felt like shit for a few days but I went back to my usual self soon enough to plan my treatment. Steady right? Haha. So we (family) went through many rounds with the radiologist and surgeon and I decided not to operate on my right knee and chose to be on a full leg brace (now you know why I'm on the leg brace). I went ahead with the 6 cycles of radiotherapy on my knee, left eye and right brain. Bring it on! In Apr, the radiation treatment was completed and I guess it went well. There were some bad side effects to my head such as headaches, hearing echos, giddiness and dry eyes. But still okay la! I can tahan 😑 Good thing is my leg is hurting less now and my double vision was getting better. Unfortunately, the cancer markers were back increasing again. I suspect it could be the swollen lymph nodes in my left side of the body and the nodules in my abdomen. They are hurting and also causing my left side of my lower body to swell most probably due to #lymphedema. As for treatment wise, I am back on Immunotherapy although the markers are increasing. I chose to give Nivolumab another shot and praying that it's going to work for me. *crossing my fingers* Alright! You are up to date liao! I want to thank everyone again who checked on me constantly and offering encouragements when I was offline. It really meant a lot to me and I really appreciate that. I want you all to know that I am still in this fight and giving up is never an option. Let's look forward to the day I announce that I'm in #remission! Woo! #watchmingbeatcancer 🐱Picture of my shui char bor Nami! 😻 #fighting

[minghao]

Week 200 Day 6: My Health #1 Hi all! It's really been a while, I'm finally back to my social media life and I really do miss this "digital life" TBH haha. Just a quick summary of events that happened since I took a break in Dec 2016: In Dec, while I took the break off SM, I started on #FOLFOX, it is a #chemotherapy that was similar to #FOLFIRI. My oncologist wanted me to try out this chemo as it was pretty much the last cocktail combo I yet to try. But as usual, it did not work for me and we ended stopping at 3rd cycle. In Jan, I requested to take a break off chemo to celebrate CNY. So I was off all kinds of treatment and practically just enjoying my favorite festive! And at that point, my #cancer markers was increasing so fast that it was crazily high at 2000+. But fuck it, I enjoyed my CNY. LOL😝 In Feb, as I mentioned we had ran out of chemo options, my oncologist offered me to try out #Immunotherapy again. This time, it was a different drug, #Nivolumab. He wasn't confident that it might work but we decided to give it a try. Astonishingly, it worked! My CEA went down to 700+ from 2000+! In Mar, I felt a familiar sharp pain in my right leg and I was having double vision for no reason. So the day after I had my regular PET scan, I requested to get my right knee and my head for #MRI scan. And as I guessed correctly, the bone infection came back. There is tumor growing and surrounding my right knee again. It was so bad this time that it was covering the whole of my right knee. I was offered to go under surgery for my right knee to get nails inserted in my right leg to secure the affected area. The main purpose of doing that is to strengthen the knee to prevent it from breaking. Oh and that's not it, they also found something in my left eye and the right side of the brain. There was a 1 cm #tumor in my left eye socket that's pushing my eyeball down. That was why I was having double vision. And my right brain, they also found a nodule/tumor. Wow.. Just wow. To be continued...

[minghao]

It's not that bad actually 😬 #OOTD #artboxsingapore #artbox #artboxsg

[minghao]

Week 200 Day 2: Guess who's back After a 4 months hiatus, I'm back! Thank you all for constantly checking on me, it really really really meant a lot to me. ☺️ I am well but just suffering a little SMWS (Social Media Withdrawal Syndrome ) 😂 On a serious note, as you can see my left leg is swollen and my right leg is in a leg brace but I'm still "standing" 😁 The real reason why I took a break off social media was due to my family. I found out then that my constant updates on my journey was putting unnecessary pressure and worry to them. Why? All thanks to the self-proclaimed close friends/relatives. " I saw minghao' s update, you must make this for him to eat. Sure get well one… You never take good care of him that's why he like that… Bring him to this temple… Bring him to this church… Bring him to see this doctor… Bring him to see this TCM…" 😒 I lost a #cancer fighter buddy today. She is also the reason why I decided to 重出江湖。When I was not updating, she's the one who checked on me to make sure I'm okay and well. Even though she's the one suffering. Kim, you are in a better place now, no more suffering. Please watch over me, I promise I will continue to fight hard! So many things happened over the past 4 months and I can't wait to share with everyone. Stay tuned! #watchmingbeatcancer

[minghao]

Hi all! #watchmingbeatcancer will be taking a break off social media. I just started on my new #chemotherapy and will be focusing on the treatment. Feel free to reach out to me as usual, I'll be more than happy to share with you on my journey. Here's wishing everyone happy holidays and an advanced Happy New Year! #cancer

[minghao]

And this is why we love @circleretard ! @dap @salaa @feen1xx @maddyzhuo @binbin @twistedberry

[minghao]

Happy birthday @circleretard ! May you stay beautiful and gorgeous forever! @dap @salaa @feen1xx @maddyzhuo @binbin @twistedberry (at Nassim Hill Bakery Bistro Bar)

[minghao]

#ultrasound time to see any blood clots still available. Tired and painful to inject the #clexane Everyday. #cancer #watchmingbeatcancer (at Mount Elizabeth Hospital)