“You are my Starlight, Darling. Don't stop shining"
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✿•˖* Name: Lex or Lexy
✿•˖* Age: 19 years old
✿•˖* Gender: Female
✿•˖* Pronouns: She/They
✿•˖* Birthday: June 4th (me is a gemini-)
✿•˖* U:lt Biases/Group: Ateez, BTS, and Monsta X are my ult groups and my biases are: Kim Hongjoong, Song Mingi, Choi San, Park Jimin, Kim Namjoon, Jeon Jungkook, Lee Jooheon, and Chae Hyungwon.
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αвσut mє: My Name is Lex! I've been writing fanfiction since I was 12 years old. I've been into K-pop around roughly the same period. I mostly write to bring happiness to not only myself but to others who may use fanfiction as an escape from the hustle and bustle of their lives. You have a safe space in me darlings, you don't have to worry about anything. Just relax and enjoy yourself.
Dude, I don't know if you are taking any requests atm or not but I NEED (not want, A NEED) Hongjoong "Is this Real" part 2 desperately- THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I'VE READ THAT FIC IN THE LAST 2 HOURS IS--- yea- so if you are taking any requests atm then I'd like to request for part 2 of Joong's "Is this Real"
Thank you so much, your blog is officially now my fav<\\3 (not even exaggerating)
PFFT-
I gotchu I gotchu, I'm so happy that i am your favorite blog!
I'm on hiatus right now but surely when I am back to writing again, I will have a new part for it! <3
I forgot you and chxrd literally know each other irl and I’ve been talking to them more recently 😭😭 I could’ve asked about you instead of worrying this whole time 💀
Build a bears are so fun! I did a Star Wars one once lmao and although it was a Darth Vader one I called it Kylo Ren cause I’m a bhaddie 🤭
How’s life been going in general? You must be nearing summer break right? Ik y’all Americans finish a fair bit earlier than us
PFFT literally they told me they were talking to you and I was like "I need to go on tumblr and talk to ella!" I'm sorry I had you worrying.
And yeah! I made an Eevee and I named him Hongjoong! they were doing a pokemon collab and whenever I get a pokemon in a pokemon game I name it hongjoong XD
well we've been out since May 3rd since college lets out earlier than actually grade schools, mostly I've been trying to get my life together so far lol. I have a new job now so hopefully that will give me more motivation to write now.
Dude, I don't know if you are taking any requests atm or not but I NEED (not want, A NEED) Hongjoong "Is this Real" part 2 desperately- THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I'VE READ THAT FIC IN THE LAST 2 HOURS IS--- yea- so if you are taking any requests atm then I'd like to request for part 2 of Joong's "Is this Real"
Thank you so much, your blog is officially now my fav<\\3 (not even exaggerating)
PFFT-
I gotchu I gotchu, I'm so happy that i am your favorite blog!
I'm on hiatus right now but surely when I am back to writing again, I will have a new part for it! <3
"You know..it's been a while since you've come around..Y/n.." The footsteps around you click around the hardwood floor. They sounded like boots.
"I had thought you'd left me... forgotten I existed, but here you are, in front of me..." A shiver goes down your spine as a hand is placed against your throat, a deep chuckle sounding in the room.
You struggled in their grip before the hand around your throat tightens, scaring you into stopping. 'Earning' you a kiss on the cheek.
"My darling baby has returned to me..after fleeing and running, leaving me, no- leaving US high and dry. Not even a goodbye or a little note." You tremble as you feel someone get closer to your ears.
"But we'll make sure that never happens again...right hyung?.."
Another pair of footsteps are heard, they sound like dress shoes,
"My my...I thought we'd never see you again, princess~"
You feel a pair of hands on your knees, your heart dropping as the sinister laugh is one that you recognize so well.
Kim Hongjoong.
The feared Pirate Captain of Aurora...
"Did you miss us? Becuase we surely missed you, Now come here...
let me show you how much I missed you~"
6 days...counting down...did you miss us, dear y/n?...
↳ Optional: reader insert is referred to as your name instead of Y/N (e.g. "I love you Star, always have always will." You smiled and kissed Mingi softly. "| love you too.")
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✰ ᴄ.ᴡ: Death, Car crash, Mentions of blood + broken bones, Arguement, Mental breakdown, Hurt/Comfort, Reconciliation.
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San’s eyes struggled to stay open as he breathed heavily, blood trickling down his forehead like a river. The mangled metal of what once was his car twisted and writhed, screaming in agony as San tried to lift his head out of the airbag that had deployed on impact. Everything hurt, many of his bones most likely broken and his breathing shallow. It was getting harder and harder to breathe, the air dense with smoke. A hissing came from under the bonnet
“Sh-..Shit.”
Slowly lifting himself up, San hissed in pain when he heard a crack from near his ribs. A burning sensation tore through his arm as he reached up, coughing and groaning in pain. He pulled the sun visor down, taking a picture out before letting his hand fall back into his lap. The last of his strength was slowly but surely leaving him. His eyelids felt as heavy as lead, and his eyes grew unfocused despite his attempts to squint and see the picture. He was desperate to see his family one more time.
A bright light could now be seen further up the road, and all of San’s lights had been ruined by the crash. There was no way for the driver to see him until it was too late. Knowing there was a slim chance he’d escape this second impact with his life, San turned his head to the sunroof, marvelling at the beauty of the stars. He chuckled at the irony of life, a shooting star passing overhead. Although it felt meaningless, the male still closed his eyes and wished, tears now flowing down his cheeks as he heard the truck speeding towards him.
He mumbled quietly to himself, hating that he couldn’t say goodbye and whimpering quietly as a loud honk drowned out his words. It kept going, again and again as the driver slammed down his breaks. Despite the immense pain he was in, San lifted the picture and kissed his loved ones for the last time, the headlights blinding and the horn deafening. He let out one last sentence as he freely sobbed, the imminence of his fate terrifying him.
“I’ll see you guys soon okay? Daddy’ll see you soon.”
Then, darkness.
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San shot up with a start, holding his head as a sharp pain made itself known. He winced with a hiss, cursing under his breath quietly as he rubbed his temple.
“Daddy! That’s a bad word!”
Looking up, San smiled in relief when he saw his eldest daughter, Hana, playing quietly with her tea set. Shakily standing up from the floor, San made his way over to Hana with a chuckle.
“Sorry baby, Daddy just had a bad dream.”
When Hana smiled up at San he gave her a smile back, moving to place his hand on her shoulder. He was soon surprised to find however that his arm passed straight through her. The girl’s expression seemed to darken a little, Hans setting down her cup and adjusting a teddy before turning to a confused San.
“Mommy says you’re a dream too Daddy.”
Hana let her hand fly out at San’s legs, seemingly unfazed when they passed through cleanly. San however jumped back with a start.
“What- What the fuck!-“
Bringing a finger to her lips, Hana shushed her father with wide eyes.
“Daddy! Stop swearing!“
Despite his breath spiralling out of control as he tried to find a reason to such a strange event, San tried to calm himself down and keep himself from stressing out Hana.
“Sorry, sorry. But baby, how did you know that was gonna happen?”
Hana gave a little huff as she played with a utensil half heartedly, seemingly unable of looking San in the face.
“When I saw you laying on the floor this morning, I tried to hug you but it wouldn’t work. Mommy says it’s because your a fig-ge-ment of my image- in-nation.”
While Hana seemed to struggle over the complicated words you had used, San began to pull at his hair in stress. What the fuck was happening right now? Before he could ask any more questions however, you opened the door to Hana’s bedroom, eyes red and sore as you bounced a restless Haru on your hip.
“Honey, were you talking to yourself again?”
San stood up with a start, taking in your dishevelled appearance with concern as you gazed tiredly at Hana. Not only sore, your eyes had dark circles underneath them as if you hadn’t slept for weeks. Your hair was messily held back by a bandana, and stains adorned your clothes, seemingly from the little menace whining into your t-shirt. Despite this, the girl only pouted in response, shaking her head.
“No Mommy, I was talking to Daddy. See? He’s right there!”
Hana pointed eagerly at San, who walked closer to you hesitantly, unsure of himself. You turned your head to face him, but only seemed to see through him as your eyes watered. You quickly wiped away a tear with a sniffle before turning back to Hana, leaving San hurt and even more confused than before.
“I’ve already told you Hana, Daddy had to go on a very long trip. He cant be in two places at once, can he?”
San rose a hand to your face as you said this, closing the gap between the two of you and cupping your cheek. You shivered briefly, raising your own hand up slowly up to feel where San had touched you.
“Y/N, I’m here. Can’t you see me?”
Haru had finally calmed down a little as he stared at San, his tear-stained face slowly brightening as he made grabby hands towards his father. When you pushed his hands down, Hana’s voice rose indignantly, the girl standing up from her chair and walking closer towards you.
“Why arent you letting Daddy touch Haru?! I know he can’t really touch him, but Haru’s too young to understand anyways!”
You let out an exasperated sigh at this, running a hand down your face before replying with a slight edge to your tone.
“Because your dad isn’t here Hana, he’s away! I’m sorry you couldn’t say goodbye, but that doesn’t mean you can raise your voice at me! I didn’t get to say goodbye either!”
Your chest heaved as you tried to keep yourself from erupting, Haru also starting to become stressed as Hana ignored your words and continued. San meanwhile stood between the two of you, unsure of what to do as Hana ignored your warnings.
“Stop lying! Daddy’s right here! I can see him!”
San shushed Hana, coming over to her in an attempt to calm the situation down.
“Hana don’t-”
“He’s not here Hana! He’s gone away for a very long time, and he’s not coming back! Don’t you understand?! He’s gone! Forever!”
Tears streamed down your cheeks as those words left your mouth, sobbing helplessly as Haru started screaming. Despite San’s efforts to keep her from starting up again, Hana walked straight through her father, pushing at her mother’s legs until you stumbled out of the doorway.
“You liar!”
And with that, Hana slammed the door in your face, collapsing against it as hot tears of anger flowed. Sliding to the floor, she curled up in a ball and broke down. San quickly came over to her, wrapping his arms around Hana as she bawled, the weight of the world crashing down on her tiny shoulders. Despite not feeling the physical touch of San, she could still feel the love radiating off of him. The fast beat of her heart slowly but surely returned to normal, her anger turning into sadness as she lifted her head and looked at San with a sniff.
“Daddy, are you real? Mommy’s wrong, right?”
San gulped at this, have no clue what to say. I mean, he felt real, but was he? How could he not hold his own children if he’s real? How can his own wife not see him? But how could he not be real?
“To be honest, I have no clue baby. All I know is that I love you so much, and so does Mommy.”
San tried to steady his hand to keep it from slipping through Hana’s face, cupping her cheek.
“Cut your mum some slack, okay? She’s… not herself right now. Plus, you shouldn’t be shouting at her like that either way.”
Hana nodded sullenly, her expression soon brightening when San pulled a silly face at her.
“Now, go apologise to Mommy okay?”
Nodding again, Hana stood up with a sniffle and opened the door, not noticing how the door passed straight through San. That was something he’d never get used to. Surprisingly you were also on the floor, Haru hugging you and whining quietly as you sobbed into his clothes.
San immediately went to your side, pressing small kisses to your face and shushing you quietly. It seemed like you had some sort of connection with him still, as you quietened a little. Hana silently joined Haru in hugging you, all three of you now crying quietly on the floor together. Grabbing Hana’s face, you kissed her forehead before pulling her closer.
“I’m sorry honey, Mommy’s so sorry.”
Hugging you tighter, Hana shook her head, burying it further into your neck as she mumbled onto your skin.
“Me too Mommy, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have shouted at you.”
Watching on quietly, San smiled at his family’s reconciliation, standing up and staring down lovingly at the people most precious to him. Lifting your head up, you pulled back from Hana with a red nose.
“Honey, are you sure you see Daddy? Could you tell me where he is?“
Hesitantly, Hana pointed to where San had frozen in shock, eyes wide. Giving Haru to Hana, you stood up and looked him right in the eye, smiling at him.
“San mountain man Dorito built Choi, I love you so damn much. Wherever you are right now, make sure you’re as happy as possible. But not too happy, miss me a little, okay?”
Chuckling, San gave you a salute before pressing a kiss to your lips.
“The last part’s super important, don’t forget it or I swear you’ll be in so much trouble when I can finally join you.”
“I won’t forget, I promise.”
“I’m gonna assume you agreed, so now I’m gonna uh.. I’m gonna go..”
San rolled his eyes and wrapped his arms loosely around you, not wanting to fall right through you. Whispering quietly in your ear, he pressed a kiss to your ear after speaking.
“I’ll watch over you my love, I promise. I’ll wait as long as it takes, and it better be a long fucking time.”
Hana let out a little shout from the floor, annoyed once again with her father’s apparent potty mouth.
“Language Daddy!”
Chuckling heartily, you wiped a tear from your eye with a wide smile as you spoke.
“God San, even as a imaginary friend you can’t check yourself.”
San gave you a sheepish smile, dimples showing as his ears tinted red. This soon fell however when you walked right through him to get a tissue. It wasn’t painful, physically at least, yet it still took away some of his relief. How long would it be until Hana couldn’t see him? Until she didn’t believe he was there either?
Thoughts like this now plagued his mind, yet he plastered on a smile when he saw Hana staring. It wasn’t exactly what he’d wished for, but he’d take what he’d get either way. Death, in his opinion, seemed more lonelier than this transition stage. He’d make the most of this precious time he’d been gifted, and hope that the next day he wouldn’t wake up somewhere else as he’d done today.
hi guys! I'm still alive, just vibin' I have alot of stuff planned, but i probably won't be back until earlier may, late april! school is kicking my ass and i'm having paper back to back, but i'm still happy to see that people are enjoying my work!
and to my moots..i'm not dead! I want to interact with you all more, but like i said. school is being a bitch, but hey I have to get things in order first before i can come back to you guys with wonderful content!
just wanted to give you an update! I love you all <3
