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once upon a time there was a girl named mandy she was inlove with every man that gave her attention. its not her fault she was like that she had lots of issues. the main one was that she had daddy issues. what are daddy issues?!! you would say. daddy issues are issues that lots of women have when they have really crappy dads. many women show there issues different ways. they could be rude to guys with no emotion have sex with every guy they see or like mandy fall inlove with everyone that gives her some sort of affection whether the guy is a mean. nice, crazy. but mandy always fell for the mean, crazy, weird, unavailable guys. she was also really insecure which had to do with her daddy issues. her dad never showed love or emotions to her never called her beautiful that she was perfect nothing like that at all. her dad was in awwh of her mother and even got jealous if her mother gave mandy a bit of attention. mandys dad started being angry and envious with her. he would find anyway to punish her any way to get her mom against her. started verbally and mentally and physically abusing her. he didn’t kick her hit her like a man but it would of lead to that. he started throwing stuff at her for no reason pushing her of the floor just take his anger out on her. tell her negative stuff on the daily. she would tell her mother all what he did which lead to huge arguments between her mom and dad and made him envy mandy even more. her mother was tired of his crazy ways. which ill get too later on. she was very self conscious because she was never ever told she was pretty, beautiful, valuable, she would eventually have to figure that on her own. she was always told stuff about her weight she’s too fat. her mom wanted her to be perfect but since she was fat her mom would tell her hurtful things all the time which made mandy angry and depressed and made her eat even more to make or happy and to make her mom mad. but mandy was only hurting herself when she did that. she didn’t know that at that time because she was so angry and emotional. all of mandys friends where pretty and skinny moved way faster in life then her. she was always in her head so creative and talented but never used that confidence in real life. she never experienced real love she was to scared because she was always rejected. so she would just do online secretive stuff. you would think only skinny people have eating disorders wrong! big people have eating disorders too. which mandy has she eats her feelings. its a real thing! not just a meme or joke its a real life thing. every one seen mandys life as perfect she was spoiled and had a perfect family a big house with a white picket fence. which mandy believed was true until she opened her eyes and realized everything was wrong. she had many haters in life they were all jealous of her. even her friends were envious of her. her haters were all the same fake! she had new ones every year it didn’t really bug her. she just managed until she got home her mom always told her not to let people bug her in school cause she never has to see them again when its over. which is soo true. so she was fine with it and let them hate never went home crying and never thought of suicide all she cared about was her family and friends.

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