i've noticed that it's much easier to have casual physical contact with someone you've had sex with, so if i could just rape people it'd be SO much easier to hug and cuddle them afterward without worrying where to put my paws. it's like using you as a therapeutic toy to ease my anxiety over how close i want to be to you. this is honestly the motivation for a decent portion of my targeted rape fantasies - just feeling awkward about if my hands are too close to your tits or your ass or not.
but also, there's the way that i, as a prophet and a founder of a religion, desire to be all-knowing and that includes the intricacies of your body, the secrets buried within the lines that make up your shape. i want to learn what every reaction in your body is, out of idle curiosity. i want to know you better than you know yourself, so i can make you the truest version of who you are. that includes your insides, what things make you cum, and where on your body you're the most reactive to touch.
i don't want anyone else to have access to something that i'm not allowed to have access to. if i love you and you're close to me and you're doing something without me, then i have to pounce on you and bury my knot in you. it's honestly cruel if you won't just let me. dogs get separation anxiety, you should know that. you need to let me do whatever i need to be sure you know we're inseparable!
i want to be omnipresent in the things i love and to haunt the things i hate. i want my enemies to get sick when they feel my touch every time they try to get off because of what i did to them. i want them to feel dirty over how they burn up inside when it happens. i want to knock them up so the effects of my hate can simmer and boil inside them, i want them to see me on their body more and more every day.i want to break into the home of the person that leaves me and tie them up and torture and rape them for hours so my form is scarred across every inch of their psyche and i'll be with them forever, no matter how far they go. i want to tell them that nothing is too sacred for me to profane. there's nowhere they can go that i can't touch.
i want to fuck you without having to perform or to hold back. i want to look at you like all you are is walking flesh and not have to shake it off. i want to cause the prey reaction and pounce on it. i don't want to worry about whatever role i'm playing besides predator. i want to make you cry while i'm making both of us cum. take out everything i can't do to others on you, hurt you and please you in equal measures, take all the time i want doing everything i want to, not listening to anything you say until you're sobbing, and even then only tuning in to enjoy it. i want to make you feel so unbelievably inferior to me that it writes my superiority into their world as a law of reality, as ineffable as laws of science. i want to break your ability to exit subspace around me. i want you constantly afraid so you'll give me what i want, and i want to be so kind to you about it. hugging and cuddling and stroking your hair while you're completely at my mercy. hearing the fear never leave your heartbeat as i fall asleep on your chest. i want to keep you and nurture you and make you confuse fear for love until you can't dream of anything else. i want you to understand that your natural position is to submit to dogs, that everything will be okay so long as you give them what they want, that this is the order of things. i want to make you depend on my abuse. this is another way of making sure you can't leave.
i want to show that i love you, and i will do absolutely anything for you, no matter if you can ask for it or not. i will cross any line for you. no matter how far you go, i'll be there with you. maybe you can't get away from me, but i'm here with you, too. i want to prove to you that i don't want you to be gone. i want to show you how much you mean to me. just hold still. just. fucking. hold still.
