What hurts the most?
What hurts the most is knowing that they're going to live their life. With new friends. With new family. With new love. And I will simply rot away knowing that I could have perhaps changed the outcome if I had just put in a little more effort.
What hurts the most is having so much to say, but not having anyone to say it to. Being surrounded by so many people. And feeling completely and utterly alone. Being told you are loved and appreciated but not believing a single fucking word you hear.
What hurts the most is having a desperate need for human connection yet being fearful of never being good enough. So the solution that's viewed as the most fit, is to drift away mentally until there's nothing left but painful memories of what used to bring me joy.
To put it simply.
What hurts the most?
Everything.
