𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒏 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔

𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝗂𝗇    𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝    𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗌    𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏.

[misrybred]

𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐃𝐘 𝐈𝐍: religion and the loss of it , silent suffering , stolen youth , the queen in chains ,  rediscovering true identity, sacrificial lamb ,  bred for misery , motherhood framed as being pecked to death by your favorite birds.  

affiliates & main: @ zaldarias (exclusive & affiliated) + feralrites , @ devilsnare (main & affiliated) , @ thebrokenhelm + @ ntrgyn (affiliated) , @ sigilstag (exclusives & affiliated) , @ westsgem (main) , @ marghaerys (main)

CARRD. WRITING PROMPTS. MULTIMUSE. DAILY CLICKS FOR GAZA.

𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐒: « drafts: 0, prompts: 28, queue: 31

[misrybred]

just realized today marks one week until my nursing orientation and now im gonna be stressed out until its done n i know whats what

[faunary]

our field of dreams engulfed in fire

[alicenthightowerdaily]

Queen Alicent Hightower ❖︎ House of the Dragon

[em1e]

what made u guys pick ur url's !

[moondanceir]

lavender  eyes  narrow  to  slits,  tongue  lashing  'gainst  cheek  ─  the  blood  of  the  dragon  runs  hot,  temper  oft  rising  to  occasion.  every  symbol  of  those  who  repudiated  rhaenyra's  claim  have  been  stricken  from  these  walls.  torn  down,  balled  up,  tossed  from  corridors  on  piles  scorched  just  outside  the  dragon  gate.  for  every  torch  that  set  them  ablaze  a  hundred  more  would  rise.  victory  went  down  bitter.  what  joy  was  there  in  anything  without  jacaerys?  sighs,  leather  gloves  gripped  tight  in  right  fist  dropping  to  rest  against  her  thigh.  soon  they  would  depart,  scouting  beyond  king's  landing  to  the  riverlands  for  any  sight  of  one-eye.  no  castle  land  was  large  enough  to  conceal  vhagar  for  long.     ❝   good  morrow,   ❞    throat  clears,  head  inclining  politely,  though  she  does  not  often  subscribe  to  convention  being  raised  up  properly  was  no  foreign  concept.  for  a  time  she  had  mother  and  than  rhaenys  ...  now  ─  nothing.  not  even  pleasantries  with  rhaenyra.     ❝     moondancer  gorges  in  the  dragonpit  and  while  she  does  i  am  of  no  use.  i  had  thought  to  find  peace  in  the  godswood.      ❞

[misrybred]

𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍 𝐈𝐅 𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐖 𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑, if baela ignored her to simply keep walking. alicent's sons had caused her pain in the deaths of rhaenys, in jace most recently, why would she want to hear anything from her or even give her the courtesy of recognition ? alicent was a prisoner after all along with her daughter, she should not be given the same things as she was before. rhaenyra had been generous enough to give the small things--time in the godswood, permission to roam the walls as long as she is escorted, a maid to attend to their needs. the idea of being a prisoner, in her mind before now, meant thrown in a cell with chains clasped 'round her wrists. though, alicent's entire life had been on prisoner or another had it not ? something rhaenyra was well aware of & perhaps that is where her clemency comes. nonetheless alicent will not unappreciate what has been given.

the words spoken to her by @moondanceir, the acceptance of their interaction, had surpried alicent. it is shown in her widened eyes, in the tiny gasp she takes in.

in truth, the dowager queen had known little of the lady baela before now & interaction had been limited. yet she does know she is daemon targaryen's daughter which makes her determined, strong, & ever bit of a dragon as her father or mother. ❛ good morrow, ❜ is parroted back with her own nod of her head, ❛ the godswood can be comforting, it is as good of a place to go when you are in need of clarity or any other. ❜ offers the queen as hands come up to clasp, nerves creeping, together. ❛ could i- ... might i join you ? ❜ alicent feels some sense of needing to make amends with baela.

[misrybred]

𝐃𝐈𝐃 𝐑𝐇𝐀𝐄𝐍𝐘𝐑𝐀 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐔𝐍𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐓 ? it was a fact alicent had known, lived in, every day since said choice was made. for the longest time rhaenyra had chosen her, had set her eyes, the warmth of them, on her with such ease. such love. such kinship. & then one day it was ripped away, alicent was left out in the cold while her eyes then turned toward her uncle who only wished to use her for his own ends. he may never be king but he could get close enough, right ? while alicent has no doubt now, in the years since girlhood when it stung the worst, that some part of daemon loves rhaenyra but he will never love her the way alicent does or has. ( why is that so hard for her to admit outwardly ? she could ruminate on it for the rest of her life. it sits nestled in her chest, clawing at her throat itching to come out. it is eating her alive yet she knows a push is all it will takes ... ) jaw clenches when rhaenyra speaks, fists balled at her side & clear tension held within shoulders. her blood boiled, rhaenyra would be able to see it.

@zaldarias SAID, " I MADE MY CHOICE LONG AGO. "

❛ do you believe me blind or incapable of seeing that ? ❜ retorts alicent in a hard, irritated tone that matches expression & body. brown eyes, though blown wide just a moment before, narrow just a little. ❛ you chose daemon after you scorned me, after you decided that i was terrible for something i did not do. & what has daemon truly done for you ? ❜ an eyebrow arches, breath coming slightly deeper & hard in her worked up state. ❛ he might have granted you the protection you needed in his strength, in his indulgence for violence but he has done little else. ❜ it is clear that this particular 'choice' has bothered dowager queen for years, continues to even now. ❛ you are a woman grown, you are the queen of the seven kingdoms & your husband, this person you chose, continues to undermine you, continues to not respect you as he should ! ❜ would rhaenyra see some truth in it ? ❛ open your eyes, rhaenyra. daemon is not the right choice you believe him to be now ... ❜ 'i am' she thinks but doesn't say.

[misrybred]

RANDOM ALICENT HIGHTOWER EDITS + MODERN.

personals / non mutuals do not reblog !

[misrybred]

"her attentions may be on you now that you bathe in the warm light of her gaze" was the gayest shit she could've said about r.haenyra esp considering it was in RELATION to the r.haesaria relationship ... meaning she knows or assumes they've had some level of intimacy and her phrasing of the 'warm light of her gaze' being temporary because for m.ysaria IT IS and a.licent knows, understands, those feelings n what it feels like to be r.haenyra's focus. it feels amazing, it feels consuming, it feels .. like the most important thing.

[misrybred]

SEE I KNEW MAIDCENT WAS REAL, PEOPLE WHO WERE SAYING ON X IT WAS AI ! I KNEW IT

[misrybred]

alicent n consistently, constantly choosing rhaenyra over anyone vs the world

[yourmilkdoll]

eat her out until she’s astral projecting

[femculiar]

Alicent Hightower HOUSE OF THE DRAGON—1.09 "The Green Council"

[zaldarias]

it was true there was a certain anxiety that had settled in her chest as soon as it had been official the other woman was with child .          for as little as she verbalized it ,   the queen had an unbearable fear regarding child bearing   ―   she has seen her mother go through it ,   time   &&   time again ,   until it had taken her life .          surely ,   it would not be the case   &&   rhaenyra prayed to the gods the babe would be born healthy   &&   grow happy .          each time they were together   &&   alicent would move ,   rhaenyra was already on her feet ,   trying to aid her in anything she needed or wanted   ―   perhaps it would have been exactly the same way she'd have acted given the chance all her earlier pregnancies were spent with the targaryen in her vicinity .          the redhead's discomfort regarding that life growing inside of her did not go over her head at all   ―   in a way ,   she felt guilty ,   selfish as if she had put this idea of having a child together in her head despite having been a mutual agreement .          perhaps all of it explained the need of taking care of her personally ,   always side eyeing any lady-in-waiting or servant that would get in her way   ―   nevertheless ,   they understood ,   always did ,   even gestured the queen to assist them .

there are no retorts coming out of her ,   not when she watches the woman acquiescence with barely a complaint   ―   or at least ,   the smallest one came out of her ,   the queen decided to let it slide for the time being .          lilac hues watch her as she settles next to her ,   fingers already turning   &&   fidgeting with the rings adorning them as brows give a slight twitch .          it would not happen ,   for as persistent as alicent was on the matter ,   the thought would leave her mind before actually going through with it ,   perhaps it'd be sudden tiredness ,   thirst or just the need of being close to rhaenyra in the privacy of their chambers .          because of it ,   the queen does not say a word ,   she does not fight back as she'd usually do .          finally ,   head turns to glance at the lake ,   gaze lifting as she notices the birds flying by .          ❛ ⠀ i listened to petitions .          it does not get any better than the first time ...          however ,   it's more bearable now . ⠀ ❜          the uneasiness that came the very first time she sat upon the iron throne ,   listening to the people's burdens ,   their needs ,   it was no longer there .          still ,   the queen felt for her people ,   she has helped them as best as she could ,   continued to do so .          hearing their hardships from their mouths was the hardest part .          attention turns back to her with a furrowed brow ,   stealing a quick glance at her belly once more before looking back up at her face .          ❛ ⠀ you haven't said a thing .          about the dragon egg ,   i mean .          syrax will lay a new clutch soon ,   we must choose one for the babe . ⠀ ❜          

[misrybred]

𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐑𝐇𝐀𝐄𝐍𝐘𝐑𝐀'𝐒 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 considering alicent had been witness to some of the late queen aemma's struggles, how deeply she yearned to give viserys the sons he craved until it killed her in the end. what a terrible day it had been the day she died, the day the one son she was able to give followed her---though soon enough that role, that responsibility, had fallen onto alicent's own shoulder through no desire of her own. what once had been aemma's burden was transferred onto her & alicent had never been more terrified of the prospect seeing the ends it had met in the previous queen. 'what if it happened to me ? what if the children i did not want be my own undoing ?' a thought the young queen often ruminated on in the quiet of her chambers with hand placed over her belly. thank the gods the same fate had not befell her all times before & it would not now yet the queen still allows her beloved to fuss, hover, & watch as closely, as protectively, as she wished. it was a simple comfort to rhaenyra alicent had assumed, one easily given without much irritation or hesitation in it. as alicent had reassured multiple times: she was not her mother, this babe would not harm her nor take alicent away from her.

at the mention of the dragon egg once more, it being mentioned more & more in the passing weeks by @zaldarias , alicent lowers her eyes. a certain guilt creeping up her spine but she remains silent.

a little too silent, alicent notices as it hangs in between them before she takes a deep breath & decides to open her mouth to speak: ❛ petitions will get easier, dearest. it just takes time. soon, you are like to spend only some of your morning listening to them, you will get quicker at making the best decision for whatever arises. ❜ a smile presses to her lips but does not quit reach her eyes with the last comment still lingering in the back of her mind. how does she answer this ? it is like to end in an argument, in possible hurt feelings, & that is the last thing she wanted to do to rhaenyra. now or ever. hands fold in her lap, eyes still downturned but focused on hands that begin to absently pick at one another. a clear sign alicent was nervous or filled with dread. ❛ i know i have not, ❜ is what comes from her, tone soured slightly. ❛ because i am not so certain i want the babe to have a dragon egg. not this one. ❜ any others which follow ? yes. ❛ i was thinking, perhaps, our first not be given one. so that he, or she, might grow up ... unlike their half siblings. unburdened by what often times befalls one with a dragon. ❜ 'i want them to be normal, more like me. like mine.'

[misrybred]

𝐀𝐓 𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐋𝐘𝐍𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐀 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐓, 𝐀 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐓 𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 it seemed these days. honesty, true honesty when nothing was sugarcoated or watered down, was hard to come by. either someone was withholding for their own benefit or they fear speaking plain truth to their queen would land them in a cell or their head on a block. alicent liked honesty, she preferred it to anything else even if she, at times, did not always lead by example nor follow what she likes in others. ( it was easier to lie as an adult, less scary when you do not answer to many & it is the other way around. as a girl she was terrified of lying, of having otto's disappointment or scolding because of it yet now little white lies, or at times bigger ones, slip through the cracks. ) however, it was hard to judge if certain people can be trusted or not.

@sigilstag ASKED, " IT SOUNDS AWFUL WHEN I SAY IT OUT LOUD. "

hands continues to hold her glass of wine, brown eyes momentarily staring off into it while the other woman seemed to cringe at what came out of her mouth moments before. 'she is backtracking,' alicent thought to herself for a moment. head lifts so eyes can settle on her, ❛ you speak plainly, do not apologize for it. not many people do now it seems. ❜ the dowager queen takes a sip of her wine to which is almost empty--this is the second time she had filled it that afternoon. ❛ it is honorable, in a way. preferred, especially by me if that is of any concern or interest. ❜ why did lynorra wish to speak with her so often while here ?

[lolthsword]

oh my doomed yuri

[misrybred]

𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐎𝐅 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐘 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐁𝐄𝐆𝐈𝐍 𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 at the scarred over skin of her fingers. the seven pointed star that has adorned neck for years feels a thousand times heavier, like it is choking her rather than resting lightly against her collarbones. for years alicent hightower had made her faith a banner of it's own, she wielded it like a knight might a sword because she believed it made her righteous. though now she asks herself, more often than she likes, did it ? or did it simply feed some delusion of being right, of being good---what once brought comfort, guidance, had tainted itself in her quiet, but important, faith crisis. ( even now she still turns to the seven when lost but not in the same spirit as before. in it she still remembers her mother, the prayers sent to the gods for her children, or rhaenyra. )

@bledsaint SAID, " I WAS LOSING MY FAITH IN EVERYTHING. "

a quiet breath is taken into her chest, mind running with what she could say. no one understands ones own faith crisis unlike yourself, perhaps whatever dowager queen has to say would not be enough. no shame in trying, is there ? brown eyes lift, leg crossing over other from where she sat. ❛ it is no easy nor simple thing to lose faith, confidence, in what you thought you knew. ❜ it flows hesitant from her lips, a pause, before she can continue. ❛ no one can understand it nor make decision on it but you ... ❜ something alicent knew intimately, still knows. ❛ but, believe me when i say ... i understand what you mean. it is not an easy thing to admit. you feel ... shame for doubting gods you have spent the whole of your life trusting. ❜