since tumblr is being weird about html these days thought i would create a masterlist of sorts for all of my favourite fics over the years, some from my old masterlist and new ones i've not been able to add. (reupload)
just as a heads up, some of these are locked so you'll need to be logged in on ao3. i've tried to tag as many folk as possible but a lot of these are on archive, so if you recognise anybody let me know!
legend
mature (not just smut) - ♥︎
angst - ✿
fluff - ❀
chapter - ★
final fantasy xv / vii
seven
trust in me - aerith gainsborough + reno of the turks / heartsfate {✿}
maelstorm - aerith gainsborough + reno of the turks / mushy_snugglebites {♥︎✿★}
asphodel - aerith gainsborough + reno of the turks / tangerina_de_archanea {♥︎❀}
somewhere - aerith gainsborough + reno of the turks / lunardrop {♥︎❀}
dailies - aerith gainsborough + reno of the turks / melonpaan {♥︎}
friends in high places - aerith gainsborough + reno of the turks / mushy_snugglebites {♥︎}
hen in the foxhouse - jessie raspberry + reno the turks / @themossstomper {✿♥︎★}
cinnamon. - cissnei + reno of the turks / bby_rabbit {✿♥︎★}
blinding - tseng + elena of the turks / @bouncymouse {✿}
fifteen
solstice - ignis + original character / ayy_zajjy {✿★}
untitled - ignis scientia + reader / @miss-scientia {♥︎}
rapture in the dark puts me at ease - luche lazarus + reader / @saphscribes {✿❀}
Hi all, (everyone who is still here that is!) just a random post by me! Not totally random actually. I was just going through my old documents and I found a FFXV one shot I had completely finished but never posted for some reason. I re-read it and actually quite liked it, so I thought I’d stop by and post it for anyone still around! It’s a bit of slight Noctis angst, I hope you enjoy if you read!
(Also, I stop by from time to time and see notifications still popping up. You are all still so lovely!)
Prompto x Reader x Noctis (kind of!)
SFW
This is a long one!
She had confessed her feelings to him at the beginning of their journey, but he’d rejected them to stick to his duty. After a while she moved on and started dating Prom, which is... great! Fantastic really! Then why did he feel so shitty...?
Noctis was sure, he thought to himself as he shuffled around in his sleeping bag, that the six had a pretty sick sense of humour. They had to have, judging by his current predicament. Either that, or he had done something really, really, really bad in a past life to deserve this.
Gods above it wasn’t fair.
It wasn’t fair that he was the one chosen to be the king of kings, having his future laid out and already planned for him. It wasn’t fair that he had to marry Luna, an area in life where he ought to have control, yet had none. And it certainly wasn’t fair that the actual girl he was in love with, was with someone else.
And that someone was his best friend.
To make matters worse, she had previously admitted feelings for Noctis too, early on in their journey. But he’d had to say no, that he was already betrothed to another, that he couldn’t do that to Luna or his family. A familiar sinking feeling clawed at Noctis’ gut as he recalled that day, the regret of his words churning in his stomach.
What an idiot.
How different life could’ve been if he’d only told her how he felt that day. Instead, he had kept his lips sealed and she had moved on. Unfortunately, to a certain blond haired sharp shooter.
Although he had his back to them, Noctis could hear them both now, whispering to each other in a shared sleeping bag. Did they have to be so... so affectionate? Constantly touching, constantly giggling. It was like they lived to torture him.
Noctis stifled a groan, the pit in his stomach growing ever deeper. The whispering of the two finally ceased, and Noctis was about to send a silent thanks to the gods, before an odd sound stopped him.
Are they...?
A sharp wet sound emanated from behind him, confirming his suspicions. They were making out, completely unaware of the wide awake prince laid only mere inches away from them.
I must’ve done something absolutely awful in a previous life.
Before he could prevent it, a perfect picture of the scene behind him had appeared in his mind; her wrapped tightly against Prompto’s body, his arms tight against her, pulling her to his frame. Their lips locked in a heated kiss, eyes communicating their sheer desperation for each other.
It was like a knife had impaled his stomach. The mental image paired with the the all too real sounds behind him was enough to make him queasy. The thing was though, he couldn’t even find it in himself to be angry at either of them. He had rejected her, and she had ended up with Prom - why shouldn’t they have got together? It was neither of their fault, no. Could he even blame himself however? Was it his own fault, even though he’d been born into this life with all of his future, all of his destiny already set out for him? Was it his fault for following his duty? He wasn’t certain, but he was damn sure that it sucked.
Curling his fingertips into the soft material of his pillow, Noctis attempted to block out the almost heavenly sighs that fell from her lips. Slowly he drifted off, plagued with thoughts of how if only he had the chance, he could make her sigh like that...
-
The ever delicious scent of Ignis’ cooking drifted to your nose as the evening meal was presented to you and your camp mates. Your stomach grumbled in anticipation, desperate for fuel after the exhausting day you’d all had. “I dunno if it’s because I’m ravenous, or if you’ve done an extra special job of it tonight Iggy, but this is the best meal I’ve ever laid my eyes upon!” Your boyfriend Prompto sighed dramatically from beside you, eyes lighting up as he was handed his food.
“Kid’s right Iggy, this is good stuff.” Gladio nodded, already digging into his larger than average portion.
“Mmmmph...” came your almost orgasmic sigh of agreement.
“Well, thank you everyone, but I dare say that I haven’t done anything extra special tonight. Perhaps we were all ready for a meal after our rather busy day.” Ignis modestly brushed aside the compliments, but you could tell he was pleased by the corners of his mouth rising, fighting to hide the beam threatening to reveal itself.
You were halfway through your food before you realised that Noctis hadn’t said a word since sitting down. Casting your eyes over to the prince, you saw his figure sitting rather slumped over on the floor opposite you. One hand gripped a fork rather loosely as he stabbed the utensil repeatedly into the same carrot, in and out, over and over. His brow line puckered slightly, the hints of a frown forming over his dull looking eyes. It struck you that he sort of looked like... he was sulking. And now you thought about it, he’d been really grumpy all day, unresponsive and quiet.
Wonder what’s up with him? You thought, glancing once more. Strands of his jet black hair fell into his eyes, causing him to blink those long lashes and sweep his head slightly to clear his vision.
Your heart stuttered.
As much as you didn’t want it, he was still able to get you like that. One little move of his head or gesture of his hands, and it shook you again just how pretty he was.
It truly was hard to forget about your first love.
Drawing your eyes away you searched for another familiar pair, gaze landing on the ever smiling, ever warm face of your boyfriend and immediately you felt better. As much as Noctis could sometimes catch you off guard, you knew for certain you loved Prompto. There was no doubt there.
“You okay [Name]?” His kind face and genuine smile had you smiling back instantly.
“Sure am Prom.” You replied, resting a hand on his knee. Naturally, his hand rested on top of yours, warm and safe.
“What’s the matter with you prince sulks?” Gladio voiced your earlier question, albeit a little more teasingly. Everyone stopped eating to glance over at the Prince in question.
Noctis shot Gladio a glare, his eyes clearly saying ‘don’t even start’.
“Is there something on your mind that you wish to share?” Ignis asked this time, much more accommodatingly.
“No. Why, does it look like it?” His voice was gruff, annoyed. There was definitely something up.
“Well, you’ve not really said much since coming back, and you’ve barely touched your food.” You offered.
“Yeah pal, is there anything we can help with?” Prompto offered his best friend, leaning forward so he could pat his leg.
Finally Noctis looked up, but as you caught his expression your heart sank. He looked mighty pissed.
“I said there isn’t anything. Why do you guys have to push me all the time?”
Prompto blinked, taken aback by his friend’s blunt tone.
“I just wanted to see if there’s anything I could do to-”
“Well there isn’t Prompto. There’s nothing that anyone can do, okay?” The prince snapped, rising to his feet.
Prompto’s face fell, and that was like someone had pressed the anger button on inside you. You were suddenly furious. How could he talk like that to his best friend?
“What the hell is up with you?” Standing to your feet, you walked over to the sulky prince.
“Nothing, [Name].”
“Nothing? So you think you can talk to people like that because... because nothing?”
Noctis looked at you, fully frowning now, agitation apparent in his ocean blue eyes.
“Guys, I think we should just cool it...” Prompto’s quiet voice attempted to cut the tension which was now crackling in the air.
“I agree, Noctis I’m not sure what’s wrong, but we must-”
“I’d have been fine if people had just left me alone.” Noctis cut over Ignis.
“Sorry that people care about you.” You retorted, anger still clouding your better judgement.
“Yeah well, I never asked for people to. I never asked for any of this.”
“You ungrateful little-”
“Noctis.” Gladio’s voice stopped you from finishing your sentence. He hadn’t shouted, hadn’t raised his voice, but his deep rumbling tone halted you. “I think you should go and take a walk. Cool down. Come back when you have a better head on, cause this is going no where.”
“Tch, fine.” Noctis grumbled, but turned on his heel and stalked off into the night, leaving the four of you hurt, annoyed and confused.
-
The campsite seemed overly quiet now that the prince was gone, suffocatingly so. Every cough and every shuffle was heard, adding to the already tense atmosphere.
“I just don’t understand. It’s not like him.” Prompto said for the fifth time. He was anxiously picking at the hem of his shirt, pulling at a loose thread. Every so often you had to lay your hand atop his to remind him to stop before it became threadbare.
“I know what you mean, I don’t get what’s up with him.” Gladio sighed and stretched.
“Perhaps his last comment gave us some insight? He said he never asked for any of this. He has never been overly fond on what his future holds in store for him...” Ignis offered a solution in a quiet speculative tone. You almost scoffed however.
“It still doesn’t give him the right to talk to his best friend like dirt.” Prompto squeezed your hand in silent thanks, but you knew that the blond wasn’t even angry. In fact, you correctly assumed that he was more worried for Noctis’ safety right now.
Pure person through and through.
“I do wish we could know where he went.” Ignis sighed, guardian-like instincts kicking in.
“I’m sure he’ll be fine specs, he’ll come back when he’s ready.” Gladio attempted to appease Ignis, to no avail.
You had a pretty good idea of where Noctis might have headed to, thinking back to the car journey earlier on that day. The only time when the prince had shown remotely any interest in what was going on around him is when you had driven past a very large lake. It was highly plausible that he’d gone to check it out. The more you thought about it, the more that you were certain this is where he’d have headed. And the more you thought about it, the more you realised you could remember the way there. And the more you thought about that, the more you realised this was a good a chance as any to have a proper conversation with him. And to possibly lecture him on how to actually talk to his best friend.
I can go there, yank him back here and make him apologise.
Looking over at Prompto’s anxious face, his top front teeth gently nibbling on his lower lip, you knew this was the right thing to do. You stood up quite forcefully, drawing the attention of the other three boys.
“[Name]...?”
“I’m going to go find him, and bring him back. Then I’m going to get him to apologise.”
Ignis sighed, Gladio nodded, and Prom...
“Are you sure you want to do that [Name]?” He stammered, looking torn between some inner dilemma.
“I’m sure. I think I know where to look, but I’ll be fine. I can’t have him talking to you like that Prom. I can’t.”
“He was just angry, he didn’t mean it.”
“Well then, he can just say sorry when I drag him back here.” You told Prompto with a reassuring smile. The blond boy finally smiled back, standing up to face you.
“Thank you [Name]. Be safe.” He told you, and with a quick kiss you set off in search of one sulky prince to bring home.
-
Just as you’d expected, Noctis had made his way over to the lake that your group had passed earlier. You could see his silhouette from where you stood; his shadowed figure sat crossed legged on the wooden pier which stretched out into the middle of the lake. The perfect fishing spot, yet he wasn’t fishing.
Well shit, there’s gotta be something really wrong with him then.
It hadn’t taken you all too long to get there since you knew which paths to take, however it was still a rather long way away from where your group had pitched the tent. It had been a miracle that no daemons had attacked you, dark as it was out. You wondered how long the prince had been sat there, not fishing, just sitting and watching the lake.
Taking a deep breath, you walked out from your hiding spot and marched all the way down to the lake, stopping to stand a few feet away from Noctis. He didn’t move upon your arrival, showed no sign that he was even aware of your presence.
You cleared your throat.
“Noctis?”
“[Name]?” Was his reply, quiet but with a hint of sullen sarcasm you knew well. Swallowing the biting response you wanted to give, you instead replied;
“What are you doing out here?”
He didn’t answer straight away, still looking down at his hands. In fact, he took so long to answer that you weren’t sure if he’d even heard you. But then finally;
“It’s peaceful out here. When it’s night like this, lakes always seem that much more... tranquil. Kinda makes me feel like time has stopped, at least in this little area, y’know?” His reply startled you a little, it hadn’t been what you were expecting. And looking around the lake, you could kind of see what he meant. But as lovely as the lake was, you weren’t here to discuss that. You had a purpose in mind for travelling all the way out here, and feeling sorry for the prince wasn’t it.
“Noctis, I don’t really understand your train of thought right now, but what I do know, is that you snapped at everyone and left your best friend feeling highly confused and rather hurt.” He could probably hear the accusatory edge to your voice.
Well, good.
“Look, I didn’t mean to upset anyone. I just hate it when everyone is pushing me.”
“Yeah, well y’did.”
“I know that [Name].” He finally turned to look at you, those ocean blues flashing with a hint of frustration. “Don’t think I don’t know that, cause I do. It makes me feel worse than I already do, alright?”
You folded your arms. “Then come back and apologise.”
“Tch, I’m not going back there yet.” He mumbled, his eyes dropping once more. This only annoyed you further.
“So, it makes you feel bad, and yet... you’re not gonna apologise for what you’ve done? Is that it?”
“N-n... that’s not what I said.” The prince suddenly sprang to his feet, his body towering over you. He was getting worked up at your words, the biting remarks nibbling away at his ability to think clearly enough to explain himself coherently.
“You aren’t the only one going through some tough shit, okay?” You snapped, unaware at his inner turmoil.
“Obviously! I never once said- it’s really hard for me to- just stop pushing me, alright?”
“No. If you won’t apologise then we at least get to know what’s got that stick so far up your butt!” You drew yourself up to try and make yourself look taller. There was no way he was worming out of this one, and you could tell he knew. He could sense your determination, his eyes betraying the slightest hint of panic within the frustration.
“[Name], seriously, you-”
“No Noctis! We’re sick of it! We can’t even help you if you don’t explain.”
“You can’t help me.”
“Why not? What is it Noctis?” Your voice was sharp but your eyes were gentle. Underneath all of your annoyance, you really did just want to help your friend.
“[Name], really, you don’t-”
“What is it?”
“I’m telling you, you’re not-”
“What is it?”
“[Name]-!”
“Just tell me what it is!”
“It’s you!”
You paused, the words you were about to say dying in your throat. It was... you? You were the reason he was acting this way? Unease swirled in your stomach.
I’ve been making him feel like this...?
Noctis was almost panting, seeming out of breath from your shouting match. Although he seemed weary, he did not look as if he regretted saying so.
“It’s...me?” You whispered, his answer throwing you completely. Noctis sighed heavily, one hand rising to awkwardly scratch the back of his neck. Suddenly he almost seemed... tired.
“Look... that came out wrong, okay? It’s not... it’s not just you.”
“But I... I’ve done something to hurt you?” The crack in her voice at the end of the sentence physically pained him to hear, made him want to take back everything he’d just said. He’d suffer with it all internally if he never had to hear her sound pained again.
“[Name], it’s not something you’ve done. Please, just let it go.” Noctis pleaded, knowing his efforts would more than likely be futile. Slowly he turned away from her, walking once again to the edge of the wooden beams to sit down, dangling his legs only centimeters above the calm lake. Not looking at her made this easier. Her crumpled expression only further pained his heart, and it was getting hard to quell the need to comfort her as it was.
Gentle padding sounds as she walked to sit next to him told him she wasn’t going to give up that easily. Frustrated, he repressed a groan.
Not. Fucking. Fair.
“Noctis...whatever I’ve done, I want to know. It was never my intention to hurt you.”
Of course it wasn’t, pure soul that she was.
Her quiet tone caused him to sneak a peek at her from the corner of his eye. She was sat close to him, legs dangling, an almost mirror of his pose. All traces of previous anger had been washed from her face, instead, confusion and remorse took its place.
He hated that he was responsible for it.
“Honestly, there really isn’t anything you could have done about it. I’m not sure there’s anything anyone could have done about it. My future has been set since day one, I don’t have a say in this stuff... and I sure as hell don’t have a say in who I fall in love with either.”
A quick intake of breath from his immediate right caused him to realise what he’d just said out loud.
Shit!
His head snapped to look at her fully now. She was turned to him, eyes wide in shock as the realisation of what he’d just admitted sunk in. Quickly he began to try and explain.
“[Name], I-”
“That’s not fucking fair.” Her voice was dull as she cut over him. To his surprise, tears quickly gathered in the corner of her eyes which were rapidly becoming tinted with red. She was... really upset. He had been expecting anger. Not sadness.
“That’s really un-fucking-fair of you Noctis. You know... you know how I felt about you. It took a while to get over that rejection.”
“I’m sorr-”
“You don’t get to say that to me now Noctis! I’m with Prompto, I’ve moved on! I picked myself up and carried on living, you can’t just, just waltz back in and say that. It’s not fair!”
“I know.” He uttered, so softly it was as if he was speaking to himself. It was your turn to be surprised at the sadness of his tone. A few moments of silence passed between the both of you, your eyes trained on the almost black waters beneath you. It was hard to really believe what he’d admitted... he loved you?
Noctis broke the silence first with a soft sigh. Well, if the cat was out of the bag, he may as well try and explain himself.
“I tried so hard to stop it. Y’know? I knew it wasn’t fair, believe me, that’s all I’ve been saying these past few months. Not fair on you, Prom, or me. But, [Name],” He took a deep breath; “you’ve no idea how fucking hard it is when I see you cuddled up to him every night.”
Her eyelids fluttered shut as he spoke, a little pucker forming between her brows as she frowned slightly. There it was again, that look of pain. But he couldn’t stop explaining now he’d started, it would be better to get to the bottom of it.
“It’s not like I resent either of you. Honestly, I was happy for the both of you. But I also felt like absolute shit. Took me a while to realise why, guess I’ve never been one to be clued up about their emotions.”
That earned him a slight snort.
“Yeah, guess that’s no secret either, right?” His words were tinged with regret.
Chancing a glance her way he saw that her eyes were still closed. However, she made no move to stop him explaining, so he continued, eager to finally get it out in the open.
“So when I finally realised how I felt about you... well, the fact that it was far too late sucked. And it just got me thinking, if my life wasn’t so predestined, if I had even a little bit of control over areas of my life where I really should, then we’d be together. We’d be together right now [Name]. No pre-arranged wedding duties. And it’s just been eating at me how little of a choice I get over pretty much everything in my life. Then listening to you and Prom giggling and enjoying each other every night... I just wanted that.”
Finally he petered off, letting the weight of what he’d said hang in the air. It was like the burden had finally been lifted from his shoulders - she knew how he felt. He’d told her, in probably the longest speech he’d ever given in his life, and it just felt good to not have it burning him from the inside.
Although that may all go to shit the next time her and Prom start sucking face again. He almost grimaced at the thought.
The seconds ticked by in what felt like hours, she didn’t breath a word. Shyly Noctis turned to face her again, noticing her eyes were finally open, wide and [e/c], staring right back at him. The whites of her eyes were tinged a deeper red, and fresh tears had collected in her lids. His heart almost broke. He wanted to stop the crying, comfort her, take it all back, anything to stop her tears.
Undecidedly, he lifted his hand, fingers outstretched to rest on her shoulder, but froze in mid air.
“[Name], you don’t know how sorry I am.” He whispered, and she replied with a quiet sob from deep in her throat.
Before he knew what he was doing, the one sound caused him to finally reach out to her, close the distance between them. In no time at all, his strong arms were wrapped around her shoulders, her waist. Her head buried in the crook of his neck, holding her close as she sobbed. His fingers rubbed soothing circles into her back as he held her, noticing with a sick, ironic pleasure that they fit together so well. Like his arms had been made to fit her body exactly.
Could this get any worse? He was comforting her.
But she’s not yours.
They fit together perfectly, like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle together at last.
But she’s not yours.
She was all he wanted. But she wasn’t his to have.
Fuck, this sucks.
Noctis wasn’t sure how long he sat there, holding her. Time truly seemed at a stand still; they were lost in this little hidden part of nature. He wasn’t sure when her tears finally stopped, but he could feel her breathing return to normal, her silent sobs no longer racking her chest. Still, he couldn’t let her go. Didn’t dare move for fear of breaking this moment with her, her face gently buried into the side of his neck, wrapped in his embrace. He knew it would never happen again, despite how much he wanted it.
It couldn’t.
“Noctis?” Her voice was soft, thick from the tears she’d shed.
“Yes?” They were almost whispering, but in the tranquil quiet of the night, the sound seemed to echo in his skull.
“I’m in love with Prompto.”
“I know.” His reply was gentle, but the feeling in his heart was anything but. The admission shouldn’t have been a surprise to him, he’d known it for a while. He could tell just by how she looked at him, the pure adoration for Prom in her heart. It still hurt. He wished she’d look at him like that.
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be.” He uttered, one hand absentmindedly reaching up to tuck a stray hair back behind her ear.
“It’s me who should be apologising. To everyone back at camp, but mostly to you. It wasn’t fair for me to dump all of my baggage on you like that. I just... felt I had to.”
“No... I’m glad you did.” She had lowered her voice, and it came out slightly mumbled into his shoulder, but it meant the world to him anyway. It felt like she’d accepted what he said, and that was the best he could hope for right now.
“Thank you [Name].” He whispered, his voice trailing off, leaving what he wished he could say hanging in the air between them both.
