"the same interview 1 year apart" video that dropped today literally ressurected me and you can all be expecting the beginning to my chris story soon π
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Picking up your sister from her own prom Matt takes the second chance he's been presented to tell you all the things he never said.
β§βΛ matt x fem!reader
β§βΛ warnings: reader has nails done again and makeup on! also not proofread bc im tired and its 2 am :c ill do it tomorrow tho (?)
β§βΛ word count: 1.4k
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Matt thought about holding your hand.
This has been a recurring urge for the past 3 years now but for the first time in weeks he couldnβt act upon it and it was really taking all of his self control to not reach for your fingers that were resting on top of your thigh, drumming a mindless pattern into the material of your pants as you looked out of the window.
His hand would sometimes inch a bit towards yours, but everytime they even so much as grazed your fingers you would suddenly reach for your water or for the phone to change the song.
All the signs were pointing towards the fact that youβre mad at him or that your feelings about him have changed in some sort of negative sense over the last few days.
He tried not to sigh too loudly but he was growing more and more frustrated and worried with how distant you seemed lately.
The call from your sister, asking you if you could maybe pick her up from prom was an opportunity for Matt to get some time alone with you, in the hopes of discussing this sudden tension that had formed seemingly out of nowhere between the two of you.
He parked somewhere in front of his old school, the familiar building seemed much different tonight, but in a whole other way than it did during his own prom night.
The music was still softly playing on the radio and every once in a while Matt would glance towards you, one of his hands resting on the steering wheel, the other on his thigh.
βI texted her weβre here, she says sheβll say goodbye to her friends and will be out in a minute,β you mumbled, your eyes trained on your phone, not once meeting Mattβs eyes.
He just hummed in acknowledgement, a silence that was so unusually awkward hung in the air and it physically pained him that for the first time in Mattβs life he didnβt feel as though you and him were even friends at all.
βI hate this,β he murmured, his head finally turning towards you, burning holes into the side of your head as he waited for you to reciprocate his stare.
βHigh school?β You questioned jokingly, knowing exactly what he was actually talking about but hoping that he wouldnβt start this conversation.
βYou know what I mean,β Matt murmured, this time he reached out for your hand, a sudden bravery overcoming him that he wasnβt aware he had.
Your eyes fell onto his hand, resting on top of yours, tracing mindless shapes into the back of your hand as he waited for you to speak.
βYou wanna sit on the bleachers for a bit while we wait?βΒ
It wasnβt what Matt had expected you to say, but any words that were directed towards him with your full intent were cherished and appreciated by him at this point and so he hopped out of the car as quick as he possibly could, walking around to open your door and pulling you towards the familiar field with a hopeful smile on his face.
The bleachers looked just as strange and unfamiliar as they did two years ago, only this time there was some sense of melancholy mixed in between, it was weird seeing this place again after you had spent almost every day of your life for 4 years here.
βIsnβt it weird?β Matt began, βto be here again, I mean.β
You thought back to your high school self, how much effort and time you put into wearing your hair the way that Matt had complimented it once when the two of you were twelve, the way you did your Makeup and practised slow dancing over and over again just in case he might ask you that night.Β
In more ways than one you were here again.
βYeah, I guess so,β is the answer you ultimately settle on, your eyes staying on the floor as you tried to distract yourself from the fact every glance at his face made you want to kiss him.
βYou called me pretty that night, for the first time after 3 years of friendship,β you spoke, no real emotion behind your words, you spoke it like a fact and there was a bittersweetness to the memory.
βI think that was the only time you called me pretty, actually.β
It was in this split second that Matt had realised something so crucial and life-changingly important, he was almost embarrassed he didnβt think about it sooner.
As the light from inside the building illuminated your face, that was just as beautiful now as it was then, in the same way that it had during your own prom night Matt noticed that this might be the second chance he had been wishing for ever since to say what he didnβt get to say the first time around.
βBut you know I think you do,β he scooted a bit closer to you, his hand taking yours into his, βI always think youβre pretty.β
Matt has never seen you blush before, or at least he hadn't noticed, but the sight, even in this darkness, was one he couldnβt get enough of and he suddenly saw how good it feels to speak his mind.
Neither you nor him could have expected his next words.
βI should have kissed you that night.β
He scoots a little closer
βAnd every night after that.β
His voice softening.
βI should have asked you to dance and I should spend my time telling you how pretty you are instead of just thinking about it.β
Your heart had never beaten this fast and the more he spoke the more you were convinced you were dreaming all of this.
βI guess what Iβm trying to say is that I should have told you I like you. Because I do, still and the thought of not being your friend, at the very least, has killed me the past few days.β
He waits for you to speak, clearly noticing you still needed some time to process all his words.
βI never knewβ¦,β you began, leaning onto your hand to get even closer to Matt.
βI didnβt think you felt the same.β
βWaitβ¦the same?βΒ
It was Mattβs turn to blush.
βObviously, you goof.β
βI thought you were developing a crush on Chris.β
βEw.β
βMy thoughts exactly,β he giggled along with you, your shoulders touching at this point as he glanced towards you again when your laughter died down.
βSoβ¦what now?β
Subconsciously his tongue darted out to slightly wet his lips and at this point Matt had already said too much to hide the blatant glance towards yours.
βI guess, you could make up for all those times you never kissed me,β you mumbled, your lips hovering over his before finally feeling the softness of mouth against yours, his hand finding its way to the side of your face as he kissed you so delicately you could barely even recognise him. Pulling away his eyes searched for yours, looking for permission to do it again, which you gladly gave.
The second kiss was much more passionate, eager in a way that made it really clear to the both of you just how long you had been waiting for this.
Your hands found their way into his hair and you thanked all your stars for this truly perfect-
βGross,β the disgusted comment from your sister made the two of you jump apart, looking towards her in embarrassment.
βOnce you two are done, can we go home?β She mumbled over her shoulder, walking towards the car.Β
As much as you tried to hide your giddiness, the smile on your faces told your sister all she needed to know as the two of you followed after her.
βSo, does that mean I get to hold your hand whenever I want to?β Matt mumbled, trying to hold back his smile.
βI guess it does.β
βGood, because I was honestly planning on biting my nails again just so you'd let me hold yoursβ¦speaking of, does that also mean I can bite your-β
βDonβt push it,β you mumbled back before slipping your hand into his.
βFine, fine, I wonβt.βΒ
He gave your hand a reassuring squeeze as he reached for the car keys with his other hand.
ill write 1 last side part this weekend but the story is done :)
thank you all for the kind feedback i really hope you enjoyed this! know that the series im working on rn is the one that i've been planning for a while and is the reason i made this blog in the first place!
i promise i wont disappoint you! :)) and it will be so much cooler than anything ive ever written! :D also ill try to upload that new series every second day, so i hope to prewrite it over the next few days :))
The denial of your infatuation with Matt finally ends after a date with someone else. But once admitting to them, you try to spare yourself the heartbreak you've already known once before. The results of your attempt feel oddly similar.
β§βΛ matt x fem!reader
β§βΛ warnings: reader has nails done again and makeup on! also not proofread bc im tired and its 2 am :c ill do it tomorrow tho (?)
β§βΛ word count: 1.9k (π)
β§βΛ masterlist - part 1 | part 1.5 | part 3
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Ever since that fateful night, Mattβs hand would ultimately find yours at least four times a day.Β
You still had to fully unravel how you felt about this, but the initial shock whenever his fingers traced yours shily at first, waiting for you to glance his way and give him a sign of approval wore off a lot quicker than you both had expected.
On some days it would be him to remember your little agreement first, heβd catch himself almost biting at the nail of his pinky, stopping himself mid-motion and looking around for you instead. He didnβt try to deny the smile that would spread across his face in anticipating of feeling your hand in his again, though he definitely tried to hide it whenever he finally reached you, his hand sliding into yours effortlessly before playing with the rings on your finger or letting his thumbs run across your knuckles.
On other days it would be you whoβd catch him biting his nails, rolling your eyes but grinning a bit nonetheless youβd walk over, slowly and softly pull his hand from his mouth and take it into yours instead. You tried not to get flustered at the way Matt would stare at you whenever this happened, ignored his lovestruck stare and his mouth slightly parting, looking at you like you were the light of his life and he needed a moment to process the fact you were willingly touching him at this very moment. (Which actually was how he felt, though you werenβt aware of that yet.)
Your attempts at ignoring the pounding in your chest, your lingering looks on his lips and the heat that would rise on your face whenever youβd get a text from him, failed miserably.Β
You were reaching a point of denial that, even you had to admit, was on the verge of being simply delusional, when you sat in front of a guy from your university, who had asked you on a date just about a week ago, back during those bright happy days in which you werenβt trying to desperately prevent yourself from falling in love with Matt. Again.Β
You had always kind of liked him, he dressed well and heβd send you notes whenever you asked for them, though something was extremely off about him tonight and while trying to find some pathetic excuse of a reason why, a part of you deep down knew that you just couldnβt bring yourself to fully enjoy this date because he wasnβt Matt.
Stepping out of the restaurant you let out a sigh, the coldish air made you pull the jacket you had worn a bit closer around your body as you walked down the sidewalk towards the boys apartment.
Your thoughts were filled, no, plagued by Matt and the dilemma you were facing with your growing feelings for him. You thought back to your high school self, the way youβd always get unsure and insecure whenever you tried to find a reason why Matt never seemed to look your way, the way youβd spend hours at night staying up and contemplating calling him, telling him how you felt. You were sure if your high school self could see you right now, she would rip you a new one.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of your phone.
You pulled on your headphones, ignored your rising heartbeat, and picked up.
βHey, Matt,β you smiled, his face popping up on the screen, a white shirt and his dangling necklace greeting you, the phone thrown somewhere on the bed and him leaning above it to properly greet you.
The smile that spread across his face, along with his arms on either side of the phone as he leaned over the phone were a sight you wouldnβt complain about if you werenβt so desperately trying to not fall in love with him.
βHey, you,β he smiled back, pushing himself up from the bed again to reach for a sweater that had been laying somewhere on the side.
βWhere are you? I thought you were coming over for a movie tonight,β he murmured, the view of his face blocked by the sweater he was folding.
A part of you was grateful you could finally focus on something else besides how ridiculously handsome he looked in the dim lighting of his room, while a different much more honest part of you missed his stupidly pretty face.
βAre you doing laundry?β You semi-fake gasped.
You could see him roll his eyes while he picked up another sweater.Β
βWill you answer my question?β He ignored you.
βIβm sorry Iβm just- Iβm just so in shock. I come over like every other day for movie night but this I feel like this is something annually.β
βYouβre so funny.β
βI feel like I should call your mother, let her know.β
βOkay.β
βShould I write this down in my calendar?β
Matt put down the last of his shirts, before picking up his phone.
βYouβre so incredibly annoying, dear god. If you do end up coming over just know I wonβt let you in,β he murmured, while walking towards the kitchen, leaning you against the wall as he starts making popcorn.
βObviously Iβm coming over, donβt you see Iβm already on my way, stupid?β You smirked, pulling your phone away from you to better show the familiar houses of his neighbourhood you were walking by.Β
Matt ignored your comment, instead he focused on your face during the short time that the street lamp illuminated it, the way your hair was done reminded him of the hairstyle you had during his last birthday, and the soft shade of lipstick you seemed to wear made his eyes linger even a little longer.
βWhere were you?β He mumbled, the cookie he was eating, muffling his words.
You hesitated. Usually, Matt was the first person youβd tell about your dates, but this time, it almost felt wrong to tell him, despite the fact it was mediocre at best.
βOn a date,β you murmured.
You couldnβt quite make out the look on his face after your words had fully registered in his mind, but it was unusually quiet, especially for a phone call with Matt.
βBut it wasnβt any good, honestly,β you elaborated, mentally slapping yourself for feeling the need to give him reassurance that he wasnβt asking for and probably not in need of. (He actually very much was.)
βOh, Iβm sorry,β he apologised, βwhy not?β
βI donβt know, I guess he just wasnβt my type?β You replied, when in reality you meant to say, βHe just wasnβt you.β
βI think he talked a bit too much for me, and we just didnβt have much in common.β
This was true, technically, you just left out the fact that the reason you werenβt able to participate in most of the conversations was because you werenβt listening but instead thinking about which movie youβd be watching in a different guy's bed tonight.
βOh, so youβd want a guy who can listen well?β Matt questioned, moving back into his room.
βI mean, of course.β
βMaybe he also likes the same things that you do, the same music, for example.β
βMhm, sure,β you answer suspiciously, having a feeling you knew where this was going.
βSomeone who knows you really well? Maybe because heβs known you since high school?β
βI guess that would be nice.β
βWhoβs also really tall, brunette and handsome?β He smirked.
You couldnβt stop yourself from smiling, hoping the darkness outside was covering up your blush at his flirty comments, trying to stay composed as you mustered up all your strength to come up with a remark.
βOkok, stop describing Chris to me and let me in, Iβm here.β
Youβve never seen someone's smile fade so quickly, though you saw him hold back a grin at your comment.
βWhatever, freeze out there.β
βI could always call Chris to-β
Matt ripped open the door before you could even finish your sentence.
After changing into some more comfortable clothes that Chris had lent you, (βWhy are you wearing Chrisβ sweater?β Matt had pouted. βI didnβt wanna wear any of yours, who knows whenβs the next time youβll fold them.β) you found yourself laying in his bed, a movie running in the back as you told Matt about anything and everything.
β- and so tomorrow I have to drive my sister to the hairdresser to get her hair done for later.β
Matt listened to you, though every once in a while his eyes would wander towards your hands, you had gotten your nails done earlier today (a part of him hoped it wasnβt for that date you went on) and he felt the strong urge to reach out and inspect it closer.Β
As you continued talking he decided to act on his desires.
βI might even have to drive her to her prom, but I donβt know if Iβll make it since I have an assignment due till-,β your words dragged mid sentence, your focus shifting from the story you were telling to the feeling of his hand in yours.
He noticed your shift in demeanour instantly, frowning he pulled away in fear he had made you uncomfortable.
βWhat? Everything okay?β he leaned down towards you, which only made you even more nervous.
βI- yeah, Iβm okay, Iβm just..."
Thinking about kissing you?
A total idiot?
Quite possibly, totally falling in love with you again right now?
β...tired,β you settled on, sitting up a bit in his bed as you averted his eyes, knowing that he was definitely trying to hide a bit of hurt.
βThatβs okay, here, Iβll turn off the movie and we-β
βI think Iβll sleep in Chrisβ room tonight?β You blurted out, quickly getting up from his bed before slowly inching towards his door, only this time the two of you were looking at each other and the disappointment on his face broke your heart.
βOhβ¦yeah, sure. I-Iβll uh- Iβll be awake for a little while then, just in case you change your mind,β he mumbled, embarrassed and confused with a bit of hope in his voice that youβd just get back in bed and cuddle up with him like youβd usually do.
You nodded, your hand reaching towards the doorknob.
βAre you really sure youβre okay?β Matt checked in with you one last time, in reality just desperately hoping to find a reason for you to stay.
βEverythingβs alright,β You hummed before heading down to Chrisβ room, after knocking you bursted in.
βIβm in love with Matt,β you blurted out before he could even fully acknowledge your presence.
βSame,β he joked, his eyes still focused on the screen in front of him until he noticed your silence, finally meeting your glassy eyes and shocked expression he pulled off his headphones almost instantly, walking towards you before pulling you into his arms, letting you hug him back as tightly as you needed to before the two of you sat down on his bed, and talked.
That night both you and Matt laid awake at night, thinking about the other, and while you were trying to remember how you got over him the first time, Matt was hoping you were coming back.
Everythingβs alright, you had said.
Matt sighed into his pillow, the lockscreen of you and him tormenting him even more as he checked the time.
Matt was going to hold you to those words.
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During prom night, you made the realization that giving up your one-sided crush was what's best for everyone involved. Later that night, you help Matt have a realization of his own.
β§βΛ matt x fem!reader
β§βΛ warnings: none :)
β§βΛ word count: 499
β§βΛ masterlist | part one
It was to no surprise at all to find your best friend sitting on the bleachers.
At this point the music was drowned out, nothing more but the occasional vibrating sound of the bass along with some flashing lights that would shine dimly through the windows. The sound of gravel beneath your shoes announced your arrival to Matt and he turned his head toward you with a small smile before waving you over.
"Drained?" You mumbled, sitting down next to him.
He hummed in return, looking ahead at the big empty field.
"It's so peaceful here," he admired, his eyes rediscovering a place he had seen almost everyday for the last 4 years.
You turned towards him before laying your head on his shoulder.
"It really is."
"It's weird, isn't it? You spend so much of your life in one place and then one small night and it looks so different all of a sudden," you mused, putting the thoughts he was having into words in a way that he could never have.
A trait of yours he had always cherished deeply.
A question was burning on the tip of his tongue.
Matt glanced down at you, his eyes lingering on your face, resting against him, your hair tickling his neck as he was contemplating kissing the crown of your head.
Ultimately, he decided to tear his eyes away and mumble his question.
"Do you think that can happen with people too?"
"What?" You question, looking up at him, "you mean, that you really suddenly change how you look at them?"
He looked at you, a jittery breath leaving his lungs as his hands gripped the material of the seat beneath him a bit tighter.
There was an unexplainable and unfamiliar feeling in his chest as he watched the light of the moon bounce off of your face. Your eyes meeting his made his face feel warm and the skin contact made his heart beat concerningly fast.
"Yeah," he managed to respond.
"I guess so," you mumbled, slumping into him again.
Your nose, slightly brushing against his skin, had him stop breathing all together. Any movement could push you away from him again, he thought.
Suddenly, you weren't his best friend that he could just tackle onto the couch whenever you came over anymore. You were fragile and beautiful, and you made him nervous and vulnerable with just a touch.
He was so lost in the thought of you that he almost couldn't hear your next words.
You smiled, oblivious to the way his eyes lingered on your lips before they trailed up to meet your soft gaze, filled with a love that Matt wished he could interpret. He always knew you loved him, but he wondered if you had the same internal battle he was having tonight.
Then, you finally spoke.
"I imagine that's what it's like to fall in love with someone, you know?"
Matt knew.
A lil flashback while I'm working on part two <3
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Despite feeling your old crush on Matt return, you still offer to help him with his nail-biting problem. Old habits die hard, you guess.
β§βΛ matt x fem!reader
β§βΛ warnings: it's mentioned that the reader has painted nails & wore a dress to prom, slight angst, reader thinks she has a one-sided crush
β§βΛ word count: 1.2k
β§βΛ masterlist - part two (coming soon)
You liked to think that moments like this were reserved just for you and Matt alone. The soft blankets covering your bodies on his bed, a movie running in the back that you had both forgotten about, and your full attention on him.
His voice was calm and barely above a whisper as he rambled on about the video they filmed just a few hours prior.
When they had come back from filming, you were still sound asleep on Matt's bed. An abandoned homework still opened on your laptop as the yelling and laughing of the brothers announced them back home.
You got up to greet them and watched their faces light up at the sight of you still being here, nick quickly running over to you to give you a side hug before dashing past you to bring you something from his room while Chris walked past u towards the kitchen, giving you a quick peck on the side of your head as his form of acknowledgement
Matt's way of greeting you had always been a bit different, though.
You watched his shoulders relax a but at the sight of you, he let out a sigh that sounded tired but in a way that told you he was just exhausted from doing something he enjoyed putting his energy to.
His hand would find themselves slowly pulling at the material of your sweater into his arms. His face buried into your neck as he sought out the much awaited peave and comfort he could only find in your arms.
You hugged him back just as tight.
"Okay, you two. Get a room," Nick mumbled as he came back downstairs, an object in bus hand that you couldn't quite make out due to some of Matt's locks still blocking your view.
Much to his dismay, Nick peeled his brother off of you, pushing you towards the couch to show you what he had found.
"No way," you giggled, delicately takiny the framed photo that Nick wanted to show you from him.
You remembered that night so clearly, tracking your fingers over the picture you could almost feel the satin material of the dress you had worn that night. You're smiling, the genuine joy radiating off of your face too strong for you to try and nitpick a flaw of you.
You thought back to the dreadful day at the mall you and the triplets had spent months earlier to pick that dress. The way you instantly decided on the one that Matt seemed to have liked the most. His eyes lingering on the straps to the cut of it before finding their way back to your face, giving you a shy smile.
That picture was taken just minutes after he had first seen you wear it.
"You look beautiful," he said.
You smiled at the memory, giggling inside as you remembered your old crush on Matt.
"Look at the big ass zit Chris had that day," Matt pointed out, pulling you out of your thoughts and taking the picture from your hands.
"You shut up with that haircut, I don't wanna hear a thing from you," Chris mumbled.
"You gonna sleep in my room tonight? We can watch that movie we didn't fin-"
"No, all their stuffs already in my room also your room reeks," Matt protested, taking both you and the framed picture with him.
Nick, for once, didn't try to argue, knowing he wouldn't win when it came to you.
β
When the two of you were laying in bed, Matt had a tendency to start talking about anything that came to mind, occasionally he'd glance at you, making sure you were still paying attention to which you would give his hand an appreciative squeeze. After filming all day with his brothers, you knew Matt needed you to just give him your undevided attention, letting him speak freely without any interruption.
Until you started to hear his words turn into an incoherent mumble, the sound of biting making your head shoot up to look at him.
"Hey!" You spoke up for the first time in a while, slapping his hand away from his mouth and giving him a scolding look.
Matt had always asked you to stop him if you ever caught him biting his nails and despite your much appreciated effort, his habit didn't seem to fade.
"Im sorry," he apologized, the genuine guilt written on his face pulled at your heart strings.
"Don't be sorry," you murmured, "it's not your fault, 'kay?"
"I know, it's just," he leaned his head back a bit, a low groan escaping him, "I don't know, it doesn't bother me in itself, it bothers me more that I can't stop."
You understood. Sitting up a bit, you turned towards him.
"Hey, don't be upset, you just have to find something to do instead of biting your nails, you know? Like every time you get the urge to bite them, you can just play with my nails instead."
He hesitated, but reached for your hand nonetheless. You had just recently gotten your nails done and even when the two of you were still in school he had always had a strange fascination with them.
"...can I bite them?" He mumbled.
"I'd rather you wouldn't," you replied, skeptically.
"Can I rip-" he started to play with the edge of your long nails.
"Noooo," you protested again, pulling your hand away and shielding it with your other in front of your chest.
He smiled apologetically.
"Okay, okay, I was just kidding. C'mon, give it back."
He reached for your hand again, this time carefully tracing the glossy lair of nail polish with his thumb while the rest of his fingers held your hand up in his.
"You better not make me regret this, Matt. If you rip off one of my nails, I'll shave your head."
He ignored your threat, at this point way too entranced by you, the form of your fingers and the softness of your skin. The texture of the design felt fun under his fingertips, and he traced it almost subconsciously.
There was something weird and familiar bubbling up in your chest at the sight of him treating you so delicately. He looked up at you, a grateful smile graced his features as he leaned back down, placed your hand on his, and continued to trace your fingers with his others.
His eyes were back on the movie, leaving you to stare at his side profile with a thousand thoughts running through your head all at once.
At first, you felt warm, giddy, your stomach turning and your cheeks reddening and then an indescribable cold shiver, and the urge to scream into a pillow bubbled up inside you.
The TV illuminated his side profile, the small smile he had while watching. The way your hand seemed to fit so perfectly in his.
"Not this again," you scolded as his fingers tried to rip at one of your nails again.
He just smiled a bit, a slight hint of mischief behind his eyes.
"Don't be scared, I would never hurt you, would I?" He grinned.
You sighed. You were going to hold him to those words.
I wrote this in a daze π¨π¨π¨ anyway part two coming out soon (someone teach me how to write one shots I can't be controlled)
Next part will be in Matt's pov btw maybe? Who knows. But I have an idea where I want this to go. I think.
Despite feeling your old crush on Matt return, you still offer to help him with his nail-biting problem. Old habits die hard, you guess.
β§βΛ matt x fem!reader
β§βΛ warnings: it's mentioned that the reader has painted nails & wore a dress to prom, slight angst, reader thinks she has a one-sided crush
β§βΛ word count: 1.2k
β§βΛ masterlist - (part 1.5) | part 2 | part 3
You liked to think that moments like this were reserved just for you and Matt alone. The soft blankets covering your bodies on his bed, a movie running in the back that you had both forgotten about, and your full attention on him.
His voice was calm and barely above a whisper as he rambled on about the video they filmed just a few hours prior.
When they had come back from filming, you were still sound asleep on Matt's bed. An abandoned homework still opened on your laptop as the yelling and laughing of the brothers announced them back home.
You got up to greet them and watched their faces light up at the sight of you still being here, nick quickly running over to you to give you a side hug before dashing past you to bring you something from his room while Chris walked past u towards the kitchen, giving you a quick peck on the side of your head as his form of acknowledgement
Matt's way of greeting you had always been a bit different, though.
You watched his shoulders relax at the sight of you, he let out a sigh that sounded tired but in a way that told you he was just exhausted from doing something he enjoyed putting his energy to.
His hand would find themselves slowly pulling at the material of your sweater into his arms. His face buried into your neck as he sought out the much awaited peave and comfort he could only find in your arms.
You hugged him back just as tight.
"Okay, you two. Get a room," Nick mumbled as he came back downstairs, an object in bus hand that you couldn't quite make out due to some of Matt's locks still blocking your view.
Much to his dismay, Nick peeled his brother off of you, pushing you towards the couch to show you what he had found.
"No way," you giggled, delicately takiny the framed photo that Nick wanted to show you from him.
You remembered that night so clearly, tracking your fingers over the picture you could almost feel the satin material of the dress you had worn that night. You're smiling, the genuine joy radiating off of your face too strong for you to try and nitpick a flaw of you.
You thought back to the dreadful day at the mall you and the triplets had spent months earlier to pick that dress. The way you instantly decided on the one that Matt seemed to have liked the most. His eyes lingering on the straps to the cut of it before finding their way back to your face, giving you a shy smile.
That picture was taken just minutes after he had first seen you wear it.
"You look beautiful," he said.
You smiled at the memory, giggling inside as you remembered your old crush on Matt.
"Look at the big ass zit Chris had that day," Matt pointed out, pulling you out of your thoughts and taking the picture from your hands.
"You shut up with that haircut, I don't wanna hear a thing from you," Chris mumbled.
"You gonna sleep in my room tonight? We can watch that movie we didn't fin-"
"No, all their stuffs already in my room also your room reeks," Matt protested, taking both you and the framed picture with him.
Nick, for once, didn't try to argue, knowing he wouldn't win when it came to you.
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When the two of you were laying in bed, Matt had a tendency to start talking about anything that came to mind, occasionally he'd glance at you, making sure you were still paying attention to which you would give his hand an appreciative squeeze. After filming all day with his brothers, you knew Matt needed you to just give him your undevided attention, letting him speak freely without any interruption.
Until you started to hear his words turn into an incoherent mumble, the sound of biting making your head shoot up to look at him.
"Hey!" You spoke up for the first time in a while, slapping his hand away from his mouth and giving him a scolding look.
Matt had always asked you to stop him if you ever caught him biting his nails and despite your much appreciated effort, his habit didn't seem to fade.
"Im sorry," he apologized, the genuine guilt written on his face pulled at your heart strings.
"Don't be sorry," you murmured, "it's not your fault, 'kay?"
"I know, it's just," he leaned his head back a bit, a low groan escaping him, "I don't know, it doesn't bother me in itself, it bothers me more that I can't stop."
You understood. Sitting up a bit, you turned towards him.
"Hey, don't be upset, you just have to find something to do instead of biting your nails, you know? Like every time you get the urge to bite them, you can just play with my nails instead."
He hesitated, but reached for your hand nonetheless. You had just recently gotten your nails done and even when the two of you were still in school he had always had a strange fascination with them.
"...can I bite them?" He mumbled.
"I'd rather you wouldn't," you replied, skeptically.
"Can I rip-" he started to play with the edge of your long nails.
"Noooo," you protested again, pulling your hand away and shielding it with your other in front of your chest.
He smiled apologetically.
"Okay, okay, I was just kidding. C'mon, give it back."
He reached for your hand again, this time carefully tracing the glossy lair of nail polish with his thumb while the rest of his fingers held your hand up in his.
"You better not make me regret this, Matt. If you rip off one of my nails, I'll shave your head."
He ignored your threat, at this point way too entranced by you, the form of your fingers and the softness of your skin. The texture of the design felt fun under his fingertips, and he traced it almost subconsciously.
There was something weird and familiar bubbling up in your chest at the sight of him treating you so delicately. He looked up at you, a grateful smile graced his features as he leaned back down, placed your hand on his, and continued to trace your fingers with his others.
His eyes were back on the movie, leaving you to stare at his side profile with a thousand thoughts running through your head all at once.
At first, you felt warm, giddy, your stomach turning and your cheeks reddening and then an indescribable cold shiver, and the urge to scream into a pillow bubbled up inside you.
The TV illuminated his side profile, the small smile he had while watching. The way your hand seemed to fit so perfectly in his.
"Not this again," you scolded as his fingers tried to rip at one of your nails again.
He just smiled a bit, a slight hint of mischief behind his eyes.
"Don't be scared, I would never hurt you, would I?" He grinned.
You sighed. You were going to hold him to those words.
I wrote this in a daze π¨π¨π¨ anyway part two coming out soon (someone teach me how to write one shots I can't be controlled)
Next part will be in Matt's pov btw maybe? Who knows. But I have an idea where I want this to go. I think.