Maria Ayala

Mother of 3 lovely boys. Loving and honorable wife. Waiting for my hero to return to me. (RP)

[books-n-quotes]

“When people start liking people, that’s when someone has the ability to get hurt.”

— Lauren Barnholdt, Two-Way Street (via books-n-quotes)

[books-n-quotes]

All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.

Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet In Heaven (via books-n-quotes)

[books-n-quotes]

“When you have eliminated all which is impossible, then whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth.”

— Arthur Conan Doyle, The Case-Book of Sherlock Holmes (via books-n-quotes)

[cwote]

You are worth it :))

[missingmymike]

Important to know. For those in my life. Especially for the ones I miss.

[freedomforeverybody118]

Turkish:

Geriye dönüp başlangıcı değiştiremezsin, ancak olduğun yerden itibaren hikayenin sonunu değiştirebilirsiniz.

- C.S. Lewis

[missingmymike]

This is a good lesson for my boys. All of them.

[freedomforeverybody118]

Turkish:

Amacım, herkesten daha iyi olmak değil, eskide olduğumdan daha iyi olmaktır.

- Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

[missingmymike]

A good thought.

[missingmymike]

Maria, where have you been?

I’ve been getting this question a lot lately. My lovely friends, you have to understand. My boy was seriously hurt. Thankfully on mine and Mike’s anniversary my precious boy opened his eyes! It was was the best of all gifts I could have ever received!

We are now working to get him back to how he was before, and the doctors say that they believe he will recover fully. They will continue to do testing, but no matter what, he is always my boy. My baby. My miracle!

I am still here. I am just busy with Pedro’s healing, and getting things ready for the boys to go back to school.

I am looking forward to hearing from my Mike again. I hope he is okay. I know the data stream closed before I could ever tell him that Pedro woke up.

[ask-voyager]

Megan is a wacky chick! It would be a shock if Paris cheated. I can't see you guys risking hate to a white male. I want Megan to be Farley’s former gf. Now I am concerned for Kim, Tal and Lang. They are lost and I feel the Farley character has been used too much. I want to see more of others.I'm trying to give my feedback and hope you see it as such. I love Ayala and Maria and cannot wait to see more. I love how it's been built up.

Things sure are interesting! Thanks for your feedback. 

@meganonvoyager, @thebestparisyouhave, @farleyjakobsdottir, @musician-in-space, @bhavael-song, @ensignalang, @lieutenantayala, @missingmymike

[missingmymike]

Maria let me know how I can help you. I will look after the boys. Stay with Pedro. You focus on him and I'll bring by some food later. Lauren Dalby.

Mama Dalby! I absolutely need you. I need your help, your guidance, and your love again. You have been nothing but supportive. Just like having my mama back again. You are much needed.

[missingmymike]

Maria, I know it's so hard right now with Mike gone and Pedro so sick. We all love you and want to help you in any way we can.

I don’t know. My boys are my life. I’ll go crazy without them all.

[missingmymike]

Hello, how it`s going? We are worried.

Worried? Why would anyone be worried about me?! It’s my little boy that’s hurt. He need all the help he can get. Please.

[missingmymike]

They don’t believe me...

I saw it. I was there. I have no issues with these eyes. But no one believes me. No one believes that I saw his hand move. Why won’t they? They just tell me it’s wishful thinking. The denial of a grieving mother. I hear what they say behind my back.

Pedro, my sweet boy. I know you can hear me. Come back to me. I know you daddy needs you to come back to me. Please.

We all love you so much. I will keep fighting for you, no matter what. I don’t care what anyone says! I know you are just lost and need to find your way back home.

We love you.

[lieutenantayala]

Lieutenant Ayala's personal log

It’s been a while since the data stream, but I guess I’m finally sober enough to write a log.

I’ve been relieved of duty. A good call by Tom fucking Paris.

Whatever.

It doesn’t matter.

My son might be dead, he might not be. I’ve accepted that he might be– but I don’t want to think about it. Even if he’s– I can’t mourn without knowing.

I’m just so broken… lost… confused, and there’s nothing I can do about it.

Ah, fuck.

This has to be hell. Or some kind of purgatory tailored for me.

The only comfort is the end of a bottle, or whatever else I can rig the replicator into making.

I feel so alone.

I can’t live like this.

End log.

[missingmymike]

My Answer Is No

They want me to make the worst decision of my life. I can’t. I won’t. I never will. They are asking me to take the only thing keeping him breathing away. I will never do it. I will end my own life before I let them do that! They will have to kill me!

Where is my Mike? I need him so much right now. Our first born. Our precious boy...

[books-n-quotes]

“And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.”

— Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility

[missingmymike]

It’s the truth. What more is there?

[books-n-quotes]

“More than anything I grieve over what we never said.”

— Liv Ullman, Changing

[missingmymike]

How true this is today...

[missingmymike]

Hello Maria, you ok? Can we help?

Okay. Am I okay? That’s a question. Can I answer it? Is there a away? I don’t know.

They keep saying I need help. I don’t need help. My son laying in this bed needs help. Why can’t they cure him? They can cure everything else, but not this. Why not this? I need my boy. I need him to wake up…