Lone Leigh
Lone Leigh I almost forgot what it was like when you were here. I walk into an empty kitchen and almost forgot what it felt like to see you standing there in your boxers with the fridge open gazing blankly inside of it. I stare on to an empty couch not able to remember how it felt when we lay side by side on it. Binging on food, sex, and shows. Life just how we know it. I forgot how it sounded to hear you play the saxophone as I’m coming up the stairs on my lunch break. Angry because I’d have to struggle to get your attention again. How I long to hear that sound as I walk up the stairs, instead of anticipating the lonely air filling our apartment. It’s hard to be apart when your hearts can’t feel whole without each other. My tears are undercover as I hide under covers to disguise my discovery.. Our house is so empty. Nothing here but me.. Lonely. Alone. A lone Leigh. It doesn’t feel like home because my heart is gone and it’s been so long since I held you. Too often I walk around and try to feel your presence. It isn’t helping cause my mind is yelling a million thoughts that get lost somewhere between my tears and my heart when all along the only cure is you. I’m lost in a room full of images of you that are getting harder to remember. The visions used to be clearer. But now they’re not. I almost forgot the way your voice sounds echoing through our halls. The way your breathing feels on my neck as we’re laying down. I tried to picture your face but it’s getting hard. Our little house feels so empty with just me. You not here is not the same thing. My eyes fill with tears as I call out your name .. It’s strange.. but I don’t hear a thing. No one here but me. Lonely and alone.
A Lone Leigh
J. Leigh
(via missleigh011)
