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āĖāšā§Ėā¹ā”ā that summer, as megumi would remember it, lingered in the scent of citrus he could never quite wash from beneath his fingernails. his fingers ached from peeling too many tangerines, the sweetness of them clinging stubbornly long after the season had passed. | w.c 16.5k
AO3 | š£š¤š©ššØ ā before you read i want to say that i genuinely poured every ounce of my soul into this fic and i don't think i'll write anything better than this ever. i wrote this in a span of almost a whole month cause i kept getting too emotional. this was inspired by the songs "so nice (summer samba)", "'s wonderful" and "anything". good luck :)
megumi loves tangerines.
not in the casual way people claim to like fruit, tossing the peels away without a thought, but in the quiet, deliberate way he does most things. like a small ritual carried out in the still corners of the day.
he sits with one in his hand, turning it slowly between his fingers, the skin bright and dimpled like a tiny sun caught in his palm. the room is quiet, the kind of quiet that hums softly around him, and the citrus scent is already beginning to bloom in the air even before the peel breaks. his thumb presses into the rind first, testing the softness, and then his nails follow; short, a little rough from habit. they sink into the skin with a faint snap, puncturing that thin barrier.
the peel splits open beneath the pressure and a sharp mist of juice flicks outward, tiny droplets catching the light before they disappear. sometimes it reaches his face, cool and sudden against his cheek.
he doesnāt flinch when it does. if the fruit leans toward sourness, the juice finds the small wounds along his cuticles (the ones heās chewed and picked at absentmindedly when thoughts crowd too tightly in his head) and it stings there, a brief spark of pain that pulls his attention back to the present.
megumi doesnāt mind it.
slowly, carefully, he peels the tangerine open. the skin comes away in uneven curls beneath his fingers, the inside glows a softer orange, each segment pressed neatly against the next.
he begins the part he loves the most.
one segment at a time, he pulls them free. the thin white threads clinging to the fruit are picked with quiet patience, stripping them away bit by bit. itās meticulous work, something small and repetitive, and his hands move with the same careful focus he uses in everything else. the pith gathers in a little pile beside him.
sometimes he rolls the slice between his fingers before eating it, feeling the delicate skin stretch and give.
when he finally brings it to his mouth, the segment bursts softly between his teeth. sweetness spreads first, then that gentle tang that makes the corners of his jaw tighten for a second before relaxing again.
megumi chews slowly.
the rest of the world feels quieter while he does.
like the simple act of peeling, cleaning, and eating each slice has pressed pause on everything else for a little while. his hands stay busy, reaching for the next segment, brushing away another thread of white.
and by the time the last piece disappears, the air around him still smells faintly of citrus, and his fingers are sticky with sugar and sunlight.
āmegumi-chan!! donāt fall behind!ā
gojoās voice tore through the quiet like a siren.
megumi flinched immediately, shoulders tensing and brow twitching as if the sound had physically struck him. if he had to describe it, ear-bleeding would still be the most accurate term. he exhaled slowly through his nose, already irritated before he even turned his head.
Thatās when he realized that the others were further down the path and somewhere along the way he had stopped walking entirely.
megumi frowned, his gaze drifted to the side, pulled there by something that had caught his attention without him consciously noticing. just beyond the low wooden fence of someoneās garden stood a tangerine tree, its branches thick with glossy leaves dotted with bright fruit. one of the tangerines had fallen, rolling just close enough to the fence that it rested in the grass along the edge of the path.
it was perfectly intact; round, bright and glowing against the green.
megumi stared at it for a moment, then he glanced toward the quiet house behind the garden.
no movement.
his eyes returned to the fruit.
slowly, he crouched, pushing his hand through the fence just enough to reach it. the tips of his fingers brushed the warm skin of the tangerine. he hesitated there, hand hovering for a second longer than necessary.
it was ridiculous.
he had faced curses that could flatten buildings without a second thought, yet somehow picking up a fallen fruit felt like committing an actual crime.
megumi frowned at himself, grabbed the tangerine, and stood up. by the time he looked up again, the group had gotten even further ahead. he sighed, jogging after them.
his steps were quiet but quick, the tangerine resting loosely in his palm as he caught up to the others. yuji was the first to notice, glancing over casually before his attention immediately locked onto the fruit in megumiās hand.
āhuh?ā yuji slowed a little, pointing. āwhere did you get a tangerine?ā
megumi didnāt answer. instead, he pressed his thumb into the rind and pushed his nails into the skin. it split open with a soft snap, releasing a sharp mist of citrus oil that briefly hung in the air.
nobara turned around so fast it looked like sheād heard a gunshot.
āwait,ā she said suspiciously, narrowing her eyes. ādid you steal that from somewhere?!ā
āmegumi-chan has become a thief,ā maki snickered from ahead, glancing back at him with clear amusement. āoh-ho.ā
yuji leaned in closer, ādid you actually?ā
before megumi could respond, gojo slid into the conversation with dramatic timing.
āmegumi!,ā he announced loudly, placing a hand over his chest in mock heartbreak, āthis isnāt how i raised you!ā
he shook his head slowly, the picture of theatrical disappointment. āafter everything⦠my own student⦠reduced to petty theftā¦ā
āyouāre being dramatic again,ā maki said flatly.
āagain?ā gojo gasped.
megumi felt a vein pulse faintly in his forehead. āā¦shut up.ā
he continued peeling the tangerine calmly, pulling the rind away in loose curls. the fruit separated easily in his hands, revealing the neat cluster of orange segments inside. he expected the usual sting when the juice touched the torn skin around his cuticles. instead, a warm sweetness drifted up.
he paused briefly. āā¦sweet,ā he muttered.
ātsk,ā nobara clicked her tongue immediately, crossing her arms with a scowl ādidnāt even get some for us.ā
beside her, inumaki nodded in quiet agreement. āshake. shake.ā
the village unfolded around them in quiet, sun-warmed stillness as they walked.
narrow paths stretched between small colorful houses, their walls adorned by creeping ivy and the shadows of overhanging trees. bicycles rested against fences and porch railings. gardens spilled over their boundaries with careless abundance, patches of bright flowers, tangled greenery, and fruit trees heavy with color. somewhere nearby, the sea made its presence known even without being seen, the air carrying that faint, salty breath.
it felt slow here, quiet. the kind of place where footsteps and bicycle bells echoed more than engines ever would.
against that calm backdrop, the group from tokyo felt almost painfully loud.
the slap of flip-flops and loose sandals echoed along the path, a lazy rhythm broken constantly by the thud of bags bumping against yujiās legs as he walked. their voices carried through the street, drifting past open windows and garden fences where a few curious locals occasionally glanced up at the commotion.
yuji groaned dramatically for what had to be the tenth time.
āwhy do you have to overload your bag?!ā he huffed, shifting the straps digging into his shoulders. two bags hung off him awkwardly. one clearly nobaraās and the other unmistakably makiās. āwe are just going to the beach!ā
nobara spun around while still walking, nearly making yuji trip as she pointed at him accusingly.
āyou men only think a pair of flip-flops and your swim shorts are enough for the beach?!ā she snapped. ācompletely wrong! going to the beach for women is a sport!ā
her voice rose enough that a couple of people across the street turned their heads to look.
yuji frowned, clearly offended. āit is enough!ā he argued. āthe only thing iād bring besides that is sunscreenāā he paused, thinking. ā or a shovel.ā
beside him, inumaki immediately nodded with enthusiasm. āshake! shake!ā he lifted his fist and bumped it against yujiās, who grinned like he had just received the highest form of validation.
a few steps ahead, maki sighed deeply. ālike children,ā
megumi quietly ate another slice of his tangerine behind them, listening to the argument continue like background noise.
maki slowed slightly, glancing over her shoulder toward gojo, she raised a brow, āwe are not actually here to spend a fun summer near the sea, are we?ā
āwe are!ā gojo clasped his hands behind his head as he walked. ānanami was given the decision to go on this little vacation,ā he continued with a shrug, ābut he didnāt accept it.ā
he paused for effect, then spread his arms wide. ābut then your amazing, incredibly good-looking sensei gojo satoruuuu decided to take his vacation and generously bring all of you with him!ā
āresulting in us having a wonderful summer by the sea!ā he declared proudly. āarenāt I just amazing?!ā
nobara immediately clasped her hands together dramatically. āthank you nanami-san for not taking the vacation!ā
āoi!ā gojo whined instantly, pointing at her in betrayal. āyou should be thanking me!ā
yuji snorted with laughter, the sound bright and unrestrained as it spilled into the open air.
the walk carried on like that for a while; with the constant rhythm of their voices. the slap of sandals against pavement mixed with bursts of giggles and playful bickering, the conversation jumping from one idea to the next without ever settling.
yuji whined loudly, tipping his head back in exaggerated suffering. āhow much more?!ā
gojo chuckled beside them, clearly entertained.
āiād say,ā he began casually, lifting one long finger and pointing straight down the road ahead of them, āif you made a run for itāā his finger followed the path forward between the houses. āāyouād be there in less than a minute.ā
maki narrowed her eyes, leaning slightly to the side to look past one of the houses ahead. then her expression sharpened. āoh,ā she said, pointing suddenly, āi can see it beyond that house!ā
a faint shimmer of blue was just barely visible past the rooftops, the distant line of the sea catching the sunlight.
nobara didnāt hesitate for even a second. ālast one there is a rotten egg!ā she bolted forward immediately, her sandals slapping loudly against the ground as she sprinted down the path.
maki grinned. āi like the sound of that!ā she took off after her, her stride quick and athletic as she easily closed the distance.
ātuna mayo!ā inumaki pumped his fist into the air and darted after them with surprising speed.
behind them, yuji stared for exactly half a second before yelling in outrage. āthis isnāt fair!ā he shouted, already starting to run after them despite the bags swinging violently from his shoulders, thought it didnāt slow him nearly as much as it shouldāve. āiām carrying all your stuff!ā
gojo laughed openly, watching the chaos unfold as the group tore down the path like a pack of overly excited children. (a/n: i love them happy, your honor.) their laughter echoing as they raced toward the faint glimpse of ocean waiting at the end of the road,
behind them, the sudden quiet felt almost unfamiliar.
megumi remained where he was, walking at the same steady pace as before, his footsteps unhurried against the path. gojo strolled beside him with the same loose ease, hands tucked into his pockets like he had nowhere else to be.
āyou arenāt going to run with them?ā he asked, one eyebrow lifting slightly above the edge of his glasses.
megumi didnāt even look up, he simply shook his head once.
gojo hummed thoughtfully, āsucks to be a rotten egg.ā
megumi scoffed under his breath. he lifted the last tangerine slice to his mouth and bit into it slowly, the citrus bursting sweet against his tongue. his thoughts drifting somewhere distant while the noise of the others faded further and further down the road.
he brushed the remaining threads of white pith from his fingers. āā¦whatās the mission?ā he asked at last.
gojoās head tilted slightly. āhm?ā
his gaze shifted down toward the dark-haired boy beside him, taking in the messy spikes of hair and the thoughtful crease between his brows.
āi know you wouldnāt bring us on a vacation without an actual reason,ā he said evenly. āor rather⦠the higher-ups wouldnāt let us go.ā
they passed a small garbage can sitting near the path, its metal sides layered with faded stickers and messy graffiti left by years of bored teenagers. megumi flicked the empty tangerine peels into it, landing inside with a soft rustle.
the scent of salt hung more clearly in the air now. the ocean was close.
gojo watched the peels disappear into the bin before letting out a quiet chuckle. āyou got me.ā
āwell,ā he said finally, casual in that way that always made it hard to tell how serious he actually was, āthis works out. i was planning to assign this mission to you anyway.ā
megumi glanced sideways at him.
gojo tilted his head slightly, then added almost lazily ājust to you.ā
megumiās steps slowed for half a beat.
āweāve had reports about a curse whose activity suddenly spiked,ā gojo continued as they walked. ālooks like it manifested sometime within the last few months. before that, nothing. no incidents, no disturbances, no signs.ā
megumiās brows knit slightly. āwhat kind of spike?ā
āsome kind of cursed illness.ā
megumiās breath caught.
āah.ā
the sound slipped out of him before he could stop it, quiet but sharp. he swallowed, throat suddenly dry. cursed illness. the phrase pressed somewhere deeper than it should have, dragging up a familiar knot that had never really loosened.
tsumiki.
the memory of her pale face in the hospital bed flickered across his mind without permission. the unnatural sleep she hadnāt woken from, the doctorsā useless explanations, the quiet suspicion heād never voiced out loud.
gojo glanced at him from the corner of his eye, catching the subtle tighten in megumiās jaw. the corner of his mouth lifted into a small, knowing smirk as he reached out and ruffled megumiās already unruly hair with easy familiarity.
āiām trusting you with this one,ā he said lightly. āso take care of it, yeah?ā
then he stepped ahead, his longer stride carrying him forward like the conversation had already been neatly wrapped up.
megumi stayed where he was for a moment longer than necessary. the faint scent of citrus still clung to his fingers, the breeze carrying the distant breath of the sea toward them.
something settled quietly in his chest.
he didnāt say anything about it.
āiām going into town to buy something to drink,ā megumi called out as he stepped out of the water, brushing wet strands of hair away from his face. each drop struck the hot sand with a soft pat before vanishing almost instantly beneath the afternoon heat. āanyone want anything?ā
behind him, yuji was still waist-deep in the water, breathing hard and grinning like heād just won a championship match. āyou gave up already?ā he shouted. āi thought you were getting serious!ā
megumi glanced back at him flatly. āyouāre splashing like a toddler.ā
yuji gasped in mock offense, already preparing another handful of water to launch in retaliation, but toge pulled itadori into the water by his neck.
megumi crossed the sand toward the cluster of towels where the girls had claimed their spot, the grains warm and fine beneath his feet. maki and nobara were stretched out comfortably, soaking in the sun as though they had absolutely no intention of moving for the rest of the day. megumi crouched beside his bag, unzipping it to retrieve his walletā well, technically gojoās wallet.
āi want a lemonade,ā maki said without opening her eyes, one arm draped lazily across her forehead.
āme too,ā nobara added immediately from beside her, sunglasses perched neatly over her nose and a wide straw hat casting shade across her face. āextra icy.ā
megumi hummed in acknowledgment as he stood, a few stubborn droplets from his hair slipped free and landed on the edge of nobaraās towel.
āhey!ā she hissed, jerking the towel away from the offending moisture. āwatch it!ā
megumi didnāt bother apologizing. he simply grabbed his sand-coated flip-flops, slipping them on as the warm rubber pressed into the soles of his feet, and started off toward the path leading back into town.
gojo had vaguely pointed in the direction of the market earlier.āsomewhere that way!ā heād said, waving a hand.
the path leading there was quieter than the beach, winding gently between clusters of trees and thick greenery that leaned inward as if trying to meet over the road. leaves shifted lazily in the breeze, scattering patches of sunlight that danced across the ground beneath megumiās feet.
the shade was immediate relief after the open heat of the shore.
somewhere above him, birds chirped lazily between branches, their calls echoing softly through the leaves. the air smelled different here too; less salt, more earth and greenery, the faint sweetness of fruit trees lingering somewhere deeper in the village.
megumi walked slowly, hands tucked into the pockets of his shorts as his flip-flops slapped lightly against the ground.
it was peaceful in a way tokyo never was.
his thoughts drifted easily in the quiet, eventually circling back to the real problem at hand. āextra icy.ā megumi frowned. how exactly was he supposed to bring two āextra icyā lemonades all the way back to the beach without them turning into lukewarm sugar water halfway there?
maybe they sold bottled ones.
he turned a corner where the path narrowed slightly, the shade deepened there, leaves whispering softly against each other while the breeze carried the distant hum of cicadas. the calm almost made him close his eyes. and for a brief second, he didā just long enough to enjoy the cool shade and the quiet rustle of greenery around him.
āWATCH OOOOUT!ā
huh?
before the word even fully registered, something slammed straight into his chest.
the impact knocked the breath from his lungs as a sharp ring-ring! of a bicycle bell exploded in the air. megumi staggered backward instinctively, his feet sliding against the path as he absorbed most of the force, but momentum still sent him falling, his tailbone protesting immediately.
for a moment, the leaves above him swayed lazily against the bright sky, their edges glowing softly where the sunlight slipped through them. the metallic rattle of a fallen bicycle settled against the quiet of the path and some small objects bounced along the ground.
megumi squinting slightly as he pushed himself up on his elbows, momentarily forgetting he was standing in the shade rather than the harsh glare of the open beach.
āiām so sorry!ā the voice was bright, breathless, and very close.
he looked up just in time to see a girl leaning toward him, one hand already reaching out. he took it automatically, allowing her to help pull him upright, though he didnāt put much weight into the gesture. the last thing he needed was dragging her down with him.
āitās fineāā he began.
āitās not!ā the interruption came so quickly that megumiās eyes widened a fraction.
āiām so clumsy!ā she continued, words tumbling out in a rush as if once they started they couldnāt possibly stop. āi always forget to ring the bell when i go down this path. itās justāā she gestured vaguely around them with both hands, like the scenery itself was part of her defense, āitās so nice here, you know? the trees and the shade and the way the sun comes through the leaves. i always get distracted!ā
she laughed nervously, rubbing the back of her neck. āi swear i mean to signal, but then i start looking at the greenery and the wind in the branches andā wellā this happens.ā
she pointed at him, then the ground, and then the toppled bicycle. āitās not even the first time iāve hit somebody hereā ha, haā¦ā
what is this⦠feeling?
megumi stood there, momentarily rooted in place, watching the girl in front of him continue her breathless explanation about leaves, sunlight, and the dangers of scenic bicycle paths. her words spilled over each other as if silence itself embarrassed her, hands moving wildly.
the warm afternoon light filtered through the canopy above them, breaking into soft fragments that shifted across her face and shoulders whenever the breeze moved the branches. it wasnāt a strong wind, just a gentle current passing through the trees. but somehow it felt like it had swept straight through megumi himself.
his mind stalled.
his throat felt dry.
the girl kept talking, completely unaware of the effect she was having. the colors she wore seemed almost chosen by the scenery around them; soft oranges and leafy greens that echoed the fruit trees and the shade overhead. when she moved, the little woven hat perched on her head wobbled slightly, the painted orange patterns catching the sunlight. and on top of it, fixed proudly like a tiny flag, was a handmade leaf stem.
megumi blinked slowly.
who the hell are you?
āyou are not from here, no?ā you asked suddenly, tilting your head at him with open curiosity.
megumi opened his mouth to answer.
nothing came out.
he tried again, and immediately coughed, clutching briefly at his throat like the words had gotten stuck somewhere halfway up. after a second of struggling, a hoarse reply finally slipped free.
āā¦no.ā
you blinked.
āgod, you sound terrible.ā
the blunt observation landed without hesitation, and megumi felt the tips of his ears heat instantly. he looked away, scratching the back of his neck with awkward stiffness, suddenly very aware of how rough his voice had sounded.
you crouched down to gather the fallen fruit, lifting your bicycle upright again. it had a small basket attached to the back, half-filled with tangerines that glowed brightly against the woven straw.
you picked one up and turned back toward him. āhere, for that sore throat!ā
before megumi could react, you threw a fruit toward him. he caught it a little too quickly. fumbling the citrus before managing to steady it in his palm. staring at as if it had personally put him in this awkward situation, silently cursing himself for nearly dropping it in front of you.
āseriously?ā
a soft chuckle slipped from you as you crouched beside the bicycle, reaching down to gather the tangerines that had rolled along the path when the basket lid flipped open during the collision, when you dropped them back into the basket they made soft, hollow thuds against the others already inside.
megumi glanced down at the one in his own palm. without really thinking, he sank his nails into the rind.
the peel split open with a soft tear, releasing that same sweet citrus aroma he had noticed earlier that morning.
normally he would take his time and separate the segments, slowly pulling away the thin strands of white pith until each slice was perfectly clean. but doing that while you stood there watching felt⦠weird. so instead he peeled the fruit quickly, pulled apart a slice, and popped it into his mouth without bothering to remove anything.
the bitter hint of pith hit immediately, and he grimaced slightly as he chewed. it still helped his throat though.
āyou eat the pith?ā you asked, blinking in mild horror as you stood again. āman, i could never.ā
you laughed lightly, brushing your hands against your clothes before continuing. āi mean, i could if i had to. but i like the task of picking it apart, you know? like peeling all the little white strings off one by one.ā
megumi froze mid-chew.
āā¦i do too,ā he admitted quietly after swallowing, his voice still rough but a little steadier now. ābut my throatās too dry right now⦠and i like tangerines no matter how i eat them.ā
the words came out softer than he meant them to.
you chuckled again turning back to your bicycle rummaging through the basket for a moment, moving aside a few loose items before pulling out a small mesh bag. then you walked right back up to him and held it out. āwell, in that case, here!ā
you held out the bag toward him, the tangerines inside complimenting the red of strings. megumi instinctively started to shake his head. āyou donātāā
but before the protest could fully form, your hand closed around his, guiding the bag firmly into his palm. the contact was quick and warm, your fingers curling briefly over his knuckles to make sure he didnāt refuse it.
megumiās entire body stiffened for half a second he looked like he might actually squeal.
ādonāt you dare not take it!ā you warned, pointing at him with exaggerated seriousness before breaking into a laugh. āiāll curse you.ā
the threat was clearly playful, your shoulders shaking slightly as you laughed. āhave this as a welcoming gift to the town.ā
megumi stared at the bag in his hand as if it had suddenly gained weight. after a moment, he gave a small nod.
āwoahā hold on.ā your tone shifted with sudden curiosity as you leaned closer, squinting slightly at his face. ādid you put on any sunscreen? your face is really red.ā
you pointed toward the skin beneath his eyes. āyouāll get sunburnt at this point.ā
megumi instinctively raised his hand and brushed his fingers across the spot you indicated. the skin stung immediately and he hissed softly at the contact. he was already preparing to mutter something about itadori using half the bottle earlier and leaving him with barely any whenā
plop.
something landed squarely on top of his head.
megumi blinked.
the faint clinking of metal and the soft crunch of gravel followed as you began wheeling your bicycle away.
he lifted a hand to his head and felt the woven texture of something unfamiliar. when he pulled it off, he found himself staring at the orange-painted hat youād been wearing earlier. the little handmade leaf at the top wobbled gently in the breeze.
megumi turned quickly. āhey!ā he called, waving it towards you. āyour hat!ā
ākeep it for now!ā you called over your shoulder, laughter bright in your voice as the bicycle bell jingled softly with the motion. āyou need it more than me!ā
the distance between you grew quickly as you pedaled away, your voice floated back one last time. āplus! let that be a reason for me to see you again if you want to return it!ā
your giggles faded gradually into the quiet of the path, swallowed by the rustle of leaves and the soft hum of cicadas hidden somewhere in the greenery. megumi stood there for a moment longer, the hat still in his hand. the warm breeze moved through the trees again, carrying with it the scent of salt from the ocean and the lingering sweetness of freshly peeled tangerines.
later, when megumi returned to the beach, he was holding a mesh bag full of tangerines.
and absolutely no lemonade.
a few days passed after that and somehow, the hat had never left megumiās possession.
it sat beside him when he slept, hung loosely from the strap of his bag during the day, and more often than not he found himself turning it over in his hands without even realizing it. his fingers tracing the the rough weave of the orange painted straw and the little handmade leaf that wobbled slightly whenever he tilted it.
āsomebody put it on my head as a free gift,ā he had said when nobara inevitably noticed it. āi left before he could scam me.ā the lie had come out flat and quick.
nobara squinted at him like she didnāt buy it for a second. āwho gives out free hats?ā
ātourist traps,ā megumi replied without missing a beat. she had clicked her tongue and dropped it soon after.
still, the hat stayed.
the days themselves passed slowly and warmly, the beach becoming their routine. mornings filled with the sound of waves folding against the shore, afternoons thick with sunlight and the constant scent of sunscreen drifting from the cluster of towels where they usually sat. somewhere in that mix, the bright sweetness of tangerines seemed to linger everywhere now.
strangely enough, megumi slept better.
for the first time in a long while, his nights passed quietly, without the usual restless dreams clawing their way into his sleep. the only thing that occasionally dragged him back to consciousness was togeās snoring from the other side of the room. which, honestly, might have qualified as its own kind of nightmare.
today was another beach day.
but megumi wasnāt walking the path at the same relaxed pace he had before.
his steps were quicker now, his eyes drifting constantly along the edges of the road, scanning the shaded paths between houses and the narrow lanes lined with trees. the breeze shifted softly through the leaves above him, and every now and then his ears perked slightly, almost expecting to hear the faint ring of a bicycle bell.
nothing. only birds, the rustle of branches, and the distant murmur of the sea behind him.
megumi exhaled quietly and continued forward until the path widened into the townās small square.
the market was already alive with movement.
stalls lined the open space beneath colorful cloth canopies, their tables crowded with baskets of vegetables, bundles of herbs, fresh fish resting over crushed ice, and rows of fruit that glowed like little pieces of sunlight. the air carried a mixture of scents that hit all at once; sharp green herbs, salty fish, ripe tomatoes, citrus oils, and the faint sweetness of baked bread drifting from somewhere nearby.
megumi paused for a moment, slightly overwhelmed by the sheer number of smells. he hadnāt even realized a place could smell like so many things at once.
around him, the locals moved through the square with an easy rhythm. some vendors raised their voices enthusiastically, calling out to passing customers and waving them closer to inspect their produce:
āfresh tomatoes! picked this morning!ā
ābest fish youāll find this side of the coast!ā
others were quieter, sitting behind their stalls with patient calm. one older woman knitted slowly beneath the shade of her umbrella, occasionally glancing up between stitches. another man leaned back in his chair reading a wrinkled magazine, pencil tapping against the page where a crossword puzzle waited half-finished.
megumi instinctively gravitated toward the quieter side of the market. he pulled the folded paper from his pocket, flattening it in one hand as he walked. nobaraās handwriting was aggressively large across the page.
āsince you forgot the ONE thing i asked you for, āshe had snapped earlier that morning, shoving the list into his chest, āiām sending you back with this. now when you mess it up again we can just blame it on you being stupid.ā
he walked between the stalls, scanning the items one by one as he mentally sorted through what he needed.
then something bright caught his eye.
a small stand sat near the edge of the square, its table covered almost entirely with tangerines. piles of them filled shallow baskets, their skins glowing a rich orange beneath the sunlight that slipped between the market canopies.
megumi stopped mid-step.
then, almost without thinking, he darted straight toward it.
the small wooden stall looked almost like it had been decorated by someone who couldnāt stop thinking about tangerines. little doodles were carved and scribbled across the surface of the wood; tiny round fruits with leaves, simple smiling ones, some drawn with quick, messy lines that made them look like something a child had drawn. a few were painted in faded orange, others barely visible where the wood had been worn smooth by years of use.
for a second, he just stood there, staring at the stand and the piles of glowing fruit stacked in shallow baskets across the table. he hopedā
āoh my god, itās you!ā
the voice exploded from behind the stall before he could even finish the thought. megumiās head jerked up, eyes widening.
there you were, popping out from behind the baskets as if youād been waiting there the whole time, your grin stretching impossibly wide. the sunlight caught your face, lighting it up in a way that made the entire stall seem warmer, brighter, almost like the tangerines themselves had blushed.
your outfit was the same aas last time. soft oranges and greens that blended perfectly with the fruit around you. and perched atop megumiās head was the familiar woven hat, slightly tilted from his awkward handling of it earlier.
for a heartbeat, megumi completely forgot how to speak.
āā¦hello.ā the word came out small, clipped, and unsure. he dipped into a polite bow, clutching the bag of groceries to his chest as if it were a shield.
āiāve come to bring you your hat back,ā he added, fingers brushing the brim awkwardly, confirming it was still there.
you leaned on the stall, a soft chuckle escaping, and immediately megumi felt that familiar, strange dryness creeping into his throat, his heart thudding a little faster.
āwow,ā you said lightly, tilting your head and squinting at him through the sunlight. āyou were that eager to see me?ā
megumi shook his head quickly. ān-no, i justāā
he stopped.
because the moment he looked up again, you had pushed your lower lip out in a exaggerated pout, eyebrows lifted as if disappointed in the world itself.
his brain short-circuited entirely. āwellā i meanāā he stuttered, words tangling and tumbling over each other. āy-yeahā i meanāsureā¦ā
the pause that followed lasted only a second, but it felt like the world had frozen around him.
then you laughed. it spilled out of you; bright, musical, completely unrestrained. and it made megumiās chest tighten in a way he didnāt understand. your shoulders shook, your eyes twinkled, and for a moment, all he could do was watch.
āgod, you are adorable!ā you managed between breaths of laughter. āyou should see your face.ā
you dabbed at the corner of your eye with a finger as if the moment amused you as much as it terrified him.
megumi dropped his gaze instantly, the heat rushing to his cheeks. he pulled the brim of the hat down over his face, trying desperately to hide the flush, his fingers curling around the straw like it could shield him.
āplease⦠stop it,ā he muttered, voice quiet.
you inhaled slowly, trying to calm yourself. āokay, okay,ā you said, still smiling as you waved your hands in surrender. āiām sorry. iām sorry.ā
you leaned forward across the stall, reaching out toward him. megumi instinctively bent slightly so you could reach the top of his head without stretching too far. your fingers brushed lightly against his hair as you lifted the hat away, the woven straw sliding free with a soft rustle before you settled it back onto your own head. the tiny leaf at the top wobbled proudly.
āthank you very much!ā you said brightly, flashing him another grin.
megumi straightened slowly. āā¦youāre welcome.ā
the words came out softer than he intended, and for a moment the space between you filled only with the quiet rustle of the market. the distant murmur of vendors, the shifting of baskets, the faint scent of herbs and citrus drifting lazily through the warm air.
you tilted your head slightly, watching him with that same curious brightness in your eyes.
āthough,ā you said after a moment, resting your elbows lightly on the edge of the stall, āi am a bit sad now.ā
megumi blinked.
you puffed your cheeks out in a small pout, fingers tapping against the wood covered in tiny doodled tangerines. ānow we donāt really have a reason to meet again.ā
megumiās brain promptly stopped working.
āe-eh?!ā
the sound escaped him before he could stop it. he quickly scratched the back of his neck, clearly scrambling for something.
āi donāt really have anything on me to give youā¦ā he admitted awkwardly, glancing down at the bag of groceries still clutched in his hand.
you hummed thoughtfully for half a second. then your expression brightened. āwell, you have your word!ā
āmy word?ā
you chuckled lifting your hand and extending your pinky finger across the stall toward him. ājust promise youāll come see me one more time before summer ends.ā
megumi stared at your pinky for a moment like it was a surprisingly serious contract. the market noise faded slightly around him, replaced by the quiet rustle of leaves somewhere beyond the square and the warm scent of fruit stacked around the stall.
after a second, he slowly raised his own hand. his pinky hooked around yours. the contact was light but deliberate, the simple gesture sealing the promise in a way that felt oddly significant.
a small smile appeared on megumiās face before he even realized it.
you noticed immediately. and it felt like you had just won the greatest prize imaginable.
āhere,ā you said suddenly, pulling your hand back and turning to the baskets beside you. ābefore you go.ā
you grabbed a mesh bag and began dropping several bright tangerines inside, the fruits landing with soft, hollow thuds before you held the bag out toward him. āfor the number two tangerine lover!ā
ānumber two?ā megumi raised an eyebrow, though a quiet chuckle escaped him as he reached forward to take it. āwhoās number one?ā
you straightened dramatically, placing a hand over your chest with exaggerated pride. āme, of course! who else?ā
āof courseā¦ā megumi shook his head lightly, the corner of his mouth lifting again.
megumi had barely adjusted the bag of tangerines in his hands when something suddenly nudged hard into his side. he shifted instinctively, stepping a half step away, and an old man pushed himself into the space beside him like he owned the ground beneath his feet. his finger shot forward immediately, pointing straight at you across the stall.
āi told you not to put your stall here. this is my spot!ā
his voice cut through the gentle noise of the square, sharp and loud enough that a few nearby heads turned.
you didnāt flinch, you simply stared at him, your brows slowly knitting together while the little orange leaf on your hat wobbled slightly as you tilted your head.
megumi felt a faint tension creep up his spine. instinctively, he shifted his weight forward, the urge to step in flickering briefly in the back of his mind. but a tourist arguing with a local in the middle of a town square was a terrible idea.
before he could decide anything, you spoke.
āthis isnāt anybodyās place,ā you said, crossing your arms calmly over your chest. āunless you bought this exact patch of dirt, then sure, it can be yours.ā
the old manās face twisted immediately. āi fucking swear,ā he spat, glaring at you with open irritation. āyouāre just like your grandmother.ā
your arms tightened slightly against yourself. megumi noticed it, the smallest shift in your posture, barely there but real.
the man jabbed a finger toward the stall again. āif i see you here tomorrow,ā he barked, āiāll smash this damn thing to pieces!ā
for a moment, the threat hung heavy in the air. megumiās confusion only grew when you suddenly smiled. it was bright, almost exaggeratedly cheerful as you lifted both hands in a harmless little gesture.
āalright, alright,ā you said lightly, waving him off with fake patience. āno need to get so aggressive, old man!ā the man muttered something under his breath, clearly a string of curses, and turned as if ready to storm away. āwait!ā
your voice stopped him, he paused with visible annoyance, turning back halfway. you leaned down behind the stall, grabbed one of the bright tangerines from the basket, and held it out toward him with a wide grin. āhere,ā you said sweetly. āa peace offering!ā
for a split second megumi thought he might slap it straight out of your hand.
his arm twitched.
but instead the man snatched the fruit roughly from your fingers, gripping it tight as if the poor thing had personally offended him. he scoffed loudly before turning again and stomping off through the square, his footsteps sharp against the stone.
megumi stood there, completely still.
did you just⦠curse somebody?
the evening draped itself like a soft, warm blanket. the last traces of sunlight lingering on the wooden balcony while the faint sound of waves brushed against the shore somewhere beyond the trees. gojo lounged back in his chair, legs stretched out and crossed at the ankles, sunglasses slipping slightly down his nose as he regarded the boy beside him.
megumi barely moved, elbows resting on his knees, a single tangerine turning slowly between his fingers, the only movement betraying the storm of thought inside him. his grip tightened slightly as gojo spoke:
āi got information today,ā gojo said, his voice calm but carrying a quiet weight, āanother person died from the illness. older male.ā
megumiās fingers clenched harder around the fruit, and gojo let his gaze linger, noting the subtle tremor that ran through his hands. he didnāt flinch, didnāt speak, but the tension in his shoulders said enough.
after a moment, gojo let out a long, soft sigh, tilting his head as he watched the sky darken, the first stars beginning to prick the dusky blue. āi know this whole mission touches a nerve for you,ā he said, words measured, careful, āi didnāt give it to you to torture you.ā
megumiās hands shook slightly, and gojoās eyes softened behind the lenses of his glasses.
āi gave it to you because i trust you,ā gojo continued, letting the weight of the words hang between them. ābecause facing something like this⦠itās not about punishment. itās about growth. itās about becoming the kind of person who can carry the weight, no matter how heavy it gets.ā
he leaned back further, hands resting behind his head, voice steady but gentle, letting the space stretch between them.
āyou can handle it,ā gojo added after a pause, āand itās exactly the kind of thing that makes you stronger as a person.ā
the summer night had cooled just enough for the air to feel soft against the skin, a quiet breeze drifting in from the ocean and brushing through megumiās hair as he walked along the empty stretch of shore. the tide rolled in slow, steady breaths, each wave pulling moonlight across the water until the sea shimmered like scattered glass beneath the pale sky.
megumi walked with his hands tucked into his pockets, head lowered, his gaze fixed on the sand at his feet rather than the wide horizon in front of him. every few steps he nudged a stray pebble forward with the tip of his sandal, letting it bounce ahead before kicking it again without really thinking about it.
his mind was somewhere else entirely.
he had to find you and execute you.
the thought sat heavily in his chest, heavy enough that even the salty night air felt difficult to breathe.
how was he supposed to do that?
the question circled endlessly in his head as the waves crept up and retreated along the shore. it wasnāt the act of killing itself that troubled him. megumi had been a sorcerer long enough to understand what needed to be done when curses were involved.
but this wasnāt simple. because the more he thought about it, the less it made sense.
did you even know you were cursing people?
he replayed the memory again, the image sharp and impossible to ignore. the moment when you had handed that tangerine to the old man in the square, smiling so brightly it almost felt ridiculous and for the briefest second, megumi had seen it.
a shadow behind your back.
something thin and writhing, like a knot of blackened roots crawling out from your spine. it had appeared only for a moment, stretching outward with the tangerine as cursed energy seeped into the fruit. then it curled back in on itself, wrapping around your body again like a second skin before vanishing completely beneath your warmth and laughter.
you hadnāt reacted.
megumi had stood there frozen, realization settling slowly and horribly in his mind. the curse wasnāt just near you. it was attached to you.
worse than that, he was almost certain the two of you were bound together. the way the cursed energy moved, the way it fed from you and returned. if he destroyed the curse directly, there was a very real chance that the backlash would take you with it.
killing the curse might mean killing you.
megumi exhaled slowly, dragging a hand through his hair. he hadnāt eaten a single tangerine youād given him since that day. the small bag still sat in his room at the apartment, untouched.
was he afraid they were cursed too?
ā¦no.
he didnāt think that was it.
still, every time he reached for one, something stopped him. an invisible hesitation that made him pull his hand back before the peel could even break beneath his fingers.
he kicked the pebble ahead again, watching it bounce across the damp sand. his thoughts spiraled deeper and deeper untilā
a quiet sound cut through the night.
sniffling.
megumi stopped walking.
his head lifted toward the sound, eyes scanning the dim shoreline until they landed on the small wooden bench near the path.
you were sitting there. the moonlight fell across you in pale streaks, catching the shine of wet tears on your cheeks as you blinked at him, clearly startled to see someone there at all. for a moment neither of you moved. the waves rolled quietly behind you, the wind tugging gently at your clothes.
you just stared at each other.
then, almost immediately, you groaned and covered your face with both hands.
ādonāt look at me!ā you whined miserably, rubbing at your eyes in a frantic attempt to wipe the tears away. megumi stiffened where he stood, caught completely off guard. āiām all teary-eyed and snotty and fucking gross,ā you complained through your hands, voice thick as you tried to scrub your face dry.
megumi blinked once, then raised an eyebrow slightly. āā¦yeah. because youāre crying.ā
you peeked through your fingers immediately. āare you lecturing me?ā
āuhā no,ā he said quickly, rubbing the back of his neck, suddenly very aware that he had absolutely no idea how to handle a crying person. especially you. his mind ran through a dozen useless options: say something comforting, offer help, do something normal.
instead he just stood there awkwardly for a few seconds before blurting, āhold on.ā
and then he turned and ran.
down the path, sandals kicking up bits of gravel as he sprinted toward the nearest open market stall he remembered passing earlier. a few minutes later he came rushing back, slightly out of breath, carrying a plastic bottle of cold water, a small pack of tissues, and almost instinctively a couple of fresh tangerines tucked under his arm.
by the time he reached the bench again, you had calmed down a little. your shoulders werenāt shaking anymore, though your eyes were still red and your nose slightly pink from crying.
megumi slowed his steps as he approached.
you glanced up at him just as he reached the bench and he gently pressed the cold water bottle against your cheek. you flinched immediately from the sudden chill. āhey!ā
but the protest faded almost as quickly as it came. the coolness seeped into your warm skin and you leaned into it without thinking, your cheek pressing softly against the plastic as if youād suddenly decided it was the most comforting thing in the world.
you didnāt take the bottle. you just stayed there, nuzzling slightly into the cold surface with a quiet sigh.
megumi hesitated. then sat down beside you on the bench, holding the bottle in place against your cheek so you wouldnāt have to move. his arm would probably start cramping soon. but as you leaned there against him, megumi found himself thinking that even if his arm started cramping, he probably wouldnāt put the bottle down.
ādo you want to talk?ā
you shook your head immediately; cheek still pressed against the cold plastic.
āalright,ā he said simply.
he shifted his grip on the bottle slightly so it rested more comfortably against your face.
ādo you want me to wait until you want to talk?ā
you sniffled and nodded.
a quiet scoff slipped out of him, though the corner of his mouth lifted faintly.
āalright.ā
he pulled the bottle away after a moment to twist the cap open, you reached over and took it from his hand, lifting it to your lips. the cold water slid down your throat and you hummed softly, the chill easing the dryness that crying had left behind.
megumi watched for a second before looking down and rummaging through the plastic bag heād brought. it rustled quietly in the night air as he searched through it and eventually pulled out a tangerine.
your eyes brightened instantly.
ātheyāre not⦠yours,ā he said, glancing at the fruit in his hand, ābut itās better than nothing.ā
he sank his nails into the peel. the skin split with a soft tear, releasing a faint, sharp citrus scent into the air. he winced slightly when the juice brushed against the small cut near his cuticle, though he quickly masked it, continuing the task with quiet concentration.
you watched him the whole time.
his hands worked slowly and carefully, peeling the skin away in curling strips before placing them neatly back into the bag. once the fruit was bare, he began separating the slices one by one, methodically removing the thin white pith from each segment with surprising patience.
the ocean breeze tugged lightly at his dark hair as he focused, brows faintly drawn. when he finally held out the first slice toward you, you didnāt move.
you just stared at him. the look on your face was soft, almost stunned, as if heād just done something far more impressive than peeling fruit under the moonlight.
megumi shifted slightly, a faint grimace crossing his face. āā¦are you⦠going to take it?ā
you still didnāt move.
his ears warmed.
after a second he sighed quietly and extended his hand a little farther, bringing the tangerine slice closer to your lips.
you leaned forward and took it gently from his fingers with your lips, your teeth breaking the thin membrane as the slightly sour juice spread across your tongue.
you didnāt seem to mind the taste at all.
your attention remained fixed on him instead. the dark-haired boy beside you, carefully peeling another slice of fruit as if it were the most important task in the world, the tips of his ears faintly pink and his eyes stubbornly focused on the work in his hands.
he handed you another piece. this time you took it with a small smile, a quiet chuckle slipping out as you chewed.
megumi glanced at you.ādo tangerines cheer you up that much?ā
you nodded immediately,
he looked back down at the fruit in his hands. āā¦iām glad.ā
for a while after that, neither of you said much.
then your voice came, quieter than before.
āmy grandmaā¦ā
megumiās hands slowed.
he didnāt interrupt, but the way his posture shifted made it clear he was listening now, fully.
āshe loved tangerines,ā you said softly. āso much that when i was little there wasnāt a single dish she made that didnāt have at least a little bit of the juice in it. rice, soups, marinades⦠everything.ā you let out a small chuckle, your gaze drifting toward the ocean. āthe kitchen always smelled like tangerines too.ā
megumi handed you another slice.
you took it absently.
āi loved it when i was little,ā you continued, rolling the slice between your fingers before eating it. ābut when i got older⦠i guess i got sick of it. the smell followed me everywhere.ā you pulled your knees up onto the bench, wrapping your arms around them as the breeze tugged lightly at your clothes. āin school people said i smelled like tangerines all the time. some of my classmates started making fun of me for it.ā
you huffed quietly. āwhich is stupid, right? but bullies always find the dumbest things to pick on.ā
megumi didnāt say anything, he just kept peeling the fruit slowly beside you.
āone day i snapped,ā you said after a moment, your voice softer now. āi told her i hated tangerines. that i hated the smell and that it was her fault everyone made fun of me.ā
you paused.
ādo you know what she did?ā you glanced sideways at him, expecting boredom or polite disinterest.
instead you found his gaze already on you.
his eyes traced your face carefully, like he was memorizing every small shift in your expression. the attention made a faint warmth rise to your cheeks, and you quickly looked away again before continuing.
āshe just laughed,ā you said, a small breath of amusement leaving you. āshe told me that one day iād love tangerines just as much as she did.ā
you stared out at the ocean again.
āand before i knew it⦠i did.ā
megumiās hands stilled slightly on the fruit in his lap.
āthe house didnāt smell like tangerines anymore,ā you continued quietly. āthe pots werenāt warm when i walked into the kitchen. the food wasnāt sitting on the table waiting for me. there wasnāt her voice telling me not to turn out like my dad.ā
your fingers tightened slightly around your legs. āthere wasnāt her laughter anymore either.ā
āthe village hated her,ā you murmured. ābecause of what her sonā my dad, did. people looked at her like she was something rotten⦠like she carried the same stain he did.ā your voice faltered slightly. āand because i was his daughter⦠they looked at me the same way.ā
megumiās chest felt tight.
ālike we were something cursed.ā
your shoulders trembled as you pressed your face briefly against your knees.
āand i justā¦ā your voice cracked. āā¦i just wished they would all die.ā
megumi went completely still beside you.
the words sank into the quiet between you, heavier than the humid night air and the slow rhythm of the tide. the ocean rolled in and out against the shore, each wave brushing the sand with a soft sigh, but megumi barely heard it anymore.
his fingers stopped moving, the peel hung loosely between them, a thin strip of orange skin dangling as his grip tightened without him realizing.
his breath caught in his throat.
howā how was he supposed to execute you?
how was he supposed to do it now?
his gaze drifted toward you without fully turning his head. you were still curled in on yourself, arms wrapped around your legs on the bench, shoulders trembling faintly in the moonlight. the silver glow from the water reflected softly across your face, catching in the tear tracks along your cheeks.
megumiās mind tried to reach for something solid, logic. the cold certainty he usually relied on when dealing with curses. but everything tangled the moment it circled back to you.
his fingers curled tighter around the fruit until the thin skin creased under the pressure.
he should do it.
that was the mission.
he had seen it with his own eyes. the curse that clung to you wasnāt subtle; it had slipped from your back like smoke the first time he noticed it, stretching and twisting before wrapping itself around your body again, possessive and intimate in a way that made his stomach twist.
you didnāt even know it existed. you moved through your days like any other person, laughing, talking, offering him tangerines with sticky fingers and a crooked smile, completely unaware of the thing that breathed alongside you.
you were simply⦠living.
so whyā why were you the one who had to die for it?
megumi swallowed hard, jaw tightening as the questions churned through his mind with nowhere to land. the scent of citrus felt suddenly overwhelming in his hands, sharp and sweet and impossible to ignore.
then your voice broke through his thoughts.
āare you okay?ā
you were staring at him, brows drawn together in quiet concern, your earlier sadness momentarily forgotten as you leaned a little closer.
it took him a second to realize what had caught your attention.
his lip.
megumi felt it then; the dull sting where his teeth had been digging in too hard, the metallic taste of blood spreading slowly across his tongue. when he pulled back slightly, a thin line of red had already formed where the skin had split.
āohā shit.ā
he quickly dragged the back of his hand across his mouth, wiping the blood away like it was nothing more than an absent habit. his shoulders shifted in that subtle way he always did when he was trying to brush something off.
you watched the motion carefully, for half a second you didnāt say anything, then your shoulders tightened. āiām sorry.ā
āwhat?ā
you rubbed the back of your neck, the movement awkward and restless as your gaze dropped to your shoes. grains of sand clung to the edges of them where the tide had brushed up earlier, and you nudged one foot into the ground like you suddenly found it very interesting.
āi just kind of dumped all that stuff on you. about my grandma⦠the village⦠everything. i didnāt even stop to think about how you might feel hearing it, or if you even wanted to listen in the first place.ā your words started to tumble out faster the longer you spoke, the way they did when embarrassment got the better of you. āi mean, we barely know each other and i justāā
āstop that.ā
the words cut cleanly through your rambling.
you froze mid-sentence, your head lifting in surprise.
his expression wasnāt sharp or irritated the way it sometimes got when people talked too much; if anything, it had softened in that quiet, unreadable way of his. the wind stirred through his dark hair, pushing a few stubborn strands across his forehead as he watched you.
āif i didnāt care,ā he said simply, āi wouldnāt be here right now.ā
the honesty in the statement settled between you more heavily than he probably intended.
you looked at him for a long time.
āā¦but you donāt know me,ā you murmured eventually, your voice quieter now.
megumi hesitated.
something flickered behind his eyes, uncertainty, maybe, before he slowly lifted his hand and held it out toward you. the gesture was simple, almost awkward. you stared at his hand, confusion flickering across your face as your gaze moved back up to him.
āmegumi,ā he clarified quietly. āmy name.ā
for a moment you just looked at him.
then something in your expression softened, and a small, surprised laugh slipped from you before you could stop it. you reached forward and took his hand without hesitation, your fingers curling around his as you told him your name in return.
megumi repeated it under his breath once, like he was committing it carefully to memory.
āmegumi, huh?ā you said after a second, a soft grin tugging at the corners of your mouth.
he immediately looked a little awkward about it. his free hand lifted to scratch at the back of his head, shoulders shifting as a faint flush crept up along the tips of his ears. āi know,ā he muttered, glancing off toward the water. āitās⦠a girlās name.ā
āno,ā you said gently.
the way you said it made him look back at you.
you were smiling. there was something so open and sincere in the expression that megumi suddenly didnāt know where to put his eyes. āi think it suits you.ā
the ocean stretched endlessly behind him, moonlight scattering across the slow-moving waves in long silver streaks. the wind lifted your hair slightly as you tilted your head, studying him with a quiet sort of curiosity, like you were trying to understand something that had only just revealed itself.
then you said, almost thoughtfully,
āyou feel like my blessing.ā
ah.
megumi felt something shift deep in his chest, something warm and unfamiliar that spread outward before he could stop it. it was the kind of feeling that made his ribs feel tight, like his heart had suddenly grown too large for the space it lived in.
he looked at you sitting beside him, the faint redness still lingering around your eyes from earlier tears, the smell of tangerines clinging faintly to your hands, the night breeze tugging softly at your clothes as you smiled at him like he was something unexpectedly good that had simply appeared in your life.
like he belonged there.
maybeā¦
maybe he could allow himself something small.
after all, everyone was selfish sometimes.
and so, that summer.
megumi let himself be selfish.
megumi will never get used to the way you say his name.
it always sounds a little different when it leaves your lips, as if youāre trying out all the possible ways it could exist in the world.
sometimes it comes out stretched and playful, the syllables rolling lazily off your tongue as laughter follows right after, usually when your bicycle bumps into him for the third time that week along the narrow path leading into town. the bell on your handlebars always rings too late, and the soft thud of the tire against his leg is almost routine by now.
you always wobble, nearly tipping the bicycle over in your hurry to steady yourself, your hair falling into your face as you grin sheepishly.
megumi stands there with that same unimpressed look he tries very hard to maintain. he points toward the wheels with mock threat, something about popping your tires but the words never hold any real bite. if anything, his scolding always circles back to you. how youāre the one whoāll get hurt riding that recklessly, how the path isnāt wide enough for your terrible biking skills.
other times itās quieter.
softer.
the kind of way that belongs only to the two of you when the day settles into evening and the shore grows still beneath the fading sun. the ocean breathes slowly beside you, waves curling against the sand while the sky deepens into colors that melt from gold into violet.
you always insist your hands are freezing and megumi never argues for long. his hands end up covering yours eventually, his fingers awkwardly wrapping around them as the cool sea breeze brushes against your skin. the smell of salt and damp sand lingers in the air while the two of you wander along the shore until you inevitably claim the same weathered bench near the water.
you curl against him there without hesitation, your head resting on his shoulder as if the space was made for you. megumi sits still at first, a little stiff, but it never lasts long. eventually heās peeling a tangerine, his fingers working carefully through the bright skin while the sharp citrus scent mixes with the ocean air.
slice after slice disappears between your lips as he hands them over. sometimes he pulls one back at the last second just to eat it himself. the offended noise you make afterward always dissolves into laughter, your breath warm and shaky against his shoulder while the waves continue their slow rhythm beyond the sand.
megumi finds that he likes that sound more than he expected.
then there are the afternoons when you drag him somewhere new along the coast, slipping away from the busier parts of the beach and weaving through narrow rock paths until the two of you find the hidden stretch of water you like best. the rocks there rise tall enough to block the wind, forming a quiet little pocket of ocean where the water glows clear and blue beneath the sun.
megumi steps carefully along the wet stones, watching where he places his feet.
you, however, move like youāve known the place your entire life.
your laughter echoes between the rocks when you reach back to grab his arm, tugging him toward the water before he can protest. the stones are slick with dark green algae and he nearly slips more than once, earning a dramatic look from you each time as if youāre personally offended by his lack of balance.
your silent scolding always comes with narrowed eyes and a firm grip on his sleeve, pulling him farther away from the sharp edges until the two of you finally dive beneath the cool surface together.
the water wraps around you instantly, muffling the outside world into quiet blue stillness.
beneath the surface the light bends through the water in soft shifting patterns, illuminating small clusters of coral where schools of fish dart back and forth like flashes of living color. sometimes they move so quickly that they brush against megumiās arms or legs, their tiny bodies flicking past his skin before disappearing again into the reef.
you always surface first, pushing your hair back as you laugh quietly, the sound echoing between the rocks while droplets of seawater catch the sunlight around you.
megumi never quite knows what expression heās wearing in those moments.
he only knows that the sound of his name always seems to follow right after.
megumi pushes wet hair out of his eyes just as a bit of seawater slips the wrong way into his nose. he turns his head immediately, sneezing once, then again, blinking hard as the sting fades.
the reaction earns a bright burst of laughter from you.
megumi looks over at you, brows knitting together in mild offense even though the corner of his mouth has already betrayed him.
āwhatās so funny?ā he asks, irritation carefully placed into his tone.
you tilt your head, still laughing.
āyou.ā
thatās it.
just you.
your laughter lingers another second before it abruptly cuts off when a splash of water hits your mouth. you cough slightly, blinking as you wipe your lips with the back of your hand, clearly offended.
you squint.
āyou littleāā
your hands smack down onto the surface of the ocean, sending a wave of water straight toward him. megumi recoils half a second too late, and then the retaliation begins in full.
water slaps loudly against the rocks as the two of you start splashing back and forth, each attack more aggressive than the last. droplets glitter in the sunlight as they fly through the air, catching in your hair and clinging to megumiās eyelashes while your laughter mixes with the crashing of water.
eventually youāre the first to break.
you cough again between breaths, lifting both hands in the air in defeat.
āi surrender!ā you wheeze, waving one arm dramatically above the water. āi surrender!ā
megumi finally stops, chest rising and falling as the adrenaline of the moment fades.
then he laughs.
not the quiet scoff he usually hides behind his sleeve, but a full, genuine laugh that escapes him before he can stop it. it rolls up from his chest, warm and unguarded, and the sound lingers between the rocks as the last ripples of the water settle around them. (a/n: hes so pretty itās unreal)
you stare at him for a moment. your hair has fallen completely over your face by now, strands sticking to your cheeks and eyelashes as you squint through the mess.
without really thinking about it, he reaches forward.
his fingers slide through the damp strands, brushing them gently away from your eyes and tucking them to the side. somewhere in the motion his hand ends up cupping your cheek, cool seawater dripping from his wrist while his thumb rests briefly near your temple.
he doesnāt seem to notice.
āyou look like a wet poodle,ā he says, the teasing edge in his voice softer now.
you blink up at him, unimpressed.
āsays the one whose family relative is a sea urchin.ā
megumiās brows lift slightly.
āoh-ho,ā he says, leaning a little closer with mock curiosity. ālittle missyās starting to bite back now?ā
his fingers pinch your cheek lightly.
you smack his hand away instantly, cheeks puffing in protest. ācause you suck!ā
megumi grins, his eyes glinting as he extends both hands toward your shoulders. you lean slightly, curiosity painted across your wet, glowing face. your eyes widen as he smirks, leaning closer, and you start to protest, āwaitāā
before you can finish, he pushes down, dunking you under the water just like you had done to him a few minutes ago. bubbles rush past your nose as you resurface, sniffling and coughing lightly, water clinging to your lashes.
āyou know what,ā you gasp, water dripping from your hair, āiāll give you that one.ā
you extend a hand, and megumi meets it with a high five, but his palm lingers against yours a second longer, fingers brushing and holding in a way that makes your chest flutter slightly.
then, you remember something, eyes lighting up. āoh! i have to teach you something!ā you exclaim, bouncing slightly in the water.
āoh, what now?ā he scoffs in irritation. but you know better, his tone means nothing.
āokay, so,ā you start, splashing your hands for emphasis, āyou take a deep breath,ā demonstrating with a long inhale, āthen you dive as far down as you can, twist your body so youāre facing up, and open your eyes! trust me, itās so freaking cool!ā
megumi presses a hand over his face, shielding his eyes from the splashes and the sun, a half-grin tugging at his lips.
he huffs out a shaky laugh, āokay, okay! let me try. but if my eyes sting from the salt, itās your fault,ā the corner of his mouth quirking despite the warning in his voice.
he inhales, chest swelling with the deep pull of the sea air, then plunges beneath the surface. the water envelops him, cool and dense, pressing softly against his skin. he twists, turns his body as you instructed, and slowly opens one eye, then the other.
everything blurs at first; the shifting currents, the way the sunlight fractures into dancing shards through the water. his eyes sting lightly, a sharp reminder of the salt, but he canāt pull away from the sight before him. the light filters through the waves in streaks of gold and sapphire, moving like liquid fire across the dark blue expanse. in that moment, itās as if heās floating in the sky, weightless and untethered, drawing closer to the sun with each heartbeat.
then a shadow passes over him, soft and deliberate, and his chest tightens. you swim above, backlit by the sun, hair clinging to your face and shoulders, the light haloing around you like an angel.
compelled by some strange gravity, he extends his hands, tracing the curve of your shoulder, letting the tips of his fingers brush your skin, and then moving higher to graze your cheek. through the blur of water and the sting in his eyes, he sees your smile, small but utterly luminous, and his lids droop slightly, savoring the image like sunlight stored in memory.
you lean closer, and without thinking, he mirrors you, letting the distance collapse, the tip of your nose nearly brushing his. time seems to stretch, the water holding them suspended.
and just as the space between you narrows, a small rush of bubbles escapes his lips, a sharp reminder of the air heās running out of. he kicks hard with his legs, shooting upward, and breaks through the surface in one hurried rush.
the heat of the afternoon pressed gently against megumiās skin as he lay sprawled on the balcony, the wooden boards warm beneath him. the sun spilled over the edge of the roof, slipping past gojoās shadow as he leaned lazily against the railing. a faint breeze rustled through the leaves nearby, carrying the mingled scent of salt from the sea and the faint sweetness of tangerines still lingering in his senses from earlier days.
āwhere have you been off to, megumi-chan?ā gojoās voice sliced through the quiet, drawing him from the haze of memory.
megumi squinted, letting the warmth press against his face, a faint crease between his brows. āi got sidetracked in town,ā he said flatly, eyes closing again, offering nothing more.
the rhythmic chirping of crickets filled the air, a sharp, high-pitched symphony that grated against his ears. he could almost hear the memory of your voice explaining how the insectsā song had marked your childhood afternoons, the sound weaving into the heat of the sun itself.
gojo scoffed, grinning, and with a casual flick he tugged megumiās shirt up and shoved a packaged popsicle against his bare stomach. the cold hit instantly, he yelped, pulling it free, grumbling under his breath, but the pale green treat gleamed in the sunlight, and the sweet, frosty scent made him pause. he tore the wrapper carefully and let the ice melt slowly on his tongue, the cool mint cutting through the warmth of the day.
the balcony fell silent, save for the distant crash of waves and the persistent chirping.
āi know youāve been seeing her.ā gojoās face was unreadable behind the dark lenses of his glasses, his voice quiet, almost heavy. āwhy?ā
megumi stayed silent for a long beat, the popsicle melting faster in his hand, its cold dripping onto his palm.
finally, his voice, soft and shaky, broke through. āyou always tell me to be selfish⦠so i decided to take it into action.ā
gojoās reply came slow, deliberate, as if weighing the weight of every word. āare you willing to be selfish⦠enough for another, so much so that you will destroy yourself afterward?ā there was a tremor in his tone, one that suggested he had felt the same.
megumiās head bowed, voice barely more than a whisper, unstable in the edges ājust this summer⦠let meā¦ā
āplease⦠satoru.ā
the popsicle in his hand softened, its shape collapsing in the sun, melting faster than he could notice. the sweetness dripped down his fingers, sticky and fleeting, and somehow mirrored the ache in his chest.
gojo said nothing. silent in a way he never had before.
for a moment, megumi felt utterly alone and completely seen all at once.
āsheās sick?ā
āyes, young man,ā the old woman beside your stall looked up from the bundle of dried herbs she had been tying together with thin twine. adjusting the little round glasses perched low on her nose.
megumi stood there for a second longer than necessary, staring at the empty stall spot.
without the wooden counter that was covered in the faded doodles of tangerines you had once proudly told him about, the little uneven tangarines drawn by your younger self when your grandmother had decided the stand needed āmore personality.ā
normally you were there.
perched behind that counter with that bright tangerine-colored hat on your head and sleeves rolled up, greeting every passerby with a grin that showed all your teeth.
megumi swallowed, something uneasy settling in his chest.
āsheāll be fine,ā the old woman added casually, waving a hand as if it were nothing serious. ācaught a bit of a fever. happens when people forget theyāre human and try to work every day.ā
megumi nodded once.
then, somehow. he found himself standing in front of your house.
he wasnāt entirely sure how it had happened.
one minute he had been walking through the market, the next he had a bag clutched awkwardly in his hand, stuffed with things he barely remembered buying; cold tablets, instant soup packets, bottled tea, and a few other things the pharmacist had recommended while eyeing him suspiciously.
now he stood at your front door.
the house was small and warm-looking, tucked quietly along the narrow street. wind chimes hung from the porch roof, swaying gently whenever the breeze drifted through, their soft clinking mixing with the distant sound of cicadas buzzing in the afternoon heat.
megumi stared at the door like it had personally offended him.
what was he doing?
megumi stood on your small wooden porch with his hand lifted halfway toward the door, fingers hovering uncertainly in the air like he had forgotten what they were supposed to do. after a moment the courage drained right back out of him, and his hand slowly dropped to his side again.
instead of knocking, he started pacing. the porch wasnāt very big, which made the movement almost ridiculous. three steps forward, turn, three steps back, turn again, over and over until the soft creak of the boards beneath his shoes began to repeat in a quiet rhythm.
his thoughts spiraled faster with every lap.
you two were⦠close.
right?
close enough to sit on the beach for hours talking about nothing and everything at the same time. close enough to share tangerines and stupid stories and long stretches of silence that somehow never felt uncomfortable. close enough that your laugh had started living somewhere in the back of his head without his permission.
but were you close enough for this?
close enough that he could just show up at your house uninvited after asking random market ladies where you lived? megumi slowed his pacing, glancing down at the bag in his hand like it had personally betrayed him.
this looked bad.
actuallyā this looked really bad.
what if you thought he was stalking you?
what if you thought he was some weird guy who had followed you home and was now standing outside your house with a suspiciously thoughtful get-well package?
what if you thought he was trying to murdā
the door suddenly opened.
megumi froze mid-step.
you stood there in the halfway open doorway with one hand still resting on the handle as you blinked up at him slowly. your face was half-hidden behind the frame. your hair looked messier than usual, like you had only half bothered brushing it before giving up, and you were wrapped in an oversized shirt that slipped lazily off one shoulder.
for a moment neither of you spoke.
then you tilted your head slightly, studying him.
āyou think loudly,ā you said.
āā¦huh?ā megumi was still standing there like someone had paused him mid-animation.
you pushed the door open a little wider with a soft creak, leaning your shoulder against the frame.
āi could hear you from the living room,ā you explained, your voice rough with the remnants of your cold. āthe pacing gave it away. you walk in circles when you overthink.ā
megumi blinked. āā¦you could hear that?ā
āvery dramatic pacing.ā you nodded with complete seriousness.
his ears turned red immediately. āi wasnāt pacing dramatically,ā
he shifted the paper bag in his hand before awkwardly extending it toward you, the crinkle of the paper loud in the quiet doorway.
āthe ladies at the market told me where you lived,ā he explained, words coming out a little clumsier than he meant them to. āthey saw you hanging out with me before and⦠told me i should bring you something to help you get better. so iā yeah. i did.ā
you looked down at the bag. then slowly back up at him. āā¦are you going to leave when i take it?ā
for a brief second he simply stared at you. at the small pout forming on your face, the way your shoulders were wrapped tightly in that oversized t-shirt. the faint redness around your nose and eyes that made you look both miserable and unfairly cute.
āyou are godās strongest soldier, megumi.ā he told himself.
āiā should probably leave,ā he said, scratching lightly at the back of his neck. āi have something planned with my friends, soāā
the door shut directly in his face.
megumi blinked. his hand was still raised in the air where he had been holding out the bag.
your muffled voice came from the other side. āi wonāt take it then.ā
megumi lowered his hand slowly. a quiet chuckle slipped out of him before he could stop it, warm and a little helpless. he stepped forward again and placed his hand lightly against the door, knocking once.
āi wonāt leave,ā he said. āopen up.ā
the door creaked fully open again a second later.
and there you were; nose pink from your cold and eyes just slightly glassy from fever or allergies or whatever had knocked you out for the day. you sniffled once as you looked up at him, clearly trying to maintain the same offended expression from earlier.
in megumiās mind you looked like you were glowing. it was ridiculous. you were sick, sniffling, clearly exhausted, and yet somehow you still managed to look completely adorable standing there.
a quiet laugh slipped from him again. your pout deepened immediately, already suspicious that he was about to tease you. megumi reached forward before you could protest and lightly flicked the tip of your nose. ārudolph.ā
behind him the door shut with a soft thud as you groaned dramatically. āthatās such a lame joke.ā
āfor you,ā he replied easily, already wandering further inside like he belonged there.
the moment he stepped past the doorway, the house seemed to unfold around him in color.
it was bright, almost overwhelmingly so, but not in a messy way. it felt warm. alive. like every corner had been touched by someone who believed the world should be cheerful even when it had no reason to be.
wind chimes hung near the windows, their soft notes clinking together whenever the breeze slipped through the open panes. threaded between them were thin slices of dried tangerines, translucent in the sunlight as they swayed gently back and forth like little amber coins. strings of beads hung in place of door curtains, brushing lightly against megumiās shoulders and tapping against his back as he walked through them. sunlight streamed through colored glass set into the windows, scattering warm patches of gold, orange, and pale green across the walls.
and everything, everything smelled like tangerines.
bright, sharp citrus that lingered in the corners of the room, layered over the warm, familiar scent of a house that had been lived in for generations.
and beneath itā you.
megumi froze mid-step, the world narrowing to that realization.
wait.
you?
it hit him all at once. holy shit. he was inside your house. your house. where everything, every surface, every corner, every stray thread of warmth in the air, smelled like you. he inhaled without thinking, chest tightening instantly, and immediately regretted it. his shoulders stiffened.
āholy shit, i smell her everywhere. why does it smell so much like her? am i going to throw up? noā no, thatās not itā'
then his heart started racing, fast and loud enough that he could feel it in his throat.
āoh god. why is my heart beating this fast? holy shit. am i going to have a heart attackā'
you nudged his side with your elbow, soft but firm. megumi jumped slightly, blinking down at you, eyes wide, chest still hammering. somehow his face was even redder than yours now.
āare you okay?ā you asked, squinting up at him suspiciously.
āyeahā justā¦ā he rubbed the back of his neck, glancing around the room again like it had personally overwhelmed him. āā¦a lot to take in.ā
āgrandma always wanted everything to be bright,ā you said, voice softer now. āeven if it didnāt really match or make sense.ā your fingers brushed lightly along the edge of the counter as you walked.
āshe said you canāt stay sad if thereās color in your life.ā
megumi looked back at you.
even sick, you were still dressed like you had walked out of the house with your eyes closed and somehow made it work anyway. your sshirt didnāt match your pants, and both had little stitched patches and patterns scattered across them in different shades.
meanwhile he stood there in his usual dull color palette. dark pants, and a grey t-shirt that only stood out because of the cartoon character printed on the front. (itadoriās shirt that that idiot had left it in his dorm and megumi mixed it up.)
āyour grandma is right.ā he simply said.
he set the paper bag down on the counter and began pulling out the things heād brought.
āshe is, isnāt she?ā you said proudly.
you drifted over beside him, your nose was still red from wiping it too much, and your lips looked dry, but the excitement in your expression made it obvious you were enjoying this far more than someone sick probably should.
you started opening cupboards one by one, pointing lazily inside them as you went.
ābowls are here.ā
another cupboard opened.
āspoons are here.ā
then a drawer.
āand thatās where the good spoons are, but grandma says iām not allowed to give those to guests because theyāre āceremonialā or something.ā
megumi nodded slowly, committing the information to memory like it was a mission briefing. once he seemed to have everything figured out, megumi glanced over his shoulder and pointed toward the couch in the living room.
ālay down, i got it from here,ā he said, his voice low but firm, like there was no room for argument.
āno, i want to keep you company,ā you protested.
āyou can keep me company once you lay down,ā
ābut i canāt see your face from that angle,ā you whined.
megumi fumbled with the pot in his hands, almost dropping it, and shot you a glare sharp enough to make you giggle.
āwhat got you so clumsy, gumiiii?ā you teased.
he muttered under his breath, āshut up and sit down on the couch,ā before taking a careful step toward you.
āno, iā ah!ā you yelped as he scooped you up effortlessly in a smooth, bridal-style lift, carrying you over without so much as a pause.
he set you down gently on the couch, fluffing the pillows around you with precise, practiced movements. you pouted, trying, and failing to glare at him in retaliation, while he quietly fought the damn urge to bite your cheek out of sheer irritation at your adorableness.
his hand brushed over your forehead, smoothing away strands of damp hair stuck to your skin, and he felt the warmth radiating from your sickness. a soft tsk escaped him, and he grabbed the thermometer from the table, giving it a quick shake before extending it to you.
ārest. iāll go make the soup,ā he murmured, fingers lingering for a moment on your cheek.
you let out a small, drawn-out huff, āfineeeeā¦ā
he offered a faint, almost shy smile and turned to his task, moving through the kitchen like he belonged there. you called to him every now and then from the couch, a soft voice carrying over the space, until exhaustion finally pulled the words from you.
megumi paused mid-motion, noticing the sudden silence. worry knotted in his chest, and he padded back to the living room to check on you. and when he saw you curled up, eyelids heavy, the faint rise and fall of your breath steady, he let himself relax.
the smell of the soup made your nose twitch, pulling you awake just enough to peek at megumi. he was sitting cross-legged on the floor in front of you, spoon in hand, swirling it gently in the steaming bowl, blowing over the surface in careful puffs before pressing his lips briefly to the spoon to check the temperature. his brows were furrowed in concentration.
he extended the spoon toward you once he seemed satisfied. you sat up on the cushions, letting him guide it to your lips, trusting that he had cooled it just right. the warmth slid down your throat, soothing and gentle, and a soft hum of contentment escaped you.
āis it good?ā his voice was tentative, almost shy.
āperfect,ā you said, thought it wasnāt really aimed at the soup. then a thought struck you. āwaitā did you put tangerines in here?ā
megumi tilted the spoon, swirling the soup again. āyou mentioned once that your grandma used to put a bit of citrus in,ā he said, then blew across the surface and pressed his lips to it once more before extending it toward you.
you watched him in quiet awe, marveling at how he repeated the process with such care, each small motion precise, deliberate, as if tending to a fragile ritual. he hummed softly in delight as he offered each spoonful, his lips brushing the surface before you tasted it, until finally, the bowl was empty.
he pushed back, reaching for the dishes, but you waved him off with a small laugh. ādonāt. come here.ā
he hesitated, then obeyed, letting himself slide closer to the couch. you motioned for him to sit beside you. he did, still leaning in slightly, eyes flicking to your flushed face as if measuring your temperature again even though he had already checked twice while you slept.
āyeah?ā he prompted, quiet but steady.
you looked at him for a long moment, taking in the scene.
the boy you had crashed into with your bike, the one who had argued and teased and disappeared so easily from your life, was now here, in your home, cooking soup for you while you were sick. the sunās last rays filtered through the colorful paned glass of your windows, painting warm streaks of orange, green, and gold across his skin. the light caught the small dust motes in the air, making it feel as if the room itself was holding its breath.
slowly, you extended your hand, letting your fingers brush against his cheek, the warmth of the sun blending with the warmth of his skin. the colors of the light mixed on his face, yellow and blue merging into soft green, like a quiet painting come alive.
āiām being real selfish keeping you with me,ā you murmured, voice barely above the hum of the evening.
megumi froze for a heartbeat, then shifted closer, his head finding the edge of the couch right beside yours. he didnāt care about how stiff his neck would get. he didnāt care about anything but the quiet closeness of you. āno, you arenāt,ā he said softly. āif anything⦠iām the selfish one.ā
ācan you⦠stay?ā
āfor as long as you want me to,ā he replied, voice gentle and unwavering.
at some point, your eyes closed, surrendering to sleep. megumi watched you with careful attentiveness, memorizing the gentle rise and fall of your chest, the soft furrow of your brow in dreams, the way your lashes cast tiny shadows on your cheeks. his heart thudded in his chest, heavy and unfamiliar. he swallowed hard against the strange tightness in his throat.
leaning in slowly, he brushed a few stray strands of hair from your face, tucking them behind your ear with delicate fingers. then, cautiously, he lowered his head. his lips hovered over yours, a whisper of warmth against your skin. barely touching, just a hint of pressure, soft and deliberate, testing, savoring. the brush of his mouth against yours sent a shiver through him.
he held it there selfishly for a few seconds, long enough to feel the softness of your lips, the quiet rhythm of your breathing against his own, careful not to wake you. the world outside, all of it, melted into the small, intimate space between your faces.
when he pulled back, it was just enough to rest his forehead lightly against yours as his eyes drank in every detail of your sleeping face.
he committed it all; the curve of your lips, the tilt of your nose, the softness of your expression. to memory, precise and unshakable, like a photograph etched into the center of his chest.
megumi fushiguro let himself be selfish that summer.
selfish in the way he stole away his friends summer with him. choosing instead to linger beside you on the beach, inhaling the warm, sweet scent of your sunscreen as you lay close. your oversized tangerine hat dipped over your face, and when he leaned down to tug it just enough to shade his own eyes, you giggled, and the two of you ended up hidden under the straw, a little sun-shielded world of your own making.
selfish in the way he insisted it was too hot on a chilly night by the shore, just to press his jacket around you and breathe in the lingering smell of you afterward when he returned to the rented apartment, cradling the jacket to his chest as if he could somehow trap that warmth forever.
selfish in the way he found himself at your house more often than not, drawn in by the scent of tangerines mingling with whatever you had prepared for lunch. portions slowly became meant for two, and the two of you would sit beneath the tangerine tree in your garden, sunlight warming your shoulders, content simply in each otherās presence.
he never spoke of you to the others, except gojo, who already knew. he wanted this, this summer, entirely to himself. the othersā reactions, frustration, worry, confusion, when they saw him less and less, wondering where he went might have eaten at him if he had noticed.
megumi appeared happier than ever, though a faint sadness clung to him like a second skin.
ājust a little more,ā he whispered to himself, ājust for this summer.ā
and as summer edged toward its end, faster than he had ever noticed, megumi realized that he had given his entire summer to you, and he would never take it back.
he kept his mind off the thing clinging to your soul, lingering in shadows he didnāt want to face, and instead let himself sink into these last golden moments. watching your hair tangle in the wind, the sun glint off your skin as you walked together along the shore, sticks in hand from doodling hearts, dogs and tangerines into the sand.
he extended his hand behind him without thinking, and reached out to catch it instantly, intertwining your fingers. you lifted your intertwined hands to warm them with your breath, his thumb brushing your skin with a gentle familiarity that had become second nature.
ācanāt believe you got outsmarted by a seagull!ā you teased, laughter bubbling as the memory from that morning replayed.
āhey,ā he protested, puffing out his chest just slightly, āthat seagull was clearly experimented on by humans to reach that level of intelligence.ā
you laughed, lifting your free hand to pinch his cheek. ājust keep telling your pride that, gumi.ā
he made a face of mock disgust, but the corners of his mouth betrayed him, curling into a quiet smile.
oh, how he loved when you called him that, the nickname rolling off your tongue like a soft melody he wanted to memorize forever.
his phone buzzed in his pocket, but he ignored it, letting the rhythm of your steps along the shore fill his attention instead. he knew this path by heart now, just as he knew you. the sun had nearly sunk behind the horizon, and the warm glow of town lamps flicked on, signaling the end of the day for the local children, their laughter fading as they were called home.
you reached into the pockets of his jacket, draped comically over your shoulders and pulled out a few dried tangerine peels. āah, waitā iāll toss these,ā you said, stepping behind him toward a trashcan youād spotted earlier.
megumi stayed in place, watching you walk, the jacket slipping slightly as it hung on your small frame. he couldnāt wait for tonight when heād come back to the apartment, letting sleep take him with your scent pressed against him from the jacket.
āfushiguro?ā
he froze.
āā¦itadori?ā
the familiar voice carried a strange weight. megumiās gaze flicked to him, taking in the furrowed brow, the tight jaw, the sudden tension coiling in itadoriās posture. frustration? worry? fear? the mix made his chest tighten. why was he worried about him?
āwhat are you doing with the curse?ā itadori demanded, eyes sharp.
megumiās lungs seemed to seize; the air around him thickened. he stood rigid, heart hammering, thoughts scattering in panic.
āw-what?ā he stammered, voice low and unsteady.
āgojo-sensei told meāā
āmegumiii!ā
he turned sharply, watching you rush toward him, not registering the chaos around him nor itadori standing a few feet away. your hand stretched out before you even reached him, fingers ready to tangle with his once more.
from all the memories heād held that summer, that one burned the brightest.
he remembers the smell of salt in the air, the feeling of the wind that tugged at his hair and yours, the way it quickened as it swept across the beach. he remembered your smile, wide as always, cheeks flushed from laughing too hard, those little lines at the corners of your eyes he loved so much.
he remembers the metallic scent, sharp and unmistakable that clung to his skin. sticky and warm. he felt as if your blood burned his fingers.
he remembered it all, though he wished he couldnāt.
megumi hates tangerines.
not the casual kind of hate, the kind people speak of when a fruit is too sour or sticky, but the kind that wraps around your chest and squeezes until it hurts. he hates the peel curling between his fingers, the scent burning too sweet into his nose, the way the juice stings the small cuts along his nails. he hates the careful, meticulous work of separating each segment, picking away the white threads like some cruel ritual he cannot stop. he hates the glow of the fruit in his palm, how it seems almost alive, how it fills the room with a light that makes everything else feel too sharp, too real.
the tangerines, the way they fill the air with that faint citrus scent, everything about it is a cruel echo of a memory he canāt let go of.
he hates how his body betrays him, how he lifts a slice to his side as if expecting your lips to wrap around and hum in delight, head leaning on his shoulder as you chew.
and still, when he finishes the last piece, the room faintly scented with sugar and sunlight, the tears heās been holding back spill anyway. his hands tremble, and he inevitably retches it all out of his system as if itās some poison.
he hits gojoās chest, each strike harder than the last, feeling the taut muscle beneath, refusing to use his technique. gojo takes it all. the punches, the grief, the tears because he knows this pain all too well, knows it far too intimately.
and each night, megumi presses that damn hat to his chest, the one little thing he allows himself to keep. he falls asleep, hoping something, anything, could take him away.
let him live one more summer day with you.
ājust one.ā
āplease, just give me one more.ā
āplease, let me peel one more tangerine for her.ā
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a small tribute to my grandma. thank you for filling my childhood with the smell of tangerines and colorful colors.
hello beloved leah!! itās been such a while, i hope youāre doing well š„ŗ just wanted to pop in with a lil sel question and ask how youād rate last year + what youāre looking forward to this year? š„ŗ i miss you loads! š
my dearest sel! you are the sweetest person on planet earth and your asks while ive been gone have not gone unnoticed you lovely little thing you
last year was okay maybe like a 6/10 and this year i am already going through some big and unexpected changes. i have a close friend getting married in the summer and ill be traveling to NY in october for a concert!
today iām listening to a song that reminds me of you. itās been a while hasnāt it? i havenāt forgotten the kindness and friendship youāve shown me when we were both here together. missing you always leah, iām saving all my tangerines for you.
how lucky am i to have such a dear old friend constantly in my pocket!!! i think of you often and hope you are taking care of yourself the way you deserve <3
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WIIIIIIITCH š«µš«µš«µš«µ (HIIIII KENNNNN)
LEAH IM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU!! HOPE LIFE HAS BEEN KIND TO YOU WHILE YOU WERE GONE BABY! š
HELLOOOO BABIE IM SO HAPPY YOURE HERE!!!! hope you are having a lovely start of the new year and taking care of yourself!
pspspsps stay hereā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.
this is from september im sorry to this Diva that i let down
Missing u in my bones rn i hope you're doing well my love šššš
a kiss for you on your head MUAHHHHH
damn wait how did i used to be able to write like thatā¦
heyyyyyy
⦠heyyyyyy
unicorns and pomegranates
summary: Suna x F!Reader. "Do you ever feel like you were born to serve and die for someone in glorious battle," Suna says, valiantly failing not to flick his eyes back to you. You're frowning at your drink, trying to pick a particle off its rim with a nail. "Sexually, I mean."
"You are not normal," Atsumu tells him.
word count: 1.4k
cw: angst to fluff, friends to lovers, mild objectification, suna has strange inclinations, intoxication, one or two references to sex, ā¦hand mention
a/n: i almost titled this "stop picking fights with knights and come wear tunics with the eunuchs"
You can't believe you were actually looking forward to this team dinner. It's the stupid fancy gala EJP Raijin puts on annually, in a stupid beautiful venue covered in white marble and stupid crystal chandeliers. You'd been so excited when Suna said, offhandedly, I get a plus-one, you wanna come with?
You should've known it would end up like this, feeling self-conscious in your expensive clothes while Suna stands far away and doesn't pay attention to you at all. He's not your date, you're his plus-one, gifted a glimpse into the world of professional athletes for one night only. He expects you to mingle with his friends, maybe even get yourself a real date to the next team event. It's such a stupid, cruel joke of the stars that he's the only one of these talented, handsome men that you want.
You take a sip of champagne and try not to think about it. He'd come to pick you up in his ridiculous fancy red car and stared at you with his inscrutable features and said I don't know, I'm sure it's fine, when you asked what he thought. Glowing praise, you thought, sitting among models and Olympians.
Across the room, Suna is trying to pretend that he is a eunuch. Eunuchs don't throw their best friends over their shoulder and carry them home and make sweet, sweet love to them all night long.
"There's something wrong with your face," Atsumu says.
"Do you ever feel like you were born to serve and die for someone in glorious battle," Suna says, valiantly failing not to flick his eyes back to you. You're frowning at your drink, trying to pick a particle off its rim with a nail. "Sexually, I mean."
"You are not normal," Atsumu tells him, "but yeah, I get the feeling."
They lapse into silence for a moment. One of the guys who came stag walks up to you and jumps into conversation. Suna imagines spiking a ball into his face several times.
"Are you feeling like that because ofā" Atsumu starts, but Suna cuts him off with a violent slashing motion across the throat.
"If you say the words out loud, they become true," Suna says. "Shut your fat mouth."
"She does look good," Atsumu muses. "Nice necklace."
"Don't look at her," Suna says. "I actually don't even know who you're talking about. She's wearing a necklace?"
He glances back. You aren't, which soothes his concern that he'd been so distracted by the generous amount of dƩcolletage revealed by your top he'd missed major details of your appearance, which he planned to burn into his memory and then never speak about until he died. His last words were probably going to be "the top button was undone."
"Maybe you would be failing less miserably if you actually talked to your date," Atsumu says. "How did you ask her to be your date without actually dating her?"
"It takes a lot of skill to put yourself this deeply in the friendzone," Suna says. "Someday you'll understand."
"I hope not," Atsumu says with feeling. "Hey, look, they're doing shots."
The rando whoās talking to you is clinking his glass against yours, making unnecessarily intense eye contact. Suna frowns; staring at you like a weirdo is his job. You glance away from your drinking partner for a second, your gazes connecting, and thatās all the invitation Suna needs to cross the room in the space of a split second. He snatches your shot from you with two long fingers and tosses it back, grinning widely at the other man when heās swallowed.
āThat was mine,ā you say without vitriol.
āThat was vodka,ā he says, feeling the warm buzz of it in his belly. āYouāre allergic.ā
āNot allergic,ā you roll your eyes, ājust a lightweight.ā
Itās true. Vodka gets you way too drunk, way too fast. Why hadnāt you said anything to this other guy? You only ever drink such hard liquor when youāre upset.
Are you upset?
āIāll buy you another drink,ā he promises. Heās glad he took the drink from you. Itās having a strange, dizzying effect the longer he looks at you, your darkened eyes, your parted lips. He reaches up and sweeps the back of his hand just over the curve of your neck, a light touch. Heās pleased when it leaves goosebumps in its wake, a short-lived mark he can leave on you.
āItās an open bar, dummy,ā you roll your eyes. The guy you were talking to has faded into the distance, though you donāt even notice.
Heād meant to stay away from you tonight. Heād meant to be a respectful friend, one who didnāt steal glances at you that he shouldnāt, one who didnāt want to punch out anyone else who looked at you with lust on their face. Every time he steps away, though, you seem to be tossing back another drink, giggling and leaning on a new shoulder, and heās back at your side, plucking your hand away and glaring at whoever tries to talk to you.
Finally, he follows you down the hall to the bathroom, where you spin and lean heavy on the wall, facing him. Your eyes are bright and teary, all the gloss rubbed off your downturned lips, but he still wants to kiss them, for some reason (because heās a creep, he scolds himself).
āWhat are you doing,ā you sigh, and he blinks, taken aback.
āJust watching out for you, I guess,ā he says. You pout.
āYou donāt even care,ā you say, voice catching. āYouāre hovering like a jealous boyfriend and I donāt even know why.ā
āIām not,ā he protests lamely.
āI know!ā You explode, pushing away from the wall and wobbling dangerously. He clamps a hand down on your arm and supports your body with his; you are a bamboo shoot and heās the stake. āI know. You think Iām ugly, youāll never like me. I get it.ā
āWhat?ā Your skin is warm to the touch, and you smell a touch sweet, a touch spicy. He wants to lick the skin behind your ears, where your perfume is spritzed strongest. You couldnāt be more wrong if you declared that Atsumu was going to win a prize for scientific achievement.
āThis is stupid,ā you say, and oh, oh, no, there are tears welling up and streaking down your face. He pulls you in firmly, playing with the short hairs on the back of your neck. You cry into his chest, even though heās the reason. āI want to go home. I just wanted to have fun.ā
āI know,ā he says, voice low, like heās talking to a wounded animal, āIāll take you home.ā For some reason this encourages a fresh bout of sobbing. āIām sorry I ruined your night.ā
āI just wanted you to think I was pretty,ā you hiccup on the last word, and his heart stops.
āI think youāre so pretty,ā Suna says. āI think youāre gorgeous. You donāt think youāre pretty?ā
āI know Iām pretty,ā you say, and he keeps trying to step back, walk away, pull himself out of a situation he has to be misunderstanding. āI thought you did, too, enough to invite me to this stupid thing, enough that I was so excited to pretend we were together or maybe that we would be together for real someday. Fuck, Iām an idiot.ā
āYouāre not,ā he begs you to believe him.
āI thought just because youāre beautiful and you look at meāsometimesālike you want me or something and you touch me all the time, it might mean something. I am an idiot. And a bad friend. I even like your hands, Suna, youāve made me so crazy I canāt even look at your hands without thinking about your fingersāā
Suna grabs you before you can finish a sentence that will surely land you pressed up against the wall with one of the hands in question in your pants. He says your name, serious, voice grating against all his instincts.
āYou donāt know what youāre saying.ā
āI do,ā you insist, looking like youāre going to start crying again. āIāfuck. I love you, RintarÅ.ā
Itās the final nail in the coffin.
āIām going to enter noble and valorous combat to prove my worthiness,ā he says instantaneously. You peer up at him, expression simultaneously baffled and cutting.
āWhat?ā
āNothing,ā Suna says hurriedly. āLetās go home. You should lie down, and tomorrow I need to clear some things up, repeatedly. Possibly for the rest of our lives.ā
wishing all of my friends on here a lovely holiday season regardless of what your celebrations look like! holidays are hard and weird and no matter what youāre spending your time doing over here next few days / weeks, i love you and i am thinking of you
lucky for you guys i havenāt known how to read since bnha 390
i know in my core that touya is annoying. i feel it in my bones. he flicks your forehead when youāre mid sentence and when you look at him dumbfounded he continues to deadpan back at you or ask a question about what you were saying. he pokes your side every time he passes you in the house. he sits next to you on the couch with an arm around you and he taps your shoulder farthest from him, then looks away like he didnāt do it. he puts his feet up on the coffee table and refuses to put them down when you try to get by. he puts the empty milk container back in the fridge. he puts dirty clothes on the floor right next to the empty hamper. he pees with the door open and leaves the toilet seat up. heās annoying. the sky is blue grass is green and touya is annoying
i keep thinking little thots about himā¦.u walk by him in the hallway of ur home and he physically HAS to pin u against the wall. youāre eating something and he doesnāt even like it that much but he NEEDS to take a bite from ur plate just to see u glare at him. he spreads out in bed so his leg is awkwardly thrown over ur body. he laughs loudly when he knows ur on the phone. he changes your phone password so you have to ask him what the new one is. he asks you the most simple questions when he knows ur already slightly irritated. he uses your shampoo and leaves the empty bottle in there
leahhhh i love and miss you with all my heart š i hope youāve been doing okay š ily ily ily
HI MY PRECIOUS EJ
ilove u so dearly and appreciate your kind words always. miss u with all my heart and am sending you the worlds best hug
leah i miss u i love u i hope ur doing well š
my soph!!! i love u forever and a day
