Personal Journey

CW: 5’5 and 117 GW: 5’7 and 108

[misspiggydoll-blog]

I woke up this morning scared and I am still scared. I don’t know why, maybe because I broke something since last month and scared my parents will find it. Or scared I won’t get this internship or I am scared that I will let down people when making this team. Or maybe I am scared of my grades not going up....overall I am scared and I don’t enjoy it. I keep pushing away eating real meals, I could spend all day in my bed, I get stressed from stuff and can’t have a breakdown which worries me more. Idk what I am doing or if I will survive soon but hey that’s life right😂😂

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I A M A S A D B O I

Hi it is me again, I think I might be heart broken....I have liked this guy since 10th grade since I transferred to the school newly. He is in my grade but he is like SMART SMART, 4.0 gpa, 1300 and abover SAT score, no B, AP classes, ranking 1st in our grade. In tenth grade we didn’t see each other, just walked in the hallways didn’t say hi or anything. I was a stalker basically. 11th grade still no classes together because I am an average student and he is above average. But I had a plan and it was to make sure he knew my name and my face and remember me.... I joined sport he played and a club he is in (I am enjoying the club and sport now a lot so good thing I joined) in the club him and I don’t speak there cause he is of course on a higher level and plays with higher levels (we plays chess) so no Communication there so over to the sport!! He is again ON THE HIGHER LEVEL (I mean no loss against the other team) of course everyone knows I like him cause I make it obvious but his guy friend has been telling me he likes this other girl who is his best friend so yea....this leads me up to now, I know he will never date an average annoying girl like me when he has his best friend who is 3 rank in school, Ap classes, 4.0 and 1300 above SAT too. Yes him and I talk but in a group setting never alone, he has a nice smile, laugh, eyes, grades, brain (his personality is slightly antisocial but he knows how to keep things in a loop), he just is normal and I like that

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[scary-pumpkins]

Hey, this is a post for those with eating disorders –

I’m reminding you that it’s okay to eat that Halloween candy, it’s okay to have another slice of pumpkin pie, it’s okay to drink apple cider, to have that pumpkin spice latte, to eat Halloween themed cookies, to eat candy apples - it’s all okay. I promise. You’re not bad or disgusting or any negative thing you might think. It’s the Halloween season and it’s perfectly okay to enjoy yourself and eat special treats, really.

I know it’s harder during the holidays and it gets so frustrating, so much you want to cry and scream but I promise, you can and will get through this. You don’t have to be so hard on yourself all of the time, it’s okay to have a little fun and eat the special holiday food, alright? Just remember that, especially this upcoming weekend when you’re going to parties or you’re home alone having a spooky movie marathon. It’s okay to eat.