Miss Star World

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Yup still mf thuggin

[missstarsworldho]

Officially accepted reality! Not sad about it, transmuting and using this time to do exactly what I’ve wanted to do! Moving forward all thanks to finding myself and seriously falling in love with myself! I used to think I was lonely now I think I’m getting back used to peace!

[missstarsworldho]

Eventually I’ll get used to being alone in this world! I just can’t wrap my head around how my family doesn’t love & care about me! I’m literally so sad about it like it’s eating me up inside faking it like my family cares when I haven’t talked to anyone in my family in years! I hate it here most times I don’t want to exist anymore. People only come around when they need something and if I don’t have it to offer no one comes around! I’m starting to believe I am unlovable!

[missstarsworldho]

Proof of life 🤩😘

[missstarsworldho]

Wow I look good with weight! Always been skinny but never really fully understood just how gorgeous I am until now! I don’t like that I remember everything so clearly. Mental health is everything I seriously yearn for family love but the family I was born into just doesn’t get it! Feeling pushed off or like a burden is something I refuse to pass down! I will love my family happily & whole heartedly. I just have to remember I do deserve the best of the best!

[missstarsworldho]

Only God knows how lonely this road is. I pray he gives me exactly what I need and more! I’m staying patient & lately I feel myself changing for the better laughing at things more and learning some of the psychological things that happened to me in the pastor therapy. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just gotta keep the faith and keep hope alive!

[missstarsworldho]

I’m at a whole new stage in my life. I can’t go back and I can’t give up so my only option is to figure out how to keep going and survive through this time of my life! It’s been hard but I won’t give up I just have to stay ready so I don’t have to get ready! This road isn’t easy but it’s my only option!

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Heart becoming colder and colder as the days go by that I don’t talk to anyone in my family! I think about so much it makes my heart ache! Gotta keep working each day tho! I’m all I have!

[missstarsworldho]

New year no f’s to give

[missstarsworldho]

Dang yall it’s a been a min im getting back to myself I decided to take a short content break to regroup and find myself again! Life can get so busy I’ve had to really sit down and reassess! I get in feels being all alone in this world but I have to remember God brought me in this world bms and I’m gone leave this world bms so it’s all good 🤩

[missstarsworldho]

Had to realize I’m really 1 of 1! He may try to replace me but I turn everything into gold! I can make you forget about the bull shit in the mist of you trying to force the bs! I love that about me! Just a big ball of light! I’m back on my PT journey & so excited for where I’m going God has something big in store for me and I’m so grateful to be in a space to receive it!

[missstarsworldho]

I feel better knowing they’ll never see me or speak to me again! I’ve always wanted someone to be on my journey with me but I’m constantly reminded that now isn’t the time! My pleasure was the same as his. I knew that no matter what I can have him right where I want him may have been vice versa but not anymore ☺️ I love that about me… when I say good bye I mean it!!!

[missstarsworldho]

I’m such a delicate woman I couldn’t even fathom doing someone how they did me. Growing in life is being the bad guy before hand & saying no before the bad guy gets you! It’s so many “opportunities” that have presented themselves this year in my time of need. All of those “opportunities” ended up with me either losing or ending up in jail! So staying firm on my “NO” was the challenge! I passed the first “NO” now time to pass the second “NO” test! Each test I’ve lost a “friend”…. It’s ok to move smarter & not harder people are going to need you again & try to use you again! First time shame on you!!! Second time shame on me!!! It’s not a lose if it benefits me in the long run ☺️💖🤩

[missstarsworldho]

A few years ago I started my own record label & named it Pistol Star Records. Hungry for more of what I love! Living in my first home with my boyfriend … of course we broke up & I had to give it all up but I genuinely can say that was the best time of my life. I’m back on my hustle now and I feel better than ever doing what makes me feel good and getting back to doing things for the sole purpose of benefiting my life! Can’t wait to show you guys more workouts & keep putting that smile on my face making myself proud!

[missstarsworldho]

Living good feeling better 😘 It takes playing chess not checkers to get to where you’re going! I see myself living lavish & genuinely enjoying the finest, the best of everything 🤩

[missstarsworldho]

Listen can’t you hear them calling my name! Happy Sunday today’s a great day to listen to gospel and thank God for everything you have even your hot ass breath today 😘

[missstarsworldho]

Ngl I miss living in a house with a grown man who is only interested in paying the bills & taking care of himself! That’s how I was raised & it was the best experience for me! My pops let me live my life but always came through when called on! I guess I just miss having someone! It’s hard to balance it all out but it gets done and life goes on! I just feel I’ll never be the same person again. I feel like a piece of me is missing… Everytime I felt like a had no one I always had him & now I don’t idk how to even feel anymore. The will to live will return in vengeance but I long for it to come in forgiveness, unity within my family real love, bonding & trust.