[ i know you’re probably thinking, oh my gosh Sol where have you been. well I’m still busy with school. Yep, school has completely consumed my life more than I thought it was going to be and I’m trying my best right now because this is my last year so I’m really focused on that. no, I didn’t forget you guys. I actually miss being here and writing, it’s just I don’t really have the time. i’m hoping soon that there will be a break in the work, but i’m sure that time will only come when it’s Nov during the holiday so you may not get anything out of me until then, but i’m hoping sooner. Alright, well I have to go now. See ya soon! ]
{ hello! i know i haven’t been around much and i’m really sorry for that. school has completely consumed my life and i literally have minimal free time to do other things. i’m hoping soon that i can get a break and actually come back because i kind of miss being on here. so i’ll see you guys soon, i hope }
[ hey guys! i know i haven’t been on here much and i feel really bad for just ghosting. i haven’t really been motivated and i’ve been a little stressed with getting stuff ready for school. so i hope that soon i can come back on here. thank you for understanding ]
[ this last week has been really emotionally weird for me and it’s making it hard for me to write and think so i’m hoping soon this gloomy mood goes away bc i don’t want you guys to be waiting for forever. so just please be patient with me ]
❥ [bc we all know katsu is too sweet to do that in reality]
❥ - rough, violent, or dominant touch, such as gripping the back of their neck, holding them down, shoving them into a wall, digging their nails into them, grabbing their jaw, etc
A pulse tapped against his fingertips, a tight grip around a wrist, he wasn’t letting go. Katsu stood there with his head down, his hair making a curtain over his eyes as he stared at what his hand was doing. Frustration and confusion dominated his mind as he wondered how he got there, but no recollection came to him. That’s when he made the decision to figure out. Looking up, he saw the face of someone familiar. Someone he held close to him, but not like this. What was he doing? Her face didn’t move, no expressions, as his eyes widened knowing who this was. She was almost like a statue, but he knew she was real, he could feel her heart beating through her wrist. Desperate for answers, he called out her name hoping she could tell him what was happening. “Shirokane?” His voice panicky and shaking, he waited for her to acknowledge him, but all she did was stare at him with a cold stare. Had he done something wrong? Why was she ignoring him? “Shirokane!” Katsu’s chest rose and fell rapidly as his lungs fought to find air to stable him, to breathe, but it was getting harder as the tingling of anxiety traveled from the back of his mind to the front making itself known. It stung his chest as whatever air was left screamed out her name once again, but there was still no answer. A stream of tears made a path down his face as all hope was being lost, but then something happened.
Through slightly blurred vision, he could see the life slowly coming back to her eyes, like a flame had started to thaw what was frozen. There was a blink and then there were two. Happy to see that she was finally moving, he wiped away the remaining tears with his free hand. “Shirokane?” Katsu’s throat felt dry as he swallowed afraid of her not answering him once again, but relief came over him getting rid of his anxiety ridden mind as her mouth opened. He could see the words of his name being said, but there was no sound. Just as confused as he was, he could see her saying it once again, but like before the sound of his name was gone. “Shirokane, are you ok? Can you speak?” Her head shook back and forth slowly telling him with a motion that she could not.
It seemed like it happened so slowly, but at the same time so fast. From the gentle shake of her head, it soon became violent. Her head whipped back and forth as panic set in her eyes. That’s when Katsu could see her eyes trained on something in between them. His eyes slowly made their way to where she was looking and just like before, he could see his hand wrapped around her wrist. Her pulse banging against the tips his fingers rapidly wanting to be left out, but he couldn’t let go. Why couldn’t he let go? It was almost like his body had a mind of its own and that thought was true when he saw his own fingers tightly wrapping her wrist. With anxiety settling in again, he looked up at Hibiki to tell her didn’t know what was going on, but the tears that were rolling down her face made the words get stuck in his throat. Her head started to shake again telling him no, her free hand started to claw at the hand he had no control over. She was trying to push him away, but there was no way for him to give her the space that she needed. “Shirokane, I’m s-sorry. I don’t k-know what’s g-going on.” New tears made the same path down his cheeks as he apologized for something he couldn’t control. There was fear written all over her, fear of him. Her mouth opened to say something and to his surprise, he could hear her. “Katsu stop.” Her desperation to get free grew as his grip become unbearable. “Katsu stop!” The last shout came out as a cry, but it seemed like someone had turned up the volume. It shook against his ear drums as it became a loud intolerable continuous screeching sound making him have to cover his ears, his eyes screwing shut. He had control of his body again. The ringing in his ears had finally stopped. With his eyes now opened, paralyzed in his state, he could see that she was gone. All that was left was a pile of sand sitting at the at his toes and the remaining grains of sand slipping through the cracks of his fingers.
The faint glow of the rising sun painted stripes of pale orange against Katsu’s bedroom wall. Remnants of the dream pressed against his mind and against his chest making it hard for him breathe. The soft material of his blanket pooled in his lap as he tried to make sense of what had happened, but like before nothing came to mind. No matter how hard he tried, there was nothing that came to mind. Well, there was something. Instantly finding his phone and turning it on, the white numbers of six twenty stared back at him. Katsu went straight to his text messages and messaged the one person who would have some kind of idea what this dream meant, that was Hibiki.
[ i’m so sorry that i’ve been absent this last week. I needed to step away for a little while, but now i’m back and hopefully I can get every thing done today ]
What’s this? A bnha oc penned by Mistress Cupcake?! Egads, what horror! You better like and/or reblog this if you want to interact or who knows what may happen!
1. Smoking: the action or habit of inhaling and exhaling the smoke of tobacco or a drug.
2. Binge drinking: the consumption of an excessive amount of alcohol in a short period of time.
3. Drug abuse: the habitual taking of illegal drugs.
4. Nail biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension.
5. Lip biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension.
6. Night Owl: a person who is habitually active or wakeful at night.
7. Early bird: a person who rises, arrives, or acts before the usual or expected time.
8. Negative attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with criticism and pessimism.
9. Positive attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with optimism and confidence.
10. Swearing: the use of offensive language.
11. Superstitious: an irrational belief that an object, action, or circumstance not logically related to a course of events influences its outcome.
12. Inspecting fingernails: a common body language sign of boredom.
13. Scratching your neck: a common body language sign of uncertainty.
14. Foot and finger tapping: a common body language sign of stress/impatience.
15. Nose touch: a subtle body language sign of deceit.
16. Flipping hair: a common body language sign of craving attention.
17. Twirling hair: a common body language sign of flirtation.
18. Cracking knuckles: a common body language sign of readiness.
19. Hands behind back: a common body language sign of confidence.
20. Finger pointing: a common body language sign of authority.
21. Hands on hips: a common body language sign of readiness.
22: Hands in pockets: a common body language sign of mistrust/reluctance.
23. Frequent touch: a common body language sign of warmth/familiarity.
24. Throat-clearing: a common body language sign of rejection/doubt.
25: Jaw-clenching: a common body language sign of hostility.
26: Eye-rolling: a common body language sign of irritation.
27: Head-tilt: a common body language sign of interest.
28. Whistling: to emit high-pitched sound by forcing breath through a small hole between one’s lips or teeth; usually to a tune.
29. Humming: make a low, steady continuous sound like that of a bee; usually to a tune.
30. Perfectionism: refusal to accept any standard short of perfection.
31. Photographic memory: the ability to remember information or visual images in great detail.
32. Paranoia: a mental condition characterized by delusions of persecution, unwarranted jealousy, or exaggerated self-importance, typically worked into an organized system.
33. Exaggeration: a statement that represents something as better or worse than it really is.
34: Intuitive: using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive.
35: Quick-witted: showing or characterized by an ability to think or respond quickly and effectively.
36: Interrupting: breaking the continuity of a conversation with one’s own statements.
37: Doodling: to scribble or make rough drawings, absent-mindedly.
38: Irritable: having or showing a tendency to be easily annoyed.
39: Gambling: to play games of chance for money; bet.
40: Travel-sick: suffering from nausea caused by the motion of a moving vehicle, boat, or aircraft.
41: Sensitive: having or displaying a quick and delicate appreciation of others’ feelings.
42: Melancholy: a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause.
43: Chewing gum: the exercise of chewing flavoured gum which is not intended for swallowing.
44: Fidgeting: to make small movements, especially of the hands and feet, through nervousness or impatience.
45: Skeptical: not easily convinced; having doubts or reservations.
46: Neat-freak: compulsively obsessed with cleanliness.
47: Gossiping: divulging personal information about others.
48: Prim: feeling or showing disapproval of anything regarded as improper; stiffly correct.
49: Abbreviating: Giving others nicknames/shortening names/giving pet names.
50: Having a catchphrase: having a sentence or phrase typically associated with a specific person.
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