Mi Vida Gordx

Food  Diary of a Fat Trans/Nonbinary Xicanx

[trulyamood]

[qxicana]

for the tender hearts who need to dramatically cry. release and flow.

[anxietyproblem]

[quecooltura]

🤰🏻🐋🍕🌚

[mckedwin]

[mividagordx]

Mushrooms stuffed with: cream cheese, bacon bits, sharp cheddar cheese, minced garlic, parsley, paprika, and chile chilpetin (de Sinaloa)

[mividagordx]

Bomb ass chicken breast, spinach and mushrooms smothered in sour cream and chile sauce with bacon and asparagus 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

[sawing4teens]

Obesity (fatness) – as an identity or an experience - does not exist in a vacuum. One’s experience as a fat person is mediated by their gender, race, class standing, ability, and citizenship status; these realities overlap, intersect and complicate the way that a disease classification may be stacked onto other marginalized identities. Furthermore, because women, poor people and people of color are likelier to be classified/seen as fat in our culture, the AMA decision de facto upholds sexism, classism and racism.

Virgie Tovar - http://www.virgietovar.com/2/post/2013/06/stigma-loading-the-effects-of-disease-classification-amas-decision-to-call-fat-a-disease.html

Earlier this year, the AMA, against the council of other medical organizations and medical professionals decided to include obesity in their list of diseases. Not a symptom, not a disorder, not an illness, a disease. Like Alzheimer’s, cancer or cholera.

Theories on why they’ve made this controversial decision are all related to the ability of medical practitioners to be reimbursed by insurers and to hawk diet pills. Once obesity has been recognized as an illness for long enough, insurance companies in the US, where over 30% of it’s 300 million are considered clinically obese, will eventually be able to include coverage of costly “treatments." 

Forget improving access to proper nutritional information, ending the subsidies of the corn industry, lets just call everyone diseased and we’ll all make a lot more money (except for fat people, but who actually gives a shit about fat people anyway?)

[bigbadjuju-deactivated20190608]

My fat is political because when I show it off it really seems to piss people off. My fat is political because I’m keeping it. My fat is political because it’s fucking hot. My fat is my flag, my claim to fame, my battle scar, my secret fat girl society badge.

Virgie Tovar (via bigbadjuju)

[mividagordx]

Welcome to my Vida Gorda

CW: Disordered eating, alcohol abuse, emotional distress/trauma, body image issues

My name is Bee and this is my first post to my food diary. The MAIN reason for this food blog/diary is that I love food and growing up as a fat person I was always ashamed of saying that out loud. I still remember the first time I actually said that I loved food… It was 2 years ago while I was working on a workshop called “Amor a Las Lonjitas: Fat Bodies and Diet Culture.”  And it remains true: I absolutely lovvveeee food and I loveeeee cooking and experimenting in the kitchen. I’ve spent so much time and energy on learning to embrace my fat body and now I’m at a point where I can really reflect on how I nurture my body without falling into a state of mind that is obsessed with losing weight. I see this as taking my healing a step further and if by chance I happen to loose weight a long the way than so be it - but that is not my intention at all in starting this blog. The reason I want to start a food diary is so that I can be more conscious about the ways that I nurture my body and so that I can experiment with different ways of consuming different types food and beverages. I also want to acknowledge that I currently struggle with alcohol abuse in the form of binge drinking. I name this because I use it to cope with other anxiety/stress and I’m not sure I am ready to completely sober up but I definitely want to consume less sugary drinks and less beer since I am prone to diabetes.

Growing up I have struggled with disordered eating for many years, which resulted in a huge level of dissociation from my body. In order to heal, I had to purposely not pay any attention to what I was eating and how much, otherwise I would get obsessed and use binge eating/purging and starvation to cope with the amount of loathing I had for my body. I am happy to reflect on how much progress I’ve made and healing from the amount of body shame and trauma I had growing up has been a long and hard process and tbh it never stops. I have to constantly make intentional efforts to remind myself that my fat is resilient for the fact that it doesn’t comply to colonized forms of desirability. 

Another layer to this is that I am transgender. I’m an agender non-binary masc presenting soft Boii. ^.^ This also informs my experience with fatness because having gender dysphoria is another reason I haven’t been very nice to my body in the past. 

I’m a survivor of emotional abuse, self-harm and many other things I’m not ready to name yet and with this food diary I am reclaiming my body because I have the ultimate agency to determine what goes in my body and how much of it. Although I might be trying different forms of eating (not using the word “diet” because it is not a diet) and cleansing, I am not going to promote any type of “weight loss” strategy and will be as conscious to keep my content 100% fat positive and body positive because all bodies are positive bodies ^_^ 

#RiotsNotDiets