the MIX of me

a MIX of sorrow and pain, a MIX of fuck ups, a MIX of love & hate, a MIX of happiness and tears.. a MIX of CEZ

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Reading through our conversations. I felt u promised the unpromised. I felt the love unloved. I felt the care uncared and most importantly, i felt respect, disrespected.

I held ur hands once. Hugged u once. Kissed u once. I missed that. But all flew by.

Im alone now. Overthinking as usual.

Im not afraid that one day ul read this coz you honestly did not ask how i really felt and how i loved you. But for now. Im not ready to show you i cared. Coz ul find another excuse to tell me you are sorry.

Letting go this time.. freely letting go. I just want my heart and smile back.

#lettinggo #hopelesswriting #memories #fadingmemories

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Never realized grey can cover me up. Never realized again and again that thoughts can be clouds. Time to pick up the shells and feel the ocean's breeze. #ocean #bridge #emotions #timetosaygoodbye #timetofinallyletgo #time #essential #nomore

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Deny me of love but not respect. Deny me of care but not shit. Deny me of touch but not ur kiss. Deny me of comfort but not ur words. Deny me of yourself but not you. U were a nightmare to my suicide.

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Maybe it's time to headbm back. #inkedgirl #inkaddiction #tattoedgirl #tattoed #joesaliendra #tattoosatjoe #ink

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Was about to pack my stuff.. but the little one disapproves.. hahhahaha. #dachschundsofinstagram #doxie #doxies #ilovedogs #dontshopadopt #petparent #petsagram #dachshunds #dachshund

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Walking here never felt so good! Mom was dead tired.. i was just skipping happily. Hahhahaa. Photo by mom (forced her to take my photo) lol. #tokyo2016

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This trip taught me so much.. patience.. appreciation.. love.. missing.. simplicity.. breathing.. #you #thankYOU My adorable mom. #mom #loveofmylife #tokyo2016

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You know when ur a snoopy addict if 99% of ur stuff is... well... SNOOPY-fied. Hahahaha. #snoopy #pebble2 #ricohgr #wd #bobbybrown #mac #comradeleathergoods

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Clean water. #kawagoe

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Missing YOU. #kawagoe #tea

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Blue blue day in Manila. Lovely. #blue #bluesky

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Happening now. My adorable goddaughter's binyag and 2nd birthday party. Sleeping beauty. ❤ #ninang #ninangduties #loveforinaanak

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Religious use of incense has its origins in antiquity. The burned incense may be intended as a sacrificial offering to various deity or to serve as an aid in prayer.(wikipedia) #incense #shintoshrine #asakusa

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Japan gave us 1 day of beautiful weather.. 1 day.... thank you so much! :) #nofilter #nofilterneeded

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My perfect kind of shop. Just perfect. #tokyuhands

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We're having italian ❤ for our last dinner in Tokyo. Why? We wanted to try something different here. And mom loves it. Im happy. :) food here is great.. so is the wine. 800 degrees neapolitan pizza #800degreesneapolitanpizzeria #shinjuku #pizza #wine #thankYOU (at Shinjuku Station)

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Our lunch. Just so so. Not complaining. #s7 #odaiba #sunshinecityplaza