Alvarez, Lei

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“My Life Guide to Become a Responsible and Capable Lad”

ALWAYS LISTEN TO EVERYONE BUT DO THE BEST FOR YOU

 - I am a person who is open to everyone and sometimes I forgot myself. I always do the best for others who needs my help or for inspiration. Now, I already learn from it. Without forgetting myself, I listen to everyone and making myself happy by helping them.

AVOID BEING PART OF WRONG DEEDS

 - When I was young, I do what I want to do. Playing with friends until evening. While playing with them I tend to forget my meals and lying to my parents that I already eaten my meals. As I grow older, I got a painful sick in my stomach. Then now, I reflected that in everything that I do, will always come back to me

RESPECT THE GENERATION GAP

-  How would the world vary without respect? Respect is the act of showing someone that you value his or her feelings and thoughts. Respect is a universal value that each person desires not only to embody, but also to receive. Respect is not just what you say but also the way you act. Showing people that you take their feelings and thoughts into consideration are how to earn respect. If you demonstrate respect toward others, then others will respect you and listen to your opinions. Respect begins with self-respect and then extends to the respect of others. It is accordingly to my lived experienced that we should develop self-respect first in different aspects in life cause it guided us and teaches us to respect others too, its a matter of practice in life. Well above all, respect is not optional,  it is required.

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HOW I COPE UP WITH STRESS: A Day to De-stress 

music connects me to another life.

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POWER OF MIND: How My Brain Works

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“MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER: Dear Significant Other”

Dear Mama, I know that it is not easy for you to take and hold me for several months in your womb, whenever and everywhere you go still I am there giving you the trouble and suffering. For how many months, you’re doing a great and probity job in this world; physically, emotionally, mentally, socially, and financially. Sleepless nights for how many months and days is just one of those circumstances that you’ve encountered while giving me the safety, adequate health, and until you gave birth. And now, I am strong and bold it is because of your love and cares that you’ve been inculcated me for how many years while growing up. There are times that we’re giving up, it’s because of our daily needs and wants in life but still, you stand tall and brave for it is not optional but it is required- that in life we need to be courageous, hardworking and a good Samaritan for it will be the tools and the sustenance in everything we do.

  Also, you had thought me the finite time and heart on every highways and byway of life. Thus, for I am your child, I would like to express my heartfelt gratitude and deep appreciation for your existence and significance of your deeds as my mother. Mama, thank you for your love, support, and the good morals and values that you instilled in me. Thank you for teaching me responsibility early in life. You gave me the tools to be self-sufficient, intelligent, and responsible. You always made me feel loved, so, therefore, I exude self-confidence! I value and love who I am right now. Thank you for teaching me that it is okay to put myself first because I’m important too. Thank you for teaching me to never doubt who I am. Thank you for being a mother, role model, and friend. Thank you for telling me that you don’t expect me to be perfect but that you love and accept me for who I am. Thank you for telling me to live life on my terms, that my happiness counts, that I should not live my life trying to please everybody. You thought me not to be afraid to use my voice because of my thoughts and opinions matter. Because of your teachings Mama, I shine like a star! You know, for me you’re a beauty queen!

 As the day comes and I will see you getting old, I promise to be more patient and most of all to be considering what you are going through. If occasionally you are losing your track of what we are talking about, I will give you the time to remember. And if you can’t, there is no need to worry if I feel nervous, impatient, or arrogant because mama just put it in your heart that the most important thing that matters is to be with you. And when you’re old, tired legs don’t let you move as quickly and active as before, I will give you my hand the same way that you offered me when I was learned my first step and walk, and the time you thought me how to stand again and continue. I would like to say sorry for all the murmuring and problems that I gave you since I was young and up to now, sometimes I may be good and some of the time I may be bad.

  To tell you honestly mama, I suffered a lot especially what we are today, the prosperous living we had in the past compared currently is quite a bit different, I know you noticed it, and you let it be as if no one knows and no one cares, but mama I cared a lot and it kills me a lot. I cried out of nowhere with no one to cry on and share my heartaches. I hope and I pray that someday soon, I will see and experience again the fruitful living we had and everything will be settled-safe and sound. Mama, I know you are longing for my best and what my future holds me. I am working on it and you are a big part of it and the big reason why I am striving hard for excellence.

 That someday, I can provide the things that a woman like you deserves. That you will just sit and enjoy the fresh air, no more blood, sweat, and tears should be taken away from you. Your responsibility and role for me are about to end as I am stepping closer day by day to my dream and that is to be a professional architect. By this, I can see your smile, so radiant and warm, illuminating my day with loving affection. I know this is not enough to repay for all the sacrificial and concurrence you had faced and brought today Ma, but I promised that ‘til death do us part, you will always here and never be forgotten. My mama, my hero! I love you and thank you so much! Sincerely yours, Dixie Lei Alvarez

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My most embarrassing moment.

It was almost a year when my unforgettable moment happened. An annual celebration of Gensan Kpop town was held and there are lots of happenings and competition was handed down, such as dance cover competition, and singing competition, over fifty-plus participants who joined the annual celebration of the said event. Luckily, I am one of the performers who showed up and shared my talents with everybody. I sang a song entitled "eyes, nose, lips " by Taeyang of a well-known artist from Korea.

Along with the competition, I met so many individuals who have unique talents and personalities. Most of them are friendly and approachable, they're easy to deal with especially when you are a fanatic of k-pop songs and dances. Sadly,  I feel so shy and nervous at the same time because 'Twas my first time joining that event, I am quietly sitting on the corner waiting for my turn to perform. This would surely affect my performance.

"10,9,8,7,6,5...1" When I heard the countdown I feel that there's a butterfly in my stomach. I don't know what to do or where to go. The only thing on my mind was an adrenaline rush, anytime I heard a countdown it feels like it is my turn even though it was a dance category competition at that time.

As the master of the ceremony announced that "singing contender be ready!" The numbness from my feet goes all over to my body, I feel paralyzed. Then a loud voice I heard saying "Lei, prepare kana!" then it awakens me. I fixed my self then have some practice and recalling the song.

A few minutes ago, the song performances have begun. Two more contenders before me, and it's my turn. 

Next contender we have, Mr. Lei who will perform the song entitled "eyes, nose, lips" by Taeyang of Bigbang. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMymosGiQ_8

The video entails the whole embarrassment I felt that instant. I cant hear the music accurately because it was facing on the audience that lead me for being misguided on the right beat, and because of my impulsiveness, I cant deliver the right tune or how it is being sung. Also, the big mistake here is doubting my ability to perform.

Above all, the past is past and it will never be eradicated on one's memories yet we need to embrace it and cherish the moment because it was a part of who we are and what we are. In the long run, still, we can improve ourselves because I believed, life is all about the journey-the personal voyages that we must each take; to meet our goals and realize our dreams. Fulfill our individual destinies. The successful and victorious twist and turns of life may be symbolized by a narrow trail through a dense forest. So, whatever the journey, whatever the experience, be assured that there are valuable lessons that we must carry through the highways and byways of life.

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“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ―Ralph Waldo Emerson

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“A star shines more when it's dark”

In our life, we see darkness as a curse in our path to our dreams but darkness doesn’t need another darkness, it needs you to shine for who you are then you will serve as a light to your dreams.