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GANG AU! DEALER! JIMMY INK x F! READER
Summary: the weekend couldn’t come quick enough after your interaction with ink trying to suppress the voice in your head telling you there was an alterioir motive to the girl in reds words..and actions
Chapter 4: I only Party4U
The last few days blurred into one. Distracted by the infinitum of thoughts that swirled beneath my skull, I was in a constant state of a day dream, in school, in the bath and especially in bed. Night after night I layed up with my head to the ceiling questioning why the events of the last week had taken place how they had taken place and what it meant for me now.
Even after restless nights, I still had no clue. My body felt heavy going through my day to day, getting ready, doing revision; I couldn’t keep my thoughts in one place for more than a second.
It dawned on me that it was now Friday night, my thin blanket that remained at the bottom of my bed now sprawled out over me as it had been since I sat on my bed since arriving home from school.
My mothers tone of concern as I walked through the door still rang in my head “hiya lo-fuckin’ hell hun you look like boiled shite you okay?”
I had sighed forcing a tired smile across my lips trying not to wince at the mention of shite“yeah mum I think I’m due on feel a bit ill but I’ll be fine I promise.”
She hadn’t believed me. She always read me like a book it was actually scary. Even so, she had gave me a peck on the forehead and left me to go to my room. I hadn’t told her, of course. I didn’t need her worrying plus she would remind me of the path my dad took. He wasn’t around anymore and my mum was never specific on why but she made sure to drill it into me that he had a good reason; he was a good man. I believed her as I had no reason not to.
My mum was the type of woman who took no shit. She was always my biggest supporter and protector; rational and reasonable always keeping me in check. I admired her deeply and every time someone would tell me I looked or acted like her my chest would glow with pride. But saying that I know there were certain things I needed to figure out on my own.
The thought came to me almost as quickly as I jumped out of my bed grabbing my A3 sketchbook and ripping a page out of it before returning to my bed with a thud.
Splitting the page into two sections I labelled them “what I know” and “what I don’t know”. It seemed silly but realistically if this could help me organise my thoughts then so be it.
I think for a second before I start writing:
“What I know”-
I’ve on okay terms with sir lord jimmy crystal
Ink knew where I lived without me telling her
Ink gave “charity” to the creepy lad from the party
Jimmima assumed I was staying with ink
Shite is still pissed at me
Charity is what the jimmies do when someone fucks with their sir lord
Party on Saturday
I sigh as I struggle to conjure up anymore points to add. I kick myself for not asking ink about what Jimmima had said. Everything was so overwhelming to comprehend and I tried to suppress the feeling that grew in my chest at the thought of ink and her presence.
“What I don’t know”
Why Jimmy crystal invited me to the party
If I’m safe
If I should tell my mum what’s going on
What I can do to make things right with shite
What im going to wear for the gaff Saturday
How I felt about ink
My eyes freeze on the last point as I beg the question again in my head. How do I feel about ink? She made me flustered in her placement of her hands on my skin as if by nature she knew of the pressure points that make me feel weak in the knees. Even when she grabbed my face, her fingertips would soften ever so slightly over my cheek. I tried to suppress the thought of the look she gave me in the car and definitely tried to ignore the way her eyes would dart to my lips every so often.
Every movement she made was subtle but never lost on me. My mind craved conversation with her. I needed to know who she was what she liked and how certain things made her feel. She was scary but it enticed me even more as I Paired it with what Jimmima had said when I had helped her with dishes, I knew I wasn’t the only one who caught on to inks demeanour change, except it was obvious there were sides of the story I was yet to be filled in on. The time I spent with her was brief but I’ve always had an addictive personality. It doesn’t help she seemed into it in her own odd twisted way.
The thought of her not hesitating to shove shite off of me made me conflicted with how easily she had shoved me against the wall and grabbed me so aggressively when I had spoke out of turn. It felt like a cradle and slap on the head but I couldn’t stop revising and rehearsing every movement and breathe without overthinking it.
I suddenly remind myself of what ink had said in the car over shite. I wasn’t stupid I knew his reputation I had seen his temper snap and had also been held at knife point by him. I had no idea how to get him off my back: he could protect himself, he had money, he had equally insane mates and I had fuck all.
I grunt heavily as I throw my body back into my support system of pillows and a blanket; throwing my hands over my head I rest into myself and decide to call it a night after all it was Friday night,deciding that and the jimmies, ink and Jimmy crystal were Saturday’s problem.
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My body woke with alarm. Hair covered my face and feel into my mouth as pressure increased around my middle, feeling two thighs pressed against my sides. As my eyes shoot open, my arms swing up as my adrenaline speeds through my viens.
“WOAH woah r/n calm it.”
My blurry vision finally focused on the form and face in front of me. Rose.
“Jesus Christ rose I almost decked you,” I say with an exasperation sigh,holding onto the sides of her arms. Her presence was less alarming as my mum would’ve allowed her into the house, it being her second home of course,“what’s going on why are u here?”
“Well, sorry for checking my bestie was still alive,” she giggles lightly before a more serious, though still light,expression dawned on her face, “no but seriously,girl I haven’t heard from you all week are you okay? Look I know last Friday was a shit show but I promise you will never have to be around Micheal or his little gang friends ever again.”
She smiles softly as her reassuring tone is like honeydew, further reminding me of how grateful I was to have someone so mad and fiercely loyal to me in my life. However, this feeling was also accompanied by the dread I felt knowing I had to spill everything that had occurred the past week. She noticed the smile on her face wasn’t reciprocated on my own and her face dropped with a mother’s concern.
“R/N. What?” She spoke in that tone I couldn’t disobey.
The next half an hour had felt quite on Rose’s end as I practically word vommited at her without a breathe between words. I told her everything. From the police chase and the bag how Jimmy crystal acted towards shite and eventually led to my confession of how ink had played the whole thing out and how the conversation in the car led me to even further conflicted feelings. I stare at her as her face falls further and deeper into levels of shock and confusion I had yet to see from her before.
“Well?” I ask desperately awaiting a response as the silence became deafening.
After a long draining pause, a sudden burst of laughter echoed around the room. Rose’s head swings back as her laugh became a cackle.
“‘WELL?’- R/N you are mad. Absolutely insane. I can’t believe you. Since when do you hang around with gangsters. Fucking hell I leave you for a week and you find yourself in a gang HAHAH,” she wipes a tear from her eye, her reaction leaving me in a state of shock, “no but how did that Jimmy ink know where to drop you off. Bit sketch that like-“
“Girl I don’t know,” I huff as I lie back down, “but she did invite me to another gaff-it’s tonight.”
“YOURE LYING OH MY GOD.”
“I mean what do I do? If my mum finds out I’m hanging out with a gang she’ll slap me stupid like I KNOW better- I should just fuck it off and go uni somewhere like 5 hours away,” I chuckle slightly before reality sets in, “Rose she’s gonna be here at 9.”
She smirks slightly before standing up off of my bed with a proud clap of her hands “right, first of all, you’re not fucking off 5 hours away so get that out of your head RIGHT now, and second of all, WE will be going tonight.”
I scoff slightly at her suggestion “rose fuck off that’s not happening I’m not letting you put yourself in harms way because of my stupid actions.”
She shakes her head softly “Nope nu-uh not hearing it if you think I’m letting you go by yourself you’re deluded.”
Knowing she wouldn’t let up I agree with a disobedient huff knowing Ink was getting double trouble rather than a sacrificial lamb tonight. Praying silently it won’t be an intrusion to Jimmy crystals space, but something eased in me as I realised the favour Jimmy showed towards me against shite. As the thought crossed my mind another creeped up behind it, it was morally questionable but if there was anyone who could help me solve it-it was rose.
“Hey so remember that Jimmy shite who was nicked from our school?”
“Yeah I was speaking to him for a while,why?” A smirk of pure mischievousness was plastered across her face. We exchanged a look similar to the one ink had given sir lord jimmy crystal at the dinner, at least we had that in common; we both had someone we could speak to telepathically.
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The evening had went almost paralleled to last Friday except me and rose were getting ready together this time. My room had looked like a bomb had gone off: clothes sprawled all over in the stress of picking an outfit, setting powder fragments over my desk, a speaker at full volume blasting my playlist and the half opened bottle of vodka that had sat by my desk since last week now poured into two cups. I looked hot as fuck. My hair curled and styled which cascaded down onto the hem of my corset top which pushed my chest up and together creating a perfect cleavage, my waist cinched; my skirt cutting off mid upper thigh.
Nerves still teased my stomach at the idea of going to sir jimmy crystals house, I couldn’t shake the feeling there was something going on under wraps and that I was still at the top of the iceberg. The noise of the night began to fill the atmosphere like I was with rose at the Jimmy house for the first time,except this time it’s different, we know what we’re for and who for. Steer clear of pissing off mr crystal get answers from ink about what the end goal is and Rose will distract shite. That was the plan anyways.
Rose had let me ramble about the girl in red while we got ready. I couldn’t help myself, it was like every thought and feeling I had felt bottled up (no matter how perverted or tame) came spilling out. Rose’s ear was a stabler in the madness of recent events, her ability to calm my spiral was a true talent.
“Wait- just so I get this right-“ Rose’s words startle me from my concentration of my pink and silver sparkly eye shadow “Jimmy crystal reckons he’s like what? The antichrist?”
I giggle slightly as I refocus my attention to my eyelid in the mirror “girl I don’t even know. But he’s got them all having upside down crosses between their eyebrows-fuckin weird,” I shake my head and scoff slightly before turning my attention to rose sitting at my desk “how do I look?”
Her body faces towards me and she lets out a breathily laugh with an almighty smirk “oh girl if ink doesn’t fuck you tonight I will.”
I cackle loudly and stand to get my drink left on my bedside; table taking a sip the harsh, bitter taste lingering in the back of my throat. Checking the time, 8:52, a long huff breaks through my lips making rose glance toward me with a dissatisfied smile.
“Please chick it’s gonna be okay. They might be violent and weird but I’m not scared of them and neither should you; if you feel like shits getting sketchy then we leave,okay?” Her expression stern with that motherly authority she held even though she was only a year older than me.
I giggle softly attempting to dissipate nervous energy, “yes of course. Also, you think Micheal is gonna be there?” I raise an eyebrow
Rose blows a raspberry, her lip liner clashing together in a disproving scoff “fuckin hope not he’s been messaging me like non stop even though I told him to fuck off like seventy million tim-“
Her words were cut off with the sound of a loud car horn. We both stare at each other as we mirror each others smirk. Quickly, we made our way down stairs grabbing our small bags and my white fur coat on the way. As rose puts her heels on I touch up my lip gloss in the mirror in my hallway.
“Your ride here,love?” The sound of my mums voice breaks my concentration on my lips.
“Yeah- me and Rose got invited last minute to an 18th,someone she went to primary with!” My voice was laced with false excitement as I motion towards Rose’s direction. My breathe hitched out of instinct as her face contorted into a completely unamused expression.
“Bit of an aggressive honk wann’it? Who’s giving you a lift?” Her arms crossed over chest as she leans against the staircase. I curse her intuition.
“Emma’s older sister,” Rose’s voice enters the conversation before mine can, “don’t worry Mrs R/L/N I’ll get us an uber home safe.” I look back at rose with as much gratitude as I can, her face feigned with cherub like innocence; absolutely brilliant at it.
Staring at us both she relaxes her body with a huff “okay good, thank you rose. You both look gorgeous, though that skirts more like a belt R/N…”
I scoff at her words playfully “mum please we have to go!”
She chuckles as she pulls me into a hug whispering a soft “be safe.” As she does. Slamming the door behind me turning my key into the lock, my eyes land on that all familiar red and white tracksuit.
Linking with rose, we walk to car as best we can with our heals clacking against the gravel of the road. Ink was outside the car leaning against the driver door her hands enclosed in front of her. Her face contorted into a confused snarl at the girl intertwined with my arm.
“Hey ink!” Rose says with a faux friendly smile before immediately getting into the back seat leaving just me and ink outside of the car.
“The fuck is she doing?” Ink turns towards me almost completely baffled at Rose’s audacity. A cruel snarl making its way to her lips.
“You really think I’m gonna come to one of yours gaffs alone?” I snarl right back at her.
She steps closer to my frame making my heart almost beat out of my chest. “I told you Jimmy invited you, YOU, no one else. Don’t know if you’re just a fucking idiot but if you can’t seem to remember for whatever reason, you originally pissed Jimmy off for inviting yourself to his house now you’re inviting other girls?”
I laugh right in her face at her attempt at name calling “well you must’ve hit your head since because lest we forget, last time I was alone at jimmys gaff one of your monterex ninjas tried to force himself on me, so yeah, I’m not taking that risk again.” I step even closer invading her personal space her nose inches from mine smiling as calmly as I could “okay?”
I don’t even wait for her response as I walk to the passenger side of the car getting in and fastening my seatbelt. There’s a hesitation in inks action to get into the car that makes the rest of the car ride slightly awkward.
After 15 minutes, we arrived. The car pulled into the front of house in the same spot it was parked when I had been driven home by ink earlier in the week. The shadow casted on the house from the outside lights was ominous but the rainbow stream of light from inside flashed through the windows.
Ink was the first to get out following rose from behind me. Ink had caught me off guard, as I had turned to unfasten my seatbelt she had made her way around the car and had opened the passenger door for me. At first, her eyes refused to meet mine, until they did and she motioned for me to make my way out of the car and to the house. A small glow beamed from my chest at the gesture; chivalry was clearly inks form of a weak apology.
Smiling softly as I got out of the car muttering a soft gratitude, rose caught my eye which turned into an almost manic smirk her eyes wide in response to the interaction she had just witnessed.
Ink entered the house first, the familiar feeling of the base of the speakers flooding my system as the door opened, the heat of bodies making me drop my fur coat from my shoulders almost immediately. Ink moved smoothly from the house shoving one lad who seemed too drunk too early out of her way which led him crashing into a nearby wall, it had caught me off guard that a loud laugh escaped my mouth which caused ink to turn around for the first time since we walked through the threshold; she had tried to hide her smirk by turning around but nothing she did got passed me.
Making our way through the sea of bodies, we land in the kitchen where I’m met with the sight of most of the Jimmys; except for Jimmima and Jimmy Jimmy. Jones and snake where by the make shift bar both flushed in the face and keeping close to each other.
“Oh Hey!!” Jones greets ink with a hug and surprisingly embraces me in one too, snake nods his head without much to say “you back already huh?” They whisper barely coherent but I just managed to catch it.
“Haha, yeah- may as well get my own room at this point.” I giggle lightly as I pull away from the embrace.
“The only people who need to get a room are you two.” A loud Welsh accent cuts through our conversation; turning to see fox and shite leaning on the opposite counter.
“Come on ink you know what sir lord is like..cannea bring a bitch in the house he doenea like dogs.” Shite bites through hooded eyes, clearly my lack of presence during the week gave him enough time to stew that come back.
I hold back a snark as I fake a smile “shite, always a pleasure.” I ignore fox completely as I come to realise he’s just a yes man for the slightly taller Scottish lad. This however earned me a cold glare that made jones and snake move out the way laughing amongst themselves as shite moved closer towards me and ink; fox close behind him. The way he moved attacked the atmosphere around me, but I didn’t shy away, he opened his mouth as if his mouth was a loaded gun preparing to shoot me down and destroy any confidence or safety I felt but it was just what I needed to bite back first.
“You remember rose right?” I ask quickly stepping back softly before springing back with rose in tow. This made shite step back slightly. Checkmate.
I could not stress this enough if I tried but rose was gorgeous. Like, the type of girl shite would shag and eventually fall for;well that was the plan anyway. And shite was…not so blessed. He knew it she knew it and it was a massive gamble because he wasn’t stupid; some girls would fawn over drug dealers due to the reputation free stash and the money but shite wasn’t just a runner for Jimmy crystal he was a soldier. The dinner with Jimmies made me realise crystal made it clear they had a mission; and if Jimmy had told shite not to have any fun tonight then he wouldn’t. I begged to god the universe and even old nick for Rose’s advances to work.
“Hiya shite long time no see.” Rose wraps her arms around his neck seductively and kisses him on the cheek softly before letting go. Fuck yes rose. For once, his face dropped. I held my breathe as I waited for his response as he looked between me ink and rose.
“You cannea be seriou-“ shite had started but rose was faster.
“Sorry, I’m just really greatful that you beat the shit out of that Micheal for slipping something into my drink last time I was here.” She controlled her tone to be smooth as silk and even though in heels made herself seem small, this however caught shites attention.
“Who told you that?” He peered down at her with an accusatory snarl arms crossed his chest losing the gap between them tension building.
“Oh you know,” she takes a puff of her vape and blows the smoke right into his face.
My heart races and my head spins to ink but she seems entertained. Her eyes meeting mine a smirk reached her face as she motions to the pair behind me again. Turning back around I brace myself for a fight.
“You wanna drink?” Shite asks with the same coldness in his voice as before as if he were still interrogating her.
“As long as u don’t spike it!!” She answered cheerily as she grabbed him away from towards the bar not letting him glance back at me and ink. Fox looked at me and scoffed as he walked away. I tried to hide a prideful smirk (key word tried) but it seemed almost impossible because the plan had worked.
Turning back towards ink she had that same entertained smirk on her face. I stepped closer to her as she grabbed a private stash of bottles from the fridge in front of her and poured us both a drink.
“What?” I ask softly, I wasn’t complaining to see her smirk so long as she had soft dimples you could only see close in the light;I was soaking it in.
She handed me the cup and faced me. I felt compelled to mirror her expression as she scoffed playfully, “oh come on.. don’t start with the whole clueless act. You know exactly what you just did; I’m just surprised you pulled it off.” She grins at me as she takes a sip out of her cup. Her eyes remained on my face.
I roll my eyes playfully trying to contain my relief and giddiness “well you underestimate me Jimmy ink. Plus, I actually did nothing rose did all the taking,” I step slightly closer to her “I told you I’d figure an in with shite, rose felt bad about ruining my night last week and wanted to make sure shite didn’t ruin it-plus I think she still thinks he’s fit so win win.” I shrug and giggle at her wide eyed expression
“She finds HIM fit?” She shakes her head softly in disgust as I continued to laugh.
“I’m not even joking I said the exact same thing when she told me she was speaking to him months ago. Don’t know exactly what she saw but I’m not one to judge.”
An hour or so had passed and me and ink had been generous in the pouring of our third drink which had led to us being more tipsy than either of us had registered. We had joked with jones and snake over the sight of shite and rose on the couch (both pretending to be tame knowing individually were both bat shit insane) before making our way to the living room an hour later dancing against each other, before making our way back to the kitchen pouring another drink when I notice her eyes bare into me as if she was looking for something she couldn’t find, i tilt my head slightly to the side curiously,“what?” i ask cautiously with a squinted brow.
Inks braids move against her face as she shakes it side to side “nothing.” She mutters into her cup taking a bigger gulp than expected.
“No seriously what it is? You keep looking at me like that what is it?” I ask pressing into her more. I take a risk and reach out brushing her arm lightly.
Her gaze becomes fixated on my hand pressing lightly on her upper arm, the bitter liquid seeping slowly into my veins gave me an increasingly intense surge on confidence. Eventually, her deep brown eyes make me feel like putty as I’m put under a gaze, different then her usual routined unbothered aggravated or amused expression.
“You’re intoxicating. Every time you’re near me I cant focus on anything else.” Her tone was a mix of awe and lack of confidence. As if on cue her head snaps back towards the party in front of us, the usual mix of emotion returning to her face, as she takes another gulp of her drink. I’m stunned. I thought I imagined the tension between us but this made every thought I deemed delusion reality. The party boomed around us but all I could watch was the confusion brewing in her brow, other than that the world filled with silence.
Suddenly, that silence is broken as ink moves away muttering something along the lines of “I have to go to talk to the sir lord.”As she moves away and disappears into the swallowing crowd, my heart races in my ears as I can’t help but chase after her. I refuse to not take my chance after all the hell of turmoil I’ve been put through the last week, I deserve this, so does she.
Pushing through the sweaty crowd her red jacket guided me like a moth to a light, like a phoenix to a flame, I couldn’t resist shoving the bodies In my way desperation filling my movements as I continued to make my way through the living room and watch as the red haired girl makes her way up the stairs, I giggle softly at myself , again with the stairs.
I quickly kick off my heels in the hallway and run up after her watching as she turns the corner at the top. I couldn’t feel my body as it moved forward. Pure instinct intuition or madness I’m not sure but my body craved to follow where she went. Turning the corner on the upper floor I come face to face with the door I had seen slam behind her. My breathe hitched as my body continued to move opening the door and slamming it behind me as ink had done before me.
My eyes opened, slowly. I hadn’t registered how long they had been closed. But the swirl of warmth and dissipating desperation filled my soul, I couldve cried. My lower back supported by two strong hands, as my own supported each side of ink’s cheeks, moving in slow circles in motions of comfort. Our lips once intertwined now slowly falling away from each other as we both suffer from shaky breathes and attempts at slow breathing.
Inks hand snaps to my wrist, forcing me back into the room, feeling like I wanted to be swallowed whole as my eyes widened. Fuck. Why did I do that. She could kill me. She should kill me if say thank you. She’s such a prick why am I doing this to myself.
My thoughts feel like they’re about to bust out of my brain. “Shit ink I’m sorry I don’t know why I di-“my blurt of apologies were cut short as her hand on my wrist travelled to the back of my head, guiding our lips to interlock again, as her other hand pulled her hips closer to mine. A desperate hum of aggressive satisfaction filled the room as she forces my body against the door with a messy shove. We almost move in synch to the base below as my hands wrap in between her braids, holding on as if she was filling me with the only oxygen in the room. Her lips pressed so softly against mine, nothing but complete attraction and warmth filling my body. Her tongue breaks into my mouth, dancing with my own rather than a fight for dominance as we both relax into each others hold. Pressure built up almost immediately in my core, less of a want and way more over a need, completely overwhelming my senses.
With a small gasp we break apart. Panting desperately not just for air but each other. She tastes of vodka and sweet bitterness, her hold was a soft dominance that held me together at the response of her touch. Ink holds onto my cheek, so softly it spoke as an apology for every time she had dug her nails into the sides of my jaw. She places her forehead to mine, light illuminating my vision as my eyes open slowly. Inks freckled complexion in this way could’ve of brought me to tears. She was a fallen angel; A real heretic. I felt every speck of corruption in her soul and wanted nothing less than all of it. Her breathing slowed as she caught her breathe, eyes still shut as if scared to open them and be faced with a sudden rejection; or something worse.
“Ink..” I whisper softly untangling my own hand from her hair and to her face.
A harsh shaky breathe is released from her nose and her face moves an inch further away as her deep brown eyes meet with mine. She doesn’t speak, and for once neither to do I. I took in every detail of her face: the scarred lip and cheek, every dot that seemed to be placed by old nick himself,her wispy lashes, her symmetrical brows, the small concave that appears more when she smiles and back up again to her eyes, which had stayed on me exploring in a different way. Ink looked at me like she was trying to find something cynical, something to stop her, making her hesitate more than I had bare witnessed to before.
Suddenly,the hand that rested on my cheek hoisted up my bare left thigh, resting it against her hip and edging her knee in between my legs pressing softly into my core. My eyes widened and chest rose and fell at a quicker pace, falling under inks gaze I couldn’t help but smirk excitedly. Leaning in closer to my face her gaze darts from my eyes then down to my lips switching between the two again.
“Kelly” She whispers lightly, I barely heard it.
“Kelly?” I ask softly tilting my head slightly to meet her eyes.
Reciprocating my tilt, she lets out a lightly laugh, “Kelly.”
I giggle softly bringing my other hand to her other cheek, holding her face in my hands, “Kelly.”
Ink, or Kelly now, closed the gap between us taking my lips in between hers as I wrap my arms around her neck. Growing more aggressively I can’t stop myself from moaning into the kiss. Without warning Kelly picked up my body carrying me over to what I assumed was her bed. Lying me down, she hovers over me, smirking over my eagerness and her chance to take advantage of it.
“D’you want me to make you feel good? Hmm?” Kelly’s tone was completely shifted, she wanted something and she was utterly determined to get it, learning a trick or two from leading the other jimmies her seduction was complete dominance.
“Yes,Kelly- please.” Remembering my manners quickly she stood up and held out her hand which I took without question. Twirling me around so I’m stood facing the bed, Kelly lyes in the middle of the bed back on her elbows almost manspread with her legs hanging off of the bed.
“Show me then.” She says in full seriousness a waiting smirk appearing on her face as she takes off her jacket leaving her in a white wife beater and her gold chain on her upper body.
Instead of a verbal response, I muster as much as a seductive smirk as I can, sliding down my skirt while moving my hips in a slow and steady rhythm until they fall to the floor and I step out of them. I watch as her smirk slowly falters and her chest rises and falls excessively as she looks me up and down. I slowly zip down my corset revealing the second piece of my matching set black lace fabric and blue encrusted design. I spin around slowly grasping at my asscheeks as I spin, feeling myself up. Returning back to facing Kelly I walk slowly to the edge of the bed shaking my hips with every step, leaning over and grasping the chain around her neck In my hand pulling her up into a sitting position; my other hand resting on her upper chest.
Straddling myself over her legs, her eyes traced over every inch of my body. I had never had someone look at me in such adoration and it gave me a spike In confidence as I play with her chain focusing on that rather than her.
“I mean I could always get dressed again, If I didn’t show you enough..” my eyes dart to her face looking at her with a faux concern plastered on my face. I didn’t even register a response as I was flipped onto my back, lips and teeth collided in a desperate tango. Kelly moved her mouth down to my jaw and soft spot of my neck that made an involuntary squeal escape my mouth, moving slowly she unhooked my bra letting my tits relax onto my chest. A slight pause occurred, then she continued working her way ravenously down my torso, her head now in between my thighs.
In one attempted snap, my underwear was ripped and to the side, I gasped in disbelief and protest which caused Kelly’s head to snap up “I’ll get you new ones.”
I chuckle at her response which quickly became a soft moan. Kelly’s tongue dove into my core and entangled itself with my clit almost immediately. Out of instinct my hand reached for the back of her head and my hips bucked into her face. The buzzing in my core turned into mini fireworks as she continued working into me moaning around my core sending vibrations to my chest. As if she felt the transfer of electricity within me, her hand reached up and began to play with my breast focusing on building friction on either side of my nipple.
“Mm Kelly..” I huffed out in a moan making eye contact with her I felt that same smirk that was planted on her face before hand return. She had me right where she wanted me and I was not complaining. Sadistically, she entered two fingers into me. Unprepared by the pleasure, I instinctively cried out clutching the back of her head. Before I knew it, Kelly had crawled up and was now hovering over me, her free hand gripping both sides of my chin aggressively.
“Look at me.” Her low tone catches my attention,leading me to her chocolate eyes once more. Even through her aggressiveness, her touch was soft enough for me to relax into her hold. Her fingers slowly started to move like a wave inside of me the friction causing the sparks in my core to grow tighter. My mouth remained a gape as my eyes locked onto the pair in front of me, even when the pleasure made me feel like my eyes may roll all the way back into my scull.
As her motion sped up, Kelly’s thumb found my clit once again, circling slowly, causing my breathe to fall short.
“Kelly- Kelly please, please.” I begged in desperation painfully aware that I wasn’t making sense. My heart thumping to the base below us.
“Please what?hmm?” She asked with such mockery my cheeks grew flushed; but I could only focus on the tension that built more and more between my legs.
“Please Kelly. I need to- I need you to let me-“ I whine softly in frustration as struggle to get my words out blinded by pleasure.
A low cold laugh echoed in my ears as I open my eyes from my slow blink to see Kelly laughing over me. Seeing my gaze focused on her she leans closer barely an hair away from my lips which caused me to attempt to capture them once more, causing another laugh to leave her throat. Peering down on me as she spoke the burning inside me threatened to spill.
“I’ll give you whatever you ask for, R/N. As long as you say it out loud.” Her grip on my face tightened as she leaned in closer kissing my lips softly as her other hand continued to flow inside and outside of me.
Breaking away from the kiss with a loud gasp for air as my body attempted to release onto Kelly’s fingers, a loud moan leaves my throat involuntarily.
“plea-se Kelly make me come please can I come?” I clung onto her body in complete and utter desperation remaining my gaze on her as requested.
Without a word her lips reconnect with mine, equally desperate and quick to break away. Her fingers increase in speed around my clit causing my body to convulse beneath her, her eyes never left my complexion once even as I unfolded beneath her frame with my head snapped back in complete ecstasy; her fingers matching the ride out of my orgasm in perfect harmony.
Opening my eyes again my, as my body convulsed at the slight over stimulation my hands find the top of Kelly’s shoulders, taking in slow shaky breathes as I come down from my high. Kelly’s smirk remained on her face as I caught my breathe finally, looking back up at her I smiled softly and with little force brought her face closer to my own to kiss her softly enjoying her affectionate response after such an amazing performance.
Letting go from the kiss, Kelly moved to my side with a sigh getting up off of the bed without a word. Moving towards a set of chested draws on the right side of the room she returns back to sitting beside me on the bed as she hands me a pair of black cotton underwear.
“You’re an absolute fiend I hope you know that.” I giggle taking the underwear and standing up to put them on and re clasping my bra as I crawl over to her on the bed, laying on my side alongside her resting my head on my propped up hand.
Kelly had started rolling a spliff on the side of the bed licking the edge of the paper swiftly and punching the ends“I have no problem replacing every pair of underwear you have as long as I can see you like that again.” She scoffs turning to face me momentarily a sly playful smirk dancing across her face as she does.
My eyebrows raise at her statement, “you saying this isn’t a one night stand kind of thing?” A surprised smirk reached my face as she turned her body fully around to face me an equally surprised look upon her face.
Moving towards me, her hand brings my chin up to meet her lips. It was more intimate than the heavy desperate make out we had had, softer less tongue. “Yes, yes I am.” She says it so matter of factly that I almost forget the context into what she is responding to.
“Kelly.” I say as she stands spliff in her mouth lighting it and exhaling handing it to me which I happily accepted taking in a deep inhale.
“What?” She responded guarded, almost defensive.
I smirk playfully exhaling smoke “nothing just getting used to saying it rather than ‘Jimmy ink’” giggling lightly a slight bit of smoke got caught in my lungs causing me to cough roughly which had started to make me laugh as the weed had slowly entered my system. After my coughing fit subsided I looked up to see Kelly sitting on the edge of the bed away from me looking more towards the direction of the floor.
“Kell?” I say softly as I edge closer in her direction.
“Don’t,” she started refusing to face me, “don’t start using it. If you say it in front of Jimmy he’ll flip his shit and on old nick he’ll hurt you or me. Or hurt you to hurt me,” she sighed lowly before turning to face me slightly before returning to her original position “when we’re alone and together by all means,please do but don’t slip up; don’t get used to it.”
I stopped myself from making a comment on how stupid Jimmy was for getting so wound up about them using their real names but Kelly’s desperation made me decide against it. One part stood out loudly. “Hurt you to hurt me.” Being stupid wouldn’t lead to getting myself hurt anymore but the people around me I cared for most. Ink spoke like she knew from experience which made my chest feel heavy still over clouded discomfort brought by smoking.
What I did decide to do was to crawl over to inks back, using her shoulders at support I let my arms dangle in front of her beside either side of her neck; my face coming beside the right side of her face. I couldn’t help but admire her side profile as I came close to her ear kissing the side of her jaw, making my way up towards her ear.
“Well then, kellykellykellykellykellykelly,” I whisper softly in her ear “I’ll enjoy using it when it’s just us,alone,together.” I end my sentence with a big kiss to the cheek which earns me a soft, genuine pleased smile on Kelly’s face.
I leave from behind Kelly to jump off the bed picking up my corset top and skirt from the floor readjusting both items of clothing to fit as they did when I had first opened the room. Watching as ink gets up, she makes her way to a cupboard opening it the door on the inside was a body length mirror. Making eye contact with me, ink nudged her head towards the mirror, this made me smile as I walk around the Fran of the bed and correcting my outfit and hair that had frizzed and makeup that had smudged slightly.
As I finish up, Kelly had put her jacket back on and finished the end of the spliff, closing the wardrobe door I face her in my previously worn attire, spinning in a full 180 landing with my hands on my hips posing exaggerating my ass as I bent over slightly “how do I look?” I ask sarcastically
Kelly chuckles before rolling her eyes covering her face with one hand as she steps closer towards me, slapping my ass harshly, causing me to stand straight to attention. Walking past me she guided my hand from behind her to follow her out of the room stopping at the top of the stairs as she turns to face me one last time before we walked down.
“Remember what I said about slipping up. Don’t say anything even in front of jones and especially not around shite. Okay?” She asked desperately.
I smile softly caressing her cheek with my hand as I bring my lips to her own which she gladly reciprocates, easing her tense expression pulling away I take her hand in mine once again smiling playfully,“whatever you say, Jimmy ink.”
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GANG!AU Dealer!jimmy ink x f!Reader
Summary: an unexpected dinner with the jimmies and their mighty leader goes better than expected especially when it leads to some alone time with the girl in red
Chapter 3:The Ride
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Forks scraping at plates and a chorous of laughter and banter echoed within the four walls of the dim lit kitchen. The night had drawn in, casting a dark shadow over the house. There were seven jimmies who lived with Jimmy crystal in total “these are my seven fingers; seven fingers make a strong fist in the eye of old nick.” he had said when I had questioned the upside down crosses they all bared in between their eyebrows. I had just assumed old nick was a metaphor for his supply and demand import export business and paid it no mind until he mentioned his relation to ‘old nick’. He genuinely thought he was the Antichrist. The only heir to the devil. Cool. Right.
Earlier, when I had first walked in behind ink, every Jimmy sat around the table stopped their conversation a combination of snarls and confused glances towards me; the exception being the two jimmys by the stove cooking who had not noticed my arrival more entrapped in each other eyes than the task at hand; later finding out out they were called Jimmy snake and Jimmy jones.
I first made eye contact with Jimmy shite. His dark blue tracksuit top discareded somewhere upon his arrival back after a drop off which left him in a wife beater; his gold chain resting on the hem just by the scar across his neck that was once so close to my own. He scowled in confusion as I took a seat opposite ink “the fuck she doin ‘ere sir.”
I roll my eyes softly as the air lord spoke in defence.
“Now now shite, that’s no way to treat such a guest of honour.” His faux friendliness still made my skin crawl not an ounce sincerity in his voice, “the wee lassie found some of my gear Jimmy ink discarded on her travels.” His tone still laced with venom his anger clearly not lost
Inks head snaps towards her leader who responded with a dark laugh which was cut short by his own words his eyes darting to his group and myself addressing the confusion that lingered in the air.
“it seems introductions are in order- Ink.” His finger which lent on the table perked up in inks direction as her eyes lifted up slightly to meet mine bread halfway in her mouth her neck tattoo bobbing as she swallowed.
“Jimmy Ink.” Her posture was guarded with one leg up on the seat, as if to still protect her sir lord even with his cruel temperament, sat at the right hand of Jimmy crystal. A sarcastic smile reached my lips as if not obvious we had already been introduced.
“Jimmy jones.” The next Jimmy introduced themselves without second thought it seemed. Their hair shaved into a skinhead dyed a dusty blonde. Piercings decorated their ears and a genuine grin appeared on their face, friendly.
“Jimmy snake.” Came from the skinniest lad dressed in a white variation of the track suit they all seemed to wear. He had dark eyes and only glanced in my direction, almost tired, glum, like he didn’t want to be there. His hand placed on Jimmy jone’s thigh.
“Jimmy Jimmy.” Caught me by surprise. I hadn’t noticed before only taking his face into account as we made eye contact he sat on the corner of the table as I had clearly taken his normal seat at the left of Jimmy crystal. His face had scar tissue along his eye and down the side of his nose which made me pray silently but was a birth mark and not some form of sick of enjoyment from mr crystal. He noticed my staring as he hesitantly glanced back up from his plate finally making eye contact, I smiled softly and he lowered his head again.
Only a long silence, and hard death stare came from the other head of the table, when it was time for the next Jimmy to make an introduction. This caused an agitated huff to come from the leaders mouth as his hand slammed on the table,hard, causing all the cutlery and bowls to clatter against the hard surface. I was surprised to see I wasn’t the only one who flinched at the loud noise.
“She knows who I am.” He responds swiftly not looking up from his plate.
“Don’t be a shithouse, Jimmy shite.” That oh so familiar cold gaze made shites chest rise and fall at a quick pace as he darts his eyes between me and the sir lord.
“But sir she-“ his hand raises as he points in my direction.
“ENOUGH..Fucking backchat. You answer to me not your pathetic feelings. Unless you don’t wanna be a Jimmy no more? Hmm? How about you Go back to your equally pathetic father.” Jimmy looks at me as he continues, “one of our best customers you know? Always zonked out of his face.”
I look back at shite his head low, facing his plate his arms by either side of his plate. The silence deafening. I turn to look at ink, she seemed unbothered still picking at her bread her eyes raise at my look as she smirks at me raising her eyebrows as if to say “told you it was okay” making me mask a smirk which keeps her lips upturned as she continued to eat.
Low giggles came from Jimmy Jimmy and a blonde girl sitting next to me. Shite eventually looking up his face almost unreadable as almost militant he responds simply.
“Sorry sir,” he continues to eat his food glancing up at me a small snarl reaching his eyes “Jimmy shite.”
“Jimmy fox.” Followed quickly after. I leaned forward to make eye contact with him. His Welsh accent catching me off guard. Meeting his crooked grin snarling as he looked away.
Suddenly the girl in blue next to me had turned her head her eyes seemed to be void of any emotion as i stared back at her. Her gaze almost matched the intimidation jimmy crystal had over shite moments before; unimpressed and dangerous. I squirmed under her gaze slightly which she seemed to notice making her mouth twist into a manic grin tilting her head to the side as she introduced herself“Jimmima”.
Her skin was like porcelain compared to inks tanned complexion. Jimmimas attitude made me think about how contrasting yet similar in strength they all seemed to carry. Different but united as one.
I glanced at the leader before looking back at the group.
“R/N. Nice to meet you,” My eyes make contact with Shite who’s hard look refused to soften making my tongue slip “well most of you anyways, shithouse”
A loud laugh echoed which was followed by a mumble of giggles from the others. The sound of metal colliding could be heard as Jimmy crystals wronged fingers clapped together. I watched him look in Inks direction as he motioned towards me.
“Quite the backbone on this one.”
I buried the pride I felt at his encouragement. As much as it felt nice I knew within a wrong word or glance I could be in shites current position; the butt of the joke. The comment of his dad still rang in my head making myself a promise to never let him see me at a low point.
I only finished a small amount of my plate which Jimmima then passed around the table to anyone who wanted seconds which caused a momentary argument between her and Jimmy jones.
“That’s not fucking fair you had the most out of everyone to begin with give some more to Jimmy Jimmy!” Jimmimas voice rang childish and whiny, a contrast to the girls earlier cold demeanour, which only grinded on jone’s nerves.
“I cooked the whole fucking meal I think I’m entitled to it!spoiled brat!”jones groaned in response.
“Ugh your such a fat fuck!”
I chuckled at how riled up the two were almost immediately. For the next half hour, the jimmies actually made me forgot the real reason I was there in the first place. Seeing how they interacted with each other contradicted everything I had heard about them. They were still dangerous and scary as fuck sometimes but though they were only a few years older than me they acted like demented children under the supervision of a psychotic trusted adult. I noticed crystal only piped into a conversation to tell an anecdote from prison or the “teletumies” or to share wisdom of old nick before cracking a clear warning of loyalty and complete commitment to his will. What did catch me off guard was when he motioned for Jimmima to do a “dipsy dance” which she happily obliged to; in response a roar of laughter and a genuine smile from crystals face. For a split second I caught a glimpse of inks expression that seemed bored compared to the other devoted listeners who drank up his words like honey. Losing my gaze as quickly as she caught it she acted more interested than before. Weird.
After a while of conversation,Chairs scraped against the wooden floor as the group took their plates to the sink. Jones had already grabbed mine so, instinctively, I picked up the plates that once held chicken and the salad bowl as I also made my way to the sink. This earned a look of suprise between ink and crystal that made me think they could speak telepathically at the way they both laughed after a while of staring at each other.
It seams they had a system for everything in their household, no matter how dysfunctional Jimmy crystal made it. Jones and snake cooked, fox and Jimmy Jimmy washed dishes and Jimmima put them away. I grabbed a spare tea towel and helped out Jimmima as ink and shite remained sat at the table; Shite taking the seat I once sat at. They were both hyper focused drawn like moths to a flame, I shrugged it off as business talk.
“You staying with ink tonight?” Jimmima spoke up tearing my eyes away from the mother’s meeting happening on the other side of the room.
“What?,” the question had caught me off guard momentarily making my cheeks flush at the thought of sharing a bed with the girl in red, “oh no- no I’m going home after this, hopefully” I mumble the last past but it seemed nothing slips past her cat like senses. Always overly alert.
There’s a beat of silence and a sing-song hum that rings between Jimmimas lips before I ask “what makes you ask that?”
“Ink stares at you like I stare at people before charity.” She grins slightly as she tilts up to put a dry glass onto the top shelf.
My brows furrow in confusion “what is charity? Ink mentioned it before.” Regret filled my stomach as I asked. And it was a valid response as her answer was exactly what I had expected it to be.
“We give charity to dumb fucks who mess with sir lord jimmy crystal. If you fuck with sir your fucking with old nick. We give their souls back to old nick as an apology for their insolence. It’s amazing.” Her grin wide as she jumps up and down while squealing waving around the tea towel like a flag of pride; which the other payed no mind to.
“It’s what inky did to that fuckface lad who got too touchy with you.” She said it so monotone I almost didn’t hear it. Like it wasn’t anything new.
“Wha- wait- how do you know about that?” Confusion filled my tone.
“I was at the party too dummy. Just got there later then everyone else, Jimmy had me go on a special job!” She boasts with pride. I chuckle at her name calling realising how entertaining her immaturity was.
I was still trying to process what she had said about charity and decided in the moment to never ask another question about it to anyone. I mean, I already guessed from the amount of news alerts of “a severely dismembered body has been found by police” which coincidentally coincided with the whispers at school of owed money fights at gaffs and people who had gone missing had something to do with the infamous gang. But most importantly, how Jimmima had described how ink looked at me. Did she really hurt that lad who groped me? Why would the look link to me staying in her bed? The recollection of inks muscular arm across my chest her fingers pressed into my face as she forced me to look at her tattoo clear as day and inches away from my chin.
My thoughts are broken by the scraping of a chair. I turn to see ink take a step towards the kitchen area but stopping just as she is aligned at the entry towards the hallway her head moving towards the same direction as she made eye contact with me. “Come on I’ll drive you home.”
Suddenly,Jimmimas arms wrapped around my shoulders a pout emerging across hee lips as she whined like a child who was being sent to time out, “what?? Nooo no fair!! She can’t leave yet we were getting to the good stuff!! Please sir Jimmy let her stay!!”
Crystals head turns to face the temper tantrum “now now Jimmima. I’m sure R/Ns mother cannea have her babe out so late on a school night. Cmon let her go.” His tone was eerily patient when he conversed with Jimmima taking not of that his words making me pause before slinking out oh her arms.
I feel her arms loosen as I smile softly in her direction “bye.” I whisper softly which makes her quickly wave back in response. I turn to the other jimmies still washing dishes a genuine smile meeting my face “thanks for washing up.” Jimmy Jimmy gives me a thumbs up in response which makes fox nudge him harshly in the ribs.
Making my way past ink I stand to face Jimmy crystal as he is sat down at the head of the table. I breathe in before I speak “thank you for your hospitality and I’m sorry again for the trouble and general fucking headache I caused the other night.”
He looks towards Jimmy shite before a broad smile reaches his face “well I appreciate the fucking initiative you took today. Ink would’ve been in old nicks bad graces for fuck knows how long if it weren’t for you,” his head turns to inks direction as he chuckles lightly “now get to fuck I cannea have your ma sending the polis to my door.” I chuckle at his response and make my way towards ink who had waited for me at the doorway.
Opening the door for me, I walk out into the fresh cool breeze of the night. Being outside of the house allowed me to take in a real breathe as my body relaxed as my hair moved around the sides of my face softly. Hearing the door slam I turn to ink with a soft smile which wasn’t reciprocated instead she motioned towards the vehicle. I make my way towards the passenger side of the black Mercedes that I had once saw race past me earlier that day, taking note of the bullet shaped holes that had been filled in by what looked like melted metal and a layer of black paint clearly a fresher coat compared to the original paint job; even in the night it was obvious.
Taking a seat into the car I take in the luxury of the interior. It was definitely the nicest car I had ever been in with LED around the edge of every curve that lit up a light blue and a screen with every application a phone would have. Putting on my seatbelt, I catch inks eye.
“Where do you live?” She asked coolly.
“Oh erm 65 Enfield avenue. It’s like the back road of North park.” I describe an address but it’s not mine, but Rose’s. As much as I knew having her address in their midst was worse for her than me but I didn’t dare risk putting my mum in danger like that. And respectfully, Rose is technically the one who started the chain of events that ended up with me in the presence of Jimmy crystal in the first place.
“Mhm yeah I know it.” She answers casually before reversing out of the driveway. There was a twinge in the way she hummed which briefly caused me to side eye her before looking out the front window once again.
The ride was silent. Or should I say initially it was silent. Inks phone had automatically connected to the car which had allowed for notifications to pop up on the screen around 17 messages had come through, all different contacts, the names made me giggle lightly “dickhead #1” “fuckface” “slippy” “ballerima” “dickhead #2”. This had caused ink to turn the screen off entirely with a huff.
“Swear to fuck they’re so fucking annoying.” She muttered under her breath.
“Let me guess dickhead #1 is shite?” Her head snapped towards me as if she had been caught off guard by my presence. Her head snapped back to the road as she chuckled lightly,
“S’not like it’s a hard guess.” She said smugly which made my eyebrow lift slightly.
“Oh please, he could’ve easily been fuckface or even dickhead #2.”
She nodded her head slightly as she glanced between the left and right of the junction “Touché.”
After that conversation ended I had the urge to keep it going. That restless feeling bubbling up inside me. I kept taking small glances at her face. The swirl of her edges and the outline of her nose and lips,the slight baggage under her eyes. I hesitated slightly as my glances seemed to grow longer. I imagine how her features would look if we ki-
“Spit it out.” My thoughts are interrupted by her blunt command. Her eyes still concentrated on the road.
“What?!” I ask defensively
“I can feel your eyes burning into the side of my head you’re not slick you know?” Should’ve guessed nothing gets past a drug lords #2 in command.
I huff softly as I turn my head in her direction. “Fine. Thank you.” I say bluntly.
Once again her head snapped towards me her brows furrowed in confusion, “why you saying thank you?”
I scoff at her response “god forbid a girl has manners,or are manners too soft for you? You know because your a super strong weapon..melt”
The car suddenly swerved to the left side of the road the breaks slamming as the car reached the curb swiftly the hum of the engine died down as the car turned off. “Right, first of all call me another name again and I will twat you so hard into next week,” her hand left the steering wheel and grabbed my chin once more forcing my head in her direction “okay?” I respond by nodding slowly not daring to say a word, “and second of all talk about that bastard again and I’ll make you beg for him.”
She lets my chin go with an aggressive huff. Her hand landing In her lap as she faced forward. A swirling in my lower stomach emerged from her contact which I pushed down out of routine at this point. Her head lolled back onto the seat as she looked up as if in attempt to calm herself; the blue of the LEDs illuminating her freckles. Her head turned slightly in my direction as I remained in silence.
“What I meant was,” her tone calm and calculated, “what are you saying thank you for?”
I look up slightly to make contact with her deep brown eyes soothing as they were matched with the way she spoke could have lulled me to sleep.
“Oh. Well, for taking me home,” I started matching her tone as best I could without sounding mimicking, “and for giving me a chance to fix what happened on Friday,” her eyes froze slightly as if she were caught in a trap, “whether you meant to or not of course.” I smirk at her lightly as if not to get too big headed.
“You’re not the only one who notices things, you know,” I say unable to control my urges letting a slight smug expression reach my face, “‘noticed her from the party sir’” I attempt to mimic her accent which she rolls her eyes at letting her chest rise and fall with a low laugh.
“Yeah I guess not.” Her response surprised me, breaking the tension that had built quickly. The confirmation of it being purposeful brought me a further sense of gratitude but also an overwhelming feeling of confusion.
“If you don’t mind me asking, why did you?” I ask calmly. It was a bold question considering she had stuck her neck out for me to feel comfortable about my drunken embarrassment, but I couldn’t help the feeling of not knowing the reason.
“I was actually getting chased if you remember,” she answered with a faux attitude, “and I thought eh two birds one stone; save the gear, don’t get nicked” she shrugged slightly keeping her sight through the front window.
“Well,” i start catching her attention once more “whatever the reason thank you.” I didn’t believe her explanation for a second, and I think she knew I didn’t but neither of us cared. She didn’t move to turn the car on and I didn’t grab my seatbelt, so we sat. The silence brought an almost tranquil feeling in the car. The tension and pent up fear the aggressive words bit back had caught up to me and I let my mind go quiet. I was comfortable in ink’s presence, she had a clear patience compared to the other jimmys, but even now when every inch and ache of restlessness had evaporated away from my body she still held the command and direction of Jimmy crystals right hand woman.
Her head turned to the side of her headrest softly as she waited for me to look in her direction, which I did almost too quickly.
“I know it might be all good with Jimmy crystal; but you need to make it good with shite. He won’t do anything without jimmys permission but he won’t hesitate to fuck you up. He’s a soldier and he loves it more than Jimmima and she’s off her fucking nutter. Even after all the shit Jimmy said to him tonight he won’t falter in his loyalty or turn his head to what happened, you should’ve seen the way he looked at you when you weren’t paying attention.” She finishes her ramble of advice and I can only smirk in response which causes a dart of her eyes away from mine in confusion.
“I don’t think I’ve heard you say that many words before.” I giggle slightly which she scoffs at turning to face the window to her right away from me before looking at me again
“R/N I’m serious.” She almost pleads but in a demanding tone.
“I know, and I will I just need to find an in with him. Can’t exactly throw drugs at me every time I piss someone off.” This earns a real laugh from her which catches us both off guard leaving both of us in a fit of laughter.
“Speaking of shite can we go back to what Jimmy said to him. I don’t even wanna know but fuckin hell it was harsh to hear,” ink shakes her head lowly as she lets out a sigh as if she was fed up “like don’t get me wrong I’m very away of what Jimmy is capable of I’ve seen it on the news but it caught me off guard.”
A small shrug reaches her shoulders “he does it to keep us grounded. Remind us why we are fortunate enough to be accepted in old nicks fist.”
I stare in her direction my gaze falling over her like drops of sun rain, but my head span with questions. Her response seemed rehearsed like a child who had been told what to say to social services to not get them taken away from their parent. A Desperate lie that didn’t sound all that convincing. I couldn’t wrap my head around ink being so enveloped in this madness. Drugs money and murder. That’s what it meant to be a finger of old nicks fist. She was stuck in a brainwashing cycle of fight or fight. I wanted to show her how to be gentle, to be loved.
Her features so soft in the moonlight, like she was honey, golden, glowing. It almost distracted me from the outline of a hand gun in her jacket. She was beautiful. Really nice to breathe in and be around. But she was a warning,a risk and punishment wrapped in one. She exhilarated parts of me I didn’t know existed. Pure sinful blood lusted parts.
I don’t respond but simply look at her eyes catch my mine but this time they don’t leave. We both stay stuck in each others presence. Breathing in and out slowly as I get lost in her gaze.
Suddenly the clearing of a throat cuts through the tension. It had been ink pulling herself out of it, as she turned on the car once more pulling away from the curb.
10 minutes later the car stopped. The rest of the ride had been in complete silence, but I wasn’t complaining the silence had been comfortable this time. Reaching for my seat belt I grab my bag facing her once more “thanks again for the ride and.. everything else.” I say softly as fatigue hit my system like a truck.
“It’s all good.” she responds her tone a little softer than before.
Stepping out of the car and shutting the door I walk around the vehicle towards the pathway when the sound of the window opening caught my attention. I turn around swiftly as ink half hangs out of the window her arm rested on the steering wheel, a look of hesitation on her face.
“Look, we’re having another gaff on Saturday. Jimmy wants you there, so I’ll pick you up at 9. Okay?” She asks but it was rhetorical. I knew I had no choice in the matter either or.
I nod in compliance with a half smile plastered to my lips “okay.” I answer with a nod. She grins slightly before rolling the window up
“I’ll see you then.” Was the last thing I heard before the window reached the top and the engine roared and the Mercedes once again sped away from me.
A long sigh is released from my chest lips as my body ached for the comfort of my bed. I step into the porch and bringing my key to the hole in the lock pushing it in and turning it all the way around. As the pressure resisted my key my heart dropped to my ankles. I had given her roses address. But I’m at my house. I hadn’t given her my address which left two thoughts swirl in my head.
She already knew where I lived. Fuck.
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GANGAU! JIMMY INK X F!READER
summary: after the house party you try to continue on with day to day life, however, glimpses of red and blue continue to follow you around
Chapter 2: mistakes were made
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The throbbing didn’t leave me for days after. I didn’t move from my bed from the moment my eyes were briefly blinded by the sunlight shining through my curtains, until I opened them again to be comforted by the darkness, which in a blink turned into a golden dusk once again. Anyone who had saw me that night might’ve guessed it was from the copious amounts of liquor and puff that entered my system that caused the 2-day isolation crash;but if anyone had followed me home, they would’ve told you that every ounce of sustenance and substance came up the same way it went down. I hadn’t left the toilet bowl for at least two hours, a mix of burnt vomit and tears fell out of me, the mix of substance and tension my nervous system endured during the 26 minute meeting with the Jimmy crystal had left me feeling half alive with trembling hands as I attempted to keep my hair away from my face.
I shift in my bed covers squinting with a groan, I felt lighter than I had two nights prior but my heart still raced as images flashed in my head. The relief that washed over me seeing rose walk into the room ,Micheal holding her up, which I later found out was because someone had slipped something into her drink that made her black out just as she found Micheal who had taken her to the spare room upstairs for safety. The cold eyes and malicious smirk that only worsened as I was left alone with Jimmy. The gun. Ink being ordered out of the room to go “escort” the grabby man who had attempted to take me as his out of the house. I appreciated the order though it seemed it was less out of compassion and principle but instead as a reward rather than an order for Jimmy ink. I thought I had imagined it but the grin that appeared on her face was engraved into my brain. It was similar to the one plastered on Jimmy crystals. Glancing back before she walked out her eyes meeting mine before she disappeared behind the door. I barely remember the drive home; just that it was quiet.
I grunt pathetically as I force myself to sit up and find my phone out of my bag. The screen brightness too bright for my liking as i grimace and rapidly turn it down. Two messages from “sexy mama💋”
Hey baby thank you so much for making sure I got home safe Micheal said some weirdo tried grabbing you I’m so sorry i ruined the night x
Also I’ve still got like the worst headache ever work is gonna be hell tomorrow 🙄🙄
Something shifts in my stomach reading her text, I pray it isn’t more bile, as I re-read her message.of course he didn’t tell her what happened. Responding with a half arsed message about “it’s okay” and “don’t worry” before tossing my phone aside, I throw my legs over the side of the bed preparing my feet for impact. Looking around, my room is relatively clean until I spot my bathroom door open. Without having to strain too much I can see my makeup sprawled over the sink along with my hair products heels and dress. Groaning as I realise my fur coat is no where to be found cursing myself for not picking it up before Micheal drove me home.
I decide to spend my evening in the bath scrubbing every speck of filth that felt engraved into my skin: hands, smoke and the ghost of a blade that made the side of my face feel cold. The truth is every ounce of my body was completely and utterly overwhelmed with fear. It was the kind of wrong place wrong words that could’ve ended as my last night out for good.
The jimmies were known; well known. The constant presence at every party, every club, every news article on a body found mutilated. It only became worse when the sir lord was released due to dropped charges on assault and battery. Everyone knew but no one cared. A guilty verdict meant nothing to a guiltless man. They were a constant topic of conversation especially at my sixth form,I remember shite from secondary school (more so his last day), He was two years above me ;I’ll never forget seeing him hauled out ,his hands in cuffs, his white uniform shirt stained red with fresh crimson (not his of course) and his dark blue tracksuit top almost fully off his shoulders. If looks could kill.
I sigh getting back into bed forcing my memory blank to attempt to get some piece of mind with fresh hair and clean pyjamas. I grimace at the thought of going to sixth form in the morning. I say that like I don’t spend most of my time smoking in the toilets and listening to my music. But still, effort. The curse of being book smart and unmotivated. Putting my phone on my bed side I turn over and slowly drift off still cursing myself for getting so abhorrently drunk two nights back as the pounding in my head was distant but still there. However, the restlessness forever persistent, had seemed to have dissipated.
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Walking downstairs I’m greeted by my mum who offers me a piece of toast which I gratefully accept.
“Still hanging are we?” She chuckles at me slightly half of her face in her coffee mug while her eyes remained on me.
“Ha ha yeah very funny..,” I say sarcastically definitely not a morning person especially on a school morning especially when my bed was so warm.
She continues to chuckle as she walks with me to the door and giving me a kiss on the cheek before wrapping me in a hug her dressing gown soft against my cheek. “Oh before i forget, im on the late tonight I’m not gonna be able to pick you up from school sorry, love”
“That’s okay mum don’t worry I’ll be fine love you,BYEEE” I shout as I leave towards the bus stop. It wasn’t unusual for my mum to work the night shift so having the house to myself was next to normal.
Arriving to the bus stop, I check my phone and look at the time 7:32am. Groaning slightly at accidentally being so early, I continue to check my messages still in a dazed state as I still hadn’t felt I had woken up properly yet, planning on abusing the sixth form free coffee machine for a cup of tea,when suddenly I felt it. Eyes. Eyes on me. I swiftly turn my head left and right and behind and in front. No one there. Still I couldn’t shake the feeling. My heart started to pick up its pace slowly but surely the familiar feeling of paranoia seeping into my senses, suddenly, as if a gift from god himself the bus turned the corner heading towards my stop. I put my hand out and scan my bus pass before racing to the back of the bus putting my earphones in and leaning my head slightly against the window.
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The bell finally rings at 3pm. Surprisingly, the day had gone by quick. Teachers had remarked how focused I had seemed and they weren’t wrong. Unbelievably, I had worked through all my classes without leaving or even talking. The work was a good distraction, as much as I wouldn’t like to admit, the memory’s of the party on Friday night hadn’t left me for a moment. Every distraction was gracefully accepted if it took my mind off of the “what ifs?” I may never know the answer to it was appreciated. Though the one thing I didn’t mind having replay in my head over and over and over again was that girl. Jimmy ink. The brown eyes ginger braids and that grin. The way her lips curved over her teeth revealing them slightly. The neck tattoo that moved every time she took a sip of her drink. The small details I had been able to focus on when her eyes met mine ,though most of it blurred,she stuck out like a soar thumb.
Blasting my music down my ears, I start walking home, attempting to ignore whatever creeping feeling I felt once again. The weather was decent and I appreciated the light considering my lack of vitamin D from the whole weekend, so a walk seemed to be in order.
Eating up the sun like I was photosynthesising, I decide to go the long way around stopping off in a corner shop to buy a drink; walking down the aisles of pick and mix sweets I make my way to the fridge picking out a Diet Coke making small talk with the shop man as I pay for the drink. Walking outside, I’m yet to turn my music back on, when I hear it. A loud car engine roars as a blacked out Mercedes Benz zooms past me making me stop dead in my tracks. The accelerated speed comes to a halt as it slows down a few paces after passing me, the drivers side window rolls down as an arm flings a back pack out into a nearby bush before speeding off again making an illegal left turn onto a main road. This was then shortly followed by two police cars,chasing not far behind.
The immediate action had me frozen in place. A familiar feeling that seemed to follow me around recently was heightened. The knowing of curiosity mixed with copious amounts of dread. My mind goes blank and my breathe starts to slow as I look out for any cars, spotting the fabric amongst the shrubbery. It was only until I allowed myself to breathe that I registered the backpack was only now a few paces in front of me as I dug it out of the bush, curiosity overwhelmed my senses, opening it up and a scoff falls out my mouth as to no one’s surprise it was filled with what looked like blocks of cocaine or some other white powdery substance. It wasn’t a surprise because of the area I was in or that backpacks filled with cocaine got flung out of cars often, however, I couldn’t not register the arm of the driver flinging the bag out the window was in a painfully familiar red tracksuit top with two white lines down the side of the arm.
I shook my head slightly. Disbelief flooded my mind. What kind of fucked up fate was this? As if my ticket to making things right with Jimmy crystal was handed to me by the red ranger herself. Like a fucked up fairy Godmother. I scoff at myself ,my face scrunched up, my mind torn. If I go to their house and return the goods am I risking another knife to the face or a truce? What if shite is the one that answers the door? Only one thought rung loud enough for me to pay attention to. No matter what this has to get back to them. That’s a lie there was one more. I cannot keep a bag of cocaine in my room my mum will find it and kill me.
I take a deep breath as I continue to walk, backpack over my school bag as I google the bus times to get to the nicer area of the city. Usually i knew the bus times like the back of my hand but I rarely ever visited this part of town. Finally, the bus arrived. My leg bounced in place as i overthought what I’d say, how I’d act, as my life depended on it. The last time I was in the presence of Jimmy crystal I was drunk and still almost shat myself, now, I’m going stone cold sobre and carrying a bag of his drugs. The realisation sets in and I feel like an idiot. I should’ve left it it’s none of my business.
Before I know it, the bus ride is over and the house of horrors I faced not even 48 hours ago was just over the road. A chill ran down my spine as I look both ways before crossing, the black Mercedes with dark tinted windows lazily parked out front as if in a panic now by my side. It almost boosts my confidence knowing I was right, it was her. But my steps become more thought out as I swallow my fear and finally knock on the door.
Seconds turn to a minute. My breath holds. A minute turns into two. Two into four. I exhale with a frustrated sigh slightly impatient feeling imaginary stares as I become increasingly aware I’m holding a 10 year prison sentence MINIMUM in my hands. I tut in defeat as my fist clenches and I pound on the door five times in a row. There would’ve been a sixth but the door swings open with a slam against the wall behind it. Holding the door wide open I’m reunited with those big brown eyes that wouldn’t leave my memory.
Inks face contorts into a face that I at first mistake for disgust but as I allow my adrenaline to release from my body and through my shallower breath I realise she looks down right confused;baffled even. Holding onto the edge of the door now she looks me up and down “what are you doing here?” She asks with no tone of accusation;facts just give her the facts.
“Drugs. I have drugs. Your drugs. You threw them….out the car..I found them..here.” I say taking the initiative to present her the backpack that was once on my shoulder handing it out towards her,closing the gap.
I notice how her eyes widen wide, without a second to process, she takes the bag from my hand and grabs me by the arm inside shutting the door behind me. My heart beat quickens as I take in my surroundings, recognising the layout without a second thought ,flooded with memories of grabbing stumbling tears that I desperately tried to hold onto before I left.
Ink seemed to notice this taking a moment to really look at your face. Stare as you seemed distracted by your own thoughts. You were beautiful but were in a conflicted state of fear that almost looked like anguish. Smirking slightly,she lets go of my arm, this grabs my attention and I attempt to smile back at her but it comes off almost desperate.
I suddenly snap my head towards her direction crossing my arms over my chest “was there actually any need for dragging me in here?” I ask my tone dripped in frustration.
Her face contorts from a smirk to a half snarl her scared lip lifting slightly “oh yeah let’s just show the whole street whats in the bag then yeah? Don’t need any more fuckin attention than we already have idiot.”
She mumbles that last bit but you hear it anyway. Leaving me silenced I roll my eyes leaning on my hip as I drop my arms to my side not realising the tone of my voice becoming stronger than when ink first opened the door“right well you have the bag now soo..I’m off!” I quickly go to move towards the door but I’m grabbed once again but this time by my hand. Her hands are rough, a clear indication of her strength reminding me to not get too big for my boots. But the way her fingers wrap around mine is…soft. Without hesitation I take a step away from the door closing the gap between us.
A smirk appears on her face as she drops my hand, I didn’t know how to read it, “nah actually your not,” she shakes her head snickering to herself she holds her face in her hand as she turns and starts walking up the stairs,she makes it a few steps before turning around her eyes meeting yours, “come on.” She says half like I’m a dog that needs encouragement to do a trick which makes me scowl.
As I start to follow her every single nerve I felt on my journey had now been replaced by an intense anger, a burning annoyance brewing into my stomach at her condescending tone.
“Don’t know who you’re speaking to like a dog when you’re the only one on a leash; do you have any other tricks except for dealing coke or is tha-” A pathetic yelp escaped my lips as I struggled against the restraint I felt against my wrists which had since been pushed to my chest as the distinct upside down cross tilted towards my forehead. Inks body was dangerously close to my own. Feeling my pulse slowly rise as her fingers grip around my jaw, and with a harsh tug upwards, I also realise how dangerously close her face is to mine. Forcing me to look up at her, she looks down with squinted eyes. Out of mere isntict my eyes wander away from hers trying to break the tension which earned a tighter grip and another squeeze to either side of cheeks.
“If I were you I’d shut that big hole you call a mouth. My business,” she continues through gritted teeth, “is my fucking business.” A harsh scoff escapes her scared lip as I struggle desperately against her deeply regretting the words that carelessly left me, as her eyes found mine no matter how hard I tried to escape her gaze, “what got nothing to say now? Didn’t learn anything from last time? No? Well let me tell you something;since your so fucking clueless,” she forces my cheek to the right, the side of my head pressed against the wall she had me pinned against her lips grazed my ear as her voice became a hushed still maintaining its harsh bite, “talk like that again, it’ll be the last time you use your tongue.”
I gasp as the pressure on my chest is suddenly gone, my personal space no longer invaded as her footsteps travel away from me. This time I don’t hesitate, following behind ink leaving a pace in between us as we finally reach a door at the end of the hallway. She looks back at me as if to make sure I was still there; that in hadn’t ran off. Turning back towards the door she taps her knuckle against it twice.
“What.” His voice filled with a calm agitation sends a ripple through my soul. Triggering my fight of flight. The gun I remind myself.
Ink opens the door peering inside “got something for you sir.” Once again ink drags me by my arm, inside of the room.
Jimmy crystal in all his glory is sat behind a desk on a leather spinny chair, his ringed fingers intertwined and clasped together in prayer as he stalks over them towards both you and ink. An attempt at a smile reaches your face which makes his gaze prioritise ink a soft smirk that refuses to reach his eyes crawls onto his face as his hands unclasp, his pointer finger directing itself towards myself.
“Correct me if I’m wrong ,which I’m sure I’m not, Jimmy ink, but I seem to recall telling you to fuck off out of my presence until our prodigal package returned back home,” you see a split second drop in his demeanour as he slowly leans into his seat lowering his hand as he glances between me and ink nodding his head towards my direction as he continues, “Again, I cannea seem to recall asking you to waltz in with this,” a loud bang makes me jump as he slams his hand on the table in front of him, “fucking anomaly.”
Inks breath was steady as she walks to the table, her hand still attached to me, I walk with her as she places the bag onto the table in front of sir lord like she was bringing a sacrifice to the alter. Shoving me in front of her I come face to face with Jimmy. His eyes were void of emotion as he looked between me and the bag.
“I found it on my way home. Saw er- Jimmy ink throw it into a bush. She was getting chased by the plod. Thought I’d better..give it back.” The words left me before I could register what I was saying. My tone was relatively calm but my body danced with nerves beneath my skin. Jimmy was scary. Scarier than the stories that passed around school about him. He was irratic, spontaneous and completely unpredictable.
His scowl that was filled with irritation completely dissipated as he closed his eyes with a huff his fore finger and thumb reaching the bridge of his nose. My hands play at my sides as I pick at my school pants not daring to take my eyes off of the man in front of me. He looks exactly the same as he did that night with his chains and rings and that god awful velour purple tracksuit.
“Recognised her from the gaff we had Friday sir. Knew she’d bring it back eventually.” Inks voice adds to my attempt to explain my presence. This however, peaks his interest as his head snaps up as he peers at my face as if taking in every detail.
A loud chuckle escapes his lips his eyes widening as if in remembrance as he gets up out of his seat and makes his way around his desk. Leaning his upper thighs on the table, he faces me, my eyes interlocked on the pendant I was yet to see before; an upside down cross. I want to turn around to look at inks forehead but decide against it. My thoughts are disturbed by the feeling of a hand intertwining with the bottom ends of my hair making me snarl out of uncomfortableness.
He removes his hand with a slight tug, causing my brows to furrow. Tutting at my reaction, that sinister smile creeps onto his face as he finally speaks.
“It seems a patterns emerged with you lasse. You see, Every time you’re in my house, uninvited might I add, shit hits the fucking fan,” my throat feels as if it’s about to close as his hand reaches for my shoulder his face coming close to the side of my face as he moves towards walk past me, talking in a hushed tone dripping with venom, “I’ve killed people for less than what you pulled on Friday,” by the tone of his voice I could tell the smile had been dropped from his face, his ringed fingers pressing harder into my shoulder. Refusing to breathe the threat made my stomach shrink into itself, my mouth running dry,as his face was closer to my own than I would’ve ever liked, I heard a shift of feet behind me moving as if almost as uncomfortable as I felt.
I turned my head to face the sir lord, my eyes burned as his stared into my own. This seemed to surprise him but he barely showed it. Suddenly, his grasp loosened on my shoulder a slight sigh leaving his lips as a light tap on my back made me turn around to follow in his direction glancing at ink, I stay in place. Opening the door he turns facing me then glances at ink nudging his head to the hallway “cmon,food.”
A grin emerges on inks face as she follows behind Jimmy as she reaches the door she turns and scoffs at my stationary position, making her way back to me, expecting her to grab my arm again but instead she stands in front of me her eyes searching my face.
“Look, you did good by bringing the bag back here. Just be glad he’s not called for charity. Now come on I’m fuckin starvin.” Her hand taps my arm before she makes her way out of the room, following close behind this time my mind swirls in confusion at her statement. What the fuck is charity? Does this mean it’s all good or not good?
As I make my way down the same stairs I once stumbled down the parallel wasn’t lost on me. As this time as I make my way down I don’t stumble. My shoulders straight my head high. A slight pride filled my chest at inks words “you did good”. Considering I don’t know why I purposefully made my way back to this place I certainly didn’t get myself killed. In my head that was a positive sign. As I reached the bottom of the stairs, the smell of some sort of vegetable hit my nose finally triggering a sigh of relief as “food” wasn’t some code word for being sliced diced and thrown into a wood chipper. As if on queue my stomach growls lowly, dinner time with drug dealers, what a perfect end to the day.
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And boom just like that chapter 2 is done motherfukxers!! I’m having sm fun writing this thanks for reading!!!💋
writing the first half of a fic: yaaaay! wooo!!! 🌈💝 fun ideas 😊💖✨️~
writing the second half of a fic: I am in a fight with god himself and he is winning
GANG AU! JIMMY INK X F!READER
Summary: after turning 19 life became difficult. Studies job finances everything was a lot. relationships and partying however were easy. Especially when meeting people who change your life; even if they do bring their life into yours.
(Hi this is my first fic series so plz be kind it may be shit!! Love ya!! 💋)
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Chapter 1: The meeting
Sitting down at my desk with a huff,the glare of the laptop a few inches from my face, the big text of “YOUR APPLICATION” felt like a smack in the face. I dont even know if I want to go to uni but still, the procrastination guilt had got me to at least attempt to start my application. “Start” was generous as the text beneath the question box was still blank. Music blasted in my ears,aiding to the distraction, as I imagine a life where this wasn’t my current reality but instead I was somewhere,anywhere that wasn’t my room. Leaning back in my chair, my eyes wander, taking in every detail of the walls filled with posters and pictures of me out with my best friends, the rainbow fairy lights in the shape of butterflies I never grew out of by my bed,the trinkets and collection of books in the corner as almost a shrine to the things I love and finally back to the mean glare of the laptop screen and eventually the textbooks behind it.
“Fuck this..” i mutter as the restless energy makes me feel like i want to explode.
I was never good at keeping still there was something unsettling about the quiet stillness that made me able to hear every thought every breath and the blood that flowed through my veins. But after years of trying to deal with that deafening noise going out to a club with blaring music alcohol slowing the blood flow making out with pretty girls and dancing for hours on end with the three girls I actually loved like sisters could cure the restlessness I felt now.
As if on cue my phone lit up with a buzz, a caller ID “sexy mama💋” moved to the corner of the screen as i swiped answer.
“Heyyyyy what you up to? please tell me you’re not busy tonight” That familiar tone of my best friend made my breathing steady.
Chuckling slightly before answering her excitedly “hey babycakes! Im so bored I can’t deal with this fuck ass application if you get me out of this I’m giving you a fat wet kiss on the mouth.”
She giggles at my response as i hear a clattering of makeup compacters tapping with make up brushes
“Omg I love you I got an invite to Michael’s house party and he said i could bring a friend because am I fuck going by myself”
My brows furrow in complete confusion “wait which one is Micheal again?”
Rose had her own ways of coping with her relentless restless energy which mainly consisted of a constant rotation of lads that she had complete control over. She was gorgeous like stunning and she knew she had that power. It was why us two were so close, she understood me and never judged how I acted and knew things no one else did, a true ride or die. She was also the first person I came out too (and no matter how many allegations of us two dating there were I always only saw her as a best friend).
“Remember like two weeks ago when we were out and when we got to the club we got put in VIP and he bough us both drinks like all night and got into a fight with that lad who touched my arse?” A long oh came out of my mouth as I recall exactly what she was on about. She had been talking to him for about a month and was very respectful and a good time. Rose had been quick to tell me when I commented on how popular he was that he sold on a weekend for extra cash which had shocked me as he wasn’t obvious with it (or maybe he was and I was too fucked up to notice).
Rose continued “okay so I’ll come pick you up in like 30 minutes so get ready okay love you byeeee!”
The call barely disconnected as i threw my joggers and tube top off and quickly hopped in the shower. The music that blasted through my ears 10 minutes ago now blasted through a speaker as I applied my makeup, I quickly glanced at the time on my phone 19:42. The matching set i put on was covered by my tight fitted dress that pressed my push up bra even more up so my cleavage was front and centre 19:51 I looked at myself in the mirror admiring how sexy I looked it always makes me feel like myself when I dressed in small dresses especially with longer legs as they always barely covered your ass, nothing says R/N than dressing up to the max.
My admiration was cut short by the sound of a loud car horn outside my house I quickly say goodbye to my mum who gives me £20 for an emergency way home before rushing out my fur coat protecting you from the nip in the air as you run to the back seat door rose’s mum in the front seat. Me Rose and her mum catch up and cackle at her advice on what to do in worst case scenarios as we finally arrive outside a house that seemed too dead to be a house party. As I leave the car and wave off roses mum I look at rose with a side eye in between looking at the house.
“Girl is this his place? You did say house party right?” I go to walk up the path but she grabs my arm and laughs loudly
“Come on babes do you really think I’d let my mum drop us off outside of HIS house?!? She thinks we’re going to Emma’s house!” She moves to walk down the road and links my arm we both giggle at my cluelessness and I feel the pent up energy slowly turn into an excited smile that doesn’t leave my face as I’m eventually led up a path. The house is actually nice, a new build aesthetic on an old house and the base of the speakers inside blare as we walk up to it. As we near the already open door there’s a lad standing outside with a cigarette he was tall and lanky with a cold glare in his eye wearing a dark blue adidas tracksuit; I wouldn’t have paid the weird smirk he gave me and rose as we walked in if it wasn’t for the upside down cross scar in between his eyebrows. What a freak.
We walk inside still interlinked the warmth from the bodies making me take off my fur coat almost immediately. Strobe lights flicker in every room except the kitchen which is already littered with bottles and discarded plastic cups. Finding two unused cups I pour us both drinks with an unholy amount of vodka in them, sipping them slowly we walk towards the living room hands interlinked as we move between the groups of people; laughing smoking some crying and dancing.
“HEY ROSE!” We both turn to see Micheal coming down the stairs as he holds his arms out enveloping rose into a hug and quick peck as he makes eye contact with me “and you must be R/N right? Please make yourself at home! Take what you want from the kitchen we’re doing runs every hour so we won’t run out Ha.” He grabbed rose from behind and leaned in close before continuing “just er avoid upstairs we’ve got some company.” He makes a face as if in annoyance but lighthearted. It peaks my interest as to know what’s upstairs but it gets lost as I’m distracted by rose shoving me to do shots.
The party around us went by with a breeze the alcohol had seeped into my veins and me rose and Micheal had been chatting laughing and dancing for what seemed like seconds; in reality two hours had passed. Micheal had left us to go upstairs a while ago by the time the buzz in my head matched the buzz of the bass in the music playing, that feeling of restlessness long dissipated as I move my body along with roses as we danced.
It wasn’t long before the dancing started to ache as my cup emptied and Rose had wandered off somewhere in an attempt to find Micheal ; leaving me alone. Taking out my phone sluggishly I find myself leaning against an entry way between the living room and hallway next to the stairs without meaning to my body melting like putty at the support beam. I text rose three times before I start looking around lights blaring in my eyes making it hard for me to see where I’m going. Almost as soon as I enter the living room again my body tenses as I feel hands on my waist. I turn around to see a man my age in a Monterex outfit and sweaty hair smirking at me, his eyes like pits of hell. I shove him off me snarking him in the worst way I can in utterly disgust. He tries grabbing me again but this time around my head to try and kiss me. I shout as I shove him harder and instinctive punch landing on his cheek as I stumble out and to the safest high ground I can find adrenaline leading me out of instinct upstairs.
As I get to the top of the stairs, I jolt back and suddenly freeze as I come face to face with the same creepy lad from outside. He leans against a door with a leg propped up on the surface behind him, the same smirk creeping up onto his face when he realizes he’s caught me doing something I shouldn’t be doing. I quickly shake off the look of suprise on my face and attempt a smile in his direction before tilting my head to the side.
“You know where Micheal is? O-or rose?” I say as coolly as I can while taking slow steps up onto the landing directly in front of him
He suddenly pushes himself off of the wall and points his finger in my direction “you cannea be up here” his smirk more cold than before never meeting his eyes.
His answer doesn’t answer my question as so I step closer towards him smacking his finger out of my way“look my best friend is fucking Micheal and I can’t find her and this lad won’t leave me alone are they up here or not?” the alcohol clearly getting to my head as I can feel a bubbling of liquid confidence and anger stir at him telling me where I can and can’t be. I go to walk down the hall but he grabs my arm viscously and drags me back towards him his snarl strong as he gets in my face his eyes like ice ,every detail of his face enhanced in my visual field including scars I didn’t see before at first glance more specifically the one across his neck.
“I said,” his grip tightened on my upper arm “you cannea be up here you daft cunt”
My heart races with adrenaline as he tightens his grip on me. I debate shoving him back or poking his eyes or kicking him in the dick. But my attention is cut short on fighting this prick and directed towards the door he seemed to be guarding as it opened and Micheal walks out ,eyes wide at the scene in front of him, as well as a girl slightly taller than me who closed it behind her ,she had the same scar as the man with his hand still gripping into my skin but instead of a deep blue tracksuit she’s in a red tracksuit matching her ginger hair which is braided into four, her face covered in freckles as well as a deep scar on her cheek which crept onto her lip.
Her eyes connected with mine. My breathe hitched.Slightly. My heart races as my adrenaline pumps still. Her face contorted into a confused snarl as she stands even more guarded than before her arms by her side and fists clenched.
“Shite what the fucks goin on?” Her thick northern accent rips through the booms of the music bellow. Shite?
Suddenly she yanks his arm down away from mine roughly shoving him to the side. He stops himself from tripping over himself before turning his ice cold gaze away from me and towards the girl with deep brown eyes. But she paid him no mind instead glancing a slight apologetic look towards me.
“You best watch yourself ink” Shite bellows out “after I’m done with this little prick-“ he grabs the back of my hair harshly as he grabs something from his waist my heart drops as it’s a knife a big fuck off knife my hands gripping onto his arm, “I can sort you right out too.”
“Shite please drop it she’s probably looking for her friend you know the one I brought up with me?” Micheal screams in a panic glancing between me and the lanky twat holding me tighter than my scalp was used to. His words catch my attention as I realised rose was also upstairs making me feel a brief relief.
My heart raced as the thumping of the base below clashed with the sound of back and forth bickering still my mind was on finding rose so we could get the fuck out. The knife was dangerously close to my face one trip up like before and he( I had no doubt) would carve me into as many tiny pieces as he wanted to.
I looked to the girl in red almost frantically for help her but was met with her sigh of annoyance along with a deep eye roll as she moved in between Micheal and Shite shouting in micheals direction but none of the words registered I was still very drunk and shitting my knickers. There was no scent of resolve between this shite lad and..ink? Was that what he called her? My head was in a daze the alcohol once flooding my senses had now almost dissolved away into thin air between micheals face and inks loud responseI knew one wrong word this shite character wouldn’t hesitate to hurt me.
Just as the thought starts to make me tremble the door opens again from the inside gaining everyones attention. A man in a purple velour tracksuit stepped out his blonde hair and crooked grin made me shiver; but I wasn’t the only one. Ink stood to attention almost and Micheal moved to back away ;shite was the only one who remained in his position. The man in velour circled the scene with his eyes finally landing on me walking forward slowly smirking at me like I had just told a dirty joke that had a sinsister end.
“Jimmy shite..” the man started but kept his eyes on mine holding excruciating eye contact;still smirking but the agitation in his voice was clear,“pray tell what’s the one rule we have for our guests?”
Ink glanced between the two men and me I felt like I could cry. Then it hit me Jimmy shite. Jimmy shite. As in THE jimmys. Fuck me I am so fucked. I had saw how they hurt people online, every other local news article with their mug shots on and the fact that they ran the drug game in my city. I felt my face drop as I looked back to his face then behind him at ink. Her breathes were deep but her eyes calm eerily so.
“No one cannea come upstairs.” Shite said in a mocking sing songy voice,”Caught her trying to sneak up here. When I told her she couldnea be here she got mouthy.” He explained coolly as if he didn’t have a knife to my throat
“That’s not true.” I said quick to defend myself this caught the man in velours attention.
“Oh.. is that so?” He asks in a tone so sweet it sounded cruel his words dripped of fake pity
I turn my head ever so to look at Micheal breaking the gaze of the man in front of me who’s mouth reeked of weed.
“I couldn’t find Rose -Micheal-,” I turn towards him in a desperate attempt to prove my innocence,”I thought she’d be up here with you and instead this CUNT,” emphasising that part got me a knee to the back “grabbed me-ow and now we’re here.” I finish by looking back at the man in velour.
He stared at me for longer than I would’ve liked his face never changing as his gold chains rattled against each other as he took a step forward. I closed my eyes for a second gulping hard and almost trembling. When I open them again to face him his smile broadened as he realised I had tears welled in my own.
“Please,” I say softly making shite and the man in velour chuckle “some lad kept grabbing me and tried to kiss me and I panicked and ran up please I didn’t mean to cause any shit-“
I was cut off by a ringed finger being held to my face. The man in purple turned to Micheal stepping closer to him whispering something I couldn’t hear but whatever it was caused him to nod and walk past me and shite towards another door in the hallway and disappear inside.
The relief flooded my body like a drug as I feel the pressure on my scalp and body ease as shite let me go. I turn around and face him as he puts his knife back into its holder down his pants. His smirk the same as the one he flashed me and rose as we entered the house hours before, arms crossed across his chest as he leant against the banister of the stairs behind us. I flinch as the man in velour starts to move but to my suprise he goes into the room he emerged from leaving it open behind him. I make eye contact with the girl in red and she nods her head to the side and I take it as my sign to follow behind him.
Walking into the room I freeze slightly in awe. Drugs loads of drugs. And cash. Shit tonnes. Like more I could ever imagine. I feel a slight push to my back and face ink something about her eyes made me feel fuzzy and safe even if it was for a split second.
“Go on move,” she says softly before she lowered her voice so only I could hear her “it’s okay. trust me.” She smiles reassuringly and I smile back quickly before it vanishes as i turn into the room fully and finding a seat on the couch opposite the big leather chair that the man in velour claimed as his throne.
Ink leans against the wall closest to the door as shite remains outside remaining his guarding position as before. The room was decorated with gold figures of baphomet and the air had an odor of weed and plastic. Looking around still on edge I fix the hem of my dress pushing it down my thighs as I sit with my legs crossed. The supposed leader sits in front of me rolling what seems to be a spliff seemingly more interested in his technique than anything else; I almost expected a lecture a beating something, anything; the silence defending. I turn my attention back towards ink whose stare was focused on me too. Her eyes more curious than intimidating no matter how intense it may have been.
The sound of a lighter flicker causes me to look back to the man sat across from me. He has a drag of the lit spliff before exhaling while remaining eye contact. These fuckers love staring.
“I feel like we haven’t been properly introduced.” Finally the silence is broken and while my heart continued to hammer in my chest relief is definitely amongst the feelings in experiencing. His tone was light lighter than before as if a flip had been switched but something still felt wrong like there was a joke I wasn’t in on staring at me in the face.
“I assume you’re well acquainted now with Jimmy shite and Jimmy ink. My two best fighters as you can imagine. Not too prissy when it comes to getting their hands dirty isn’t that right inky?” He laugh is boisterous as he waves his hands as he speaks. Ink smirks back at him but doesn’t respond. I don’t laugh and he notices the tension slowly creeping back into the room and into his eyes. “I just cannea understand it-“ he faces ink once again almost putting on a performance at my expense “entering someone’s house without knowing whose house you’re stepping into.” Another laugh escapes him every word dripped into my brain like a jab to the stomach. It felt insulting but I couldn’t comprehend why.
“I was Roses plus one. She invited me. I thought this was Michael’s house party. That’s what she told me, anyway” I answer as carefully as possible to not come off as disrespectful. I catch both his and inks gaze my eyes flicking between both of them unable to read the expression on their faces. “I’m sorry I honestly didn’t know I just wanted to have a night out.”
The same gaze when he laid eyes on me returned to his face. As if scouting out if I was bullshitting. I could feel the danger i was in but the buzz in my chest was still evidently there. The quieter the silence the more my liquid confidence returned as I continued to speak. “Thank you. For the drinks.”he leaned back I his seat taking another puff of his spliff before he let out a small hum in response as if he was drinking in my apology.
I keep my eyes on him this time as he shifts slightly his spliff being placed on an ash tray on the table in front of him, his hands reach behind his back and I try keep my composure as a hand gun is in his left hand now pointed towards me as his arm leans lazily against the chair arm. My throat felt as if it was closing in as I remained calm keeping stern eyes on his maintaining the pace of my breathing.
He notices my panic and as if it was some sick joke he places the hand gun on the table picking up the spliff once more “Jimmy crystal.” He says in a relaxed tone his smirk full of wonder as if the whole ordeal gave him a hard on. “Sir lord jimmy crystal,” he waves the hand with the spliff valiantly as if he were a real royal “let’s be pals.”
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First chapter #done this took me way too long to write anyways.. I really hope you enjoyed I swear there will be more to come I’ve never wrote anyways sort of fan fiction before so I hope I’ve set it up well haha!!