Makayla

DEAR DIARY:

[mk1]

Its been a long one friends!

My dear friends, its been so long since a post, a story, and even a share. i have not neglected you and i know your still out there, so from this day forward i will be making more relevant post. ill share some secrets, some horrors', tears and some heart felt moments. thank you for your patients and stay tuned for more to come. 

[mk1]

December 25...

Merry christmas....

Mentally depressed

Physically happy 😶

[mk1]

Mentally challenged

Mentally challenged, are looked down upon. They are under appreciated and its sad, its so heart breaking cause there blessings.

If u see a mentally challenged person please don't go up in there face and ask "have they always been this way...", don't say "oh that's sad that there like that".

That's rude, there people with emotions and feelings. They understand things they aren't stupid.

There mentally challenged in a physical way, some are physically unable to move alone but it doesnt make them stupid and it doesnt mean that cant understand what your saying, they may not know how to talk but they have ears to hear things.

Please think twice before asking or making a comment about the mentally challenged.

There blessings in disguise, appreciate them instead of casting a judgment.

#spcial #autism #downsyndrome #ADD #ADHD #angermanagment #spinalbifia #fetalalcoholsyndrome

[mk1]

Untitled..

i just want to sleep, i just want to go to sleep and never wake up. 

I want to go to bed the second i open my eyes. 

why is it like this, why do i hate waking up? 

[mk1]

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Immature...

Childish...

Alone...

Wasted...

Unhappy...

Scared...

Angry...

Confused...

Anxious...

[mk1]

Overcoming

I am overcoming.

I am overcoming my social anxiety.

I am overcoming my fear of loneliness.

I took a step into a new world today, me the girl with social anxiety, me the girl with constant anxiety attacks, me the girl that wont place herself in unknown situations.

Im proud to say i am overcoming.

I am proud to say today i went into someone else's world and mingled, today i went out into the big world alone with no ones hand to hold except for my own. Today i did that, the girl that was gonna sit in the car and sleep instead of exploring, the girl acts shy around new people. Talked to people that were not familiar.

One step at a time, your on a good path so keep going and dont fall off.

Try and explore more alone its okay.

[mk1]

Short and Sweet

Move, wiggle, shift, see the light at the end of the tunnel.

It will work out, its going to work out fine jesus has got you. No one else may support you but jesus will, you will it out.

This is just a bump on the road, perhaps a speed bum. A speed bump to make you slow down, whoa! Your going to fast. Don't get that excited too quick, life is just about to disappoint.

[mk1]

THE ANXIETY:

Have you ever felt it creeping up on you, that horrible pulling feeling in your chest.

Suffocating, confused, not sure. Scared, alone, worried.

Have you ever been left wondering when its gonna end, your heart racing fast, your mind going crazy. I don't know what to do? Am i okay? Am i really okay?

Everything looks so grey and colorless, so how do you find five things red? When everything is so bland and dark.

What do you do when the world under you changes, does anyone care? Can anyone see? Can you see the anxiety in me?

How do you find 3 yellow things when the world doesn't even exist.

No one cares, no one understands, your alone in your own mind, alone in someone else's environment, alone in this huge world, is anyone out there? Does anyone hear me ever?

[mk1]

What's your perspective?

[mk1]

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies,

John 11:25 NASB

https://bible.com/bible/100/jhn.11.25.NASB

[mk1]

Hello there.

The past day or two i have been stuck wondering what i should post on my tumblr, as a new member.

I like to keep things going daily but its hard to keep my theme when im not going through the moment.

So far ive talked about Social Anxiety, infants, and ADHD.

What i really have been wanting to get to is how to help parents and teachers know how to handle someone that has ADHD. I was told a story by someone close to me who has ADHD about how his elementary school life he always got kicked out of class and sent to the office, only because he couldn't sit still in class and it was disruptive.

As you may know i always work in a daycare and theres a child there that has ADHD, and i sometimes even find myself getting frustrated quickly but i wanna change that.

I wanna know how can i help a child with ADHD? Instead of getting frustrated, what are strategies that i can use to keep this child focused and calm.

If u have any tips please feel free to let me know.

[mk1]

3:40am

I am under attack!

Its 3:40am and i am under attack. My heart is beating a thousand miles a minute, hyperventilating every minute, stay calm everything is okay.

Take a step out of your own world, admire the air outside the fogg that moves so quick and feels so wet. Stay calm and feel the damp wood against you keep your eyes up and stay focused.

Step outside the universe and think outside of your understanding, take a chance on what has been creating, listen to the noises around you, there's a whole world around you and you don't even see.

Different opinions, different thoughts, different emotions.

Eyes puffy and no one to see, the lady that has the social anxiety, but its okay because you noticed. you went outside of your mind and admired the world around you, be thankful that this is your world. You took the steps of calming yourselfe don't underestimate your self.

[mk1]

Beautifully and wonderfully made, every little detail of this flower is so wonderful. 

[inspiredbyjesuslove]

[mk1]

Always and forever

[mk1]

Does anyone out there understand?

That feeling when someone doesn't know your socially anxious, so they get mad at you for being quite, shy, timid.

The feeling you have when your asked "why don't you talk to anyone?, you only talk to me and your fine when your alone with me. What's wrong with you? Why can't you participate, and be social with others expect me?"

That feeling when you tell them, i am the same with my family. I take my cousin and secluded ourselves to be alone just so i can be comfertable and not under attack.

Does anyone really understand social anxiety?

Please do not ask me why i am not social in large groups, please do not tell me its annoying that i am only comfortable with one person instead of three. This is my social anxiety.

I will not try new things alone. I will not go to large groups of people alone. I will not place myself in situations where my anxiety takes over.

So instead of asking me why? How about you recognize i am quite and shy, and help me calm down, because i do not feel okay, and i am not comfortable.

Instead of asking why? Help me remember that i am okay, help me find calming things to keep me focused. Because in my mind I am panicked, and i am not okay.

[mk1]

the god of destruction. 

[dear-future-ai]

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