I present to the Tumblr community my custom made Sunny Day Jack plushie!!!
He just got here from Plush Buddy! I ordered and sent in my references in January and received him 20th of May!! Totally worth the wait, I absolutely love him!!! What do you guys think?? 😆
This will be the first of many updates/diary entries for me to look back on in the future, to hopefully find community in the struggles I'm going to be facing, but most of all, to show a realistic and honest view of moving out for the first time.
As of today, this is post one.
My savings are not great - only $290. I will be getting paid (bringing me up to nearly $800) but I still won't have anywhere near enough close to my goal of $5000 for fall and my move.
But what I do have is a plan. The first week of May, I will be packing my things and moving up north with my Nana and Papa. I'm going to find a job and work through the summer, getting cooking lessons from my Nana, selling some of my possessions in their garage sale for extra money, taking a college class or two to get me into the music major mindset (I'm switching majors) and looking for places downstate for me to move.
Of course, things may not work out, and I have prepared for the possibility of having to move back with my parents. However, I do have available housing with my best friend and her family. They charge a very small fee for rent and would allow me to bring home a pet: and I REALLY want some birds. Always have. I digress.
There is a lot I'm worried about. I'm going to miss my family, cats, friends. I don't know if I'm going to actually like living up north or if I'll even want to move out come fall and just move in with my parents. This is okay too as they have no problems with it. The sheer knowledge that I don't know a lot about in the future is scary.
So I'll let myself be scared. I'll let myself be excited.
Because change is almost never easy. But it is almost always worth it.
More Sunny Day Jack headcanons!!!! Theme: Singing, music, and art!
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With that out of the way, lets get to it!
Singing:
In my mind, Jack has the voice of an angel, so why would his singing be the same?
Surprisingly his voice is actually really healthy (though he doesn't have any training to his knowledge at least).
Jack is the type to sing to you.
At night, when you're freaking out, any time you might need a reminder he's there.
He'd probably mainly sing Disney songs (think "I See The Light" from Tangled, "A Whole New World" from Aladdin, and his personal favorite, "You'll Be In My Heart" from Tarzan) but if you listen to other genres like Pop or Country he might pick up your favorites and sing them to you in an attempt to make you smile!
Because I'm an avid theater kid - and statistically, at least one of you has to be one as well - I think he would sing songs from musicals I watch/listen to.
My case, lots of "Phantom of the Opera" and songs from "Shrek the Musical" or shows I've been on!
I think he'd have pretty good pitch; not perfect, but pretty good for someone untrained!
But he'd absolutely LOVE karaoke with you!
Any song you want to sing, he'll learn for you, just so you two can sing together!
Honestly I could see him using his voice to his advantage by trying to serenade you, trying to make you smile, or just to block out other things.
If you're a not a singer, he wouldn't mind at all! You're perfect in his eyes~!
The two of you could attempt karaoke and Jack will, every time without fail, tell you how amazing you sound and how much he loves your voice!
And if you are a singer, the two of you will have SO much fun!
I'm talking karaoke every day, singing to each other as communication, and there will definitely be some inside jokes related to the singing battles!
More than any of that though, Jack loves to listen to your voice. Singing, talking, it's all beautiful.
Would absolutely MELT if you sang a romantic or comforting song to him; in his eyes, it's something that's just for him, and that means the world.
Of course, if you choose to share your voice with the world whether through social media or performances (as I do), expect him to be a little sulky every time you do.
Why would you sing for people you don't even know when you have him?
Obviously he thinks these clips or videos are the epitome of perfection and would tell you just how beautiful you sound, maybe even show you too~!
Expect that any hate comments will be deleted (sometimes before you even see them) and Jack will be quick to pepper you with kisses and compliments.
"They're just jealous of you, no one can sing as beautifully as you!"
"Don't listen to them. What do they know?"
"You don't need to be sad, Sunshine, they don't mean anything to us. What they say doesn't matter. You believe me, right?"
Might end up calling you his Songbird, Nightingale, or his Melody.
If singing is something private for you, he'd be honored to hear any tune come from your lips, no matter how quiet. It'd be beautiful!
Music:
In general, he likes music and I could see him listening to music when the two of you can't talk, he's doing something like cooking, maybe even just whistling a tune he heard over the radio to pass the time.
Of course, if music is important to you, it will be to him.
His taste isn't picky, and he'll listen to anything you put on within some limits - heavy metal, screamo, and things like that trigger memories from a past long forgotten and makes him uncomfortable.
Probably would ask you very respectfully to change the station if he didn't like it.
If you love that type of music, he would try his best not to listen too hard or cause a fuss, but would be visibly antsy and jumpy.
Picks up song lyrics and learns your favorites from hearing them so often.
If you play an instrument, expect LOTS of questions.
"How long have you played?"
"What's your favorite thing to play?"
"Have you ever performed?"
Would probably ask you to teach him, knowing it would require some touching.
"Where do my hands go again?"
"Could you show me?"
"Sit next to me, and tell me how this sounds."
Listening to you practice or just mess around is calming to him. Would absolutely die if you learned a song for him to serenade him.
He probably wouldn't pick up many instruments, as he wants to spend whatever time he has with you, but I could see him trying to pick up piano, violin, or maybe even drums if it was something you liked!
When he puts his mind to something, expect 200% effort.
If he tried to learn an instrument with you, he would be a pro in no time!
Anything is possible with you in mind, Sunshine~!
Overall would do anything to make you happy; whether listening to punk or learning an instrument, if it makes you happy, it's worth it!
Art
The moment he finds out you're an artist, he's all over it.
Painting? He wants to see your paintings! Fanart? Let him see! Pottery, knitting, sewing, jewelry, crafts, anything, he's super excited!
Would 100% help you with anything art related, like refilling the water cups, reminding you to put the glaze on, helping find that one bead you dropped, etc...
He secretly wants you to draw him; just so he can see what he looks like.
Not like he can just look in a mirror...
Your crafts and projects will absolutely not be stuffed in a closet or drawer.
Every painting is hung, every cup or pot displayed, each craft placed properly on a table or desk, and expect him to cherish anything you made for him.
"It's... For me? Oh, Sunshine, you don't have to do that! Thank you!"
Anything you made him will be treated with the utmost care.
Probably would wear any jewelry or clothes you made him. Clothes for him are pretty few and far between, though he doesn't really get dirty, so every garment is special.
Compliments every project and absolutely does not allow self hatred!
"Don't say that about yourself. It's not true, Sunspot."
Is so incredibly proud to be with you and loves you so much!!!
Have an amazing day (or night) my Sunshine's! ❤️💛💙
(Foreword: I am mentally healthy today, seeing mental health specialists, and in no way want this to affect anyone else's mental health. Please, take the time to take care of yourself, drink some water, and rest. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. I love you, and so does Jack. 🤎)
TW: Su!c!de, self h@rm (overdose), mental health struggles, and vague mentions of trauma. Read this only if you are in a good mental place.
Character: Sunny Day Jack
Scenario: Y/n tries to end their life
SUNNY DAY JACK IS AN 18+ COMMUNITY ONLY. DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS OR MY PAGE IF YOU ARE UNDERAGE!
What hides in the dark
It hadn't come out of the blue. It built, rolled like a snowball. It wasn't just one thing that triggered a wave of helplessness. It was days, weeks, trapped inside an invisible shell that no one could reach.
The world was... Too much. Even with Jack by your side.
Jack...
He realized things weren't quite right and hadn't been quite right in weeks, and he didn't keep quiet about it. Asking what was wrong, trying to go out of his way to do more, be more for you. It's why he's here, after all.
But nothing he did would ever make that cloud disappear. No amount of compliments, breakfast pancakes, and smiles could change that.
Jack had been worried for days now about you. Desperate to try and break through that haze that seemed to follow you around. A haze that Jack was terrified would forever dull his Sunshine.
Not that you showed it, of course; you had a good handle on the game of pretend that had become your life following the traumas. And especially Ian.
It wasn't until one night that he realized just how close he'd actually come to losing his light.
The door shut behind you as Jack began to hang up your bag, turning on the lights for you while keeping his eyes on you, as if he were afraid to look away.
His usual adoring gaze had turned into something different. Worry, love, and confusion now typically took over his features.
You were tired. Dead tired. Long days working at home, at your job, with school. He'd tried to get a little bit of a laugh out of you.
"How about I make you a nice meal, so we don't have to stop by the grocery snore! ...Get it?"
All he got in response was what sounded like a sigh trying to sound like a chuckle. He sat you down, sitting beside you on the couch as he decided to try one last time. Just praying something would get through.
"Hey, Sunshine? You know I love you, right?"
Of course, you nodded, already mentally checked out as he started speaking, a stern yet worried look on his face.
"Something is wrong. You try to hide it. But I see it. The food that I made, untouched in the fridge after you said you'd eat it later. You haven't been doing those things that make you... You."
You barely looked at him. You couldn't, not with those eyes, so profoundly enamoured yet pained to the point of near tears. The desperation that ached in his words, the way he couldn't help but move closer to you, like a moth to a flame. You look down.
Slowly, gently, Jack takes your hand, staring into your eyes. For a moment, he doesn't speak. Just analyzing every single expression, every nuance of your face, hoping for just a sign that you heard him. Then, he finally breaks the silence, murmuring to you as he gently rubbed the back of your hand with his thumb.
"Please... Just tell me what I need to do to make you happy again." He waited. For a sign. A word. Just the twitch of an eye. Nothing.
You finally looked up to see him, noticing his tense shoulders. The way he was soft. Keeping his gaze on you. Seeing how tears built in your eyes and you blinked them away, standing up from the couch and whispering how you needed to use the bathroom.
There was something in him - something that fought to be released - that begged him to follow you, to keep you in his arms, to just fix everything.
But he didn't. He let you go. He sat on the couch awhile as you shut the door behind you. With a sigh, he got up and started to tidy up the room; sitting still like this wouldn't help him think.
Nor did it help you. The moment the bathroom door shut behind you, the waterworks started. Tears that had been there from weeks ago, years you would not let escape finally emptied. How long had it been since you cried like this? Not the five minute cries you'd do in the shower or bathroom, away from prying eyes and ears (and Jack). Full on, hyperventilating, hand over your mouth to try and keep from letting the figure outside hear.
He did.
Didn't say anything. Maybe he hoped that it would help. Maybe he knew you didn't want to be seen. Maybe, it made him feel terrible. But he did not say anything. Just rubbed his head, hoping for some miracle to come and take away all the problems.
It was around this time he also got a strange feeling in his chest. This tight, aching, knowing feeling. Something was wrong. His eyes drifted to the bathroom door.
On the other side, the situation had changed. The tears didn't last long before a wave of numbness hit. That thought. "It would be so easy. Just go to sleep forever. No more stress. No more memories. No more pain."
You'd listened before - but never took it all the way. Not when you had so much hope.
'But that's how the world is', you thought. 'It takes it all away.'
That is how you found yourself robotically standing up, moving to the cabinet, and taking the bottle of pills into your hand, staring at it blankly.
It wasn't lethal. Just something over the counter for pain. Yet all it took was just a few. They're pain relievers, right? A twisted joke formed in your head.
"Pain relievers. Looks like they'll actually work for once."
You steadily open the cap. The bottle rattles as pills fall into your open palm, the little circles looking strangely friendly.
Didn't give yourself time to think. To potentially stop yourself. You raise your hand to your lips to swallow them and-
"Sunshine? Are you okay?"
His muffled voice breaks through your haze and you freeze, stunned and a little bit peeved that he made you pause. Now, you feel the guilt. Jack...
What would leaving do to him? Would he be able to see anyone else? Or even stay in existence without you as a tether? Could he find anyone else to be with?
...Would he want to find anyone else to be with?
Fortunately, your silence, the strange feeling that something was happening, and his better judgement didn't hesitate now.
"I'm coming in, Sunspot."
You didn't even have time to move as he slowly swung the door open, eyes moving before landing on you and softening, until he sees your hand.
It's strange watching him react. So detached that you can notice every little motion, calmly popping into your head.
"He's not moving."
"His eyes are so wide."
"He's looking at my hand."
"His hand is gripping the door."
"He's moving-"
As soon as Jack makes the connection, Jack steps forward, not even close to running, having only taken two large steps, but it's fast enough and sudden enough to give the illusion that he's somehow ran to you.
"Sunshine!" His voice is hoarse, almost breathless as he reaches you, one hand going to cover the pills in your hand while the other quickly, a frantic look in his eyes as he stares at you, horrified.
Both of you look at each other for a while, a heartbroken look in Jack's eyes and a mix of guilt, anger, sadness, and shock in your own.
Before he can even try to say anything, your chest suddenly starts moving. Up, and down. It's strange. Your hands feel tingly, head pounding and it's only as you look down that you realize you're sobbing. Uncontrollably, fervently, and finally, without trying to stop them.
Jack stays silent, his face morphing from terror to sympathy, as he tilts your hand into his, taking the pills and immediately dropping them into the garbage. As soon as they're out of sight he takes you into his arms.
"Sunshine... I'm so sorry..."
It doesn't take long before you're sobbing into him, hands at your sides now as you give in. No more fighting.
Reverently, Jack carefully helps you to the floor, holding your face as he watches you, sadly.
He takes you into his arms before you can try to speak and ask him to hold you, like he knows.
The two of you stay there for an indiscernible amount of time. No one talks. This kind of silence doesn't need to be filled. Just the sounds of crying fill the space like an elephant.
After a while, the crying starts to slow.
Those huge sobs turn into cries, then sighs, then sniffles.
You scoot back, putting some space between you and the man who had just saved your life, wiping the tears as you begin to compose yourself.
"Are you okay?"
Jack finally speaks, though it's more like a whisper. Almost as if he's afraid to get too loud. Too afraid to break you even further.
Your answer is - for once - real.
"...No."
He softens at that. Gives a look that only someone who truly cared for another could give.
Never does he push. Never does he look at you with eyes of pity. Never does he feel more grateful than when you decide to talk. And the words came pouring out.
"I'm not good enough."
"Everything is so much, all the time, and nothing helps."
"I never know what's happening next!"
"What if everyone hates me?"
"What if I'll never be happy?"
"What if my trauma never stops hurting?"
"What if..?"
He doesn't stop you at all. Just listens. Hangs on to every word as though it holds the key.
To joy.
Finally, when you stop, he reaches his hand out. Holds yours.
And he speaks from his heart.
"I... I'm so sorry, Sunshine."
"I should have noticed."
"No one should feel this way. Especially you."
"You deserve to be happy."
"You deserve a long, healthy and beautiful life."
"Most importantly? You deserve love."
He pauses. Just looking at you. For the first time in what feels like years, you are here.
Present.
His smile softens and he holds your face as he speaks again, this time, with a firmness and truth in his tone.
"Maybe we don't know what's going to happen next. But I know that I'll be with you every step of the way, and that you'll never be alone. I love you, Sunspot. And I promise you with every fiber of my being, you will NEVER have to deal with this alone again."
People, please be careful. There are also people tracking children and people and putting bids on them based on their profile pictures on whatsapp, tracking and kidnapping them. Especially young children, so please be cautious, especially parents who have their children as their profile pictures.
Please pass this on to everyone so that they are aware of the danger. I don’t how it is all around the world but I know it can’t just be here so please please spread the word. Thank you.
I’ve gotten a few of these. Never ever click a link from an unknown number!!!
oh yeahhhh, I saw that on snapchat. it’s been freakin’ EVERYWHERE lately. i haven’t been getting the text, luckily, but im still extremely cautious about it. shit’s scary.
not just girls, but boys and other genders have to be careful as well. this could happen to anyone. please be safe, my friends <3
FOR ALL THE YOUNGER PEOPLE THAT FOLLOW. YOU GUYS ARE SMART. YOU KNOW THIS. BUT JUST IN CASE THERE ARE SOME WHO MIGHT NOT. THAT DOESN’T MAKE YOU NOT SMART, PERHAPS JUST LESS INFORMED.
DO NOT CLICK LINKS IN TEXTS EVER. GO TO ACTUAL WEBSITES FOR ONES YOU RECOGNIZE AND TYPE IN THE URL. OR A BOOKMARK IF YOU HAVE ONE. DON’T CLICK LINKS IN TEXTS AND SOCIAL MEDIA MESSAGES/DMS AND EMAILS. EVEN IF YOU KNOW THE PERSON. TAKE EXTREME CAUTION.
IF YOU’RE GUTS SAYS EH WOULDN’T DO THAT BUDDY. LISTEN.
Obligatory reblog! @imhumanguysiswear @childlikegoblinqueen @teaontoasty @spinaroos-47 @smokestarrules Sorry if this bothers you but I do know someone who has received these messages so it better not to take any chances!