Please this in the mean of helping me feel better <3
I think we deserve happiness more often.
i'm a muslim girl,i live with a strict family who only care about what they see and don't give you a chance to let you speak about your feelings nor your opinions,it's something they don't and never actually cared about.
I've grew with them like that and to this very moment,i'm the weakest amongst my siblings,i'm having hard time with depression..who knows maybe no one had time for me when i was younger? i mean whats the point of wearing good clothes and having your favorite toys (i had a ps1) and not get enough time for me?
I'm 21 years old,and the meaning of love to my parents was financial,always was,they never spread they'r arms to hug us,never called to have a lovely mother father daughter time,never told us what love really means..
The more i grow up the more difficult they become and the more impatient i get but i always remind myself that they are my parents wether i like it or not,sad truth,but i have to bare it till the end.
Since they never gave me such love,i was seeking love from outside,dating and dating and it never ever worked out,they never gave me what i wanted and i couldn't give them what they quite needed. I was lost in three years i was trying to find myself and i wanted to feel loved by people as well but i couldn't because i had very low self-esteem and a laughing stalk out of myself..
After i decided to give up on almost everything,somehow,that day was the day God decided to bring it all back together by this one person..i thought it was creepy because as awesome that guy was,he was similar to me in almost everything..i swear i never expected it especially when i already gave up on men and love in general.
Just take a moment and put yourself my place,i felt a spark,dude was sweet! i couldn't stop myself from going after what my heart says and i bet you would do the very same! So i did it,he asked me to be his and without hesitation i said Y E S.
Till this very day,our love is stronger than ever sure very bad things happened we had our ups and downs but we grow stronger.Basically he's the one who made me better and made me feel special and that i'm a human being just like the others and to him i'm better than most in his life (so is he in my life). Can you ever imagine yourself living a romantic movie,those romantic movies that are Impossible to happen in real life? Believe me,i'm living it right now,all thanks to him.<3
Find that person who cares about you,looks are nothing,education is nothing,wealth is nothing,only loving and caring is the most important thing that might/will save your life and make it 100+ better.
