hello vonnie
Not today Justin
Today's Document
YOU ARE THE REASON
tumblr dot com
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
Stranger Things
PR's Tumblrdome
cherry valley forever
No title available
we're not kids anymore.
dirt enthusiast
TVSTRANGERTHINGS
Product Placement
if i look back, i am lost
Cosimo Galluzzi
Kiana Khansmith
KIROKAZE
shark vs the universe
seen from Canada
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from New Zealand
seen from United States
seen from Singapore
seen from Türkiye
seen from Spain
seen from Germany
seen from United States
seen from Malaysia
seen from Poland
seen from Spain
seen from Türkiye
seen from France
seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from United States
@modernmayascribe
I figured out why I'm ruminating
I think the ruminating is because I trust Kaloomte's senses a lot in terms of sensing danger and safety, and I'm concerned that he might be spotting something dangerous that I don't I frequently need to borrow other people's eyes.
This, I know how to do
SO today was my first time going to church as someone who would call myself a Christian. Today someone came up to me and infodumped about alonquin linguistics and south american indigenous nations so naturally, I was like "wow you fraking nerd" and "yeah I belong here" simultaneously. It would appear the tribe of Christ is rich with Autists. This makes for promising soil
Weave in some ancestor support to help get Kaloomte Solomon caught up more quickly
The specific purpose of the MMS blog is to process topics related to health, religion, Biblical stuff, christiany in general. I made it after a conversation with my freaking SAINT of a manager, Kaloomte Soloman; he said "I want to engage with your thoughts" but that he can't stay caught up with just messaging. Hence me making a blog so that he could peruse at his own convenience "Centralize the information, decentralize the action" <- a Bex Specs heuristic/ part of my Ferengi book of acquisition parody -- I could do like, Bex Zen, but I don't want to be disrespectful of those religions.
Pretty pictures make reading much more compelling. The tiny little serotonin spurt caused by something beautiful really helps kick my dopamine limbic system and I want to be able to do the same for others. Sometimes *just* reading text feels dry and tedious and pretty pictures help break that fatigue up
---
🕷️NASA🕷️
Hold on, I’m coming back to you ❤️.. Collage artwork by Taudalpoi
Indigenous Chicago
This interactive map explores five centuries of Indigenous histories on the land now known as Chicago. Stretching across time, it emphasizes
the name of this blog is way too long. it's organized too chaotically. I will change this on Machete Monday
I need to bring the fundraiser store back online
i need to publish a step by step on setting up a fundraiser store for people who don't want to have to think about it
I made the blog "americancharacter.tumblr.com" when I was in college because this continent is just deeply sacred to me
America is sacred to me. We're reclaiming patriotisim: American, not MAGA. I really do love this country even with her sins: the settlers committed genocide; they also successfully fought off one of the largest and most brutal empires on Earth and that is noteworthy.
What does it mean to be an American? What is our story?
Suku'un-il Ba'ah has graduated from that title; he will be addressed as Coyote Heart Dog Fire normalizing Indian formal titles and Indian sounding names is very important
this season I am going to try to prioritize calling Suku'un-il Ba'ah by his indigenous name (Coyote Heart Dog Fire) for both revitalization and medicine reasons.
In this season. C.H.D.F is a reference to Suku'un-il Ba'ah ; he has been V.T.V (Very Tall Vet), the demigod (this a joke and I mostly only call him this in the context of the pair of immortals (Very Christian Vet), and of course just his actual name (I will not be putting it here; references to his government name are limited to "Ender" because his Hacking / CTF name is "endr", he's read the book, and because it's similar name to his government name)
You know damn well you aint got no new york friend mr williams lmao
Country self-soothing as I navigate Xibalba
Question of the season is how do we integrate agriculturalists
Raw Journaling Action Items this was a fourth infodump I put in Kaloomte Solomon Dixon's ibox
But yeah (thx fer ur grace cause I know this is message 4 lol) : My action items on hunting and ranching as a means of self-care are
Call my aunt Kathy in the morning and try to get a sense of how butchering’s going and whether or not thy had a good year. When they can’t afford to give us beef they still offer us a pretty steep discount. It’s tricky because they’re absolutely the kind of people who would give you the shirt off their own back and I don’t want to encourage them to over-extend themselves If they’re struggling
brainstorm ways to get me out to the ranch and to be able to bring back enough beef to last me through poverty times again. I might add to my fundraiser store again. I was gonna link it but I always take the store link down when I’m not super super broke out of like, embarrassment if that makes sense. My friend Jared placed a giant order from the fundraiser store (like $140 worth of stuff) so I plan to take requests from him if he wants a specific Ganas-branded design).
write out all possible forms of revenue and taking care of myself until I’m well enough to contribute to the ca’ah in a responsibility role
identify hunting possibilites in the midwest BUT (And this is extremely important), I cannot hunt on the sacred lands of the indigenous nations who serve as Land Guardians/Stewards of their ancestral land without integrating and giving back to them first. Like I’m not even gonna research getting my hunting license here until I can connect with the Land Guardians
After I’m able to connect with the Land Guardians, it would mean a LOT if you’re down to let me bring you and the coaches / pillars etc to an intertribal council. Intertribal pow-wows are public so we can bring anyone to those, but some indigenous spaces require more privacy, and if integration with the local nations seems like we’d benefit from bringing you to a round-table it’s so so so important to do that
list the local land stewards and nations, then contact their reps.
price check deep freezers or brain storm ways to bring beef back here. Completely down to just drive the pickup back to Chicago if it’s gonna be able to make that trip.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I dumped this entire long ahh wall of text into Kaloomte Soloman's iMessage inbox -- come back to this later to shorten it
HUNTING, FISHING, FARMING, DRIVING MEAT UP TO CHICAGO STUFF Butchering season already started but I’mma contact my Aunt Kathy again tomorrow get set up with her directly and hopefully get out there asap. She is regularly like “Bring your city friends and their kids down here so we can teach them how to shoot/hunt/ride horses/be part of sustainable and honorable cattle ranching”, but a ranch in the middle of nowhere with no cell signal is kind of a hard sell for some people ☠️
I took one boyfriend there in college and he was like, super uncomfortable at how deserted it was so I didn’t bring anyone else, not even my ex-husband, just because its such a sacred place to me, but I think the world is ready again and that these skills matter a lot.
While I’m out there I might be able to get some game too (rabbit, quail) and bring that back for when I’m poor again. I have to look into hunting practices in the midwest, but me and a lot of country Indian /cowboy people would be able to meet our protein needs much more easily if we were allowed to hunt. I have to connected with the indigenous nations of the hunting territory and I can only hunt with people who are committed to doing it with honor/expressing love and gratitude for the animal, but if I can get set up with hunting here then I can get my own game, add it to my someday deep freezer, and not have to experience rapid protein loss if I’m poor again
Iron and B-vitamin deficiency is my most common ailment in these most recent years. The stomach acid from bulimia just really truly wrecks the inside of your mouth. Steak helps with the iron and it’s like a very low-energy needed meal for me but there’s other ways to fix my iron and other deficiencies.
My plushcare doctor referred me to getting my labs done like, last year, but I was like “who in the world has time and money to do that”, so I have never had my labs done. I get blood tests when I have a really excruciating endo pain ER visit but I have managed to stay out of the ER for months and I’d like to stay out of it for years, I hate hospitals lol (is your fam okay, btw?)
Anyway, that’s three messages so I will cease to add new messages and paste these in the blog instead, but the TL:DR; is just that my country cowboy fam wants to take care of me and I want to take care of them back (by selling their beef, I think? I’m brainstorming other forms of mutual aid for my fam that relies on agriculture to survive; things change so rapidly in this country that we’re pretty much living year to year).
The gun laws in the midwest seem like its going to be tough to bring out a hunting rifle, so I’m going to ask my cousins to teach me how to hunt with a crossbow or a bow and arrow (they’re excellent and generous hunters and I want to team up with them anyway to get hides for my leabthercrafting).
My cousins are like rodeo/calf-roping champs and they taught me the basis of lassoing/calf roping but I want to get better at it (I want to be able to do horseback archery hunting after the supply chain collapses). I really gotta start writing down the costs and steps associated with being able to hunt what I need for my own well-being / for my family because its what gives us dignity and keeps us safe
ANYWAY thanks again for your patience and sorry for the ramble. This’ll go in the blog under something like “Hunting and Personal Sovereignty” or somethin idk haha . I am tryna unmask and let my inner accent and stuff come out again but I spent so long fighting it that now unmasking is a challenge haha. The thing cowboys and Indians all have in common is that we like really aggressively prefer to hunt and provide in the traditional ways, with honor, and it can be tough to explain that (the divide in this country isn’t red vs blue, I feel like it’s urban vs rural but Quien Sabe/Who knows)
Tomorrow we can definitely talk about the Hunting and Ranching stuff but I am going to try to commute to the gym at least daily if I can cause its like the only place I don’t experience depression and anxiety haha. Taking myself there is a form of self care. If we ever get more members who rely on the old ways (hunting, fishing, and growing) to provide for their family or themselves I wanna link up with them asap. Especially country people of color
Second Page of Convo with Kaloomte Dixon
Screenshots from convo with Kaloomte, put these in categories later
Journaling about: Convos with kaloomte
When you're the type of chaos writer that I am, the first step always has to be create, create, create -- like, the only job of the first draft is to exist -- and THEN create categories. If I put the boxes ahead of the work it always ends up stifling me in a stressful way, as much as I fraking LOVE containers and decorative Boxes
^ it's really interesting. This song just came on and I felt a twinge of stress because I kinda traumatized Nikko with indigenous religious foundations and I associated it with that I *cannottttt* get into the habit of letting conventionally attractive, religious white men override my identity or I'll lose my mind. Colonizer sickness has wrekt so many loved ones who have drifted in and out of my ca'ah* --- *ca'ah is a Maya word for community. Language revitalization happens on word at a time https://open.spotify.com/track/6feGqwWQQtN7D6OABY7L2R?si=3f72efb3a8b04823 <- link to the song for easy access. Writing this out gave me the urge to dump it in the inbox of Suku'un-il Ba'ah* --
*Suku'un : brother "-il" prefix makes it "my brother" "ba'ah" is the eldest and usually the eldest born with masc-like attributes (I think Black american communities might use terms like "stud" for queer woman mascs; I use "Yaax Che" for this meaning until Ancestors want me to stop doing that/learn a new word
--
Cowboy's-n-Indians trope -- post your joke here about your western ass roots (it goes something like : "picture a very literary cowboys-n-Indians western pulp novel where I am somehow both the Cowboy and the Indian simultaenously") <- workshop that joke
