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من النهر إلى البحر princess, popstar, philosopher, & pervert

[mokkkki]

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[mokkkki]

writing on a 15 hour road trip … grind never stops

[emocheremuha]

Inspirated by @mokkkki ao3 work

https://archiveofourown.org/works/58326838/chapters/148545967

[mokkkki]

i think roman roy and ruben pallister would get along swimmingly

[mokkkki]

hi zero hour nation life is really crazy right now so please bear with me !! it might not be next week , but we will be back to our regularly scheduled program soon <3 thanks for your patience !!

[mokkkki]

yeah its like he was giving niall a chance to say it was him same when he questioned him and alby waiting for niall to admit he gay but niall passed up those opportinities to throw other ppl in ruben way

all ruben want is truth from his niall

YOU’RE SO RIGHT !!!! it seems like bait …

[mokkkki]

am i the only one that doesn’t buy that ruben “couldn’t place” the smell on the dressing gown after niall wore it? ruben always inhales so deeply whenever he and niall hug or are generally in close proximity and has been doing so since they were kids, he for sure knows what niall smells like so for him to not recognize his smell on the dressing gown is very suspicious to me…

[mokkkki]

i’m so intensely curious about what would have unfolded between niall and ruben had niall not passed out … that look on ruben’s face is INSANE

[mokkkki]

it’s undeniable that niall deciding that he wanted the kid was about outperforming ruben in terms of masculinity and virility, BUT i also think that there’s a case to be made that this was actually an olive branch niall was offering to ruben .. the brothers consider themselves one and the same. even if niall has significant reservations about becoming a father, ruben doesn’t — and that’s enough for him to accept the idea. they have the same body, so for niall to be a father is for ruben to be a father. aka, he will have ruben’s child for him.

[mokkkki]

Yoo, not to pester but like is the update still coming this weekend 😅💔

WAIT WOULD YOU BELIEVE I COMPLETELY FORGOT 😭 curse me and my sieve brain. assuming you’re talking about zero hour, if so, I think i might skip this weeks update smh. BUT i will make it up to you guys i promise <3

[shamrockthenerd]

They at least get to be happy in one universe

https://archiveofourown.org/works/58326838?view_full_work=true

@mokkkki

[mokkkki]

“does little soft-cock niall kennedy not have it in him to hit a man?” followed very shortly after by “what, you’re not man enough to kiss another bloke?” ruben intertwines violence and sex automatically, they are so casually conflated to him, not to even mention how these two quotes relate to his wider feelings of masculinity and queerness

[medievalsleaze]

when the abusive incestuous brotherly love show is intense as fuck and weird as fuck

[mokkkki]

i recommended half man to everybody i know but i lowkey wish i could take it back , i don't want to inflict the pain and stress of this show onto my loved ones. every time i think about that hospital scene aka buzziest argument in the world my heart constricts and i cant breathe ... i love it so much , it hurts so good , but there is CRACK COCAINE in this show that MAKES YOU HAVE NIGHTMARES.

[mokkkki]

"this is what you've always wanted from me?" richard gadd you might as well have fucking shot me in the head

[annabelle--cane]

stop. analyse that text through the lens of its author's intentions and original historical context. okay now take the author out back and kill them dead and analyse that text as though it were published by your mutual yesterday and is in direct conversation with the contemporary discourse that's most relevant to your life. okay now pick your favorite angle of interpretation and come up with the strongest possible argument against it. now imagine that the text is your best friend and that it means you well and that you naturally give it every benefit of the doubt because you're on its side and you want the best for it. now imagine that the text wants you dead and it'll eat you if you don't eat it first. now pretend that you found this text locked away in a cave with no evidence of when or where it came from and you have to divine its meaning solely through its internal coherence and nothing else. okay now address the elephant in the room aspect of the text you've been ignoring because you find it boring or confusing or uncomfortable and become the number one expert on it. now spend forty minutes assigning all the characters dnd classes with at least three sentences of reasoning each. okay now do the cha cha slide.

[mokkkki]

thinking about how ruben dominates niall’s explorations of his sexuality whether it is with a man or a woman — he organized niall’s loss of virginity with a woman, and by inviting alby to play spin the bottle, oversaw niall’s realization that he was gay. even when he isn’t engaging in sexual activity, ruben’s mark is there, as when they shared a bed, niall came in his boxers / had a wet dream. whether he’s with a man or a woman or nobody at all, ruben remains the starting point of his sexuality — the origin.