Mommy's Journal

The research and writings of a Mommy trying to spoil her Puppy. 31F. Sapphic. Stone Top. Mommy to @toyjoypetal. Minors DNI.

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Mommy's Journal: Overview

Introduction

I am unsure of how to start this so I will start with the facts.

Fact #1: I have a Puppy. (@toyjoypetal)

Fact #2: I am this Puppy’s Mommy. 

She is without a doubt the cutest, sweetest, most loveable critter that I have ever seen and I would do anything to make her happy. I suppose that is the third and most important fact of all.

Fact #3: I love my Puppy and want to make her as happy as possible.

This brings me to the purpose of this journal: to document my attempts to make my Puppy the happiest girl in the entire world as well as brainstorm and find ideas from other handlers and caregivers. 

I thankfully have a sizable start on the front of “how to make Puppy happy”. I have had her for over two years now and have gotten pretty good at caring for her (if I may say so myself). Puppy likes sweet things. Puppy likes quiet. Puppy likes cartoons and Youtube videos in the morning. Puppy really likes crispy rice. Puppy loves Mommy. I can, and have, used these and hundreds of other data points to try to outline exactly what makes Puppy happy but it feels like a fool's errand - like trying to draw the sun by following the rays. So I have decided to use science and investigate the girl herself - Puppy.

Puppyology

There is no existing science that can be used to care for my Puppy because she is very, very silly. So silly that she seemingly cannot be studied. If I try to take her height, she is “as tall as Mommy” which I know is false as I look down at the top of her head. If I try to take her measurements, the numbers end up as some variation on “smol” or “beeeeeeg”. No amount of known science can break through how silly my girl is. So I have had to invent a newer, siller science: Puppyology.

The stated goal of this journal is to make Puppy happy and so I shall return to the core components which can either define or influence Puppy happiness. The base elements of Puppy joy are: Love, Treats, Attention, Breeding, Gentleness, and Mommy’s Happiness. To best care for her I must balance and maximize each of these. Every project or series of experiments must begin from these frameworks.

I will update with further entries as I develop the general principles of Puppyology.

Types of Journal Entries

Research Notes - These will be general notes recording my progress and Puppy’s. They will also be less structured than other entries in their compositional style but will hopefully depict the lived experience of Puppy and me best.

Data Posts - Just raw data recorded within a week on my Puppy. Ex: Number of Mommy-Puppy dates, Puppy Part Check-ins, data from breedings, number of accidents, warming notes (size/duration), etc. 

Analytical Posts - Breaking down trends in Puppy’s behavior and data. Each analytical post will process a specific data post and tie the numbers into the greater story of Puppy and Mommy. 

Blog - No research framing, just Mommy as a person talking about what she is feeling. Likely more introspection and talking about the Mommy half of Mommy-Puppy’s life. 

[toyjoypetal]

Beach day with mommy 🤍🪁🐠

[angelgxo]

In the mood to run her a bath, light some candles, some bubbles, some music.

Helping her undress, but my eyes staying on her pretty face.

Holding my hand out to help her step in, before kissing her knuckles as she sits in the warm water.

I’d leave her as she relaxes. To go and set the room up, just how she likes it. Blankets, fluffy pillows, plenty of candles and ambient lighting.

Her bottle filled with water, all ready on the bedside table for her.

Fresh pyjamas laid out on the bed for her.

When she’s done with her bath, I’d have fluffy towel ready for her to dry off with. Then I’d help her moisturize before getting her dressed.

In between all this, I’d be giving her soft kisses to her cheek, nose and forehead.

Then I’d pull back the duvet for her, then follow in next to her.

She’d lay against my chest, listening to the way my heart rate speeds up when she’s near.

My hand would slide under her top, sliding up and down her spine comfortingly, until her breaths even out against me.

Goodnight baby girl.

[kinkedbycalliope]

mama✨

[jisuto]

[sapphicpisceslover]

I want her in the softest way possible. I want to take her out, hold doors open for her, remember the little things she likes and hold her as she tells me about her day. I want to kiss her forehead when she's tired and overthinking, telling her that everything will be okay and just make her feel cared for in every way.

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Summer 2026: Week One

Recap

We had a big weekend! It's super fun nesting with my Puppy and settling into our new home. We took a break from being productive and went thrifting on Sunday and to the museum on Monday. Mommy got some new denim shorts and cute tank tops. Puppy got a very soft sleep shirt and a little princess top. The museum was super fun but small and there weren't any dinosaurs. I did find some dinosaurs a couple hours drive away. (I want to take a road trip soon.)

The only other news is that I really want a Puppy enclosure or a crib for my little one in our room. It would be so cozy and I bet she'd be so cute curled up in here.

Behaviour

Puppy continues to score perfect scores on all of her daily reports for how cute she is, how happy she makes me, and how well behaved she is. She makes her Mommy so proud.

I don't want to share all of them since it's a bit too personal and not technically Puppyology but I keep track of one remarkable thing she does every day and there were some really good ones this week. ^^

Check-Ins

Puppy has been incredibly receptive to Mommy checking in on her Puppy parts. The checks are short and routine, usually over in 15-20 seconds with a few short recitations from Puppy.

Results are in line with what I would've expected, Puppy is generally not immediately ready for playtime or breeding when the check-ins begin but she does get much warmer and wetter as Mommy's fingers inspect and spread her.

However... every time I did randomly check-in on Puppy, if she was already even slightly wet, then she would become increasingly whiny until we had an immediate playtime. This even occurred during a 2:30am check-in when she was asleep to begin. At some point I will have to learn how to say no to her but I am only human. I want to give her everything she asks for.

[wintertraumaposting]

Isn't it nice when you don't have to think, cutie? When you can just sink into a fuzzy, quiet headspace. When your mind and body feels safe enough with someone there to look after you that you can let all of the complicated things go. When those racing thoughts calm down, and you finally feel at peace.

No need for a sweet little thing like you to worry or stress, not when your head is in my lap, and I'm softly speaking. It's not even important that you understand what I'm saying. I don't expect anything from you. You can just be.

Comfy, cozy, safe, and adored. You're safe right now. Despite everything else going on, you're safe in this moment.

[mommysjournal]

My Puppy is so smart and did so many puzzles at the science museum today, even though she said she didn't "have her learning cap on".

[bellabbeee]

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I love you ☺️🤍

I love you too, Puppy 🤍🫳🐾

[fragile-things-archive]

did you sleep well tonight? (I love you) we should do this one day (I love you) did you eat? (I love you) I brought you this because it's your favorite (I love you) have you taken your vitamins? (I love you) I made this for you (I love you) did you get home safe? (I love you) I made you some tea (I love you) how's the project that you're working on? (I love you) don't forget your umbrella (I love you) take my scarf (I love you) I'll wait with you (I love you) I'll wait for you (I love you) (I love you) (I love you)

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Research Goals Summer 2026: Restorative Regression

My Puppy acts like a Puppy. She wags her tail, she barks, she nuzzles into Mommy’s chest while she falls asleep, and too many more beautiful things to list. But she also sometimes acts like a person, which seems quite odd for a creature so obviously Pup. It would appear that at some point she was mistakenly taught many basic human behaviors. Some of these have convenient benefits, such as how to play on her Switch and how to press the big, red “Extra Butter” button at the movies, but others seem to serve little practical purpose in a Puppy.

I have compiled a list of what I would consider to be unnecessary skills and abilities that I need to help Puppy forget in order for her to best use her mental efforts in places more suited for a Puppy such as napping, playing, and training. These skills are as follows: Potty-training, getting dressed and undressed, and bathing herself. I am sure I will find more as my research furthers. 

Bathing

I will begin with the easiest one. Puppy likes when Mommy gives her baths and showers, especially in our new cozy bath. She has performed exceptionally well at basic commands, often doing them without reminder or verbalization, such as lifting her leg and holding onto Mommy when I need to wash her puppy parts, or bending over so that Mommy can wash her tail. Current obstacles are virtually non-existent except for the occasional giggle at the “poo” in “shampoo”. I do not discourage this behaviour as her giggles bring me light beyond words. 

Getting Dressed

Another fantastic success! Puppy has taken to Mommy dressing her very well and has even stopped wiggling as much when putting on her undies or diapers. Most of the obstacles with getting dressed actually come from the clothes themself. I need to find a way to balance putting her in pretty overalls and cozy cute clothes that are not overly restrictive in a way that would prevent me checking in on her puppy parts or changing her diaper while out and about. Skirts and dresses would make these easier but I am very much enjoying putting her in what I call: “Teddy Bear outfits”. Solution unsure as of now but regression has been going swimmingly!

Potty-Training

This is the one where we have the least progress but the progress has been so healthy and exciting. Puppy still thinks of the potty as the main place for going pee. I have been able to help her go in the shower when Mommy isn’t looking but that was the biggest breakthrough for a long time. However, last night (05/25/26 @8:50pm) Puppy was able to pee in her diaper! I couldn’t be in the room and she had to be sitting on the toilet but I was so proud! It felt so good to wipe her clean and change her into a fresh diaper for our movie night. 

I have a few ideas on how to make this more easy.

Follow The Bubbles

Humans release a number of hormones and chemicals into their brain when they achieve heightened sexual states. However, when I tried to document the changes in Puppy’s hormonal levels over the course of a breeding session, I noticed that where these hormones should have been were instead bubbles. Her silly, little brain was being lifted up by bubbles as she began her usual cumming and whining. I couldn’t believe my eyes! But the reason I mention it here is that suddenly Puppy got very shy and covered her puppy parts, whimpering out a small, “Mommy, it'll be messy”. I now believe that when Puppy follows those bubbles far enough she will be able to pee even outside of the bathroom. 

My new experiment is to keep Puppy’s brain as full of bubbles as possible as often as possible. Her usual puppy part check-ins are helpful for this, but I have also introduced a new training phrase into our routine check-ins, breedings, and playtimes. The hope is that Mommy can condition Puppy into releasing more bubbles into her brain by simply hearing this training phrase. “Cupcake. Cookie. Something sweet."

I will update this journal with future results.

Abstraction Training

To take a more direct approach, I have made a new training exercise with the goal of abstracting the idea of pottying on the toilet, and confusing Puppy into preferring her diapers. The training will take place over multiple sessions framed as playtime. The first will be to get her as bubbly and silly as possible with her vibrating toy before showing her under the top of the toilet. I do not think she will be able to figure out the internal mechanisms of the toilet at all. After a few sessions of this abstraction training, I am confident I can establish a new idea that “Puppies don't know how toilets work. Mommies have to flush for them.” 

I will update this journal on the success of abstraction training. 

Conclusion

My main goal for Summer 2026 is to help Puppy behave more in alignment with her natural state as a Pup. Rather than overwhelm her with new training and information, I will overly coddle, baby, and spoil her. She has already forgotten how to do many basic tasks as part of this “restorative regression” and I am optimistic it she will be even more dependant on her Mommy for basic things.