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Summer 2026: Week One

Recap

We had a big weekend! It's super fun nesting with my Puppy and settling into our new home. We took a break from being productive and went thrifting on Sunday and to the museum on Monday. Mommy got some new denim shorts and cute tank tops. Puppy got a very soft sleep shirt and a little princess top. The museum was super fun but small and there weren't any dinosaurs. I did find some dinosaurs a couple hours drive away. (I want to take a road trip soon.)

The only other news is that I really want a Puppy enclosure or a crib for my little one in our room. It would be so cozy and I bet she'd be so cute curled up in here.

Behaviour

Puppy continues to score perfect scores on all of her daily reports for how cute she is, how happy she makes me, and how well behaved she is. She makes her Mommy so proud.

I don't want to share all of them since it's a bit too personal and not technically Puppyology but I keep track of one remarkable thing she does every day and there were some really good ones this week. ^^

Check-Ins

Puppy has been incredibly receptive to Mommy checking in on her Puppy parts. The checks are short and routine, usually over in 15-20 seconds with a few short recitations from Puppy.

Results are in line with what I would've expected, Puppy is generally not immediately ready for playtime or breeding when the check-ins begin but she does get much warmer and wetter as Mommy's fingers inspect and spread her.

However... every time I did randomly check-in on Puppy, if she was already even slightly wet, then she would become increasingly whiny until we had an immediate playtime. This even occurred during a 2:30am check-in when she was asleep to begin. At some point I will have to learn how to say no to her but I am only human. I want to give her everything she asks for.

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Summer vibes in April

Since the middle of April, the weather has been stunning. Sunshine and happy faces almost everyday and days so hot that you already consider going to your local swimming pool (even though they usually open up in May). The first few weeks at University have been quite easy-going. Getting to know our new lecturers has been fun and it seems like we don’t even write exams this semester but do presentations and essays instead - which is kind of crazy and kind of cool at the same time. I’m also having a few days off every now and then and I need to find a way to be more productive and make use of these days. Any advice?

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Research Goals Summer 2026: Restorative Regression

My Puppy acts like a Puppy. She wags her tail, she barks, she nuzzles into Mommy’s chest while she falls asleep, and too many more beautiful things to list. But she also sometimes acts like a person, which seems quite odd for a creature so obviously Pup. It would appear that at some point she was mistakenly taught many basic human behaviors. Some of these have convenient benefits, such as how to play on her Switch and how to press the big, red “Extra Butter” button at the movies, but others seem to serve little practical purpose in a Puppy.

I have compiled a list of what I would consider to be unnecessary skills and abilities that I need to help Puppy forget in order for her to best use her mental efforts in places more suited for a Puppy such as napping, playing, and training. These skills are as follows: Potty-training, getting dressed and undressed, and bathing herself. I am sure I will find more as my research furthers. 

Bathing

I will begin with the easiest one. Puppy likes when Mommy gives her baths and showers, especially in our new cozy bath. She has performed exceptionally well at basic commands, often doing them without reminder or verbalization, such as lifting her leg and holding onto Mommy when I need to wash her puppy parts, or bending over so that Mommy can wash her tail. Current obstacles are virtually non-existent except for the occasional giggle at the “poo” in “shampoo”. I do not discourage this behaviour as her giggles bring me light beyond words. 

Getting Dressed

Another fantastic success! Puppy has taken to Mommy dressing her very well and has even stopped wiggling as much when putting on her undies or diapers. Most of the obstacles with getting dressed actually come from the clothes themself. I need to find a way to balance putting her in pretty overalls and cozy cute clothes that are not overly restrictive in a way that would prevent me checking in on her puppy parts or changing her diaper while out and about. Skirts and dresses would make these easier but I am very much enjoying putting her in what I call: “Teddy Bear outfits”. Solution unsure as of now but regression has been going swimmingly!

Potty-Training

This is the one where we have the least progress but the progress has been so healthy and exciting. Puppy still thinks of the potty as the main place for going pee. I have been able to help her go in the shower when Mommy isn’t looking but that was the biggest breakthrough for a long time. However, last night (05/25/26 @8:50pm) Puppy was able to pee in her diaper! I couldn’t be in the room and she had to be sitting on the toilet but I was so proud! It felt so good to wipe her clean and change her into a fresh diaper for our movie night. 

I have a few ideas on how to make this more easy.

Follow The Bubbles

Humans release a number of hormones and chemicals into their brain when they achieve heightened sexual states. However, when I tried to document the changes in Puppy’s hormonal levels over the course of a breeding session, I noticed that where these hormones should have been were instead bubbles. Her silly, little brain was being lifted up by bubbles as she began her usual cumming and whining. I couldn’t believe my eyes! But the reason I mention it here is that suddenly Puppy got very shy and covered her puppy parts, whimpering out a small, “Mommy, it'll be messy”. I now believe that when Puppy follows those bubbles far enough she will be able to pee even outside of the bathroom. 

My new experiment is to keep Puppy’s brain as full of bubbles as possible as often as possible. Her usual puppy part check-ins are helpful for this, but I have also introduced a new training phrase into our routine check-ins, breedings, and playtimes. The hope is that Mommy can condition Puppy into releasing more bubbles into her brain by simply hearing this training phrase. “Cupcake. Cookie. Something sweet."

I will update this journal with future results.

Abstraction Training

To take a more direct approach, I have made a new training exercise with the goal of abstracting the idea of pottying on the toilet, and confusing Puppy into preferring her diapers. The training will take place over multiple sessions framed as playtime. The first will be to get her as bubbly and silly as possible with her vibrating toy before showing her under the top of the toilet. I do not think she will be able to figure out the internal mechanisms of the toilet at all. After a few sessions of this abstraction training, I am confident I can establish a new idea that “Puppies don't know how toilets work. Mommies have to flush for them.” 

I will update this journal on the success of abstraction training. 

Conclusion

My main goal for Summer 2026 is to help Puppy behave more in alignment with her natural state as a Pup. Rather than overwhelm her with new training and information, I will overly coddle, baby, and spoil her. She has already forgotten how to do many basic tasks as part of this “restorative regression” and I am optimistic it she will be even more dependant on her Mommy for basic things. 

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Mommy's Journal: Overview

Introduction

I am unsure of how to start this so I will start with the facts.

Fact #1: I have a Puppy. (@toyjoypetal)

Fact #2: I am this Puppy’s Mommy. 

She is without a doubt the cutest, sweetest, most loveable critter that I have ever seen and I would do anything to make her happy. I suppose that is the third and most important fact of all.

Fact #3: I love my Puppy and want to make her as happy as possible.

This brings me to the purpose of this journal: to document my attempts to make my Puppy the happiest girl in the entire world as well as brainstorm and find ideas from other handlers and caregivers. 

I thankfully have a sizable start on the front of “how to make Puppy happy”. I have had her for over two years now and have gotten pretty good at caring for her (if I may say so myself). Puppy likes sweet things. Puppy likes quiet. Puppy likes cartoons and Youtube videos in the morning. Puppy really likes crispy rice. Puppy loves Mommy. I can, and have, used these and hundreds of other data points to try to outline exactly what makes Puppy happy but it feels like a fool's errand - like trying to draw the sun by following the rays. So I have decided to use science and investigate the girl herself - Puppy.

Puppyology

There is no existing science that can be used to care for my Puppy because she is very, very silly. So silly that she seemingly cannot be studied. If I try to take her height, she is “as tall as Mommy” which I know is false as I look down at the top of her head. If I try to take her measurements, the numbers end up as some variation on “smol” or “beeeeeeg”. No amount of known science can break through how silly my girl is. So I have had to invent a newer, siller science: Puppyology.

The stated goal of this journal is to make Puppy happy and so I shall return to the core components which can either define or influence Puppy happiness. The base elements of Puppy joy are: Love, Treats, Attention, Breeding, Gentleness, and Mommy’s Happiness. To best care for her I must balance and maximize each of these. Every project or series of experiments must begin from these frameworks.

I will update with further entries as I develop the general principles of Puppyology.

Types of Journal Entries

Research Notes - These will be general notes recording my progress and Puppy’s. They will also be less structured than other entries in their compositional style but will hopefully depict the lived experience of Puppy and me best.

Data Posts - Just raw data recorded within a week on my Puppy. Ex: Number of Mommy-Puppy dates, Puppy Part Check-ins, data from breedings, number of accidents, warming notes (size/duration), etc. 

Analytical Posts - Breaking down trends in Puppy’s behavior and data. Each analytical post will process a specific data post and tie the numbers into the greater story of Puppy and Mommy. 

Blog - No research framing, just Mommy as a person talking about what she is feeling. Likely more introspection and talking about the Mommy half of Mommy-Puppy’s life. 

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Late List of Realization:

This past months of 2022 put me into situations which tested my patience and my humanity. As of this writing, here are some of my list of Realizations: 1. There are some people whom I thought valued me and treated me like a precious one, but yeah - just like how she treated me 5 years ago comes back to me again; an option, not the best, quick breather. Pero kapag hindi na kailangan, balik nanaman sa normal. Worst, kapag may nagawa ka, itatrato ka na ikaw ang pinaka-inconsiderate at masamang tao. That was kinda scary though.

So my realization here is, to just stop doing effort to someone who don't value you much. There is someone out there longing for you and much needed you vs. the bad treatment you received.

2. I am seeking for greater heights but someone pulls you down. Sad isn't it? - I wanted to progress, but there's someone or moment that is hindering me.

What did I realized? Just focus on your goals and stop contemplating.

3. I want peace. Just Peace - But I can't seem to understand why someone is disturbing my spaces.

So I realized that in order to obtain the peace is to shut down to everyone and just spend the my small wins with the ones who are happy of my progress.

We cannot be everyone's favourite but, at least you chose to love yourself.

[cacaitos]

aneco oblangata ▪  caia ramalho

[heyemjey]

"Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you?"

-Welcome to My Life

This is my second journal to everyone who feel like their plan isn't working.

WE. ALL. HAVE. A DREAM. I, also, have many dreams inside my head and I really wanted to turn my dreams into reality. But what does it take to get the dream we want?

There isn't exactly have the steps to make it, you will eventually know it in yourself because what works for me will never work on you, and in other way around, what's best for you isn't the best for me.

GUYS. TO TELL YOU HONESTLY, I HAVE LIST OF PLANS BEFORE I CHASE MY DREAMS, AND WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME RIGHT NOW ISN'T MY PLAN.

Let's begin with my CAREER. Before, I planned myself to work in my dream company. I really pursued myself to work in that company, but that didn't happen. Did I give up? No, because, I believe that everything happens for a reason. Right now, I am working in a better media company.

"Pagpasok ko sa company na ito, akala ko end game na, pero hindi, dito pa pala nagumpisa ang lahat ng mga hindi ko inakala."

I realized that pursuing your dream is a lifetime effort. And believe me, my success doesn't define in how I was lucky to be hired in this company because everyday, I'm still battling my own challenge.

Second was my choice to study again. Although I planned to take CTP when I was studying but I didn't saw it coming that I need to consider the changes that happened in my life- the deadlines in work, the time I have to give with my family, friends and most especially myself. I WAS EAGERLY FOCUSING ON MANY DREAMS AND NOT NOTICING THAT I AM LOOSING MYSELF IN THE PROCESS.

"Dumating ako sa punto na, sige, bahala ka na Lord, kung papasa ako okay lang, khng hindi, okay lang din. Shet! Kung tutuusin, dapat pagsisihan ko to dahil pinasok ko to, pero dahil nandito na ko, kailangan kong ituloy ito dahil may rason sa kabila ng lahat, may rason kaya ko to pinasok and thank you still God, I made it!"

Third. I really planned to travel and go to the places I want. But, #ADULTING101 is real, bills are coming, fees are waving at me. Sometimes, I feel so bad about it, but, when I saw my mama and papa works really hard for me and Ate, suddenly, it brings me to another realization that, I really need to prioritize them than prioritizing my needs. Or if I wanted to treat myself for a while, I will try my best to do it in a moderate way.

"Nakatulong na ako, napasaya ko pa sarili ko."

Lastly was my decision to love the person I am with right now. Nobody knows how hard it is to truly love and let go. At my early 20's, I love someone who never loved me before. And I will never regret for the love I give, but instead, I take that as an opportunity to improve myself. And here I am, loving the person who at first, judged by other people but, I started not minding other's opinion because, I know to myself the reason and purpose he is to my life.

I've known him long time ago, but didn't got the chance to love him because I am deeply in love with other before.

Point is-- I didn't plan to love him, it just happened. But I prayed for it. I prayed to God that if he's the one, then I will never miss the chance of knowing him for a lifetime, so for once in my life, I choose what's the best for me, in long term. If I easily give up on him, I will never be this happy as I am right now.

We cannot interfere what God has planned for us, but we can do something about it and pray for it, and do something good to everyone and interact with them, deal with them because, when the REAL PROBLEM HIT YOU, IT'S YOUR CHOICE IF THAT WILL MAKE. YOU. OR BREAK. YOU.

And my rejected Plans was God's way to redirect me to him, to trust in his Plans rather than listening to other's opinion.

Thank you for always loving me in many ways, for reminding me that I am beloved and enough, God. Now, whatever problems I might encounter, I will never stop of fighthing for life. Because if you're with me, then who can be against me?

To those who are still finding their way out, be a sunflower who shines and stands out long time after everyone blooms. 💛🌻

Photo courtesy to the source below

Sunflowers

Small or large, sunflowers shine in any arrangement! In a vase on their own, or mixed with a filler, sunflowers are a favorite focal flower.

[heyemjey]

What happened after two years of being an adult?

I can definitely say that, I was overwhelmed with the transitions and adjustments I had and at the same time pressured. I must admit, that the best years in College was gone and everyone must accept that everything will be over-- either good or bad.

"Nothing's permanent in this world except change."

I felt sad because I have somme of the people whom I've known for years and it seems that after we enter the adulthood, everything has changed. I thought we could be the same person, but, it's not your season. I am slowly learning to accept the reality.

I am happy at the same time. I was able to experience learning while working. There were many times that I really wanted go give up, but still, Im here trying to fight against all odds, meeting deadlines, doing the best that I can. After two years, I learned to understand others as well as myself mostly when I felt so bad after I disappoint someone.

After two years, I met someone whom I can love and feel the same love too. He does take care of me and he make me happy when I'm sad. And yes, since it's my first time to trust someone, I admit it's hard to live in reality because your expectations are not the same as reality. Well I guess that's just the way to learn to fight battles.

I also experienced meeting new and old people. Midnight memories indeed. Im so happy that I was able to keep some of my friends before and trying to open up with other person after college. Made fight with someone, freak out, hated but most especially,I learned to forgive those people who consistently hurt me.

Right now I feel like Im still working on my masterpiece. It feels like progress are not fast and neither so slow. I also enjoyed the company of my parents and that is what I really love. Despite of having detachments, I'm still blessed. I am beloved. My faith was once stopped but right now, I'm trying to correct the wrong choices I had so that I can live happily.

I must say that, to those who are experiencing this kind of adjustments, it's okay not to be okay sometimes.

WHY? Because your faith and resiliency will be tested during those times that you are doubtful.

You will know who will be there for you in Happiness and in sadness.

You will be able to discover yourself and your plans more.

Let's wait for our perfect moment. Because everything has a good timing. 😊

I just hope and prayed that you also find yourself in darkness and in doubt. We can do this!