Life. Soul Journey. ME

This is a Dlog (Diary + Blog)... Time to get inside my head. 

[monkeychunky]

Soul Drowning

[monkeychunky]

The Devil’s Song

Dear God,

When I drink

The devil wants to dance

He sings;

He plays;

And he taunts in my head

Open your heavenly gates

Before, I dance to this devils song

The drum beats bang

And my heart bleeds black

The devils song,

Plays so rhythmically

God please help me!

Please sing to me, your heavenly song

This song he’s playing

Feels like hell sent

And my body

My soul

Can’t take another breath

So many tears is leading me to my death

The bangs of his song is banging on my chest

But this devils song keeps leaving me in regret

The regret

The regret

The regret

They say move on from the past

But the devil song never lets me forget

Part: 2

Jesus,

I cry for you

Open your heavenly gates

And let me lean on you

My body hurts

My soul aches

This devil song, is slowly in repeat

My drunken soul is deep in the pool

And when I swim in your love

He pulls me down

And I’m crowded with his fools

The foolery of lust and love

The foolery of hurting people that I love

They see pain and suffering in me

BUT dear GOD

Silence them drugs

B/c those rhythmically bangs

Are music to me

To me, it sings so peacefully

But what it’s really doing to my soul

Is tormenting me, mentally

Part3:

Lord,

The drums are silent

And I have time to breath

The devil's song

Has no time for me

I grieved and I prayed

And lord

You take the pain away from me

You help me grow spiritually

The devil song

Now it’s quiet to me

Your love has shine light on me

And as people change

You never changed up on me

You never have forsaken me

And that devil song

Was the death of me

I’m healed b/c you open your heavenly gates

My sober soul

Has your angels watching over me

I thank you God

For this spiritual journey

B/c you made a song for me

🙏🏾 Amen..

[monkeychunky]

Boy Bye!!

Your issues

Aren’t mine

Save me the heartache

Let me go

You’re on mind

And I despise it

No rescue

There’s no you

And I’m stupid of writing this.

So stupid

So many blessings

But those blessings aren’t a part of you

How hard is it to know

Those blessings aren’t you

I need to breathe

I need to think

I need to focus

And but

You aren’t that one

You I can’t breathe with

You I can’t sing with

You I can’t

I can’t bear the trouble of you

Get out and stay out