Being single, Is it a mistake ?
Long long day, and years.
There’s a saying that humans are intelligent, until they feel love.These years of living, I manage to turn tables, survived, have a safe seats because I decided not to love. Even though I do like some men that pique my interest, somehow, I just like them, without any further feelings or whatever it is. Therefore, I lost my interest to get married. I mean what is the point if I don’t actually fell in love
People who know this, even my family said I am wrong, crazy, mentally ill, desperate of being single for years. Even on arguments, they use these kinds of lines to knock me out. It makes me sad, found it funny and even cringe. I mean, being single doesn’t mean a miserable thing anyway.
I have these questions while liking countless man in these years, which might be a barrier for this “love” things
1. Is it really my dream, to get married ? My answer, is absolutely no. I am that person who live in mess. Eating rice directly from the fridge, meat from 3 days ago, reheat soups, buying 12 fried chicken to be eaten for the next next day. It might be gross, but that’s how my life is. From the days I live with $3 per day on my college days, until the present even though I have more earnings, it has become my habit to live like that. Somehow it has become comfortable
Simple way to say it : I am so busy myself to cook for anyone
2. Having a spouse, is it a patent guarantee my happiness in future ? The answer is tentative, but to look at my life right now, likely no. I mean, this is not the drama world where a guy only stick eyes on you for lifetime until you die. What is the marriage purpose if you end up splitting ways anyway. If you need a sex partner, one night stand is enough.
3. Does my life look easy to went through ? For me, I have troubles facing this. But in the end, I manage to survive by myself. So, why do I have to add more problems to my life.
My conclusion, is that my life just way to complicated to have a little dumb love story. Since I through my problems right now, why should I add one. I have people’s critique on me. But somehow, I could throw these questions on to those faces. If all answers are no, they why should you look for one. It is not like I know my future, I don’t know whether there will be a person who finally come who change my life. But for now, I can definitely survive my current state, alone. There should be no problem if you just accept the facts of being alone, instead of seeing the others doing. Be happy with yourself
