Fear...The Deadly Truth...
Whether it's dying or wondering about the future, fear plays the biggest part of our lives. We let it dominate every decision we make, or maybe it's just me?
I hate admitting it but fear scares me...if that even makes sense....
I try to convince myself that I'm not good enough to do something because someone else might be better and it's only a matter of time until they get the attention I so badly crave...regardless of what it is...
I allow it to creep into my deepest desires and ruin the essence of all things beautiful and fragile...why?
I want to be able to pursue anything I want in this world. I may take things for granted sometimes and I hate doing that. How do I change that?
How do I tell myself that if I keep letting fear take over my mind then I'm not even living a life anymore, instead I'm a shadow..eventually one that will disappear...
Take it one day at a time I guess?
Everything scares me. But that's ok. If fear wasn't part of my life then I wouldn't be who I am today.
I don't want to change who I am. I never want to say I gave up. I never want to be labeled a quitter. I want to persevere. I will persevere.
I won't say I can't or I shouldn't or I won't anymore.
Damn it, I'm just going to go for it....otherwise I'll end up feeling the way I do right now...disappointed and hurt...
Please feel free to remind me every now and then to follow my heart. Living in this big city isn't easy...it's do-able, yes! But not easy...
Rose *















