moody reveries

spilled thoughts

[moodyreveries]

I'm left alone, yet again

With only my thoughts to keep me company

While your arms are probably occupied by someone else

It's selfish, I know

For I couldn't fathom why your heart no longer aches

'Cause it no longer cares

And the hardest part,

It no longer yearns for me

[thoughtkick]

“It’s okay to be sad. You don’t owe anyone a performance of being okay when you feel like you’re falling apart.”

— Daniell Koepke

[quotefeeling]

“I know what it’s like to be afraid of your own mind.”

— Dr Reid’s/ Criminal Minds

[moodyreveries]

Replay

The image plays vividly in my mind

As I saw you sitting there on the shabby wooden bench

At the same old place by the lake where we used to hang out

I can feel your warmth despite the freezing cold outside

I can hear your soft giggles as your eyes formed little crescents

I could almost touch your face that has turned crimson due to the cold weather

But as I extended my arms to reach out

All I see is the white ceiling in my dim lit room

hands lightly shaking as my eyes started gathering tears

Making my vision a blur along with the image of you as it started to fade

[perfectquote]

“Sometimes you change your mind about a person. Or your feelings for them change, or they change, or, I don’t know, you just want to make a different decision. And that’s always okay. You don’t owe anyone anything.”

— Emily Henry, The Love That Split the World

[moodyreveries]

You hold on still,

even when you shouldn't be staying.

You continued hoping,

even after being failed for who knows how many times.

You keep on waiting,

despite knowing how foolish it was.

But,

Please don't hate yourself,

my dear.

You are just a kind soul

whom they took for granted.

[moodyreveries]

between winter and summer

Even if I don't utter a single word

I know you knew

With a single glance

A flower bloomed within me

And the leaves swayed with a delicate hum

I wouldn't dare word this moment

When my heart seemed to figure out

Just how to hold this stirring breeze

[moodyreveries]

Ephemeral

Meet me in my dreams,

hold me without fears.

Baby,

let's only live for tonight.

With the ticking of the clock,

as pairs of eyes lock,

whispers of comfort,

"It'll be alright".

That curved scar;

the shape of a half moon from afar.

How lovely;

every piece of everlasting art on your body.

I hold fast to this fleeting moment with you,

before I could persuade myself to face the truth.

I'll try hard to remember and feel,

the "us" who were once together here.

A dance, which felt like home,

before I wake at the break of dawn.

[moodyreveries]

one sided affection

All this time

I was trying to connect two mismatched points

Been giving meaning to something that doesn't have it

Pretending to be clueless

When I knew it all along

It is one tiring battle

More so because I was fighting alone

[moodyreveries]

Colors

Worry not, my love

For time shall bear witness

When you finally meet the people who will bring out the beauty of colors within you

- may your holidays be full of warmth :)

[moodyreveries]

Winter Nights

When the chilly wind started blowing,

As the sun bid his goodbye,

I became aware of your presence gradually fading;

So as the warmth which once sorrounded my small frame

- melancholic December

[moodyreveries]

When It Rains

The soft glow of the streetlight's reflection on a wet road.

People running fast,

looking for a shed -

a temporary place to stay.

Just until the rain stopped pouring.

- my memory of the rainy days

[moodyreveries]

bearing the scars of your broken past

your courage to move on has healed you

carefully weaving words into penetrating sound

resonating through the thin walls of your senses

it then carves abstract patterns on your pale skin

words hollow

resembling the look in your eyes

devoid of any sentiment

only the baffling feel of touch