So I recovered right? Like everything was going fine and sure sometimes I don’t like my weight but then I head to the doctors and she’s like you weight too much, you’re obese, you need to lose weight. Like listen, I have big tiddies, I just got proportionate body measurements, it took me years to do this. Proceeds to point out my stretch marks and say that I’ve gotten fat. Says that I was a normal weight at 9 years old, yeah BEFORE I hit puberty. I do sports, I have a lot of muscle. Because I wanted to gain some acutal fat I gain 20-25 pounds I feel good at this weight. But no. So now I wanna starve myself again. Like I just don’t wanna eat anymore I really don’t. My mom is getting up on me preventing me from eating too much. Like how do you want to push me back into being bulimic or anorexic?? How do you tell a person to their face that they’re fat when they are perfectly healthy?? It doesn’t make any sense. I’m gonna try to eat healthier, yes no problem. But my doctor had no right just to say that shit to my face like that. AND SHE KNOWS THAT I HAVE BIPOLAR DISORDER, A HISTORY OF DEPRESSION, HISTORY OF STARVING MYSELF AND MAKING MYSELF THROW UP, HISTORY OF SELF HARM. Why do you say such a thing like that? I may be stronger, but as a freaking doctor, know that your actions and words have consequences, that they can push someone back into relapsing, which I have been on the brink of for a few months now.
what a welcome back post 🙂
