Does anyone else remember playing music in Windows Media Player and just sitting there and watching this for like two hours
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Does anyone else remember playing music in Windows Media Player and just sitting there and watching this for like two hours
Look at the names of these stupid things, guys.
tag yourself im dance of the freaky circles
āWHOA look at the moonā
ā me literally every night no matter what phase the moon is in (via fleurdelavour)
So my therapist has been helping me get to grips with my ADHD, and also the concept that Iām not shit at being an adult, I just canāt do things the way everyone has always told me to do them. Like every single āorganize your lifeā books have always left me wanting to cry with frustration, and after I got hold of a copy of Organizing Solutions for People with ADHD by Susan Pinsky I realized that was because they primarily focus onĀ āaestheticā overĀ āfunctionā. And the function of most standard āorganize your life booksā is to āmake things look Show Home Perfectā.
So the standard āhide all your unsightly things by doing xyzā may look nice for the first week or so, but by the end of the week itāll look like a tornado made of pure inhuman frustration ripped through the house as I try to find the fucking advil.
To give you an example of the kind of hell Iāve been fumbling my way through the last 20 odd years: dishes will be washed and left in the drying wrack but never put away. Which means I canāt wash more dishes, which means dishes pile up, which means I canāt make food, which means I donāt eat, which means my CFS gets worse, which means I donāt have the energy to put the dishes away, and so on so forth until I have a meltdown, cry to ETD (who also likely has ADHD but has never had it confirmed) about how I canāt cope with life, and then we fix it for a while, but inevitably end up back at square one within about a week.
Pinskyās solution to this was āremove an obstacle between you and your goal, if that means taking all the doors off your kitchen cabinets to make things easier, so be it.ā
And lemme tell you, fucking revolutionary.
Laundry never ends up in the hamper??? why???? is it a closed hamper??? Remove the lid. Throw it out the window. Clothes are now miraculously finding their way into the hamper??? Rejoice????
Mail ends up spread out over every available flat surface? Put a sorting station right where your mail arrives. Put a shredder or ājunkā basket under it. Shred or dump the junk immediately. Realize you only actually have two real letters that need attention, feel less overwhelmed, pay your bills on time.
Like Iām not saying this book is miraculous, but it did help me realize that I was effectively torturing myself by trying to conform to certain ideals of āperfect house keepingā, and presenting a certain image rather than just allowing myself to live in my space as effectively as possible. And why? Why was I doing that? Cause people with different lives and capabilities are perceived as the norm? Fuck that. If this was a physical problem I wouldnāt be forcing myself to conform to an ableist standard, so why am I doing it with this?
My lived space will never look a certain way, and thatās okay. It will never look show home perfect, and thatās okay. It will likely always be cluttered and eclectic where nothing matches, and thatās okay. Sometimes I will have odd socks on because sorting them out required too much mental energy, and thatās okay. Actually fuck sorting socks, just buy all your socks in the same color. Problem solved. Boring sure, but also one less thing to do, which means more time to hyper fixate on fun things. Which really, what else is my life for if not to write screeds and screeds of vampire shit posts, I ask you.
The first rule of writing is hoard notebooks
The second rule of writing is we do not write in our notebook hoard
After the First World War, traumatized soldiers were often prescribed a course of reading.
An interesting read on bibliotherapy and the mental health effects of reading.
āFor all avid readers who have been self-medicating with great books their entire lives, it comes as no surprise that reading books can be good for your mental health and your relationships with others, but exactly why and how is now becoming clearer, thanks to new research on readingās effects on the brain. Since the discovery, in the mid-nineties, of āmirror neuronsāāneurons that fire in our brains both when we perform an action ourselves and when we see an action performed by someone elseāthe neuroscience of empathy has become clearer.ā
the scene from spongebob where the guy says āI was born with glass bones and paper skin. Every morning, I break my legs and every afternoon, I break my arms.ā was the pinnacle of television literally how did the writers of spongebob come up with that did they win a peabody award
Attempted @bramblescrossing tutorial for bangs (linked)!!! Still struggling with the color matching or blending. It looks great with hats but when I take it off you can definitely tell. So still a wip but so happy to have these, they are so cute!!! Thank you for the tutorial! š±š±š±
bramblescrossing: āIām never satisfied with how i design things so of course I reworked it all just because I have 2 new bangs pixel pattern
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someone requested rfa icons a few days back!!!Ā
i decided to upload the mcs first ^o^)/ (iāll be uploading the other rfa members next time)
feel free to use the icons if you want to!! :))Ā (i would also appreciate it if you credit me hihi <3)
Zuko is Autistic
Since I made a post a while ago claiming that Zuko was autistic, some people have been asking for the āproof.ā It seems fitting for me to provide said proof now, since itās autism acceptance month.Ā Iām going to try to be as comprehensive as I can, but if anyone has anything to add, feel free to do so! That said,Ā please do not come on here to tell me that Zuko is not autistic. This is my headcanon, and these are all the things about Zuko that I relate to as an autistic person.Ā
Alright, buckle up, kids, because Zuko is autistic af and Iām coming with all the receipts - and there are a lot of them.
Letās start from the beginning. A lot of austistic people develop tactics early on that help us to āpassā as allistic. When unsure of how to act in certain social situations, Zuko tends to mirror Azula. When he was younger, he was shown copying her sense of humor.Ā
He threw a rock at a baby turtle duck and laughed, saying that this is how Azula feeds turtle ducks. Because Azula thought it was funny, he assumed his mom would think it was funny, too. It wasnāt until Ursa asked, āWhy would you do that?ā that Zuko even considered it might not be universally funny.Ā
Zuko is shown laughing at things Azula thinks are funny more than once as a child. If Azula is not laughing directly at Zuko, he usually joins in on the laughter, even if he doesnāt understand the joke.Ā
Another time Zuko tried to copy Azula was after she demonstrated her skills to their grandfather, Fire Lord Azulon. Zuko immediately attempted to demonstrate his own skills, even though he was not prepared.Ā
Another thing that some autistic people struggle with is fine motor skills.Ā When Zuko tried to prove to his grandfather that he was as skilled as Azula, he tripped both times he attempted to fire bend. He has obviously improved since that moment, but it took him a long time to do that.Ā
āYou have yet to master your basics. Drill it again.ā
Zuko was at sea for three years with Iroh, seemingly doing nothing but training to get strong enough to capture the avatar.Ā After three years, he was still working on his basics, as Iroh points out. Other benders have been shown to become masters much quicker than Zuko. Katara became a waterbending master after one episode. Aang mastered all four elements in the span of about a year. By the age of 12, Toph was already an earthbending master, and she taught herself. Zuko has had to work a lot harder than them to properly control his fine motor skills. It isnāt until heās mastered his basics that he is able to progress as a bender.Ā
Since Ozai was obviously not the most supportive parent, Zuko may have had to figure out other ways to hide his autism.Ā
Another tactic he used was to practice social interactions before they happened. In this scene, he is shown giving a practice performance to a frog:
āThe thing is, I have a lot of fire bending experience, and Iām considered to be pretty good at it. Well, youāve seen me. You know, when I was attacking you?āĀ
Obviously, this practice session was necessary, because Zuko said plenty of things here that could have easily further escalated the situation.Ā
Even while using tools like mirroring or practicing social interaction, we all have moments where things might just feel a little off to allistic people.Ā
Empathy
A lot of autistic people feel empathy differently than allistic people. Some of us might not feel empathy, some might experience hyper empathy, and some might just have a hard time expressing empathy. I suspect Zuko is leaning towards low empathy, or has trouble expressing empathy.Ā
Exhibit A:Ā
āMy first girlfriend turned into the moon.ā
āThatās rough, buddy.āĀ
Notice how Zuko found it easier to talk about himself. He answered Sokkaās questions about Mai, and the conversation was moving along smoothly. It wasnāt until Sokka shared personal information about himself that Zuko seemed to be out of words.Ā
Exhibit B:
Toph just told Zuko that her parents gave her everything she ever asked for, but not the one thing she really wanted: their love.Ā
Zuko spends half of this conversation looking the other way. When he does look at her, notice his expression.Ā He probably has no idea why she is telling him this, so he doesnāt know how to respond. And on top of that, he was under the impression that they were supposed to be looking for Aang.Ā
A lot of autistic people have what you might call a one track mind (which Iāll get more into later). Itās hard for us to switch focus from one thing to another.Ā
Toph wanted to partner with Zuko because she wanted a life changing field trip, but Zuko just wanted to find Aang. He was able to have ālife changing field tripsā with Aang, Katara, and Sokka because he was actively focused on helping them with their specific problems. He had time to mentally prepare to help them. There was careful planning involved in each of those missions. He canāt help Toph in this moment, because her problem is conflicting with the problem they already have: finding Aang.
In both of the examples above, Zuko acknowledges the hardships that Sokka and Toph went through.Ā āThatās rough buddyā and āI know you had a rough childhood.āĀ This may be his way of trying to show compassion, even though it might come across as cold.Ā
Zuko takes things at face value
Catching things like sarcasm, body language, metaphors, and āreading between the linesā can be difficult for autistic people. This also gives us a reputation for being gullible, because it can be difficult to tell when someone is lying without being able to read the cues.Ā
The first and most obvious example of this is what Zukoās entire arc revolves around:Ā
Capturing the Avatar
Ozai had just fought his own son, a 13 year old, in an Agni Kai. He burned Zukoās face, intentionally causing permanent damage, and then banished him. All of this because Zuko spoke out of turn. At the time that Zuko was banished, the Avatar hadnāt been spotted for over 100 years.Ā
Knowing all of that, it seems likely to me that Ozai was being cruel and sarcastic when he said that Zuko could come back after capturing the Avatar. It would be like sayingĀ āwhen pigs fly,ā since at that point the Avatar was thought to have been gone forever.Ā
Iroh, of course, knows this. Thatās why in the beginning of the series, he kept reminding Zuko that the Avatar had not been seen in 100 years. He didnāt want Zuko to get his hopes up. Zuko, however, spends every minute for three years training to fight the avatar, and the second he sees something out of the ordinary, he automatically assumes that it is the the avatarās doing. Itās kind of a miracle that he was right.
Capturing the Avatar = restoring honor.Ā This is an example of both taking what his father told him as fact, and seeing things as black and white, which is also commonly associated with autism. Ozai told Zuko that capturing the avatar would restore his honor, so Zuko became obsessed with finding and capturing Aang. He truly believed that doing so was the only way to restore his honor and return home.Ā It took Zuko years to realize that he could restore his honor in a different way than what his father told him.Ā
He automatically believes Azula when she says he can come home
āFather regrets?ā
It had been three years since heād seen Azula, and he immediately took what she said at face value. He is excited to be going home, and he is frustrated with Iroh for being skeptical. When Iroh points out that he has never known Ozai to regret anything, Zuko saysĀ ādid you even listen to Azula?āĀ
Zuko takes what Azula says as fact, just like he has always done.Ā This is why, as a child, he had to constantly tell himself, āAzula always lies,ā because she probably had a habit of fooling Zuko. But now that it has been so long, without the constant reminder that Azula always lies, she takes advantage of the fact that Zuko trusts her so easily, and he falls for her lies once again.
He doesnāt catch on to Jinās body language
In the episodeĀ āThe Tales of Ba Sing Se,ā Zuko meets a girl named Jin. He immediately is threatened by her, because she keeps looking at him (eye contact is another thing that can be a challenge for autistic people). He assumes she knows they are fire nation. Despite the fact that he has seen her constantly smiling at him, he is completely surprised when he finds out she has a crush on him.
When Jin asks Zuko on a date, he shows up looking like this:
I think most people would catch on that this is Not A Good Look. But when Jin messes up his hair, Zuko gets frustrated. He says, āIt took my uncle ten minutes to do my hair!āĀ
So, Iroh told him this was a good hairstyle, and Zuko trusts Iroh, so he took his word as truth, and went along with it.Ā
Later on in the date, Jin tries to kiss Zuko. Just before their lips touch, he holds a coupon in front of her face, exclaiming that he brought her a gift.
Zuko likes Jin. He risked a lot to light up the fountain for her. We know he wanted to kiss her, because when she kissed him later, he let her, and he even kissed her back for a moment before he bolted. But in this moment here, he missed the signs that said she was about to kiss him (the hand holding, Jin closing her eyes, leaning forward, etc), so he moved the conversation along in a way that he felt was natural, by giving her a gift.Ā
He doesnāt realize that Sokka and Suki want time alone
Zuko runs into Suki when heās about to go into Sokkaās tent. Sheās clearly embarrassed, but Zuko doesnāt catch on.
āSorry, do you need to talk to Sokka, too?ā
Suki says no, so Zuko enters Sokkaās tent, to find Sokka like this:
There are roses everywhere, candles are lit, Sokkaās hair is down, heās posing. Sokka was waiting for Suki to arrive, not Zuko.Ā
But Zuko doesnāt catch on to that, either, so he sits right down and asks Sokka for advice, totally oblivious to what was supposed to be going down.Ā
He canāt explain what isĀ āoffā about Azula
A lot of autistic people have trouble recognizing patterns. Zuko has known Azula his whole life. He knows what her hair usually looks like. He knows what her makeup usually looks like. She doesnāt usually have dark circles under her eyes. She usually has better posture. I could go on.Ā
Azula challenged Zuko to an Agni Kai looking like this:
āI canāt explain it, but thereās something off about her.ā
This is something I struggle with, too. If my mom dyes her hair, I can tell something is different, but it may take me a few days to figure out exactly what has changed. I think this is what was going on with Zuko here. He knows something is up, but he canāt immediately recognize that Azula has cut her own hair poorly, or that her makeup is different because she did it herself, or that she has dark circles under her eyes, or weird posture, etc.Ā
Sensory issuesĀ
Sensory issues are also associated with autism. This can manifest in sensory overload and strong reactions to physical contact, among other things.
One way Iāve learned to avoid or come down from sensory overload is to self-isolate and meditate, which is something Zuko does very often. This can also be a way to recharge spoons or mentally prepare for something that might be exhausting.Ā Ā
This explains why Zuko would react so strongly when someone interrupts his alone time. He needs that time to prepare for every other moment in the day. When this time is interrupted, he lashes out, andĀ has trouble containing his emotions.
Physical contact
Zuko doesnāt always seem to know how to react to physical contact and affection. He reacts negatively if he isnāt prepared, or if he isnāt comfortable with the person. EvenĀ if he genuinely likes the person who is touching him (Jin, Iroh, Toph, Katara, etc), he still doesnāt seem to know what to do.Ā
If Zuko is comfortable with the person who hugs him, he allows them to do so, but he still almost always looks flustered. He doesnāt always hug back, and when he does, it sometimes takes him a moment to process that heās being hugged before he is able to return the gesture.
Difficulty Changing Plans
As I mentioned before, autistic people sometimes have a one-track mind. We may have difficulty changing plans, and may tend to see things as black and white, with no gray areas. All of these things describe Zuko to a T.Ā
Zuko tends to get frustrated over any change of plans, but thereās one example Iād like to focus on.
Letās talk about that angst coma. You know, that time Zuko got physically ill after he did something that completely altered the course of his life?Ā
Thatās the one. The thing is, change is hard. And it can be especially hard for autistic people. Zuko spent the last few years working towards one thing, and one thing only: capturing the avatar. Then, in one day, everything changed. He made a decision to free Appa, which was completely counter to what he has been working towards this entire time.Ā
Iāve hadĀ āangst comasā before, and I know other autistic people who have had similar experiences. Sometimes you really do just need a few days in bed to recuperate and adjust to big changes.Ā
some side notes that are worth mentioning:
Zuko takes Irohās metaphors literally
He repeats Irohās metaphors without understanding them, and they come across differently
It took him a minute to realize when Aang insulted him, because the insult was dressed up like a complement.Ā āHey, that was actually pretty smart of you.ā Zukoās first reaction is to smile proudly at the praise.Ā
That scene when Aang wants to sit by Katara (bc he likes her) and Zuko is all, āI donāt get it, whatās the big deal? Just sit next to me.ā
He saved Irohās smelly sandal when he was separated from him
He has a special interest in dao swords
Inaccurate self image (in his imagination he pictured himself without his scar)
He replays memories in his head of times when he thinks he may have said the wrong thing
He has meltdowns when things donāt go as he plans.Ā
He sometimes messes up jokes when heās trying to be funny
He paces back and forth a lot, perhaps as a way to stim
In conclusion Zuko is autistic af. I rest my case.
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hereās a small tutorial on how I do gifs.. yeah itās more like step by step bu heh, I have no idea how to explain better.
OTHER GOOD TUTORIALS :
ANTHONY HOLDEN GIF TUTORIAL
CHARLES HUTTNER ANIMATION TUTORIAL
look for more ! there are tons of good animation/gif tutorials on the web :)
AWESOME CHARACTERS FROM THE GIF WITH THE KIDS FIGHTINGS BY blackyjunkgallery
Like I know bus stops are liminal spaces and all but this kind of thing is a little too surreal for first thing in the morning
much to think about