FeelingMoony

Just like whatever and poems. Some of what I write are things that I've felt or feel, and others are the thoughts of characters I've created.

[moonlightkevin]

THE HEART AND THE TONGUE

I feel like Trixie You're putty in my hands I don't think you understand You really think I was in your plans I got options You're not as unique as you think you are Who even said I was looking And even if I was, you really thought it would be you. Here's your L Hold this Think of it like a ticket The systems rigged But maybe it could be you You're getting close But I switch up on you out the blue I feel like Trixie Don't take it personally But you could never be what I wanted You're going to have to change the rules of this game Tread lightly and focus your aim You could give up and settle Stretch the capabilities of your mental Maybe the one's always been there waiting for you But now it's too late Eleven years have passed Shes way out your league now And you could have had her from the start But for some reason You really thought that you were Trixie

[moonlightkevin]

Maybe it’s Time

I tried finding myself

and ended up running back to same succubus 

We still talk daily 

And you speak to me like you need me

But you don’t really

I’m a distraction and you know it

But the love we had is still potent 

And the remnants of all the previous intimacies rain deep

they hold me hostage

They make me feel like a constant 

They feed my ego and I start to come off pompous

Peppered flakes and sweet honey

I’m still making the same mistakes and not learning from them

I’m too busy trying to appease you and not trying to better me 

The best of me is yet to be

The best you is to cut ties with me

and I know that

Let’s learn to live apart

I’m just waiting for you to join me at the start

You ready?

[moonlightkevin]

Fall from Grace*

The missing pieces of a madman

Scattered across different moments in time

All good deeds have become undone

Deadly to the touch

Shattered heart becoming larger in sum

Treacherous turmoil

Loss of all self control causing every moment to boil

Uneasy waters and crumbling biscuits

Water to wine

And biscuits to rum

All good deeds are becoming undone

The pieces of a madman shine better in the absence of the sun

[moonlightkevin]

Hey, is everything alright? Okay, maybe not everything, but are you okay?

Yeah it should be. Thanks for the care

[moonlightkevin]

Hey. Just know that there are people that care a lot about you and want to be there for you. You are loved. I really hope you see this message. ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you

[moonlightkevin]

Sending love and light. ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you

[moonlightkevin]

*Devine Euthanasia*

She said she loves me

I said there's no need to

There really is no need to

Keeping me around

Is simply the absence of logic

I know this because I've seen it

Sometimes I see the future

As blurred and distorted as it is

Someway, somehow it comes out the way I foresaw it

Like Golden blue matrimonies

And cherry stained undergarments

It's the proper, yet painful end to it all

So as I fall

And the shadows of my indiscretions loom

I crack a smile

As in my wake

Your flower will surely come to bloom

[moonlightkevin]

[moonlightkevin]

[moonlightkevin]

I love you more

More than the heart in my hand

More than the land where I stand

I see things at night

Things I'm not proud of

Things that I never thought I'd imagine

Love brimmed with empty passion

A sight that would leave the bravest saddened

I'm down, trodden, and out of luck

Caught in the midst of things I wish I hadn't

I love you more than anything I could imagine.

[moonlightkevin]

I Fell In Love (Not Again)

Sometime I feel like I try to step outside my box

And I trip over my own inhibitions

They were placed placed there to keep me in my place

My place doesn't feel like a home

Nowhere I feel comfortable

Some thing I just have to conform to

Nowhere people can judge the place of conformity they've placed in me in

A place where I'm not allowed to explore

Like they've been allowed their whole lives

Encouraged to rome sicne they were young

It's always better when you are young

I had to learn that the hard way

[moonlightkevin]

Who would of thought I'd be where I am now without XXL putting me on last year

[moonlightkevin]

Lovely

Nights have become the hardest to cope with

With all the light I've come to absorb

Deep into my skin

All that it will allow

Receiving all it can I can't say I have everything I need

Pass on common occasions

And everything that comes with it

I can't claim what is not mine

Mine is what I seek

Waiting patiently for forgiveness

Foriging forests

Scouring valleys

Scorching sunsets that I look upon

Starry eyed

Yes I am

Glory is for those that seek it

Glorification will toil on with the chime of wedding bells

Bells you played once upon a time

Love it comes with a heavy heart

I have to say things I don't mean

Meanings are deeper than honest thoughts

Thoughts I wish you could believe

[moonlightkevin]

My 2018 was really hard for me, Intoxicated felt like my only healthy phase even though I felt worse afterwards, I hated everyone especially myself more than anything, I gave myself the benefit of the doubt since I haven't been as down as I was in highschool, but I could be worse, a suicidal lethargic whose a little more woke to what matters and that's kind of scary...anyways the song is dope, merry christmas✌

[moonlightkevin]

Progressive Nature*

There’s an open ridge in time

Where the plane is nonexistent

Where we can be together

And talks of your wrongs are dismissive

By virtue of the laws of this moment

Maybe we can be cohesive

And seen as secretive

Whatever you desire

In the one place I can speak to you

In conscious mind with spirit

They say the universe was made for me

That’s the rumors floating around

But between you and I

From me to you

So there is absolutely no confusion

I offer you mine if you will have it

Please excuse my youthful exterior

And dazed sense of adolescence

But in light of your presence

There are truths you made me confront

Truths about myself

Facts of existence

And what death really means

At least what it means for everyone else 

We’re at the point where the dead meet the departed

And we’re at an equinox I feel

Hopefully you feel it too

And as long as the sky is blue

And at times purple with streaks of grey

My hope that you will choose me

Will never fade away

So here we are in the plane of nonexistence

Where sense of man is in parlay

And everyone in my life is part of a plan

Pawn, soldier and pauper

So whether you exist to contradict just that 

And going through these feelings

Is crucial to my design

I just know in the term of my reality

I don’t feel i need you,

I have an over encompassing drive to have you

While the conscious being give me life

I give the same to you in mine

[moonlightkevin]

I just thought this was my best piece🙂

[catchymemes]

[anachronic-cobra]

This was so ridiculously drawn out and the conclusion was so obvious yet still I couldn’t tell where this was going

[moonlightkevin]

Veux tu foutre le con

Sorry I don't speak the language, if you can translate to english I'm happy to respond