My trauma isn't valid. TW VENT UNDER CUT! Mentions of rape and suicide
In October-December of last year I had a girlfriend we agreed to keep it platonic since I wasn't and still aren't ready for anything seriously in December we were video calling like usual then suddenly she put her phone up to her boob, I wasn't paying attention when she did it but she caught my attention after telling me to guess what she was showing me I jokingly said "bro that better not be your ass cheek" then she told me what it was.. I was disgusted and told her to stop she did but fast forward about 30-40 minutes she went into her bathroom with her phone and showed me... Things very inappropriate things and zoom was lagging and wouldn't let me hang up, she was moaning too so I threw my phone across the room and.. Kinda lost it but I still heard the moaning and when I found my phone she was touching herself and at this point.. I was about to throw up so I spam clicked hang up and it worked so I blocked her on everything and cut contact with her for a while until a couple months ago she got a new phone number and texted me and spam called me I finally picked up about 50 missed calls in she talked to me like a normal person, like nothing happened until I gathered up the courage to ask her "do you know why I blocked you? " she answered that she didn't know.. So I told her and she told me QUOTE UN QUOTE "I got dared to drink a whole jug of coffee and didn't remember what happened that day, sorry! " I didn't believe her I mean how could I after she... Well you know then she burst out crying and begged me not to block her again or else she'd kill herself and that she almost did after she realized I blocked her I felt so guilty but still couldn't find it in my heart to forgive her and I don't know if my feelings are valid but anyways I'll update you if anything else happens!
