i need a little room to breathe.

i am not a stranger to the d a r k. hide away, they say, 'cause we don't want your broken parts. i've learned to be ashamed of all my scars. run away, they say, no one will l o v e you as you are. but i won't let them break me down to dust, i know that there's a place for us. for we are g l o r i u s. when the sharpest words wanna cut me down, i'm gonna send a f l o o d; gonna drown them out. i am brave, i am b r u i s e d. i am who i'm meant to be; this is me. look out, 'cause here i come.

[moonsvnny]

inkyeongs:

inkyeong jumps at the sound of a bag being dropped. although, she doesn’t get up from her spot on the floor, “two minutes is two minutes.” she mutters. it would be courteous to simply get up and leave, so sunny would have his studio time, but she’s not feeling very courteous. “what if i just take the corner and sleep. you won’t even know i’m here.” she offers. it wouldn’t be much rest though since inkyeong would have to sleep through music. a sigh escapes her as she sits up, “you know, it wouldn’t kill you to give someone a soft wake up call.”

“better be awake in those two minutes then,“ sunny mumbles out, rustling through his bag then too so he can find his phone to hook up to the speaks and take out his water bottle too, makes it easier later. “i would know you’re here though, i can see you, inkyeong.“ he half mumbles out, words slightly slurring together because of the way he was talking now. basically, he wasn’t prepared for much human interaction. “that was a soft wake up call. a worse one would be me slamming the door open, blasting music or dumping water over your head. all of which aren’t things i’d do, thankfully.“

[moonsvnny]

rcignhq:

reign often found situations and circumstances were defined more as one looked deeper and deeper into another’s personality or headspace. his parents had once hoped he’d be a psychologist of some sort. particularly keen on him working in detective work or being some kind of criminal therapist. a shame for them that reign ended up being more of a troublemaker to the law in his youth than a service. then again they had never expected much of him anyway, it was a short fuse of hope when he was a child easily worked into the shape of a person they desired to produce. reign was known for being broody and indifferent most of the time, too serious or something along the lines. he wasn’t an asshole in his alienation but more of a cold and stern force, however beneath the surface to the few who were lucky enough he was an attentive and dependable friend. a source of comfort for many of the newer trainees in particular, they always came to him for advice or help or even just a heart to heart that feels less formal once they learnt not to be afraid of his…rather work focused initial impression. ‘i used to do that by fighting at the smallest opening, if i saw one for a fight. i’d fight. very prone to it, my parents didn’t like that therapist much but they always liked to blame other things for how i turned out when it wasn’t the way they wanted it’ he scoffed slightly and shook his head. ‘i have no idea why i would be the person you’d want to call at 4am but yeah if you ever did it, i’d answer the phone and try to help however i could. society i guess has made that seem like some heroic thing, sad right? that so little people think in the way its became rare or something to be seen as fortunate to have. its common human decency’ he mused, arms crossed as he leaned back and budged his glasses up his nose slightly as they slipped in his intense focus on the work before him. ‘careful, i might start feeling special to you and then i’ll get super cocky if i feel like an exception’ he winked playfully as he glanced up, low chuckle escaping lips. ‘i’ve got time now and it gives me the chance to make sure you eat something and don’t just hole up in the studio overworking again’

sunny had a hard time expressing himself to others, that’s the best way he could put it. he was shy, awkward and hated speaking up half the time and the fact that when he wasn’t entirely conscious of himself he looked like he was constantly glaring.. it put people off him. his shyness translated into irritation and rudeness instead to people, and that was why he found it so hard to actually get close to people when they thought he was going to bite their heads off. he wasn’t, he just.. didn’t know how to look nice apparently. but maybe that’s why he seems to get on with reign anyway.. who even sunny could say had intimidated him at first but now it’s easier to talk to him. just the height irks him sometimes-- the con of being small, even though sunny didn’t mind it much anymore. unless people tried picking him up, then he minded. “so it worked for you?” he tilted his head a little, curious now more than anything. “you know, you don’t come off as the guy that would do that, but nice to know,” he laughed quietly, the idea more amusing than something that actually sounded realistic to sunny, “common human decency. don’t get much of that anymore.” instead everything wants something from you in return. it’s a cycle, and mostly why sunny doesn’t like asking for help. “by all means, feel special, but if you start getting too cocky i’m just going to retract my statement and go find someone else instead. can’t let it get to your head too much now, can we?” he shook his head, but his expression was a lot more calm and probably happier looking now as he laughed with him. “i-- hey, i don’t do that all the time.” he huffed, half glaring at reign then, but not so much in a serious manner. still, he handed over the notebook too him. 

[moonsvnny]

kingwoosi:

@moonsvnny

Sitting on the couch set in their dorm’s living room, his right hand moved to massage his back of his neck when he noticed the other. “What did you do today?” He asked when hearing the familiar tone of fortenite loading up on the tv screen before them. He clicked the x button then looked to the other again when he exhale an soft sigh in response. “I just want to play an few rounds and then I’ll be in my room to write some things down.” He had an journal that he carried along with placing photographs in them.

sunny had only just come back in, retreating to the back of the dorm quickly to grab a blanket before he was padding back over to the living room and setting himself down on the couch, blanket wrapped around himself rightly. “i went out with my parents after vocal practice, nothing really exciting.” sunny hummed out, yawning a little and rubbing at his eyes. today just felt too long for his liking. “it’s fine, i just wanted to watch.” sunny wasn’t the biggest gamer, though he did enjoy playing when the other boys were. but for the most part he was the type that liked to watch instead. it was less stressful. “i’ll probably go sleep early.”

[moonsvnny]

rcignhq:

reign had always been good with being attentive to people’s inner workings in general, always been more of an observer and listener than a partaker. he knew full well that you learnt best through monitoring what is right and wrong rather than doing it in most cases. people too, were complex creatures, no matter how average and nothing had naturally interested him more than observing their mannerisms and differences. however, he was somewhat even more able to hone in on sunny’s character because he felt a fair few of his own traits were shared with the other though they may express them in different ways. ‘im trying not to sound like your therapist, mine was a real pusher. if yours is saying that kind of thing then they’re better than most.’ he replied with a soft breath of laughter, of course he by no means was saying that the therapist was right though, his therapist had never fixed him but reign had learnt how to become okay with not being complete. ‘you know even just small things can help, i’d help if you ever wanted. you can come to me anytime, i doubt you will but just so you know’ reign didn’t really mind he’d ended up helping instead, sunny’s mental health was far more important than some vain pursuit in a suit. ‘i.. if you want me to of course i would love to see the genius talents but i’m not sure how much help i’ll be. after all i’m only a main rapper in my group’ 

sunny could say he was an observer too, but more so to situations and what was going on, being said, than what people were like. he didn’t pay attention to people’s feelings or thoughts in a moment or take enough of it into consideration to pick up on it, and it probably showed. but sunny was fine with that, it was why he was more of the distant introvert. but he could see how reign would be able to figure him out more though. he could see the similarities between the two without really needing to think about it too much, but it was just.. interesting to him. similar but different at the same time. “i’ve had one like that before. his idea of helping me was the ‘flooding’ technique of telling me to go out and concur all my fears at once like it was an easy thing to do,” he hummed out, scribbling a line out at the same time, “but the one i have now is good. so yea, she’d definitely better than most.” sunny didn’t hold back the small smile on his face this time either, telling himself to just at least try and relax right now anyway. reign made it a little easier for him to be able to do that. “so you’d let me call you at 4am with all my woes and worries?” there was a small teasing tone in his voice too, the smile a little more present. “don’t rule it out, maybe one day i’ll have the courage to rely on someone else. or the thought at least won’t intimidate me.” and that was the worst of it, sunny supposed. relying on someone wasn’t easy to begin with, but the thought it made sunny far too intimidated to do. hell, it was hard enough for him to call his parents when he needed to talk to someone after all. he just felt like he’d burden anyway he shared how he felt with. “genius talents? now you’re hyping me up a little too much. rapper or not, you can at least read over it sometime and tell me if the lyrics sound good or if it makes sense. take it as an honour too because i don’t let many people see anything i work on.” mostly because half his lyrics were far too personal and it was the easiest way too see inside him really.

[moonsvnny]

rcignhq:

reign has always been attentive, its one of his more favorable qualities among all the outlying ones and alienating types such as his enigma and abrasive tendencies. reign in fact, can already sense more guilt burdening on the others shoulders but long gone are the days where reign tormented himself over not leaving things unsaid even if the burden temporarily grew because he refused to ignore it. ‘you know, eventually i’m sure it’ll come naturally to you. a way to relax that suits you but i won’t tell you what to do to make life easier because what do i know? stress is natural, just don’t let it kill your drive before its even had a chance to blossom’ he shrugged, voice soft as his eyes roamed the papers. ‘if it matters to you, then it matters. don’t let them make you think they define you even that far’ he grimaced slightly, knowing exactly what the other meant and hating the thought before it even properly spread in his mind. ‘maybe you just need a fresh perspective, other than your own. you know i’m not one for sweet talk or sugar coatings, i’m not lying to you when i say this isn’t bad work. maybe you just need one little thing to give it that twist or kick you’re looking for’ 

it was always interesting to sunny when someone could pick up on him, mostly because he was a pretty closed off kind of person. he was hard to read, or to understand, and the way his stage persona differed entirely from his real persona just threw them off more. so maybe it was a little nicer, if not frightening sometimes too, to have someone at least see through it a little bit. “maybe someday it will, but this environment doesn’t really allow relaxing. mm, well i’ll let you know how my stress journey goes if i ever find a way to get rid of it-- but you’re starting to sound like my therapist,” he hummed out, though there was a lighter tone in his voice this time, less quiet and tense. “we’ll see.” but well, so long as sunny was happy working on it.. he supposed it shouldn’t matter to him too much if others got to hear it or not, right? reign talking to him like this though definitely loosened some of the weight and worries from him though, so it was nice to have him to talk to right now. maybe he needed it, even if he was still supposed to have been helping him out. “you wanna read it properly then?” he asks, looking up at the taller from his seat a little, “i have other options written on other pages for verses and the chorus. but all i have at the lyrics right now, not the actual music.”

[moonsvnny]

rcignhq:

reign glances over at sunny, interest piqued in his state of being as of current. it wasn’t unlike the other to be quiet but it did seem he was distracted, the fact diverting his attention for too long seemed to be bothering him told reign enough that the other wasn’t exactly feeling relaxed. ‘…it can wait i guess’ he mused in response, frowning as he ditched the bowtie and unbuttoned the shirt about halfway, relaxing and rolling his shoulders as he made his way over to the other. ‘you seem stressed. what’s going on? is it lyrics not flowing right or something?’ he hummed as he lightly breezed to the others side, peeking at what he was examining. ‘how long have you been looking over these?’ 

he knows that reign can tell that something’s up with him today, it isn’t that hard to notice and he does sort of feel bad for being so distracted when he was probably supposed to be more helpful in this moment. but it was sunny.. and he just got like this. quiet and resigned. so there is a small tinge of guilt in his chest when reign responds, but he isn’t really expecting the following comments of for him to come and look over what he was doing. “when am i not stressed? they just don’t sound right.. not that it matters.” it wasn’t like it was something he’d get to release, anyway. not until he was an older idol, and even then sunny didn’t think he wanted to. his own songs meant a lot to him, almost too much. “this one? a few weeks..” which probably said something when he was still unhappy about it.

[moonsvnny]

nmkiha:

kiha’s eyes glanced at the doorknob in realization. the lock, of course. why didn’t he think of locking the door? though, if he was the kind of person who THOUGHT things through he wouldn’t be in THIS situation in the first place. “i was too distracted by the food to think of locking the door.” he admitted with a mouth filled with food, letting his manners fly right out the window. “i can’t help but eat too fast,” he swallowed, “this diet is k i l l i n g me.” he could just replay the entire scene in his head of the little meeting the staff had with him. talking to him about the betterment of his image and acting as if he really had a CHOICE.

sunny’s eyes roll a little again, though his face scrunches up a little at kiha talking with all the food in his mouth.. he just pretends it doesn’t bother him too much honestly when he’s gotten used to all the boys like this when they’re starving. “well, next time you know what to do.” he reminde dhim, coming over and sitting down, or more so, laying down, on the studio floor and letting his limbs relax. “if you choke it’s on you then,” he murmured, closing his eyes for a moment. “you’re exaggerating.. but i know it’s tough, but find ways to do this and you’ll be fine. you know our manager’ll let you get away with eating more if you need it in the dorms. just be careful.”

[moonsvnny]

mooniemanager:

He sighs and crosses his arms “come on, you know it’s too risky to sleep here,” he urged the younger male up to his feet. “I have a couch and armchair. Take your pick!”

he huffs a little more when his manager remains insistent on it and he’s forced to stand up, small frame looking a lot more exhausted and sleepy now that he was standing too. he just wanted to get the sleep he was supposed to have, was it too much to ask? though he did know that the other was helping, sunny was just tired. “couch.” he was small enough that he could curl up on it easily.

[moonsvnny]

sirxnn:

“do you think if i flip my hair hard enough the extensions will come out? how far d’you think they’ll get? i want them gone.”

“i’m more than sure that isn’t how extensions work..“

[moonsvnny]

inkyeongs:

inkyeong lays on the studio floor trying to recover from dance practice. with their upcoming comeback, ethereal’s trainers were working the girls more and more. she was used to the constant aches and pains that came with practicing, but some days it got the best of her. inkyeong can’t seem to pull herself off the floor. it’s not comfortable in the slightest, but she’s too tired care about comfort. the dancer can feel herself drifting off until she hears the door open. a small whine escapes her, “give me five minutes, please.”

sunny never knows if he should expect people to still be in the studio’s when he’s booked in for his own practice, or not. at this point he’s given up on being surprised when he opens the door and he finds the presence of another, which just makes him huff internally because he knows it’s going to delay him. “you have two minutes until your time for the room is up,” is the answer he gives her instead, walking past her figure to dump his bag at the side of the room. he knows the feeling of being too tired and exhausted to leave after all. the aches and pains all over the body because of it all. but they all go through it, and he needs to get his choreography down tonight. not to mention he’d rather be alone when he was already on edge today.

[moonsvnny]

rcignhq:

‘do you think this suit looks alright on me with a bowtie?’ reign murmurs as he fiddles with getting it to sit in the right place, adjusting his collar as he goes on the shirt. he thinks he looks pretty good, after all for once they’ve styled him in an outfit that isn’t too out there and sometimes simplicity is refreshing. its for an awards show, its a while away yet but reign wants to be totally sure he isn’t going to need it tailored again. hence the trying on session, he stands in front of a full length mirror in one of the dressing rooms and exhales slowly as he turns to face the other. ‘should i go for a tie? i don’t know i quite like that they’ve given me a more traditional suit for once but the bowtie adds that little flare even if its in a more sophisticated manner’ he muses, quirking an eyebrow at the other’s silence. ‘you’re worrying me slightly now’ 

sunny wasn’t a very loud person or outwardly emotional. it was hard to figure out what he was thinking, or if he was even really pay attention ( in this instance he was, just not fully ). he was more preoccupied looking over lyrics and running them through in his head instead, but it didn’t mean to say that he wasn’t glancing up every few seconds, looking over his glasses at reign before pushing them up for a better view. when he seems insistent on getting sunny’s opinion though, he just sighs a little quietly. “bow ties make you look like you’re trying too hard.” 

[moonsvnny]

chngliao:

❝  dumb?! stupid?!  ❞

offended scoff, ❝  i don’t do either of those. what i send makes sense and definitely goes with the conversation. i wouldn’t have sent it if it doesn’t. you don’t use any emojis? ❞

his face stayed scrunched up for a moment as he listened, “well, maybe you do but most don’t and i just think they’re pointless.” and this is why people think you’re a dick, sunny. “nope, i don’t like them.”

[moonsvnny]

mooniemanager:

“Hey Sunny. You should move someplace else. Wouldn’t want the heads catching you napping here” the manager spoke softly to the visual, feeling bad for waking him, but knowing that if he was caught out by one of the higher ups that he would be reprimanded badly. “If you want, you can sleep in my office so you get peace if that’s what you were looking for by sleeping here”

sunny grumbles sleepily, not entirely registering what he’s being told even though he vaguely makes it out to be his manager anyway. at least it was him.. but it doesn’t mean he’s happy being woken up. “they won’t care..” he huffs, snuggling up further in his jacket, not really registering his own responses either considering he didn’t even really hear what he’d been told in the first place either. he was fuzzy. “d’you have a couch..?”

[moonsvnny]

luxciien:

Lucien opened the door and froze upon seeing some weird curled up shape on the couch. He raised an eyebrow before approaching said object, before realizing it was a person. He poked it tentatively. “Hello?” He asked, curiously.

upon being poked, sunny grumbles a little more and pulls the jacket closer to him.. like it could really get any closer. “what d’you want..” he half sleepily slurs out, eyes cracking open just a little bit to try and see who it was, though his vision is a little too blurry right now.

[moonsvnny]

nmkiha:

he tried to hold out. he really did. but the burger place he walked by on his break from practice just couldn’t be ignored so easily. there was a smell that made his stomach growl and – dammit he was just so hungry. so without thinking twice he went in and bought one for himself. when he got back to century records he slipped into an empty dance studio, sat in a corner with his back against the mirror, and started to chow down. he hadn’t had something  filling in so long. he was trying to eat as fast as he could because he just couldn't get caught. it would be his S E C O N D time this week being scolded by staff. so, imagine his panic when the door knob starts to twist and all he could do was stop mid bite and ( blink ) up at the person entering.

after practising with the group all morning, it was kind of easier to just go his own way for a little bit and instead try and find somewhere quieter to go and relax a little bit. which is why sunny slipped out the room everyone was in, though they were all slowly starting to disperse, and headed to one of the other practice rooms that apparently wasn’t scheduled to be filled until much that later today. so.. when he walks in and sees one of his members practically inhaling food.. it does raise a little bit of confusion, before a sort of amusement crosses over his eyes just because of how dumb kiha looks in this moment. “you look like a deer caught in the headlights,” sunny comments, a slight teasing tone taking to his voice as he flips the lock on the practice room door instead. “if you don’t want to be caught, there’s a lock for a reason. but your secret is safe with me. just don’t choke, you’re eating too fast.”

[moonsvnny]

ofparksungki:

he’s casually shuffling a pack of cards, and looks up when he spots someone passing. “hey, do you want to see a magic trick?”

there was a frown on his face, a tired one, but he still stops and sighs a little as he turns around. he will admit, the question does raise his curiosity. “is this gonna be a good one or a lame one that you see all the time on tv?”

[moonsvnny]

sleeping in one of the studio’s probably wasn’t the best thing to do right now, or ever. but it was his only option when he’d been up all night practising with a few others, but the dorm during the day was going to be loud and crowded and full of all his members.. and sunny had too much of a hard time sleeping whilst others made noise. so that’s why he was sleeping there now-- completely curled up into a ball on the couch with his jacket wrapped around him.. which surprisingly worked and probably made him look smaller than ever, but the positive note here was that he was getting sleep. or until the door opened, to which he groaned quietly.