Just touched this blog for the first time in two years (only to change my profile picture).
I might be shouting to a void at this point (I donāt know how many of you are still here lol), but I have to be honest and get some feelings and thoughts I have out there, even if they will be floating in a void.
For a long time now, Iāve been suffering pretty severe burnout (not unusual, I know), but Iāve also been feeling reallyā¦.i donāt know how to put itā¦apathetic? Unfulfilled? Frustrated? I wish I could find the exact word to name it. But, whatever it is, Iāve been feeling it towards posting my art online for a very long time now.
Thereās a strong part of me that wants to share what I do, but I donāt want to feel the pressure of the expectations a lot of artists are burdened with in online spaces. Not everything I do needs to be posted, nor do I want to post everything, and things like posting schedules make that a really difficult balance to maintain. Most of the time (at least recently), Iām not even making finished pieces, and people donāt usually find things like random sketches interesting unless itās coming from someone like an already-established artist with a large following. I logically know that even if one person sees what Iāve done, thatās pretty cool, but I often find myself being sucked into an unhealthy mindset when it comes to posting online. Iām still trying to figure out what I want out of putting my work online.
My thoughts on this topic are pretty messy, and I havenāt come to any sort of conclusions or resolutions (I havenāt even expressed all of my thoughts in this post), but I needed to get some of these thoughts out of my head and into the tumblr-sphere.
Iām exhausted all the time because of various things in my life and the world around me, but I do want to come back here and start sharing again. I donāt know if that will be tomorrow, I donāt know if it will even be this year (I certainly hope it will, though), but I want to find what makes me happy again and eventually share my work in the little gallery that is this tumblr. <3










