miso @morisdemise - Tumblr Blog

fuck that

i have been doing so good i hope it stays that way i also hope to turn my partner into my fiancé

depression is not episodic, for it lives in me, on my good days i can only taste it in the back of my mouth subtly reminding me it is there but i manage to quickly grab a can and swallow is whole forgetting about it until it creeps back out to remind me i am in chains, however on my bad days from the depths of my stomach it pours back out, through my mouth it covers me whole disgusting like vomit, there are times when i manage to clean myself off of it surrounded by love and kindness but in isolation, i am stuck in a cage made of tar and mold and it eats me whole

i have convinced myself at a young age that i have to hate and i have to be evil and that i am evil but the truth im learning now as i age is that i love and i care and i see the beauty in every animal and every life because i am good

nobody cares about me and everyone lies to me

or maybe i am too much

why me why not someone else even in this i am alone i am deeply disturbed and my body is punishing me for it

to love is to love is to love is to love is to love is to love is to love is to

i am going to slice myself open once im back home

so close

my figs are out of reach and by the time they fall for me to pick them up they will already be rotten

for they will always try to rid god of wings

been using

tumblr much better than twitter

sry guys bad news im mentally stable now and i deleted the cp from this bitch peace

WHERES YOUR HEAD AT