Broken Notes

I'd like to invite you to the ups and downs of a worded mind. I write words, I feel too much, I get attached, I fall hard, I have a hard time getting back up. But, I'm trying. I'm a 46 year old male, dedicated to @teaspirationss .I claim to be a "writer," musician, philosopher, romantic, dreamer, traveler, and photographer. I suffer from insecurities, doubt and have HUGE bouts of low self-esteem. I'm fighting, though, and trying. We are not alone if we let the right ones in. Every day is a chance to make it right. If you have questions, ask. if you enjoy my writings let me know! Always trying to get better and make new friends. -H

[mortalghost]

Nights bring memories of longing

For a touch that won't come.

While the world slept

I dreamt of desires

Sinking deeper into their secrets.

I coveted all that I could

While leaving so much of me

That I never thought I would.

Through the realms of possibilities

I closed my eyes and prayed.

Where were you to guide my destiny

While I waited to fade away.

-H. Murcia 6/3/2026 8:26 AM

[teaspirationss]

I want to kiss the stories locked inside your scars, and I will love every chapter the wounds tried to silence.

Every day I wake up just to love you from afar

[mortalghost]

I wish to drink from your lips.

Taste the sweetest wine

Flowing from your kiss.

Be a forgotten promise

While my fingertips

Trace memories from yesteryear

Upon your hips.

A desire so strong

Where I wait, and long,

Your body burns

My desire yearns,

To be at one

Within you.

Why make me wait,

In this sordid state,

Let me in and find

Secrets in your mind

So you'll come undone.

Beneath me.

-H. Murcia 2:35 PM 4/3/2026

[mortalghost]

So the story goes, another dreamer,

Another soul. Where do angels learn

To sing your name without stealing

A kiss? Where do whispers of the moon

Arise to keep your fantasies alive and

Your desires softly dancing on your

Skin? My body longs to feel you close

Again. Have I told you how my

Lips long to taste you as the cold rain

Falls away and you close your eyes

And wait? My fantasies cannot believe

How my reality has embraced me in

The shallows of the morning while

You're laying next to me. May another

Second last forever while we await the

Weather and our songs reach up to

Heaven letting all the choirs sing.

Another lifetime of hope,

Complete devotion,

Love stays burning

Hold me close and let the world spin.

-H. Murcia 11:30 AM 2/14/2026

[teaspirationss]

You're the only thing I want to overdose on, the only grounding comfort thought that keeps sub zero temperatures from spawning new nightmares. You're beautiful, even when you feel like your sky is too dark for stars. We're only what we bring out of each other, but you touched me like you knew where all the pieces went.

Take off your past and dance with me

[mortalghost]

Where do I stand?

In a world sewn with tears,

While history yields.

Written with words better left

Unspoken.

Frenzied emotions,

Feel like explosions, inside

My heart beating to hide

Voices inside my mind.

Deafening.

Your world is written

From beyond your prison,

Yet you rise, compromise,

Welcome the lies that are fed,

Accepting.

Your loyalties divide.

To a world you have no control in.

Do you stand on the wrong side

Of history and let them decide?

Empowering.

Who will write the final page

In a book where we've embraced.

Our chaos and our anarchy

For simplicity and no sympathy.

Apparent.

Neither side will win.

Calling names through hateful grins

Our pain and vitrol burns from within

While allowing the enemies to win.

We've sold our souls for nothing.

-H. Murcia 12:26 pm 1/27/2026

[mortalghost]

Time is of the essence,

Or is it? I no longer know.

I don't really care.

All that matters to me is the way

You move as you come closer.

Your lips as they whisper

Am I going insane?

My body yearns for you as I forget

What I am and who I'm talking to.

Will it matter if I miss you?

Sometimes I'm lost in you

Other times I'm lost inside

As your heart beats

My pulse grows weak

I forgive myself for desiring you

When I'm not supposed to.

You won't let me.

I can't control my yearning

Embrace this demon

Never let me go

-H Murcia 3:23 PM 1/2/2026

[mortalghost]

Cold.

Feel it linger night and day

While the world calls me

Enslaved

I am to your desire.

Would you turn and look my way

If moorings held my sway

Kept me from the currents rushing

To a place that has betrayed

My heart

For far too long

I yearn for the memories that hold me

Close

Too close

But I...

I feel comfort

The twisted tales beyond my masks

Will always reveal spark

Of what could have been

What will never come to pass.

-H. Murcia 9:30 am 12/2/2025

[mortalghost]

Would my words be enough

To settle your broken soul?

Should I reach out and let you know

You are not alone?

Would it make it better if I

Called you and promised you to wait?

One more day.

One more day.

-H. Murcia 10:44 pm 11/9/2025

[mortalghost]

Will I ever make it through this day without a piece of me falling away...being in the shadows of a life that fails to bring back a memory that can't be erased.

Another year...another reminder of a world that would be blessed with your presence and I cannot hate myself enough because I'll always believe that it's all my fault.

One day as life goes on and the world falls into it's every day monotony I can look upon this day with more fondness for the memories of how you were celebrated.

Today may not be that day, dad, but my love for you will always be with me.

-H Murcia 8:51 PM 10/20/2025

[mortalghost]

My morning glories arrive

With a whimper, not a scream,

As night greets its demise

With tears encumbered so eloquently.

Trust the dancing desires

Pirouetting through dreams

Of dragons and daffodils

Before the fall arrives to take you home.

Minutes chime, hours slip by

Sunday morning is a reminder

That the sins of thw night before

Are forgiven, and forgotten,

At church, nevermore.

Come one, come two, come dance

In the streets, hang from the branches,

Sing out your dreams,

Watch the world rise and go back

To sleep.

Days like today remind us

Why beds were created

While you lay awake wondering,

Wandering, wishing you slept.

But, alas...all you can do is breathe.

-H. Murcia 10/13/2025 8:32 am

[mortalghost]

I no longer know how time evolves,

Another year spent flashing behind

Veils of darkened light and ruined memories.

Again, so much happens, out of my grips,

Off of my mind. Dug deep into my skin.

A half a century of life and here I am,

Looking through a mountain of disarray.

Rivers of fear and loathing flow and burn

Through my veins, tear my heart.

How old I've gotten, how much further

Do I have to go? Will tomorrow ever come?

Classic stains mark my skin, leaving

Raw emotions of darkest pains I've

Shuttered behind these scars.

Seen and unseen.

How I was, barely a year ago,

Lifetimes ago, as my life, once again,

So close to extinction. Annihilation.

I cannot go back as my soul is reminded.

My head aches. My brain still bleeds.

Happy birthday to me.

Will I make it through today?

-H. Murcia 2:10 PM 5/12/2025

[mortalghost]

It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[mortalghost]

Dragon's breath warms my body, as your touch sparks the world around me.

I am invincible.

Surging through rivers of fallen dreams, aspiring, as stained glass shatters before me, raining down my agony...

I ache for a promise.

From your lips.

Explain to me how the sun will rise upon your eyes, while the wind brushes promises of eternal agony from the aching in my heart to the soothing of the dreams of our embraces?

May we lay upon eternal sands of time to watch droplets of marigold streams. While we sleep, what will the forgotten ones say?

To love is the purest way to live...and I promise to live every moment loving you.

-H. Murcia 9:10 PM 2/14/2025

[mortalghost]

As the cold grips me

from deep within, extending,

I am reminded of the emptiness I feel.

My darkest days are embracing

this heart as it remembers the warmth

of your voice.

How do I continue living through

this emptiness as my soul retains a memory:

Your comfort haunts my loneliness.

Too many years, seems like forever,

Since I've heard your voice, seen your face

Felt your confidence and strength.

I strive every day to be better.

I wish you could see me now, how far

I've come, and grown.

Please keep me in your prayers,

from somewhere where you're at peace.

No more suffering, no pain.

January reminds me we're all mortal.

Frozen earth conceals the hollow I feel.

-H. Murcia 8:45 am 1/23/2025

[mortalghost]

Embracing you,

Like words, enthralled,

Racing around my mind.

I've lost time and breaths,

Caressing your lips,

While falling deeper into you.

Where are you, now,

As I awake

Alone in my bed?

-H. Murcia 8:12 PM 9/21/2024

[mortalghost]

Embrace me in your melancholy lies

I promise you to fall for them

Every single time.

Cities will fall, oceans may die,

Still I'll hang onto your every word.

Believe me what I say is true

For nothing shall keep me from you

While you take everything I've ever done

Made it your own

Sang out your song

While the currents lead away from

All that you've meant to me

You harbor all of my sins

Give them back

Set me free.

How I'll always yearn for you

Yet you turn your back without a look

Leaving me in disarray

-H. Murcia 7:31 AM 9/18/2024