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✦ Moth | she/her | 20s | 18+ content warning✦ !!! MINORS DNI !!! fics, thirst and tomfoolery

[mothhball]

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me, grabbing onto the mirror and shaking it aggressively: you're not stupid it's the adhd you're not lazy it's the adhd you're not a failure it's the adhd

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you da real new job

I AM da real new job........

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so uhmmm

I got the job!!

AND I've been out of the clinic for a few weeks now. Ngl it's hard. I got an ADHD diagnosis on the way out, so there wasn't enough time to properly try and medicate me. I'm just trying to make do but........ 🥴 you know how it is

Anyway, the plan is to graduate in June and then move to the new city for my job (first proper "big girl" job I am so frightened)

I miss being on tumblr and I WILL be back once I have more free time

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staying up all night used to be light workkkkk but right now I am struggling so much to stay awake lmao

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holy fuck

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staying up all night used to be light workkkkk but right now I am struggling so much to stay awake lmao

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got too excited while playing trials with the pookie @riddled-with-fear and got told off by a nurse who oversees my all-nighter 🙄😔

[riddled-with-fear]

The American rubbed off(RUBBED OFF!?🤨) on you. I’m so sorry😔

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got too excited while playing trials with the pookie @riddled-with-fear and got told off by a nurse who oversees my all-nighter 🙄😔

[mothhball]

kicking my feet on my bed like a teenage girl, it’s always nice to see your updates

go experience life girl!!!

nonnie you are so sweet and I hope your skin is clear and your life is flourishing and filled with joy and love wherever you go ❤️

[mothhball]

HELLO HELLOOOOOOO <3

A little status update for you 🤠

I'm going into outpatient tomorrow!! AND tonight I'll be doing a genuinely prescribed all-nighter (bc I told the doctors I could still sleep all day 24/7 and they immediately decided I shouldn't sleep AT ALL if that's the case)

ALSO the job interview and meeting went super super well and I think I have it 😳 (the listing went down the day after I met them in person and I saw so much sensitive data already) But until I signed a contract, I'm still a bit nervous lol

Aside from all that, I'm feeling much better these days. I think I've changed a lot of internal thoughts and assumptions about myself and I'm actively trying to be more kind and patient with myself.

And fuck, I want to live. I really thought about it and want to live so badly. I want to see so many more places and eat lots of good food and meet new people who I can love and make laugh and I want to see my friend's kids grow up and keep on writing and creating.

I DOES get better. It really does. Sometimes, you need a change of environment or a different person to talk to or medication. Sometimes, this mountain of shit and misery seems unclimbable, but you can do it.

And it does stink while you're crawling up there, but the view is so, so beautiful.

If you're struggling and you've been relating to my posts and everything, I wish you strength and compassion for yourself. From the bottom of my heart, you belong here. You are so loved and there will be even more people in the future who will love you.

And you'll cry-laugh with someone again and think to yourself "I'm glad I'm still here"

I love love love you!!! Mwah mwah mwah mwah!!

[mothhball]

HELLO HELLOOOOOOO <3

A little status update for you 🤠

I'm going into outpatient tomorrow!! AND tonight I'll be doing a genuinely prescribed all-nighter (bc I told the doctors I could still sleep all day 24/7 and they immediately decided I shouldn't sleep AT ALL if that's the case)

ALSO the job interview and meeting went super super well and I think I have it 😳 (the listing went down the day after I met them in person and I saw so much sensitive data already) But until I signed a contract, I'm still a bit nervous lol

Aside from all that, I'm feeling much better these days. I think I've changed a lot of internal thoughts and assumptions about myself and I'm actively trying to be more kind and patient with myself.

And fuck, I want to live. I really thought about it and want to live so badly. I want to see so many more places and eat lots of good food and meet new people who I can love and make laugh and I want to see my friend's kids grow up and keep on writing and creating.

I DOES get better. It really does. Sometimes, you need a change of environment or a different person to talk to or medication. Sometimes, this mountain of shit and misery seems unclimbable, but you can do it.

And it does stink while you're crawling up there, but the view is so, so beautiful.

If you're struggling and you've been relating to my posts and everything, I wish you strength and compassion for yourself. From the bottom of my heart, you belong here. You are so loved and there will be even more people in the future who will love you.

And you'll cry-laugh with someone again and think to yourself "I'm glad I'm still here"

I love love love you!!! Mwah mwah mwah mwah!!

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hm :)

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hey cuties <3 sorry for being inactive!!! Life has been HAPPENING and recovery is actually really exhausting (who would've thunk)

Anyway I had a fucking job interview today after applying to that job on SUNDAY so I'm a little all over the place between this, hospital, sorting out stuff from my old apartment and my short film idk

I'll try to be more active soon! Mwah mwah mwah kisses to all of you <3

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People from the new job want to meet me in person wtf

[mothhball]

hey cuties <3 sorry for being inactive!!! Life has been HAPPENING and recovery is actually really exhausting (who would've thunk)

Anyway I had a fucking job interview today after applying to that job on SUNDAY so I'm a little all over the place between this, hospital, sorting out stuff from my old apartment and my short film idk

I'll try to be more active soon! Mwah mwah mwah kisses to all of you <3

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went on a big walk with my parents and dog today and we saw a slow worm on the trail 😭❤️

I love these little guys with all of my heart and I gently picked it up and placed it in a spot with better coverage so it wouldn't get trampled. Fantastic day honestly

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really tired but really happy today :)

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