Feelings

I come here to write about my extraordinary feelings about extraordinary movies, books and series.

[moviefeelings97]

2gether 🥺💕

This is that one series I can say “I wish I can watch it again for the first time” because it truly was like falling in love.

I we fell in love with their love.

I felt literal butterflies and I was blushing while watching season 1.

It was like we were all apart of it. I got so invested and so attached so soon. It’s only been like 5 days and I literally cried.

I finished the series and now i am depressed as fuck. I feel this overwhelming sadness. My chest literally hurts when I watch edits. It feels like I’m going through a break up cause it felt like I was a part of this relationship and there’s no more to see. It’s over. Like its only going to be a memory.

Also just thinking about the fact that this was all like young first love and one day we’d be old, the series will be old, a thing of the past and forgotten. This makes me so fucking sad I want to sob and ugly cry. Everything feels nostalgic to me even tho I watched it last week.

The good news is, in October 2021, like over a year after filming they are still so close in real life. This month they said “We are more than friends” and “we know each other better than them” also Bright has previously said that “I can’t say I’m a straight man after Tine” the character he loved). Also the fact that Win felt goosebumps and electric shock feeling when they physically touched in scenes. ALSO few days ago, a director posetd a picture of brightwin and win commented"I ship krub". I don’t think I have ever cried over a celebrity couple before.

-28th oct 2021

[atealiers]

DANIEL RADCLIFFE, EMMA WATSON, AND RUPERT GRINT   behind the scenes of Prisoner of Azkaban

[wollydarner]

Kiki`s Delivery Service

Background fanart

[pride-with-a-hint-of-prejudice]

“𝘐𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘨𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵.”

- 𝘖𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳 𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘦, 𝘈𝘯 𝘐𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘏𝘶𝘴𝘣𝘢𝘯𝘥

[weheartbollywood]

[yourstype]

Bright ✧ Depth of Bright. The first official photobook BTS

[fujico]

tw gqthailand

[freesoul-97]

At first obviously I expected this to be cliche…when it said “why always the same story” I knew this was going to be a wannabe “lets try and break the norms” kind of movie..because thats the new trend isn’t it? 

But then I saw it was filmed in Europe…I was instantly in love with the locations..but to be a honest I was lost …the first 15 mins was so confusing.. but I started to love the ambiguity of the film just before the 1st song.. the fact that they decided to stay “anonymous” and kept answering “I dont know” to all the questions in a beautiful, peaceful, colorful little European village..far from home..where noone knows you..where nothing is forced to be “certain”… where you don’t have to know the answer or whats happening next…without a plan…a beautiful escape from reality..i fell in love with its ambiguity…but I still didn’t expect it to be unique piece without TRYING to be different… if you know what I mean…

Next few minutes I was blown away… “why always the same story” never meant the same “love story”

It was brilliant… for personal reasons…in my early teenage years..I hated the systems, the rules…as a child I was a spontaneous child who never liked to sit..“adventure” has always been my favorite word in the vocabulary …teachers hated me…they wanted us to eat , talk, stand, walk, laugh, when told to..I personally pondered on how robotic life was…how once I stop school it would get worse…job-marriage-kids-responsibility….inside I’m still a child…same child at 8 year old..who loves to play, who loves to climb trees, who loves to run, jump, scream, who loves to break rules, crack jokes..just play… everyone said “she will change when she grows older”…well guess what I haven’t..but I did let them make me believe it was “just a rebellious teenage phase" 

 Life is more than simply about earning money…education is more than about exams and making a living in the future…Life is more than what your career is..when you are going to get married..Its the places you explore..experiences you collect..people you meet..people you help…making people happy…and more than anything being who you are and discovering and embracing yourself…Avarice is not the source of happiness its just the opposite of it… 

I loved how the first half of the ambiguous movie like colorful escape turned into reality in the next..I watch movies for the same reason.. for an escape from reality….it made a huge twist from an average happy movie like scene to reality..

It was simply a message about life, simplicity, “life beyond boundaries”, life beyond monotony, freedom, happiness..

[freesoul-97]

My girl 2003

I watched My girl 1991 when I was 10+ (2008) it doesnt feel like that long ago, that movie was a life experience. 

Is it like thing with the same title to have a childhood story with a heart breaking ending?

This I watched today… infact just now…

Honestly, the plot isn’t the best, I usually prefer Asian storylines to American but I like the story of My Girl 1991 more.

That is definitely just plot wise. 

I wouldnt really compare the affects the 2 had on me…

But this felt more relatable for obvious reasons.

The uniforms, the school bus, brought memories of the school life I had ended this year. But it reminded me of primary days.

Took me right back to age 7-9 years…

The first half of the movie centered around the events of one day alone which brought so many nostalgic feelings of childhood. As a 19 year old who constantly reminisces, my memories feel distant. But this reminded me or gave me chance to relive a moment in childhood. That one day scenario felt so real, alive, happening, the thoughts, moments, how serious it was then, felt so alive. Wasnt a perfect day…but ideal. What I loved the most was how they made the characters think., feel and understand maturely…like an adult, no difference. I still remember my thoughts as 7 year old.

I used to go to daycares after school at the age 7-8, I had my 1st crush, boy-girl best friendship, I had thoughts and moments of all sorts in a day… this was amazing.

That was around the time the movie was released. 2003-2006

It wasnt so adventurous, but it was something.

About the ending, I didnt expect that… it freaking broke my heart. I felt empty and incomplete, nostalgic and sad. I guess that was the whole intention to use time and reality or life as a tool to break you.

How things change beyond your control and you cant change things when you want to.

But when I googled it and found such colourful images I felt a bit bright. Like it wasnt so long ago.

[freesoul-97]

Dear Zindagi - 24th Dec 2016 <3

Okay so umm not the best movie ever kind of hype but I loved certain thins about it

as always I love movies that gives you message or tip for life.

My current situation in life is, well I am hating change..

But this movie made me feel excited to grow up and be independent find new friends and new people. This may not sound like new but now I’m literally excited for my 20s

But Most importantly it made me… Let me say it the way I realized it..

I walked out of cinema hall cool christmas breeze blew and I stepped into the Trishaw as we passed that mondy road somehow everything looked brighter and beautiful and perfect I felt my life as of now is perfect. Like what’s even wrong in my life? Why can’t i see the beauty of it and live in the moment? It’s like I’ve been sleeping all  along and I just woke up. I felt like I was in a movie. Like my life was perfect and all my worries were stupid. 

And then I loved what he said about soul mates, obviously. And he said many other things I might barely remember.

Like how it doesn’t matter what people think

You need to find the right chair

It’s okay take the easy path sometimes 

How it’s okay to follow a path you want when no one would approve it

And it’s okay to be clumsy 

There is a long adventurous life out there 

[freesoul-97]

OMFG. This was like omfg. So good. SOO GOOD. Like anime was always brilliant but wow. When the story began I had no idea what it would be like. I have watched so many small town anime so it looked normal. Once it had the switching scene I was like okay cool but not original enough. Theyre going to just meet dramatically and have a cheesy end. The comet and like everything that followed from there was mind blowing. I’m alive for shit like this. OMFG. Unexpectedly good. The plot was so well structured. His emotions and thinking over 5 years was amazing. How they forgot eachother and he saved her. Its crazy. Creativity at its best. Woah.

[freesoul-97]

DEAD POETS SOCIETY

https://www.bustle.com/articles/35405-11-robin-williams-dead-poets-society-quotes-that-will-inspire-you-to-carpe-diem

I am 19. What better inspiration could I ask for before starting life.? “Carpe diem!…Make your life extraordinary.” Just BRILLIANT.   

Icant think of a better act to have played the role. RIP Robin Williams. <3    

[freesoul-97]

its 1:52 a.m, i finished watching the Titanic (for the second time) about 15 mins ago. When the movie ended I cried and it really hurt me in the chest. It broke my heart. Im kind of afraid of it now. 

The true story of Titanic was always appealing to me as a child. i found it so fascinating. I remember how i felt the first time i watched it at age 10+. about nine years ago.. quite the same sorrow and feelings for Jack.. I realized this when the back of his head appeared on screen for the first time (now), i felt it. “the falling in love”. Also throughout the movie, it kept breaking my heart. the idea of losing him forever in time and space. Without a trace. But im sure I felt the feelings magnified AT AGE 19, now.. He was probably around my age in the story.

Jack’s character and the whole setting of the movie. the era. 1912. The story behind the great ship. “the unsinkable”, the real incidence. The real events. The song. The music is so painfully heartbreaking.  Everything builds up so much emotion. 

It is merely impossible to not fall in love with Jack. His smile, his eyes held so much innocence, the way he speaks, who he is, his life, his personality, his way of thinking,. something so explainable. 

The whole idea of this story being placed so far away in time. and that the era itself is not something I can experience. The ship that sank, and how it cannot be reversed. And how it cannot be retrieved. Its lost forever in the depths of the ocean. With the people who died inside. The boy himself lost in Atlantic. The fact that the movie itself it 20 years old and Leo doesn’t look the same. ageing, time.

The era it takes place on . the ship, its all gone. Never to return. but it was real.

Its just so out of reach in every way. and its beautifully painful.

My feelings about the fiction and reality is mixed. 

He was there, he was real. he was absolutely wonderful. she met him for like 3 days, travelling across the ocean, endless waters, away from the real world, on a ship that sank. she let his dead body sink into the Atlantic, lost forever. It all happened 84 years ago, during which the world changed a great deal. making her feel time, and change, maybe it all remained like an imagined story in her head. He remains as a memory. no pictures of him, nobody knows of him. only she does. But it was so beautiful for such a short time. and she lived with that haunting her for years. Just with that memory. her heart is lost at sea after all. 

Where is he? Will she meet him again? Will she forget him oneday? Does he even exist anymore? Will this be just lost in time and never to return, like the Titanic herself?

The movie is a masterpiece. it creates strong feelings, such real love. real sorrow, real pain. Leo himself, the plot, the setting, the music, the scenes.

[freesoul-97]

This was truly an amazing movie!  I can relate to Lady Bird on three levels.  1. Catholic school 2. It was an accurate depiction of the love hate relationship between my mom and I.  3. Poor Loved the little town. It was all comical and cute and colourful.  I loved her big dreams and her best friend.  Her character had an iconic look!

[freesoul-97]

THIS IS MY FAVORITE BOOK OF ALL TIME

It all started with chapter 2! Introduction of Anne!

I knew I was going to love her from the moment I read she wanted to sit outside because “there’s no scope for the imagination” inside.

I LOVED HER LIKE MAD from the moment she spoke her first lines saying she wanted to sleep on a tree.

Then this girl becomes extremely dramatic each time she saw something of nature! JUST LIKE ME, WHEN I SEE TREES! Or the moon or the stars!

I related to Anne from the moment she entered the book!

she never stops talking! Again, me! Overactive imagination! ME ME ME!

This girl randomly says how beautiful it is to be alive and how beautiful the world is! Literally ME

She was also trouble maker like me lmao

She is extremely sentimental like me

She was literally everything ECCENTRIC about me!

Story teller again ME

The imagery was insane! IT WAS LIKE A DREAM! The whole setting! The rivers, the trees, the little cottage, the lights from the windows, the stars, the moon, the hollows, the ocean! EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT!

It baffles me how interesting and MAGICAL this book was!

It was published in 1908, I had genuinely expected somewhat of a slow paced book! I didn’t think it would be this DELIGHTFUL at all

I found myself LAUGHING over and over again countless times! This books was so bloody ENTERTAINING !

This book was so ahead of its time! This girl literally went to college and her education was a major priority in this book! Even during a time when women could not even vote!

She became so AMBITIOUS and desired someone who was equally ambitious! ME

The writing over all was insane! It was magnificent!

I kept thinking about the author because damn! Imagine that girl and her mind! Imagine being so full of life with such an imagination and such passion for life! Ambitious and educated! Imagine being a dreamer and a girl during that time! (I said so, because I think she is a lot like Anne herself because there’s no way an ordinary person can write something like this!)

Even the romance was so freaking interesting! Gilbert I mean! I can’t point out one fault in it!

After I’ve spent 21 years reading and watching stories and love stories, one would think it would be so hard to please me with a book that was written over 100 years ago!

BUT INSTEAD IT BECAME MY FAVORITE PIECE OF ART EVER

I kept thinking that I wish I read this book when I was a kid! Or when I was 16! But no! One of the best things about this experience was seeing how similar Anne and I are! And reading this after becoming who I am, makes this similarly more authentic than me growing up after reading this. However I wish I read this at 18 or 19 but 21 isn’t so bad!

[freesoul-97]

OH MY GOD just finished the pilot episode.

I love this so freaking much. Going to love Fiona like mad.

I don’t know how I took 9 years to watch this!

But I started watching it during a time I needed it the most

I’m so fed up of being broke. I’m struggling to keep our household together.

My mom has been talking about quitting her job

Went to get spare parts for a damn fan cause we can’t afford to buy a new one that just costs twice as much as the spare parts (16 dollars)

I am so fed up of having a net minus income when I calculate the expenses

What I love the most is that scene from the restaurant where she tells her new rich boyfriend that he is “unreliable” and the conversation that follows I feel it and I’ve been there multiple times with different people.

When she kissed him at train station I saw her expression and I know her vulnerability and I was just so scared for her that i had to pause.

Yesterday on the final episode of sex education Adams mom said you have to go on loving someone even if you are afraid of losing them and getting hurt cause... that’s what it means to be alive.

That whole rich dude buying her gifts and her reaction to it. Fact that he is spoilt and she is not. That whole dynamic is basically my head 24/7 displayed on a tv screen.

I can’t download season 2 until midnight cause I have downgraded my internet package cause we can’t afford to eat

I feel understood.

[freesoul-97]

I have so much to say. SO MUCH

I recall watching little women 90s movie and loving Jo.

She reminded me of so much of myself

The passionate writer, girl with big ambitions and dreams. Working to achieve them. Not wanting to get married and settle down. When I watched it back then I was so disappointed that she had to get married at the end.

And I found the plot rather bothering.

That was when I was 17.

I watched the remake today!

And it’s incredible. The book was written 1860s and it’s incredible how I can relate to Jo so much! She is basically me in every way!

I loved how full this movie felt. All the emotions. It didn’t feel rushed.

And now I understand, the plot isn’t what makes it great it’s the characters and their emotions and their stories!

The scene where Jo says her temper is ruining things for her. I’ve just had a fight with my boyfriend about it. And I had decided to somehow control it. Because I truly become “savage” and brutal.

The scene where Jo feels so bad about her sister getting married. She seems an end to her freedom. Her childhood. My god this was me. And before that couldn’t have seen Meg’s point of view but now I do.

All the emotions are so complex. Her sister burning her story. And having to forgive her.

Her sister then being the one chosen for Europe trip.

Her sister getting the boy she finally wanted to settle down with.

Also, the emotions Amy felt. What she thinks about Laurie being rich and not hard working but yet loving him like a fool.

Her saying not wanting to be his second best option.

Amy feeling like her art isn’t good enough and she won’t be successful in achieving her dreams. And that frustration and that emotion. I know it.

Laurie dying over Jo and yet somehow finding a different love.

Jo remaining his best friend despite the fact that they broke eachother’s hearts at different occasions.

That rejection scene was so well filmed I can’t believe it.

Meg, the scenes where they are so poor but you could see how much they love eachother. When he says I’m sorry I can’t give you things. And when she says I’m happy because you are my husband. Fuck I can’t.

It’s so good.

Finally, now that I’m 22, madly in love, I see why Jo found love. And got married despite truly believing she wouldn’t. And that shift is everything I’m feeling currently.

I want a huge happy family and a loving husband as much I want my career.

I have realized...having the career alone wouldnt make me happy. I will be empty without that love and affection.

I am so glad I didn’t watch it as soon as it came out cause I have gone through so many emotions that I saw in the movie today and that’s what made it so great.

I feel so young and alive. And normal. And hopeful.

And this was written centuries ago!

How absolutely incredible.