Breathes a life of gathering gloom

//Fandomless indie OC loved by a potato in disguise. Low activity and selective. ‘ History repeats itself, someone says this. ’

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                                            Aviators | Part 1

The Far Side

‘ Where’d you get the notion you’re only human? ’

‘ You know there’s a dark place That will make you something more. ’

‘ I could sell a one-way to absolution. ’

‘ I’ve been living on the far side. ’

‘ I’ve been leaving footprints in your mind. ’

 ‘ Tell me all your secrets. ’ 

 ‘ I could be your key to the afterlife. ’ 

 ‘ Feel the rhythm in my cold heart. ’ 

 ‘ I could make your soul a work of art. ’ 

‘ Walking with the dead makes you feel alive. ’

‘ You’ll abandon your bones, for a desolate home away. ’

‘ I’d like to steal your breath And make you new. ’   

‘ Abandon light inside of you. ’  

‘ Nothing living is ever true. ’

  No One Will Save You

‘ I hear music in the air tonight, one familiar fading tune. ’

‘ Something pulls at my infected soul. ’

‘ I think I remember you. ’

‘ I burned your world away. ’

‘ Devoured by my conviction. ’

‘ I left you home afraid. ’

‘ Soon we’ll be awakened. ’

‘ No one will save you now. ’

‘ I could be your own avenging angel. ’

‘ I have never seen a night this haunting. ’

‘ I can’t hold the beast that crawls through my veins. ’

‘ No confessions left to purify me. ’

‘ Something’s watching from the skies. ’

‘ I can’t save you from the monsters coming. ’

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‘You look familiar’

‘Never seen one like you before’

‘Can you help? I seem to be lost’

‘You look lost’

‘Have we met?’

‘Can I help you?’

‘You dropped this’

‘Are you new around here?’

‘Sorry! Didn’t mean to fall into you’

‘What book are you reading?’

‘Do you have the time?’

‘Hi, please pretend you’re talking to me’

‘Can you hold this?’

‘Think fast!’

‘Get to cover!’

‘Incoming!’

‘Who’s there?’

‘Come out!’

‘I can see you’

‘Are you trying to hide behind me?’

‘Are you hiding from someone?’

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Xia tilted her head to the side as she waited on his response. Her outfit covered nearly all of her, save her head, but a small sliver of her pale neck was exposed in the moonlight. Was it on purpose that she did this? A tantalizing way to test his control? Perhaps she was having too much fun with this than she should have been. 

❝Oh, do not worry, My Nightshade, I have no desire to ask that of you,❞ Xia told him. She truly had no desire to become death, not like he was. The very idea of it sounded abhorrent to her. She didn’t mind others who had the affliction, but she did not want it herself. ❝Immortality sounds… if you’ll forgive me, lonely.❞

Xia let out a small hum before returning to the previous idea of good conversation.  ❝I am glad that you consider this good conversation. It too has been a while since I’ve come across one as enjoyable as this.❞

She let out a small scoff, shaking her head. ❝Absolutely disgusting. I suppose he deserved it then. Not that it would have mattered one way or the other.❞ She shrugged. She cared not for whether someone deserved to die or not. On occasion, she would feel guilt upon taking someone else’s life, but she had since learned not to let it get to her. 

Oh, he noted her neck and how her pale skin looked under the moonlight. A natural place of enthrallment for vampires, but he had always found the wrist to be more inviting when he wasn’t planning on killing his target. There was something more civil in the wrist, and yet just as scandalous. 

“Nothing to forgive. It does have it’s bouts. Though if we are being honest it’s more boring than most give it credit. What does one do after a few hundred years? After fifty? Yet some still seek it and look at me like I am some gift giver.”

The number of young and ignorant necromancers who dared and so rudely made demands of him was staggering. But what did one expect from someone foolish enough to make a demand of a vampire?

“Truly? I act surprised but I am the one who first spoke up about poor conversation, but I gather both our professions do not offer much up in such ways. The small talk of a customer is hardly stimulating and most dead do not talk, or have I pegged you wrong My Deathbell? Your lack of concern for the dead speaks much about you.”

Zachariah stood and offered her a deep bow, hi dark clothing made him look all the more taller and pale, “Where are my manners I’ve been laying here this whole time. A rude old man I am.”

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//Open starter

Highwaymen were always a nuisance, and rather stupid. Never do they seem to pause and wonder if the man walking alone might be a mage; but that seemed to be Skyrim, the Nords only thought true warriors and threats carried metal. Even if they feared magic and what it could do. A dichotomy that the vampire found endlessly amusing until unsavory situations like this arose. 

A tired sigh broke the silence that followed the loud and painful screams of death; music to him, but cacophonous for others he was sure, his hands smoothed his shirt; they had managed to get blood on him, somehow. Zachariah’s upper lip curled at the rudeness the dead inflicted upon him. 

The smell of burnt skin from heavy electrical shock filled the air as static lingered. Pale eyes glanced in the direction of the cargo he was carrying. A busted crate laid in the spot, herbs are all kinds spread across the road, smashed in stepped on by the insolent fools who thought to ambush him.

“It would seem the insult they threw at me was more grave than I thought.” he uttered to himself as he began to see what he could salvage. 

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

[gewitterwolken]

Before the Dawn: Red

[likamartini]

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

Alexander Blok, tr. by Babette Deutsch, from “The Scythians,” written c. 1918

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He nods an unspoken agreement, though he would’ve preferred it if some plays favored recently had been tossed into a bin and left to gather dust instead. “I think I much prefer the joys of a happy ending lately. Futile as they always end up once the curtain begins to close.” With a cautious expression, he turns his head to get a better look at his company for the evening.

A stranger- but nobody that set any alarms off inside the recess of his mind. Something about him did feel off. Not dangerous. But…oddly comforting. Familiar even. Though he couldn’t quite place his finger on what it was.

 Tristan had been cautious since the change. The sickness that inflicted him had been kept a secret like a scar. Masked beneath excuses and the most calculated outings he could manage. He’d learned almost immediately that trust would now be something akin to a perfect diamond in his life. Offered sparingly- and as rarely as he could allocate. 

Meeting curiosity with a shrug of indifference felt like the safest path for him right now. After all, he had no idea who this man was. Or what circles he frequented.

“I was taught not to stare at others since my early years. It is a habit I have not been able to shake off.” Boredom clung to his words as he searched the crowd bellow and found nothing of interest. “I suppose you could not find anyone to accompany you this evening then?”

“A Fleeting feeling joy and hope, that is the purpose of those kinds of tales is it not? To keep hope alive and children innocent.”

Yes, even he enjoyed the joyous ending where the hero remained alive and the evil vanquished. He knew too well the kinds of evil that walked the earth that the reality of how fictitious these plays were weighed heavily on him sometimes. Age kills joy and he was quite old now. 

There was something about this young man, the fresh smell of the earth but the hesitance of being around another. So young, still clinging. Oh how long he wondered he would cling to that humanity and part of him wished him well with the endeavor. 

A game this was turning into if the young blood would recognize what sat beside him. 

“Ah, but to look deeply at one is to pick up on their nuances, the shimmer of what lies behind the mask, don’t you think? Do not fret I am not offended only curious. If I truly wanted I could have found a guest to accompany me, but I thought I would spend this night alone, but then I met the present company.”

[moving-soon]

//Open starter

“I am not with the mages who’ve become power hungry if that is what you are trying to figure out. Though I must give credit where credit is due; the fact you haven’t just outright attacked me speaks volumes on your behalf.”

Zachariah wasn’t sure what the end of the world would look like, but this looked like it was a good scenescape for it. The world on fade fire practically and the true powers that be in the south have all but fallen apart. It was a terrifying time to be alive, more so if you were a mage it seemed or a Templar, even if he didn’t want to give them too much credit or sympathy at the present moment.

“So what is your next move?”

[solitudeprompts]

❝ have you tried mercenary work? ❞ ❝ whatever you need,  just say the word. ❞ ❝ staying safe,  i hope? ❞ ❝ i ain’t done nothin’! ❞ ❝ divines bless your kind heart. ❞ ❝ you look tired,  friend. ❞ ❝ i enjoy this work well enough,  but i’m ready to retire. ❞ ❝ hungry,  tired,  or just plain thirsty? ❞ ❝ my favourite drinkin’ buddy! ❞ ❝ take a good look around,  i’m sure you’ll find what you’re looking for. ❞ ❝ it’s a fine day with you around. ❞ ❝ i’d thank the gods,  but i’ll settle for thanking you. ❞ ❝ disrespect the law,  and you disrespect me. ❞ ❝ you’re that one from the college.  i’ve heard about you. ❞ ❝ i’d be a lot warmer and a lot happier with a belly full of mead. ❞ ❝ i used to be an adventurer like you. ❞ ❝ i took an arrow in the knee. ❞ ❝ may the gods watch over your battles,  friend. ❞ ❝ it’s not true what they say about you and ____,  is it? ❞ ❝ something has shifted in the moons,  sister/brother. ❞ ❝ they left me for dead.  i didn’t leave them. ❞ ❝ so,  you what?  fetch the mead? ❞ ❝ hands to yourself,  sneak thief! ❞ ❝ wait,  i know you! ❞ ❝ it’s so good to see you again. ❞ ❝ i hope this wind dies down a bit before tonight. ❞ ❝ every time i look at you my blood boils. ❞ ❝ i’d travel more,  but who wants to deal with all the soldiers these days? ❞ ❝ i need reliable people around. ❞ ❝ the gods gave you two hands,  and you use them both for your weapon. ❞

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                                       Wolf-at-worlds-end

                                             Heavy is a guilty heart

Indie OC.

Fallout, Modern, Modern Fantasy, Skyrim, Dragon Age, Royal, Single Parent (a everyone friendly Dream Daddy au)

Selective. Low-activity

OC friendly.

Crossover friendly.

Please read Rules and About, as well as Verses before following.

[solitudeprompts]

❝ have you tried mercenary work? ❞ ❝ whatever you need,  just say the word. ❞ ❝ staying safe,  i hope? ❞ ❝ i ain’t done nothin’! ❞ ❝ divines bless your kind heart. ❞ ❝ you look tired,  friend. ❞ ❝ i enjoy this work well enough,  but i’m ready to retire. ❞ ❝ hungry,  tired,  or just plain thirsty? ❞ ❝ my favourite drinkin’ buddy! ❞ ❝ take a good look around,  i’m sure you’ll find what you’re looking for. ❞ ❝ it’s a fine day with you around. ❞ ❝ i’d thank the gods,  but i’ll settle for thanking you. ❞ ❝ disrespect the law,  and you disrespect me. ❞ ❝ you’re that one from the college.  i’ve heard about you. ❞ ❝ i’d be a lot warmer and a lot happier with a belly full of mead. ❞ ❝ i used to be an adventurer like you. ❞ ❝ i took an arrow in the knee. ❞ ❝ may the gods watch over your battles,  friend. ❞ ❝ it’s not true what they say about you and ____,  is it? ❞ ❝ something has shifted in the moons,  sister/brother. ❞ ❝ they left me for dead.  i didn’t leave them. ❞ ❝ so,  you what?  fetch the mead? ❞ ❝ hands to yourself,  sneak thief! ❞ ❝ wait,  i know you! ❞ ❝ it’s so good to see you again. ❞ ❝ i hope this wind dies down a bit before tonight. ❞ ❝ every time i look at you my blood boils. ❞ ❝ i’d travel more,  but who wants to deal with all the soldiers these days? ❞ ❝ i need reliable people around. ❞ ❝ the gods gave you two hands,  and you use them both for your weapon. ❞

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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I will guide thy hand.

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[moving-soon]

//Starter Call

//Like this and I will write up a small starter in an appropriate verse.