4am knows all my secrets

Life is but a dream. One day you wake up and it is all gone, and you have nothing. Live while you can. Have no regrets. And seize every moment before it passes you by.

[mr4am]

I'm not really an alcoholic. I just like to have 1 or 2 or so bottles of wine, you know, when I remember I don't really have any friends and am destined to be alone forever.

[mr4am]

All I want is my happily ever after, why is that so fucking much to ask for?

[mr4am]

There is not much more lonely of a feeling than realising you don't have an emotional support system.

[mr4am]

You and the universe have made it clear now is not the time. Maybe our paths will cross somewhere in the future and things can be different. I'll just have to leave it in the hands of fate.

[mr4am]

I don't want to be anywhere i’m not wanted. But that doesn't make it hurt any damn less.

[studentlifeproblems]

[mr4am]

It's exhausting to always feel like a guest appearance in people's lives.

[popsgod]

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[glitterweave]

[homietwt]

[mr4am]

As we come to the end of the year, the end of the decade, and the end of my roarin’ 20s, it seems like a natural time to reflect.  A lot has changed in the last 10 years. I have changed a lot in the last 10 years.  I have grown a lot, but still have a lot more growing to do.  I have become more open about who I am, and I am proud of that.  Life is too short to spend living a lie.

I haven’t accomplished a lot of things I wanted, but I have done a lot of things I never thought I would.  I’ve come into my own as an adventurer and traveler, and I want to do so much more.  I have been places I thought I would only dream of, and experienced things I would have never imagined.  Met some extraordinary people along the way, and lost track of a lot of people I wish I hadn’t. A few, I will always miss.  I wish I would have spent less time trying to hold on to people that had already let go, and more time just trying to hold on to myself.  It definitely has not been easy.  I have lost many battles, some that almost cost me the war, but I survived.  I am still here, fighting every day, for and against myself.  Sometimes surviving is the greatest victory.  

So as I move into this new decade, I want to try harder.  I want to keep growing into the person I can be.  To see more of the world.  Try to learn to love more unconditionally, others and myself.  And try to live more freely.  This stage of my life is now over, so on to the next one.  Here is to new beginnings!  

[nyctaeus]

Dana Wsye, ‘Pills & Remedies’, from the series ‘Jesus Had A Sister Productions’, 1996-2003

Canadian artist creates fictitious pharmaceutical company that uses 60′s retro and kitsch imagery to sell cures and remedies that aim to dissect our utopic quest for perfection.  

[mr4am]

I still love you, and I hate myself for it.

[mxnrique]

this. this is the gay representation i deserve.

[veryfunnymemes]

[gangler]

Barnes and Nobles is gonna start serving food and alcohol.

Everybody’s cracking jokes about how it’s a desperate attempt to stay relevant in the age of Amazon.

But you know what? Props to them. This is exactly what Blockbuster didn’t do. At no point was Blockbuster like “Hey, movie rentals aren’t the lucrative enterprise they once were. Perhaps it’s time we become known for our cheesy garlic bread.”

[mackasaurussex]

Okay but…if someone wants to take me on a date to a Barnes and noble and get me dinner and a drink and then let me peruse the stacks like I’m not saying no. A sandwich, a beer, and 2-5 books on various topics I hope I’ll someday read about? Good night.

[silvysartfulness]

The Swedish equivalent of Blockbuster is now best known for its candy, snacks and sodas.

[thestraggletag]

This is El Ateneo Grand Splendid, an old theatre turned bookstore in Buenos Aires:

The stage itself was turned into a cafe:

You can’t even begin to comprehend the massive amounts of money this place makes, despite the fact that they turned the theatre boxes into reading nooks like this:

I’ve literally spent days holed up in there reading books for free while also consuming massive amounts of coffee and pastries.

Adapt or die, people.

[frayedcobweb]

Take me to Buenos freaking Aires… Leave me in this bookshop… Never look for me, you will not find me again.

[mr4am]

The walls are closing in. My head is spinning and my vision is starting to get blurry. The voices are creeping in. They are getting closer, louder, screaming almost. They are getting closer, I can almost see them, the demons. I can feel them. This might be it. This might be the time they finally get me.

[mr4am]

We are playing with fire.  Falling for you is a bad idea, because falling for me is dangerous.  I am toxic.  I will destroy you.  I don’t want to, but it is inevitable.  I don’t think I can stop it, and I know I don’t want to.  Holding you in my arms, not wanting to let go.  Tasting your lips hours later.  Caressing your skin.  It all just feels so right, but so wrong.  I’m staying up well after I should have gone to bed, just to talk to you.  I'm thinking about you as I fall asleep, and I wake up wanting to text you.  God, this is such a bad idea.  But I love it.