moving along

octavius nate calhoun. never call me octavius. dyslexic. nineteen. fashion design.

[connorhemlock]

That guy left these for you.. again. Why don’t you like him? If he leaves another pair of Pumas I swear I might date him for you.

[mrnatecalhoun]

Go for it.

[carterstephenhollis]

I know you’re home Nate….. I have something for you just open the door.

[mrnatecalhoun]

What the fuck do you want?

[carterstephenhollis]

Pretend all you want Nate but I’m going to put this back on your finger someday. And when I do don’t get mad when I say I told you so. I love you, I miss you and I always will. If you ever wanna talk… you know how to find me.

[mrnatecalhoun]

Don’t hold your breath.

[carterstephenhollis]

You stubborn little shit I know you can’t look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t fucking miss me. I love you too much to play this game, Octavius. I can’t fucking be happy without you in my life it’s like part of me is missing. I saw you last week at Starbucks when you pretended not to see me and I know you had my hoodie on and you had on the fucking promise ring I gave you before we graduated. I know you miss me too goddammit  just forgive me for being stupid.

[mrnatecalhoun]

Fine. Here.

[carterstephenhollis]

You are the most important person in my life… I didn’t want to disappoint you and- and I couldn’t face you when I realized I’d have to leave Massachusetts.

[mrnatecalhoun]

Too late.

[carterstephenhollis]

I know… I shouldn’t have.. I was ashamed I don’t know. I’m sorry.

[mrnatecalhoun]

We were best friends.

[carterstephenhollis]

Do I really have to keep saying it? It was hard enough the first time bab- Nate.

[mrnatecalhoun]

You lied to me.

[carterstephenhollis]

They rejected me… So it wasn’t an option.

[mrnatecalhoun]

What?

[carterstephenhollis]

Nate…I didn’t get in to Harvard.

[mrnatecalhoun]

What?

[carterstephenhollis]

I promise. I never wanted to hurt you Nate.

[mrnatecalhoun]

No, Carter, you promised to stay in Boston. You promised you’d never leave me, and you promised we’d be together. But you left. You left your dream school, and don’t try and lie to me that Carnegie Mellon was your dream school. You and Ryan wanted to go to Harvard, because no one in your family has gone. You broke your promise.

[carterstephenhollis]

I know… And I should have fucking talked to you about it and I will always regret that but… I just wanted to go to one of my dream schools I- I thought if I brought it up to you.. that I would’ve stayed here for you.. and not go where I wanted. I’m sorry.

[mrnatecalhoun]

Liar.

[carterstephenhollis]

All I did was go to a different school…. I never wanted it to end up like this.. I never stopped loving you. Fuck Nate how long are you going to hate me for this?

[mrnatecalhoun]

You promised.

[carterstephenhollis]

It’s better than coming back and pretending like we mean nothing to each other…

[mrnatecalhoun]

You already did that.

[noellecalhoun]

Hey… I love you baby brother.

[mrnatecalhoun]

Oh.

[carterstephenhollis]

Nate….come on…

[mrnatecalhoun]

No. You don’t get to come back and make everything better.

[noellecalhoun]

It means a lot that you understand…. but I know I still had no excuse for what I did…. I’m so sorry.

[mrnatecalhoun]

I-I know that now.

[carterstephenhollis]

Nate… don’t be like that. I know you feel the same way….I know you do.

[mrnatecalhoun]

You don’t know anything.