missus naddy

late-night brain static ✿

[mrsnaddy]

Learn to be your own comfort, your own motivation, and your own peace. Because in the end, the strength you build within yourself is the one thing no one can take away from you.

[mrsnaddy]

As you grow old, you'll realize the only person who can truly save you is yourself. Fight alone, heal alone, grow alone. People may walk beside you for a while, but not everyone stays when life becomes heavy.

[mrsnaddy]

Saw my friends today. I wanted to spend more time with them, but sadly, we all had our own things to do. Well, they did. I didn’t.

I went home and drove my car, and one friend came with me. The original plan was for her to get off at the mall and head home from there. While driving, I kept thinking about whether I should invite her to lunch or not. I hesitated for a while before finally asking.

She said no.

She told me she had something to do, and I just smiled and acted like it was okay. But deep inside, I couldn’t stop thinking: if it were another friend from our circle who invited her, would she have said yes? Maybe she just didn’t want to spend more time with me.

Then later that same day, I found out they were going to work together, and again, no one invited me or even asked if I wanted to join. It’s already happened twice.

And now I can’t help but think that maybe they really just don’t want me around. Maybe I’m not anyone’s favorite after all.

[mrsnaddy]

Have you ever been in a friendship where you no longer feel happy? You rarely see each other, and when you do, it leaves you emotionally drained afterward. Yes, we laugh together, but deep inside, I still feel like I don’t truly belong. It made me realize that maybe I’m just someone who fills a space in the circle, not someone who genuinely matters to them. And honestly, that realization hurts a lot.

[remanence-of-love]

[mrsnaddy]

It sucks when you want people to be there for you or make you a priority, but they just don’t. And then you start questioning everything—like, did I do something wrong? Is it me? You try so hard to please them, but in the end, you're the one left feeling alone.

[mrsnaddy]

[mrsnaddy]

Hongkong Disneyland, 2018.

[mrsnaddy]

Grouse Mountain, 2018.

[mrsnaddy]

Stonehenge — listed as a Unesco World Heritage Site. Circa 2016