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it's not just what i feel for you. it's what i do not feel for anyone but you

[youadans-reverie]

I woke up at 3am again and thought about going to the store and picking up some glue to piece myself back together long enough to tell you that happiness is temporary but so is this pain.

And sunsets are pretty so stay here long enough and I'll show you the sky as it bleeds love just because it can.

And I'll ask you to stay just because you can.

youadan teddy // stay a little longer, let me peel you an orange one more time, always one more time

[mrspotato-head]

This version tho🤯🥵

[sugarslayer]

Flower market in Bangkok, Thailand

[neckkiss]

Tumblr, you are funny..

[mrspotato-head]

Tell my dad and my bestfriend i miss them

[oliviamobbs]

[dankmemeuniversity]

[thepersonalquotes]

[mrspotato-head]

💜

[pendongenghujan]

Aku punya lemari.

Yang di dalamnya bertumpuk-tumpuk kenangan silih berganti akan kukenakan dan kenangkan,

yang hingga kotor, baru akan aku gilas dalam mesin cuci yang memutar bersih kenangan itu,

lalu menjemurnya agar segala beban setelahnya diangkat oleh sayup terik mentari dan kulipat kembali dalam lemari.

Menanti dipakaikan kembali.

Sumbawa, 21 Oktober 2020

[mrspotato-head]

This is dedicated to my best friend Susi Junia Wati 🖤

Su, Thankyou you for loving me unconditionally. For praying with me. For pushing me. For being my best friend. For making the standard for other friends crazy high. And for making my life better. You mean more to me than you would ever know. Walaupun kita sering berantem bahkan cuma perkara gue pulang naik ojek, gue cabut kuliah, kita jarang ketemu aja bisa berantem 🥺 tp berantemnya gak lama 🥺 pokonya no matter how far we drifted away from each other, we will find our way back to each other.

We’ve been best friends for 12 years now and been through a lot together. Now I look back and I just appreciate all the times that we had together. You’ve never left my thoughts since the day you went away bcs u have a special place in my heart which will be never replaced by anyone.

Bener kata Dea, Dini, Uci kalo gada kata yang bisa nenangin kita sekarang karena emang kita semua belum bisa sekuat itu Su. Malem sebelum lu pergi, lu kirim VoiceNote ke gue bilang kalo lu baik-baik aja dan cuma minta doa terus pamit mau bobo 🥺 kalo gue lagi inget lu, gue selalu puter ulang VNnya biar gue sadar kalo lu sekarang udah baik-baik aja jadi gue bakal berenti sedihnya.

Sekarang udah gada deh yang makan bawang goreng sama sawi gue kalo makan ditendaoren, gada yang bikinin gue kue ulangtahun, gada lagi yang BMnya sebanyak elu, gada lagi nyamuk selain gue dicircle pertemanan kita 😭 sendirian deh gue jadi nyamuk 😭😂 gada lagi temen kuliner gue yg pipinya kaya kue b’pauw, gada yg ketawanya ngeselin tp ngangenin, gada yg beli asinan buat gue, gada yg ngajak gue ke Mpo lagi🥺 Mpo jg pasti sedi pelanggan setianya udah jadi bidadari 🥺

Rest in peace my best friend, my ride or die, my other half. Till we meet again. Semoga Allah SWT sediain tempat terbaik-Nya ya.

Anw su, makasi ya su udah pinjemin gue cincin lu ini hehe kata lu biar keliatan udah ada yang ngelamar 😂 kalo ketemu bokap gue salam ya, tapi jangan bilang macem-macem 😠😂

I love you Su 🖤

[alvisyhrn]

jangan bunuh diri.

Rasanya, semua buntu, ya? Dan, sekarang, kamu merasa jadi seperti seonggok beban tak berguna yang terus terluka, kan?

As cliché as it sounds, please, bertahan. Kalau kamu nggak mampu lagi bertahan untuk dirimu sendiri, at least, bertahan untuk Allah,

yang telah menciptakanmu penuh hikmah, memberimu privilege hidup; yang masih setia memberimu oksigen bahkan di saat kamu sedang lupa kepada-Nya; dan…

yang menghendakimu agar membaca tulisan ini.

Bukankah ini juga tanda yang kamu cari-cari? Doesn’t it mean you still matter?

Insyaallah, nanti, di waktu yang tepat, Allah akan menganugerahimu kematian yang tenang nan indah, sebab…

Di hari-hari yang susah untuk bertahan ini, kamu tetap bertahan untuk Allah, menjaga dirimu dari menyakiti diri sendiri, menjauhi dirimu dari jalan-jalan yang salah. Sungguh, Allah menyaksikan usahamu.

Dan, surga mahal harganya, mungkin, rasa sakit ini adalah tabungannya.

Now, please reach out. And, keep praying and hoping and fighting and struggling and waiting, sampai kematian yang baik datang sesuai waktunya.

- Alvi Syahrin, @alvisyhrn, 2/7/2020, alvisyahrin.com

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Please share this. Kita nggak tahu siapa di antara teman kita yang lagi feeling suicidal today. Mungkin, tulisan ini akan membantu mereka… or, maybe you.

[mbeeer]

“Setelah sedekat itu. Setelah banyak hari berdua dilalui bersama. Tiba-tiba kau menghilang. Sekecil itukah aku di kepalamu?”

— (via mbeeer)

[mbeeer]

“Meski sudah jelas aku kau tinggalkan pergi, aku masih sama sekali tidak mengerti kenapa aku tidak bisa melangkah lebih jauh dari ini?”

— (via mbeeer)

[go-anonymously-yours-blr]

dear best friend,

if you’re going to leave, just tell me.

if you’re going to pretend like we never met…like we never were friends, just tell me.

tell me so i’m not chasing you.

tell me so i’m not trying to keep something that you’ve just thrown away.

tell me so i don’t waste anymore energy on you, when you don’t even try.

tell me so i don’t hold on to something that was never really there.

tell me so i don’t cry at night, thinking you don’t like me anymore.

tell me so i know you don’t like me anymore.

tell me so i don’t keep your things around.

tell me so i can box them up and hide them until the day you come back…if you ever do.

tell me so i can give up, too.

-ophelia a.h.

[thelifeivegot]

I miss talking to you, I miss our late night conversations, FaceTiming til 3 in the morning. I miss you being there when I was down and telling you everything that was going on in my life. I miss you being the first person I called when I had good news, and the person that I could talk to about anything. I miss being there for you at midnight when your parents hurt you again. I miss being the first person you wanted to talk to, the first person you shared things with, besides your boyfriend. I freaking miss being a complete weirdo with you. But I don’t miss our fights. I don’t miss your double standards. I don’t miss you telling me that I was being unrealistic by expecting you to act like a true friend, by looking for the very minimum requirements of a friendship from you, things that you said you would give me but never did. I don’t miss the one sidedness and you shutting me out instead of working through things. I don’t miss you expecting me to be there every single time you needed me but telling me I was asking for to much when I looked for the same from you. I don’t miss you, I miss what you meant to me. I miss having a best friend, and I miss the future that we’ll never have. F you for breaking my heart and destroying my trust. I will get over you, but I will never be the same. You made me who I am and I hate that you will always be a part of me, because that means part of me will always love you, because I love who I am. But I don’t love what you’ve done and I don’t love the person you are. I love who you were to me. I love the person that I thought I knew, but maybe I never did. You were never mine and honestly I’m glad you left, because now I am my own and no one can ever take that away from me. So goodbye, I don’t love you anymore. And I hope I remember this if you ever decide to try and come back...

To my ex best friend. I wrote this a while ago, I’m finally getting over her now. I just hope I remember this if she ever tried to come back…

[ibnufir]

Ada hari-hari di mana kamu merasa sangat hampa, merasa sia-sia begitu saja, dan kamu tidak bisa menjelaskan apa yang sebetulnya sedang terjadi.

Kamu pun bertanya-tanya pada dirimu sendiri "Aku ini kenapa, apa yang harus aku lakukan?"

Rasanya semua begitu melelahkan, membuatmu stres, hingga kamu sulit sekali untuk mengendalikan emosimu.

Pekerjaanmu, tugas-tugasmu, semuanya menjadi berantakan. Bahkan hubunganmu dengan kehidupan sosial menjadi kurang harmonis.

Meski mungkin jauh di lubuk hati terdalammu, kamu sebenarnya menyesal karena tidak bisa memperbaiki masa lalumu.

Kamu sudah sangat bosan dengan rasa bersalahmu. Dan barangkali mungkin memang sudah tidak banyak yang bisa kamu lakukan sekarang.

Kamu hanya bisa bertahan dengan semua perasaan yang membuatmu tidak nyaman.

Tetapi sadarilah bahwa setiap orang pernah bersalah. Setiap orang pernah terluka dan menanggung kesedihan.

Sungguh itu tidak apa-apa. Dirimu tetaplah berharga, bagaimanapun keadaan yang menimpamu.

—ibnufir

[bryantmcgill]

People will disrespect you, lie to you, use you, and break your heart, but no one will ever hurt you more than love and time can heal. — Bryant McGill

[mrspotato-head]

Hi