Not-so-helpful Reminder
This has been sitting in my drafts for more than I week. I wasn't planning on publishing it, but then I realized that as a draft it kept me in my comfort zone.
I logged into Facebook over the weekend and got one of those “On This Day” notifications. Probably the worst one I’ve ever gotten. The notification at the top of the page reminded me that 6 years ago on November 18 I became friends with Delmy. As one would expect I sobbed. Not cried.
I don’t cry anymore. My sadness comes out loud with open-mouthed, snot-filled crying. At least that’s how I cry when it has to do with her.
I knew that would eventually pop up in my notifications. I just had no idea when, or if Facebook would even remind me. I don’t know why I thought that. Facebook forced me to recall all the posts she tagged me in, the photos we took together, and the comments I left on her posts. Some of them made me laugh and some of them made me cry –just, cry. This one made me weep.
Fun fact: on that day last year I went to the barber shop and shaved my head so she wouldn’t be bald alone. Facebook doesn’t know that. I didn’t document the smile she had on her face as she took off her beanie and exclaimed, “we’re twins!” I don’t need an “On This Day” reminder for that.
As upsetting as that November 18 notification was, I do like the random reminders once I’ve wiped away any tears they’ve caused.
